❛❛A Doll Needs Her Makeup Artist❜❜ | CHAPTER 3: Wrong End of the Stick
ᯓ★ Masterlist // Chapter 2
Status: Ongoing
Word Count: 3.1K
Summary: Ragatha receives a gift from Caine after The Awards Show: a makeup set. Instead of applying the cosmetics herself, she asks Pomni to do it for her.
As they grow close, they discover something else developing between them beyond just a mere friendship.
Tags: Pomni/Ragatha, WLW, GL, Fluff, Bisexual Pomni, Lesbian Ragatha, Girls Kissing, Post-Episode: s01e06 They All Get Guns
Somewhere around the middle of the night, occasional banging can be heard from outside—the sounds faint yet aggressive. Pomni is the first to wake up to this, now unable to go back to sleep due to her curiosity. She decides to get up, leaving the comfort of her cozy, dim room.
As she peeks outside, she notices the sounds coming from Jax’s room; the sound of banging and objects crashing happens simultaneously. Pomni grows concerned and cautiously walks towards his front door. Despite being on awkward terms, it’s in her good nature to check up on him.
She knocks on the door thrice, and the noise suddenly stops.
It’s quiet.
“Jax?” Pomni calls out. “Uhm. Is everything okay in there?”
No response.
This isn’t just something I can ignore. Pomni thinks, trusting the horrible feeling churning in her gut.
She hesitantly twists the doorknob halfway to check if it’s locked, and to her surprise, it isn’t.
I’ve never been in his room before. Should I really do this? But it feels like the right thing to do.
“I’m coming in to check in on you, okay?”
As she opens the door, the sight before her instantly makes her skin crawl.
There she stood before his dark, cluttered room. Items that are supposed to sit on tables are scattered on the floor, and shards of glass from broken whiskey bottles are seen on the ground. And what appears to be streaks of rainbow-like light is coming from . . . Jax himself.
Upon her unfortunate discovery, half of Jax’s right arm is already abstracted.
He’s sitting down, curled into a ball with his face buried in his knees. He rocks back and forth with restlessness, his back heaving up and down from struggling to catch a breath. Each of the eyes on his arm blink on their own, frantically looking everywhere which adds to the disturbing scenery.
“Jax!” Pomni immediately rushes to sit across him on the bed.
Feeling her hand grab his unaffected arm, Jax is quick to push her away.
“Don’t touch me!” he yells defensively.
Tears stream endlessly down his cheeks, his constricted pupils quivering. Immediately after locking eyes with Pomni while wearing a pained and confused expression on his face, breathing through his mouth becomes even more of a struggle, and he quickly hides himself under his blanket with shame.
“Hey, hey. It’s just me, Jax.” Pomni reassures, approaching him while trying her best not to panic.
What to do? What to do?! Pomni thinks, feeling pressured. Although being abstracted is already a sealed fate, she feels as if Jax’s life is in her hands.
“I’ll just call out for Caine really quick, yeah?”
“Don’t.” His voice struggles between each breath. “It’s useless. He’ll just dump me in the cellar. Look at me, Pomni! I’m already a dead man walking.”
She slowly pulls the blanket off, revealing Jax hyperventilating while covering his face with his arms. She moves his unaffected arm away. He looks up at her—the torn, hopeless look on his face begging for help.
“Just deep breaths, okay?” She guides him through doing so. “Inhale.” She takes a deep breath through her non-visible nose, mentally counting to three before finally releasing through her mouth. “Then slowly, exhale.” She repeats the same counting process for this as well.
Jax is aware that deep down there’s no more saving him now, but he does what Pomni says anyway. It brings him a sense of safety and comfort knowing that his final moment isn’t being spent alone.
“Why?” he asks, his breathing gradually coming back at a normal pace. “Why are you here, helping me?” He inhales deeply. “Aren’t you supposed to hate me?”
“Because of what happened?“ Pomni replies with a hint of sadness in her voice. “Is that what this is about? If it’s because of our fight that made you end up like this, then I’m so sorry, Jax.” Her voice cracks a bit once tears start welling in her eyes. “It’s my fault you’re like this . . . I am so sorry,” she says in a whisper.
She embraces him, allowing her tears to fall. Jax quietly hugs her back with his safe arm.
“But do you hate me?” Jax asks. “I know I keep making things difficult. It’s just . . . everything in my head makes it so difficult to even understand myself. I don’t know why I’m like this. I don’t deserve to be cared for after everything I’ve done, so what the hell are you doing here?”
“Just stop it already!” She buries her face on his shoulder. “I don’t hate you, Jax. Whatever unresolved problems you had going on in your head, you could’ve just talked to me about it. What kind of friend would I be if I can’t even be there for you at your worst? Why . . . Why did it have to be like this?”
He gives her back a squeeze, relieved after hearing her words lift the guilty weight off his shoulders.
“So you really don’t hate me after all, huh?” he says. “Thank goodness.”
His breathing relaxes, and he closes his eyes. He’s beyond grateful to die in the arms of a genuine friend, already accepting his fate.
A bright white light shines from Jax’s abstracted body parts, illuminating the entire room. He tightly hugs his friend, letting the tears freely roll down his cheeks. Just as he finally realizes what it truly means to find value living in the circus, all he’s left with is the regret of taking things for granted. Why is it that the only time people ever value something is when it’s finally out of their grasp? Does something of high value have to be gone in order to realize it was worth appreciating? Truly, the human mind is odd sometimes.
Suddenly, the light comes to a stop. No longer sensing its brightness, Jax opens his eyes and looks down at his right arm and hand.
This is . . . different.
Somehow, the presence of abstraction is no longer present, and it’s back to the slim and purple appearance it always has been.
Jax grabs Pomni’s shoulders, showing her his right arm back to normal. “Pomni, look!”
“No!” She hitches back a sob, rubbing her eyes shut as they brim with tears. “I don’t wanna see you go!”
“Pomni, I’m being serious right now. Look!” he says with urgency while shaking her shoulders.
Pomni sniffles and wipes off her tears. She opens her eyes, and upon staring at his unscathed arm, her expression immediately changes, looking at him in disbelief.
“Your— H-How?”
“I don’t know either. But at least I’m—”
Jax is taken aback by Pomni pulling him into a tight embrace once more.
“You’re alive . . . Oh, thank god! You’re alive!”
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Ragatha wakes up.
She stretches under the covers, shuffling her position sideways. Just as she’s about to drift back to sleep, the noise outside keeps her awake, her only eye snapping open.
