Fuck… fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckity fuckFUCK MANNNN! ! ! ! (Please help me Tumblr fam….)
What the actual fuck yall?! I need guidance, advice, and that memory eraser from Men In Black..
Ok so check it…. I gotta leave this girl be for good and I don’t know how. Can someone help me. Like seriously. I actually think I need a memory/love transplant or something..
Have y'all ever been that in love with someone? Not a stalker love. But just a love that’s not going away. AT ALL!!! We’ve been broken up since I was like 19? I think.. I’m 25 going in 26 now… That’s 6 going on 7 whole years… What’s crazier is I’ve dated other young ladies and truly loved and been in love with them. I genuinely cared for them and they were aware of the place she held in my life at one point…But fuck….this one here. This fucking Goddess. A young lady I called Tese, Tesey-Pooh, Ms Green ect.. at one point…I can’t stop thinking about her… I’ve been stuck on this gorgeous ginger since the 8th fucking grade. Ive literally thought about her existence and well-being everyday since then.
We split because ultimately I fucked up. I shouldn’t have risked our friendship by dating her. But I was selfish. I had to have her as close as possible and i had her too close… She knew me better than anyone else. Probably still does, who knows…She could effortlessly take my breath away with her smile while still keeping me alive with her eyes… But I felt as though I fucked it up beyond return..
I’m too the point now where I am honestly starting to feel bitchmade on my end though. After 3 attempts to really reach out and just apologize for everything that transpired, check on her ect. I haven’t really gotten much of a response. And mind you it wasn’t back to back. I spread it out over the past few years. Of course she’s not obligated to actually write me back. And I’m not trying to get her back. I just want to say to her that I love her and I’m sorry. I thought I’ve had closure so many times and I end up right back get… It’s slightly pathetic..
Maybe I’m being selfish for reaching out so much just to tell her something she may be aware of despite the lack of confirmation from her?! Trust I know sorry isn’t enough but i can’t do too much more without catching a case. Idk what to do. She makes me melt still when I see old and new photos of her. Again I’m not being a creep, I swear. Lol. Im slightly happy don’t/can’t even look at her pics often because a nigga gets all mushy and my eyes get all leaky everytime i have…
I ain’t no bitch about any of my other exes, but I am blue about this beautiful woman. She really deserves the best man God has to offer. And Im probably not that guy even though I wouldn’t a second chance to be at all. I just hope one day I get the chance to at most, hug her, and at the least have her reply saying something more than a few words if that.
It’d be one thing if she never said anything. But she’ll unknowingly give a ninja a sliver of hope when she sends back those 4 to 5 word replies a few days later. I told her my last (3rd) message I sent was the last and I found some old posts from when we dated to kinda symbolize me letting go of expecting a response or anything at all….
I’m just wondering how the fuck did y'all actually get over shit like this??!? Because I don’t know what the fuck it is but something is saying hold on, even though I’m sure this girl is probably married or something by now…
Please tell me what would y'all do??? I need real replies please… Inbox me or something.
Annnnnd GO!!!
And yes, I said fuck a lot… Sue me!!
