Jenn|199x

diary of me

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i love afternoons

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i made someone hella mad at me.

He was kind, he has sharp and pretty eyes, he has broad shoulders that when he hugs you, you have this feeling of comfort and protection, he used to stare at me, and when I caught him and I ask why, he would just tell me that I am pretty.

I never asked for it but he sends random food to me.

He’s adventurous even asked me to go on the beach during pandemic and while quarantine is not lifted yet, it was fun.

He gave me flowers on valentines day, I am mad at him that moment so he was crying why handing me the red rose. I would never forget that. I felt sad, but I realized that this man truly loves me.

He made surprises, I never thought I’d experience. One time, I came over to his place, there are plenty of tiny hearts hanging on his ceiling with taylor swifts lyrics posted on the walls, lol. I never posted anything on my socmed but It was so sweet, I am so happy.

He even gave me a promise ring and I will treasure it forever.

He’s with me everytime I needed him.

I made unforgivable mistakes, he chose to understand it but he gave up eventually. All my fault, no one’s to blame, it’s on me. I’m the one who break us down.

Just want to say, that I’m truly sorry or and if we never meet or talk again, remember that I loved you.

✨abm

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I hope we will heal from things we don’t tell anyone.

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An afternoon I want to remember for the rest of my life

I’m working night shift on my shitty job and my company is planning for a year end party presentation, so I need to pull my shit together earlier than the usual time.

I get up from my bed, it was 3:30 pm, preparing clothes that I will wear. Getting ready to take a bath.

After coming back from a quick shower, I glanced at the window. I hang myself in a moment staring outside the window. The view isn’t nice cause it was just a roof of the neighbors and few giant trees. I don’t know, i was just stuck in a moment and I love it. I was there, just standing, staring outside the window, cold december breeze is swirling the trees, and it’s passing inside our window panes. I can feel the air. The sky is not so light or dark, it’s in between. I’m loving how perfect that moment is.

I hope we can stop time so we can treasure such moments.

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i’m not good in writing, i’m not good in converting my emotions into words. i’m just writing down sone random stuff i experienced, sitting in my head and stuff i want to remember. btw, hi taylor! i love you.

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After I graduated from college and start working at the age of 19, I truly believed in myself, my capability of doing things and everything. And got a job in an institution never in my wildest dreams i will work in someday. I was happy and blessed because of the salary grade.

Time passed, most people working there are quite toxic, manipulative, in short, a walking stressor. I was burned out, stressed, tired and sicked. It costs my sanity working there.

They will punch you right in the face with their narrative that you are nothing but an incompetent useless person and they don’t need you. I was just lucky I have a few friends, who understands me. They went through the same hell.

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It is when your chest is burning in searing pain

Darkness become your

easing place, and

Rain become your

fucking tears.

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in conclusion, i love taylor swift

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I’m always gonna wanna go the extra mile for them, because I can’t believe the extra thousand miles they’ve gone for me.

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TAYLOOOOOR!! DID WE GET IT RIGHT? OMG! I THINK I MIGHT BE GONE MAD HERE! @taylorswift @taylornation

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I’m sorry babe i had to! Hahahaha! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH @taylorswift

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THIS IS ME HIHIHI OHHH OHHH OHHH!!! OMYGOSH! I promise that you'll never find another like 😭😭😭😭😭 I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE ENTIRE ALBUM!!! @taylorswift @taylornation

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Well this is AWESOME. Thank you Time 💗Thank you Pari Dukovic and thank you for your unbelievably kind words Shawn Mendes (I had no idea you were writing this and just found out when I saw this!!)

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I love you!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

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Fangirling over this beaut for a decade now. I am just so proud she made it. I am literally crying rainbow rn. I love you so much, @taylorswift @taylornation

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ITS HAPPENING

ITS HAPPENING

ITS HAPPENING

ITS HAPPENING

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I AM SHAKING!!!! OMG!!!!! GET READY FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER SWIFTIES!!!!!’ @taylornation @taylorswift