Gangle and Zooble being so chatty at this hour? That’s new.
The muffled voices don't seem to be coming to a stop, and not even a pillow over her head can cancel out the noise. Growing irritated to have her sleep disrupted, Ragatha slowly gets up from bed and leaves her room. As she closes her door and observes her surroundings, she sees nothing more but an empty hallway.
Weird. She was expecting to see the two of them just hanging around outside. If they’re both in their respective rooms, then in that case it can’t be them. Their rooms are at the far end of the hallway, after all.
Ragatha feels a bit bugged. So if it’s not them, then who?
That’s when she sees the door to Jax’s room slightly ajar.
Ragatha quietly tiptoes to investigate. After peeking through the gap of the door, she presses her lips into a line, her pupil as small as a dot. Her heart instantly sinks at the sight before her.
She sees Pomni on Jax’s bed, arms gripping tightly in each other’s embrace.
From Ragatha’s perspective, Jax’s bed is horizontally pressed against the right side of the wall, which means Pomni’s back is facing the door. She wants to cry and storm into the room to separate the two, yelling and causing a scene to express how livid she feels, but she doesn’t. Instead, she just stands there, dumbfounded, angry, and confused—a surge of conflicting emotions washing over her all at once. It feels humiliating for her to even think she had a chance, clinging to her the same way she was clinging to false hope. No, maybe there was no hope to begin with, but rather delusion disguised as such.
The disappointment, the frustration, the jealousy—she feels them boiling in every fiber of her being.
Jax notices something from his peripheral vision. He looks up, now holding eye contact with Ragatha quietly standing by the door. She doesn’t realize it, but tears are already forming in her only existing eye, and her lips curl in disdain. She walks back to her room before Pomni can also catch her presence.
Ragatha storms to her bed and hides herself under her blanket. Only the darkness and stillness of her room keep her company. Her room may be silent, but her unwanted thoughts remain loud. There’s nothing more she can do except cry herself to sleep. She thinks about isolating herself tomorrow, dreading the idea of socializing with anyone for the time being.
Especially with Pomni.
─── ★ ───
Someone knocks on Ragatha’s door.
The dreadful morning had already arrived, and Ragatha wishes she didn’t live to see another day. She tosses and turns in bed, refusing to get up. If she just stays quiet and pretends she isn’t home, maybe the person behind the door will leave?
They don’t.
The same three consecutive knocks can be heard again.
“Hello?”
Oh, out of all people.
Ragatha forces herself to get up and turns on the lights, standing before the door with her hand already on the doorknob. She sighs before mentally preparing herself to open it.
She does so, not opening it widely and instead making a gap tiny enough to peek outside. As expected, she’s greeted by Pomni looking up at her. It’s hard for Ragatha to look her straight in the eye without remembering everything that happened last night—it leaves a sinking feeling in her chest. She didn’t think her heart could still passionately beat yet feel hurt at the same time, yet here she is.
“Good morning, Ragatha!”
Please. Ragatha thinks. Don’t smile at me like that.
“You down to do some makeup today?” she asks eagerly.
“Uhm.” Ragatha scratches her nape. “I’m, uhh, not actually in the mood for that today. Sorry.”
“Oh. Maybe we could do something else besides makeup?”
“I’ll pass. I think I wanna spend the day by myself.”
“Ahh, okay.” She understands. “Another time then. I’ll see you around, Ragatha!”
“Yeah. Bye, Pomni.” Ragatha slowly closes the door.
While walking back to her room, Pomni can’t shake off the unusual tension from their conversation.
Is she okay? Pomni thinks. She sounded kinda sad just now.
She can only hope that Ragatha’s doing fine.
Now in her room lying on the bed, she takes a nap to pass the time. Hopefully Caine doesn’t interrupt her day with another onerous adventure. As she slowly drifts into dreamland, images of Ragatha on the day she applied makeup on her faintly crosses her mind,
Bummer. I was really looking forward to seeing her today.
Pomni drifts away into a peaceful slumber, but all of a sudden, she feels the impact of her back hitting the ground. She jolts up, completely alert and awake. Rather than seeing her room, she finds herself sitting on the circus grounds.
“Good morning my molding butter cream biscuits!”
“Ow . . .” A raspy voice to Pomni’s right groans.
She sees Zooble rubbing the back of their head from also hitting the ground. For some unknown reason, Gangle is seen on top of them.
She immediately gets off them while they both shyly look away from each other, silent.
Everyone else is also simultaneously summoned by Caine, all of them getting off from the ground.
“For f[%$!#]ck’s sake, can you stop doing that?” Zooble complains.
Caine’s eyes look in opposite directions. “Do what?”
Zooble responds by rolling their eyes.
“Anyway! You all know what time it is. Time for another adventure!” Caine beams. “You all really seemed to enjoy the last one. I’ve noticed that letting you guys work together was a good idea. Sooo, I’ll be letting all of you work in pairs again! How’s that sound?”
“For as long as we can still stick with our partners last time, that’s fine by me,” Gangle says, smiling at Zooble beside her.
“Knock yourselves out! I’ll be giving you all two minutes to pick. Afterwards, I’ll be announcing the game’s instructions.”
Caine makes a running two-minute timer appear in the air, floating above it in a relaxed position with his hands behind his head and one leg over the other, waiting patiently.
It’s already given that Gangle and Zooble are bound to be a pair. All that’s left are Ragatha, Pomni, Kinger, and Jax.
Pomni accidentally catches Ragatha by surprise, already standing right beside her.
“Hey!” Pomni says with enthusiasm. “Wanna team up this time?”
Ragatha starts stuttering. “I’ll team up with Kinger again.”
“Oh.” Her smile turns awkward, and her voice sounds a bit upset. Immediately, she tries to cover up her disappointment of getting turned down a second time. “That’s okay! I don’t mind going with Jax. Guess we’re all sticking with our previous partners then.”
“It’s good that you don’t mind. You guys are pretty close.”
Ragatha walks past her to go to Kinger. Her words left a bad taste in Pomni’s mouth, almost like she’s a bit passive-aggressive. The edge in her tone, the way she looks at Pomni with sheer panic as if she doesn’t want to be anywhere near her, slowly, she’s beginning to notice.
Or maybe she’s overthinking it all in her head? Pomni comes to that conclusion, convincing herself not to take it personally. She can go with whoever she wants to go with, where’s the harm in that?
