Tell us more about the ex-athlete thing…
I’ve explained before, but it has been awhile so here goes! In more detail than usual, too, with lots of pictures. 💗
I grew up in a very health-oriented family.
Food was always a big deal growing up. My parents were very particular about the food we would bring home.
I was involved in sports for as long as I can remember - first basketball, then soccer, then swimming. From 9 to 18, I swam competitively and was competing on a national level by the time I was 13.
When I started college, I was hovering around ~120 lbs. Just a tiny little thing.
I’m only 5’1 so my build is already fairly small. Back then, I was the smallest girl on the swim team. Looking back, it feels so obvious.
It wasn’t until after I was 18 that my relationship with my body + my weight began to change for better. Part of it was because I couldn’t help myself! I hadn’t ever gotten to explore fast food menus or the different pop tart flavors or even soda! 🍕🍔🌮🍟🌭
I didn’t realize there was such a big community for this kink, or really even understand the nuances of the kink at the time, but I felt so empowered and beautiful with the weight I put on in college.
Sometimes I was afraid I was ruining my body or that I would regret letting myself go, but it was my disordered mind and old habits initially keeping me from finding peace in my newfound hedonism.
The more I grew, the more obvious it became that I thoroughly enjoyed the changes. And the more I grew to love when other people admired my body, something I had been incredibly shy about in the past!
Now, I’m about ~100 pounds heavier than I was at 18. I look almost unrecognizable.
I was supposed to compete in a swim meet this month (invited as a little reunion by my old coach) and ended up deciding that there was no way I could curb my cravings and motivate myself to start training for competition the last few months. I almost didn’t want to believe it, but I’m really too addicted to stuffing + gaining!! I considered showing up fatter than ever, rolls spilling out of a too-tight swimsuit, but that’s just a fantasy. ;)
Thanks for asking, love 🌸
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