An all too familiar voice speaks from behind her. “Guess it’s just you and me again, Pomni.”
She turns around to face Jax, her eyebrows in a small knot after thinking about her conversation with Ragatha, still feeling upset about it. “Yeah. I guess it is.”
Jax notices, but he doesn’t say anything. With everyone having a partner, Caine commences with the adventure’s instructions.
Just don’t overthink it. Pomni convinces herself. It’s really not that deep.
─── ★ ───
A few days have passed, and Pomni can’t help ignoring the all-too-obvious signs any longer. Ever since that day, her suspicions of Ragatha’s distant behavior only keeps growing stronger from there.
Like the day she tried approaching her but noticed her brisk walking away.
The other day, when she pretended not to hear Pomni calling out to her and instead joined in on Zooble and Gangle’s conversation as if trying to get away from her.
And yesterday, when she successfully managed to corner Ragatha in the hallways outside their rooms, but responded nervously by saying she was busy before entering her room. They’re in a circus, not an office or a farm. What exactly is there to be busy about?
Pomni can’t take it anymore. It’s bothering her so, so much. And deep down, she knows.
She’s actively avoiding me.
Today is the day she tries confronting her about it. She leaves her room and stands in front of Ragatha’s door, slowly but surely twisting the knob to check if it’s locked—a telltale sign to confirm that she’s inside. It turns out, it is.
She gently knocks on the door.
“Ragatha, can we talk?”
It’s not surprising to hear no response.
“I don’t know if you can hear me, but I’m gonna say it anyway.” Pomni musters up the courage. “These past few days, I’ve been noticing you getting distant lately. Like . . . you’re avoiding me. I really care about you, Ragatha. The last thing I want is to make you uncomfortable. I’d be a bad person if I did.” She nervously fidgets with her hands, fighting to let the words out. “Did I do something wrong?”
The door swings completely open, making Pomni take a step back. They finally have a good look at each other. It’s been days since the two of them properly locked eye contact like this.
“No, Pomni. You didn’t do anything wrong. It’s actually a ‘me’ problem.” Ragatha reassures. “I just— There’s just something I’m going through right now, and I need to deal with it alone. I’m not exactly in the right headspace to properly explain myself, so I just need some time alone to figure things out.”
Pomni looks hopeful. “Whatever it is, you can get through it. If it’s too much for you to handle, you don’t have to deal with it alone. I’m always here if you need anything.”
The corners of Ragatha’s mouth subtly curve upwards, expressing her gratitude. “Thanks, Pomni.”
“Please take care of yourself, Ragatha,” she says, returning the smile. Although, her expressions look a bit sad.
And with their conversation coming to an end, Ragatha closes the door. She sticks the right side of her face against the door, closely listening to Pomni's footsteps as they grow distant, then silent. Assuming she’s already back in her room, she properly stands up and reflects on herself.
I’m actually a horrible person.
Ragatha starts hating herself for being so selfish with her emotions the past few days. Yes, she likes Pomni. Yes, she hates accepting the reality that her and Jax might actually be secretly dating. But is it right for her to indirectly express these feelings of jealousy? Especially through passive-aggressiveness rooted from denial? From having zero control over the situation? No. Because they’re friends. Nothing more, nothing less.
Look at me, being petty. Immature. Acting all jealous . . . Ragatha scoffs at the thought. What right do I have?
She can’t keep bottling up these feelings anymore. If this much stress over the situation continues to linger, then she’ll be unable to properly face Pomni. Her feelings may be immature, but it’s the unfortunate hard truth. Worst-case scenario, disregarding the stress can turn into a gamble between life and death: abstraction.
Ragatha leaves her room and decides to release her pent up negative feelings. Besides Pomni being the only person she can trust in this digital hellscape, another trustworthy friend comes to mind.
After some time walking, she arrives at where she needs to be. She stands before the man’s humble abode, proudly standing firm and sturdy despite its delicate appearance. The pillow fort doesn’t have any doors, so knocking obviously isn’t an option.
❛❛A Doll Needs Her Makeup Artist❜❜ | CHAPTER 2: Finally! A Friend
ᯓ★ Masterlist // Chapter 1
Status: Ongoing
Word Count: 3.8K
Summary: Ragatha receives a gift from Caine after The Awards Show: a makeup set. Instead of applying the cosmetics herself, she asks Pomni to do it for her.
As they grow close, they discover something else developing between them beyond just a mere friendship.
Tags: Pomni/Ragatha, WLW, GL, Fluff, Bisexual Pomni, Lesbian Ragatha, Girls Kissing, Post-Episode: s01e06 They All Get Guns
The two girls sit across each other, both cross-legged on the bedroom floor. Ragatha flips her gift bag upside down between them, making the cosmetics tumble to the floor on full display.
“Okay, which one do you wanna use first?” Pomni asks.
Ragatha hums, indecisive. “Which one do you wanna use?”
“You’re letting me decide?”
“Yeah! You can even go all out with every single one of them, if you like.”
“Alright.” Pomni hovers her hand over the small pile of makeup laid out in front of her, fingers moving as if she’s playing a piano. “I’ll go with . . . mascara first,” she says, picking it up.
Ragatha moves all the makeup to the side, allowing Pomni to scooch closer in front of her as she gets into a kneeling position and sits on her heels. She opens the mascara and readily holds it with her right hand, while her left rests on Ragatha’s shoulder.
“Hold still, okay?” Pomni starts brushing one of her three big eyelash strands with the spoolie.
“O-Okay.” She awkwardly glances side-to-side, then at Pomni.
”Anyways,” Pomni says, “about Jax . . .”
Ragatha spaces out during the conversation, and eventually Pomni’s voice turns faint.
Rather than listening to what she’s saying, she diverts her attention elsewhere—Pomni’s lips. She stares at her talkative mouth, the words going in one ear and out the other.
I wonder what kissing her would feel like. she thinks to herself. Pomni did say she was fine with it . . . but I don’t wanna just kiss her out of nowhere. She might actually hate me for it!
“Ragatha?”
How does kissing work anyway? I may not know how, but I’m sure as hell willing to learn if it’s with Pomni. Oh man, I really want her to be my first.
“Ragathaaa?”
“Wha— Huh?”
And she’s back to being physically present.
“T-The talk.” Pomni smiles sweetly yet awkwardly. “After the show? Actually, are you okay? You seem kind of out of it.”
“Oh! Right, sorry. I-I was spacing out. Sorry. But please! Continue.”
“Hmm. On second thought, I actually wanna focus on doing your makeup right now, so you can go first.”
“Oh, are you sure?” Ragatha asks, worried about Pomni’s comfortability. “You’re not mad or anything?”
“What? Why would I be?” she asks, the genuine sweet tone in her voice as clear as day. “I don’t mind when people space out on me. To be honest, I like seeing you relaxed, so you can space out as much as you want.” She giggles.
“Alright then.” Feeling nervous and not knowing where to look, her gaze lands on anything in her room. “I want to properly apologize for not letting you in my team. I’m sorry, Pomni. You probably really hate me for declining.” She pauses; the horrible memory stresses her out, then she sighs. “It was such a jerk move. God, I’m so sorry. But don’t worry! On the next adventure, I promise I’ll—”
“Hey,” Pomni says softly, the spoolie dropping to the floor as her hands now gently cup her cheeks. “That’s not something to be sorry about. All you did was make a normal autonomous decision. I didn’t take it personally. I understand, Ragatha.” A smile so sincere crosses her face. “So don’t worry about it, okay?”
Staring intently at each other’s dilated pupils, Ragatha holds Pomni’s arm. “You— You don’t hate me?”
Pomni lets out a single chuckle. “Of course I don’t. Anyway, where was I?” She picks up the spoolie and goes back to brushing her eyelashes.
Ragatha breathes out a sigh of relief as she brings her hand back to her lap. “Oh, thank goodness. I was acting like a worrywart for nothing! I just couldn’t get my mind off the idea of failing you.”
Extremely focused, Pomni sticks the tip of her tongue to the top side of her mouth. “Wait, wait. And . . . done!” She leans back to get a better look at Ragatha’s eyelashes.
“Can I see?” Ragatha stands up to head to her dresser’s mirror, but Pomni stops her, pushing her shoulders down to make her sit again.
“Nope! Only when your face is all finished.” Pomni tosses the mascara onto the pile of makeup and chooses another item. She moves on to apply pink blush on her face with a powder brush.
“Back to the conversation. What do you mean by you ‘failing me’?”
There’s a silent pause, and Ragatha looks down at her own fiddling thumbs. “I thought you’d never want to be around me anymore. I know I tend to push myself to be there for everyone, but in the end, that only pushes everyone away from me. I talked to Kinger about it, and to my surprise, he taught me how important it is to give people space. You know, just . . . being there for someone when they need you to be.” She looks up at her. “He even reminded me to look out for myself too. Can you believe Kinger’s actually good at giving advice?”
Pomni tilts her head. Kinger being sane? Familiar.
“Did he say all that while you guys were in the dark?” She lightly dabs the brush on her other cheek.
Ragatha looks surprised. “How do you know that?”
“Remember the time I got stuck with him during our creepy ghost adventure? That’s when I found out Kinger can actually be reliable, so long as he’s in the dark, that is.”
“Yeah . . . I wonder why that is?”
Pomni puts the brush down. “Beats me. You know, just when I think I’ve finally adjusted in the circus, something new happens and it never fails to surprise me.”
Ragatha suddenly gets reminded of something. “Oh! Speaking of new, remember when Jax took a life out of me before the game started? Kinger made a glowing butterfly with his own hands! When I touched it, I strangely gained another life.”
“Isn’t randomly summoning things an ability only Caine can do?”
“Exactly what I was thinking! But all he said was ‘I made it up!’ and casually proceeded with the game like it was nothing.” She sighs. “You know, this place just never fails to weird me out with each passing adventure, Pomni. It feels like the more adventures that come in, the more I forget how normal the world we once lived in used to be.”
Pomni’s a little wistful reminiscing about her past life. “Do you miss the world outside the circus?”
“Well, for its normalcy, yeah. But going back to my personal life? I hate to say this, but I actually feel a lot safer here than back there in the real world. Escaping the circus sounds liberating, but sometimes I wonder— What’ll happen to our memories of this place if we leave? Will I remember even being here, or will I forget about everything . . . about everyone?” She uncomfortably rubs the side of her shoulder, avoiding her gaze. “What if I have no memory of you, and I never see you again? I . . . I’d rather stay here forever if it means having you live in my memories. I don’t ever want to forget about you, Pomni. You’re someone who’s very important to me.”
Noticing the deafening silence, she glances at Pomni—a cute, surprised look is on her face. Realizing how affectionate and clingy she must’ve sounded, she feels her face burning up from embarrassment.
“Y-Yeah! That’s, uh, all? How about we move on to talking about—”
Pomni brings her into a long, tight hug, nuzzling her face against her shoulder. “That means a lot to me.”
Pomni’s hug is strangely endearing, as if she needed to hear that. Ragatha’s arms are raised in shock; her stiff body relaxes, and she gently snakes her hands behind her back, returning the embrace.
“I’m happy you feel that way.” Ragatha slowly runs her hand up-and-down her back, spiritually embedding the hug deep into her soul.
This is the closest Pomni’s ever gotten with me! . . . Oh my God, she’s actually hugging me. Pomni? Hugging me?!
They pull away from the hug as Pomni locks eyes with a calm-demeanored Ragatha.
“What about you, Pomni?” she asks with her hands on her shoulders. “Do you miss the real world?”
“And go days suffering again in my mundane nine-to-five job? Heh, sorry. Half kidding. Uh, personally I do, but . . . the idea of losing our memories of this place also scares me. I don’t want to forget about our friends. I don’t ever want to forget about you either, Ragatha. What you said earlier? I think I can confidently say the same.”
Ragatha smiles as she looks like she’s tearing up from their newly established closer friendship. This time, she pulls Pomni into a hug, closing her only functioning eye as her mouth curves into an upside down “w.”
Is this what winning feels like? she thinks contentedly.
Pomni gives her back two pats on the back before finally pulling away.
“Anyway, there’s something I’ve been meaning to ask. What’s with the awkward tension between you and Jax? I saw how distant he was during the Awards Show. Did something happen?” Ragatha asks.
“Uh, about that—” Pomni suddenly remembers something. “Wait. Before anything else, I just wanna say I’m sorry.”
“Huh? What for?”
“For how I acted during the adventure. I . . . I shot you. I was so immersed and was feeling myself so much that I got carried away,” she says, feeling ashamed of herself. “I’m really sorry I hurt you. I was pretending to be ‘evil’ for a little confidence boost which is why I acted the way I did. I’m sorry, Ragatha. Oh god, remembering it now is giving me second hand embarassment.”
“Oh yeah.” Despite the unpleasant memory of having her hands and brain full of stuffing get blown out, she furrows her brows and puts on a smile. “It’s okay. What’s important is you had fun.”
“No . . .” Pomni covers her face with her hands, her head facing down. “You can’t keep pretending that everything bad that happens to you is okay, Ragatha. Shooting my friends in the face is not fun now that I’m looking back at it.”
Ragatha slowly uncovers her face, making Pomni glance up at her. “Eh, to be honest, getting shot in the head countless times obviously isn’t anywhere near fun. Though I have to admit, you looked really cool back there.”
Pomni scoffs. “Stop. You’re just saying that. I was literally being so cringe the whole time.”
“Hey, I’m just being honest. If it makes you feel better, I’d let you blast me in the head a second time.”
Pomni playfully nudges her arm. “Don’t say that. Even if you gave me the chance, I’d never do that again.”
She chuckles. “What? If it means seeing that bolder side of you again, then why not?”
“I can be bold in other ways too. You know, bold in a way that isn’t violent?”
“Ooh.” She crosses her arms, somehow anticipating something a bit . . . flirty. “Like how?”
“Like, how I gave Jax an intense [%$!#]ss beating right after the adventure.”
Oh—! Not the response she was expecting.
Ragatha’s silent for a moment, her expression shocked. “Are you serious?”
“Yes, I’m serious.”
“What?!” She bursts out laughing. A small tear wells up in her eye which she wipes away. “Oh man! Jax getting squared up by your pocket-size? I’m genuinely impressed, Pomni!”
Pomni’s face looks identical to the one on her own doorplate.
Her laugh trails off and comes to a stop, composing herself as she sits prim and proper. “Okay, Pomni. I’m all ears!”
She smiles at her eagerness, clearing her throat and carrying on.
“Basically, what happened was Jax told me about perceiving everyone including himself as ‘archetypes’ and said I have yet to discover mine. So, I tried to be evil. He gave me advice to loosen up and not take things so seriously in the circus, and to be honest, it felt like we were genuinely bonding. By the end of the adventure, I impulsively hugged him, then he pushed me away. I didn’t overthink it at first. I just assumed he wasn’t much of a hugger. But when I pointed a gun at him and joked about betrayal thinking he would mutually do it back, he wanted me to shoot him. I said we could just celebrate as a team, but then he revealed that he never actually saw me as a friend. Then I asked what he’d do if I were to abstract tomorrow, and his response was to just . . .” She pauses for a bit, a faintly pained expression forming. “To simply move on and forget about me.”
“Ugh, what a narcissist,” Ragatha says. “It’s no wonder why he got beat up. If you ever feel bad about hurting him, Pomni, don’t. It’s about time someone knocked some sense into him. Plus, you did me a huge favor doing that after he sadistically shot me so many times.”
“Besides him being insensitive about the abstraction bit, I didn’t pick a fight with him because he never saw me as a friend. I just knew he was . . . lying. Like, he wears this facade about being a carefree guy when in reality he’s not allowing himself to be vulnerable because it’s his way of protecting himself.”
“Protecting himself from what?”
“Making a genuine connection.” Pomni psychoanalyzes him in her head. “He looks scared to me. Did he have a friend in the circus that hurt him back then?”
“Yeah. Jax actually had a real friend once.”
Pomni starts connecting the dots. “Is this the one you brought up when we went stargazing?”
“I’m surprised you remember that. Curious to know what happened?”
She nods.
“His friend was also a friend of mine. His name was Ribbit. The two of them were already close since they arrived at the circus. One time, I was paired with Ribbit in an adventure, and despite hanging out with Jax knowing how he is, surprisingly he was really nice. Eventually, we got close, and Jax began noticing Ribbit hanging out with him less and less. Jax resented me even more than he already did, and I figured he told Ribbit to avoid me. Whenever I got the chance to talk to Ribbit walking around the circus alone, he kind of changed. He was cranky, more irritated and distant. I don’t exactly know why, but what I do know is Jax had something to do with it. Days later, everyone found out he . . . abstracted.” She sighs, feeling a weight on her chest.
As a means to comfort her, Pomni holds her hand. “I’m sorry about your friend.”
Ragatha smiles at her kindness. “It’s all in the past now. It’s fine.”
Pomni doesn’t want to see her wallow in grief any further—seeing Ragatha upset made her feel upset too. Instead, she decides to change the topic and lighten the mood.
“Hey, I forgot to put your lipstick and a few other stuff on your face. Want me to continue and finish it up?”
“Sure.” She replies with a warm smile, sitting upright as an invitation for Pomni to comfortably continue where she left off.
─── ★ ───
“Ta-da!”
With the glamorized ragdoll finally seated in front of her dresser, Pomni takes her hands off Ragatha’s eyes to make her look in the mirror standing before them, leaving the client herself captivated by her new look—sleek, pointier lashes, red lips giving the illusion of a plump look, pink cheeks from the blush, and an addition of faint red eyeshadow enhanced with shining glitter smeared over it. Ragatha’s hair is also tied to a high ponytail, a style new to her since she never bothered altering her default appearance.
“Pretty girl!” Pomni exclaims, standing behind Ragatha with her hands on her shoulders.
“Woah. This is . . . different.”
“Do you like it?”
She giggles. “Of course, Pomni! I’m grateful you even got to use your talent on me. I love it.”
“Yay!” she cheers with her eyes closed, arms wrapped over Ragatha’s shoulders from behind which earns a smile from her. “We should totally do this again tomorrow. There’s still so many eyeshadow colors to choose from.”
“You’re actually enjoying this?”
“Of course I am. What makes you think I wouldn’t?”
“I don’t know. I remember you saying you liked seeking mild thrills, so I kinda thought you weren’t exactly having fun doing something so simple and boring like this.”
“Hey.” Pomni puts her hands on her own waist. “This is nowhere near boring. I used to learn makeup back in college, but I stopped when I started working. I couldn’t find the free time to do it anymore, so yeah.”
Ragatha slowly nods while eyeing her from the reflection. “Interesting. I think I’m starting to learn a lot about you.”
Pomni smiles back, enjoying the comfort of their already developing friendship. “No fair. I wanna learn something new about you too.”
“Well then, I guess you’ll just have to wait and see.”
She lets out a light chuckle. “If I had a camera, I’d take a picture of you right about now. You look really pretty, Ragatha.”
Ragatha turns her head to look at her. “I actually have one.”
“You do?”
She opens the right drawer of her dresser—a black polaroid camera sits inside.
Pomni raises her brows in surprise. “That’s convenient. Sure! Why not?” She opens her hand out as Ragatha hands her the camera.
After turning it on, she closes one eye to have the other look at the viewfinder. By the looks of it, the angle is bad—Pomni can see herself in the mirror behind Ragatha.
“Let’s pick a better spot.” Pomni looks around.
She walks to the middle of the room and tries to find a background-worthy area. Standing before her bed with its headboard against the wall, the landscape painting right above appeals to her.
“How about sitting over there?”
Ragatha follows where Pomni’s finger is pointed at—the foot of the bed. She walks over and sits in the middle, hands on the mattress on either side, posture prissy and prim.
“Aaand perfect!” With Pomni’s one eye open readily positioned to the camera’s viewfinder, she snaps a couple shots with the flash on.
Pomni stops halfway, lowering the camera to look at her.
“You don’t wanna do a wacky pose?”
Ragatha raises an eyebrow. “Wacky?”
“Yeah. You’re always hitting the same pose. See?” She giggles at how cute the pictures are. “You look so formal! It’s almost as if you’re posing for a graduation photo.”
“O-Oh.” Ragatha awkwardly rubs her hands together; the thought of being perceived as uncool towards Pomni makes her conscious. “Wacky, huh? How do you, uh, pose like that?”
“Wait— are you serious? How do you not know how to do a wacky pose?”
“My mom only ever taught me to pose the way I pose, I guess. So . . . yeah.” Ragatha starts to feel embarrassed.
“Just strike a silly pose! Actually, let’s do it together.” Pomni sits beside Ragatha on the bed, catching her by surprise. “Just follow me.”
Pomni holds up her left hand into a peace sign, with her right hand making the lens face the both of them to take a selfie. Ragatha leans forward a bit to glance at her, then follows the exact hand gesture she’s doing as she turns to smile at the camera.
“Three . . . Two . . . One!”
The camera flash lights up for only a split second.
Pomni grabs the ejecting film. “Hey, look how good we look! Wanna take a couple more?”
“Okay!”
Snap.
Snap.
Snap.
The more pictures they take, the closer Pomni clings towards Ragatha. They shyly giggle among themselves as the flash hits them once more.
All of the five pictures they took rested on Pomni’s lap. She takes one and briefly fans the film to ensure it properly develops. Upon looking at it, Pomni holds back her laugh, sparking Ragatha’s curiosity. Now looking at the picture together, they laugh at their unplanned, matching impressions of their evil counterparts—both of them bare their sharp teeth; Ragatha mimics her evil version’s introductory pose, while Pomni’s tongue is deviously sticking out.
After sharing a small glance, they both burst into laughter.
With Pomni’s arm still over her shoulder and Ragatha laughing with her head whipped back, they both lose balance as their backs land on the bed.
As they face each other, Ragatha turns her head with her hands on her stomach, and Pomni shifts her body sideways.
“You know, growing up, I never really had much freedom as a kid,” Ragatha says.
“You wanna talk about it?”
Ragatha stares at the ceiling. “I was homeschooled, so I was practically a sheltered kid. My mom only ever taught me to carry myself with elegance. She never played with me or cared to share a bonding moment, and since I lived on a farm away from the city, I didn’t have any friends. My mom’s occasional guests don’t count, all they ever talked about was business. Ugh— Always so serious all the time! So . . .” She looks back at Pomni. “That explains why I didn’t know what a ‘wacky’ was. Sorry, Pomni. Really embarrassing for someone who’s in her thirties, I know. Bet I looked so stupid, looking all clueless.”
“No you’re not. You don’t look stupid to me. That didn’t even cross my mind.” Pomni reassures. “Matter of fact, I thought it was pretty cute.”
Ragatha’s at a loss for words for only a brief moment. “You really think so?”
“Mhm.” As always, her voice is as sweet as ever.
Flustered, she can feel her face cartoonishly heat up like a burning kettle. Pomni finally picks up the tension; besides Ragatha’s reaction, it’s just the two of them gazing intently at each other—all while sharing a bed. Her blue and red pinwheel pupils shrink a bit before abruptly sitting up, which Ragatha calmly follows.
Pomni clears her throat before nervously forcing out a chuckle. “Anyway! I think it’s getting late. Looks like it’s time for me to head back to my room now!”
Ragatha looks down at her hands, fiddling with her stubby, doll-like thumbs. She looks up at Pomni beside her, but instead sees her already standing by the door.
“Wait!”
As Pomni’s hand rests on the doorknob that’s just about to twist it open, she turns around.
“If you want, we can do this again. There’s still a lot of eyeshadow palettes we can try,” Ragatha says. “You’re welcome here any time, Pomni.”
Flattered by her kind invitation, Pomni’s nervous demeanor softens into a smile. “I’ll keep a mental note of that. So are you cool with . . . hanging out tomorrow?”
She smiles. “Alright. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Pomni takes her leave and gently closes the door.
Staring at the door accompanied by the silence once again, Ragatha lays back down on the bed with her arms and legs splayed out. She closes her eyes and sighs, now smiling to herself. Today sure was eventful, and for the first time in this godforsaken circus, tomorrow became something she could look forward to.
Summary: Emotionally constipated and drained, Jax isn't sure how much longer he can put on a brave face. Ever since his fight with Pomni, layers of pent-up frustrations continue to pile up on his plate, and Caine tries his best to prevent him from abstracting. An idea comes to mind when Caine thinks of an adventure designed to help him:
Therapy, a lie detector, and Kinger as his therapist.
Will Jax finally be able to confront his deep-rooted issues from the past and reconcile with Pomni? Or will he continue to burn bridges and keep his walls up, far beyond everyone's reach?
Tags: Jax/Pomni, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Psychological Drama, Healing, Friendship, Trust Issues, Parental Kinger, Jax is heavily implied trans, Transphobic Ribbit, Panic Attacks, Angst with a Happy Ending, Continuation after episode 6
"F[%$!#]ck my life," Jax mutters under his breath.
Yesterday’s fight between him and Pomni keeps replaying in his head like a broken record, pushing his sanity to the depths of being more miserable. It honestly makes him want to crawl inside a hole and die—except dying, no, abstracting, in the circus is the one thing he avoids the most; the thought of losing all sense of self and transforming into a dark, morbid lump of glitching mass sickens him to the core. What does it mean to abstract in the circus anyway? Does it mean actually dying and having your soul officially put to rest? Or being stuck in a hostile yet vegetative state for all eternity? Either way, the option to cross the bridge of a peaceful death isn’t guaranteed, so he wouldn't risk it. Not even Caine knows.
Jax is lying down with his back on the bed, covered under his blanket from head-to-toe. Suddenly, his eyes shoot open, hearing something slide into his room. He glances at his door and sees a piece of paper on the floor right in front of it. He gets off his bed and walks up to it, sitting down with his knees drawn to his chest.
A ripped page from Gangle’s sketchbook? Wait. This is—
He quietly reads the letter.
Hey, I’m genuinely sorry for fighting you. It just pained me knowing that you never saw me in the same friendly light. That’s why I did what I did. Still, there’s no excuse for how I violently reacted. I was wrong for that. I understand if you hate me and want space, but please know that I don’t hate you. When you’re ready, I assure you we can calmly talk things out, okay? You may not see me as a friend, but I still care. I’m honestly worried about you.
Sincerely,
Pomni
Tears start to well up in his eyes. Refusing to accept the fact he feels vulnerable even in private, he crumples the letter and quickly stands up, throwing it as hard as he can as it hits the corner of his room. Panting, he takes deep breaths, his hand running over his head to his bunny ears while an exhausted sigh leaves his mouth.
“I’m not dealing with this. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever.”
Grouchy, he stomps his way back to his bed, deciding to pass the time by sleeping in the whole day.
Hopefully things get a bit better by tomorrow.
─── ★ ───
“What do you mean I’m gonna be stuck with this lunatic for a day?!”
“Sorry, Jax, but the others are out on another adventure exclusive to them only! Gangle kept begging me to push through their ‘girls’ day’ . . . Whatever that means,” Caine says. “Anyway! You’ll be spending the day doing an adventure with Kinger instead!”
“Did someone mention butterflies?”
Jax slowly turns his head, glaring at Kinger standing right beside him. His eye involuntarily twitches at the sight of him, not wanting to waste his precious time with the circus’ “nutcase.”
“Can’t we just spend the day in our rooms?”
“No can do. The girls—" Caine clears his throat. "Well, except for Zooble. Whatever gender category they fall under— Are out there on an adventure, and that means so should the both of you!”
He expresses his annoyance through his groans. “How come you’re listening to what they suggested?”
“Because they’re being productive! On another note, I’ve been meaning to have a talk with you about something I noticed the other day.”
“What do you mean?”
“Bubble?” Caine snaps his fingers, immediately summoning him by his side.
“Here’s daddy Bubble!”
“Roll yesterday’s clip we talked about!”
Without warning, the circus turns completely dark. Bubble’s back faces them, then a light emits out of his open mouth, functioning like a projector.
He rolls a recorded clip from yesterday’s events, one that Jax is trying so hard to pretend never happened.
“Fight back!”
“Are you crazy?!”
“I said fight back!”
Jax gulps.
No . . . No, no, no, no. Not this.
It looks as though their fight was filmed discreetly at an angle just how many feet above them. He panics, wasting no time standing in front of Kinger to keep him from watching, arms stretched up high in hopes it would block his view.
“W-We get it! Just turn it off already!” he shouts, feeling all sorts of embarrassment.
Caine nods at Bubble, signaling him to stop. He does so, and the bright ambience of the circus returns.
Jax drops his arms to his sides, now resting a hand on his hip as he glares at Caine in the air. “And what exactly did you accomplish from showing that to our old buddy Kinger over here? What’d you do that for? To humiliate me?” He crosses his arms. “Well, good job, Caine! It worked.”
“Now, now, Jax. It’s not what you think it is! I only wanted to address your unresolved interpersonal issues since it’s going to be relevant for the adventure later. I also thought it would be easier to show you rather than explain.”
“Wait— What? How are my problems relevant in an adventure?”
“Glad you asked, Jax! That’s because today’s adventure for the two of you is—!” A drumroll plays, and Caine stretches his arms upwards with his palms pressed together, gracefully dropping his hands to his sides as his words turn to colorful text above him.
“—Jax goes to therapy!”
For a brief moment, an awkward silence ensues.
“Huh?” Jax’s reaction is flat, then he laughs. “Me, going to therapy? Boring! Therapy’s literally for losers!”
Kinger gasps, offended at his close-minded comment. “That’s not true.”
“Come on, are you finally starting to run out of ideas for your adventures, Caine? 'Cause it sure looks like it! Better step up your game if I were you.”
Caine takes off his top hat as he holds onto it. “Jax, I’m afraid that your ignorance and contribution to the stigma surrounding therapy is all the more reason why you should seek it.”
“Why are you acting like I’m the only one who has problems here? Why not make Kinger go instead? He needs it more than I do.”
Kinger opens his eyes after dozing off a bit, still standing behind him. “Did you say something? Sorry, I couldn’t hear you over the buzzing of the bees in my head.”
“To tell you the truth, Kinger’s actually fine the way he is. You see, I’ve decided to check in on everyone’s sanity meter lately. Can’t have anyone from this batch abstracting on me!” He chuckles. “I think I’ve grown attached!”
Jax eyes him with confusion. “Sanity meter?”
“Yup!” Caine pulls out a medium-sized whiteboard along with a black and red marker from inside his hat. He doesn’t show them what he’s writing on it yet, making exaggerated strokes as he glides his markers on the board—he looks like a passionate artist immersed in painting on a canvas.
Finally finished, he presents it for the two of them to see.
Drawn on the whiteboard, a bar graph shows their names labeled under the horizontal axis, while the vertical axis has three labels: located in the middle is labeled as “safe zone,” a couple spaces above it is “the danger zone” written in red, and lastly, the end of the line is labeled “abstraction,” also in red. There are cute small drawings of their faces at the end of each bar corresponding to their names.
Everyone’s bars are fairly within the safe zone. What Jax finds absurd is how Kinger’s bar is at the lowest—how can he, the crazy one, possibly have the most stable mental-wellbeing among everyone else in the circus?
When Jax finds which level his position is in the graph, his breathing comes to a halt—There he is, his bar located in the danger zone. It's unsettling to see just how many inches away he is from the abstraction label. He feels provoked staring at the drawing of himself: his eyes drawn as “X” marks, and his mouth curved downwards in a frown.
“Hey, where’s Zooble?” Kinger points out.
“I don’t care about Zooble,” Caine says eerily. Just hearing their name fills him with abhorrence. In the blink of an eye, he acts as if nothing happened. “Anyway! Here are the accurate statistics of everyone’s sanity levels! As you can see, Jax, you’re one relapse away from the brink of abstraction, so I’m merely trying to help you!”
Jax looks absent-minded, staring straight ahead. Then, he slowly looks up at Caine. “You’re saying that you’re able to check if anyone’s close to abstracting?” His anger gradually boils, grit building up in his voice. “You can do that this whole time, and you’re only doing this now?”
He can’t help his subtle frustration; the knowledge that Caine is capable of checking who’s close to abstracting implies that the previous circus members deaths could have been prevented.
“Better late than never, don’t you think? And watch that temper! Wouldn’t want your sanity getting worse than it already is. Now let’s move on to the mechanics of the adventure! So, what’s going to happen is—”
Jax clenches his fists in annoyance, but lately he’s been noticing something alarming—the more deeply he feels negative emotions, the more prone he becomes to experiencing a headache and hearing ringing in his ears. He doesn’t want to experience it any longer, so he looks at the ground, closes his eyes, and grounds himself by taking deep breaths. Time feels slow, surroundings moving in slow motion. He takes his time with each breath, and the suffocation and tightness in his chest gradually fade away.
Thankfully, the noise and painful dizziness stops. He looks at Caine again, his voice back to being audible.
“—And that’s it! So, do we have any questions?”
“Huh?” Jax looks up at him, the life drained out of his face after recovering from what just happened. He's secretly grateful none of them noticed. “Sorry, I wasn’t paying attention. What were you talking about?”
Caine sighs. “I’d do the thing I did when I taught you the last adventure’s mechanics, but your brain’s in a bit of an imbalance right now, so I wouldn’t risk messing with it. Again! The mechanics. The adventure’s instructions are already self-explanatory from the title. Just vent your heart out, and you’re done, right? Wrong!” He points at Jax. “You will have a lie detector attached to your right wrist!” Then, he drags his finger at Kinger. “And you will be Jax’s therapist!”
“Sounds okay with me!” Kinger exclaims while doing a thumbs-up.
“You’re giving me unsolicited help and expect me to comply? With Kinger as the voice of reason? This is ridiculous.”
“Would you rather I left you alone to abstract then? I’m not doing this because I want you to, Jax. I'm doing this because it’s what you need right now. I’m only trying to help the best way I can.”
Caine is right. Jax doesn’t retort and sighs. “Right. But aren’t you usually the therapist when it comes to these? I mean, you do these with Zooble, so why can’t I have you as my therapist?”
Caine confidently rests his hands on his waist. “That’s because I’ve decided to listen to Zooble’s constructive criticism for once! Apparently I ‘suck’ at my job as a therapist, and for once, I’m trying to be a good ringmaster by listening to feedback! It’s gonna have to be Kinger helping you out on this one.”
Jax lets out a defeated groan. “Fine.”
“Oh yeah, I’m not done yet. The only way out of the adventure is to have your sanity level decrease back to the safe zone! By the way, the lie detector not only detects the honesty in your words, but your feelings too. That's all for the important details you need to know.” He summons a portal beside him with a snap of his fingers. “Bye! Hope you feel better soon, Jax!”
“Wait, how are we supposed to check if my bar’s close to going down—!”
The two of them get sucked in the portal, which disappears once they finally enter.
─── ★ ───
Jax is leaning down on a brown recliner sofa, while he sees Kinger to his right, sitting on an office chair with wheels behind a wooden desk. The walls are in a neutral, creamy beige color, and a small coffee table sits in the middle of the room with a grey carpet underneath. The place is adorned with pots of plants, bookshelves, and hanging picture frames, creating a calm atmosphere. There’s a window covered with half-closed blinds located behind him. After observing every corner of the room, they notice there’s not a single door in sight.
He looks down at the thick lie detector attached around his wrist and decides to take it off, but struggles as it refuses to budge. He stops, realizing it’s impossible. He gets up and walks towards one of the bookshelves.
Jax hums. "What if I just resort to wrecking the place?” He slides his hand across the shelf, making the row of books drop all over the floor. Suddenly, the fallen books disappear, and they neatly respawn back to where they were. He moves to the window, pulling the blinds up and trying to raise it open, but it won't budge. He gives up and goes back to lie on the recliner, his hand over the other as they rest on his stomach.
“Are you ready to begin the session?” Kinger asks, which earns a scoff from him.
“Do whatever you want.”
Still sitting on his chair, Kinger glides his way to flip the light switch on the wall behind him. The place is now dim, small streaks of light barely peeking through the blinds. The sound of his chair’s wheels draw close to the desk again, and suddenly, a lamp on his desk shines bright in the dark.
Jax eyes him suspiciously. “What is this? Is this supposed to be a therapy session or a criminal interrogation?”
“Sorry, I can only think better in the dark. I hope you don’t mind. How about we begin with—”
Jax cuts him off with an irritated groan. “I don’t wanna do this! There has to be another way to fix my problem besides, eugh, opening up.” He shudders dramatically. “Let’s just sit this out and wait for Caine to bring us back. He’ll come looking for us.”
In a timelapse-like state, the light coming through the partially open blinds disappears, signaling that the day is over. As soon as the light from outside comes back, it becomes an unbearable cycle—it shifts between day and night again, and again, and again . . . and again.
Just how many days have they been here?
“Ugh! This is pathetic!” Jax blurts out, still as stubborn as ever. “I just wanna go home . . . God, can I even call it that?”
Kinger clasps his hands together on the table. “You know, I’m not going to pressure you into talking. Just take your time, and when you’re ready, you can let it all out.”
“Do you actually think this stuff works? Do you actually think you can help me?” he sneers.
“I can try. If you’re worried about the others knowing anything you share here, then rest assured that your secrets are safe and confidential with me. Besides, snitching on you would be very unprofessional given the position of my job.”
He scoffs. “Yeah, you’re just acting all trustworthy ‘cause it’s the role you have to play. Once this is over, you’ll slip and share one of my secrets in front of everyone.”
Kinger furrows his brows from Jax taking it the wrong way. “Playing the professional role of a therapist or not, I’ll still be a man of my word.”
Jax contemplates whether or not to finally be vulnerable for once. Then, the circumstance of the situation properly sinks in—what choice does he have? He lets go of his ignorant outlook on therapy and focuses on the situation at hand.
I need this. Surviving in this sh[%$!#]thole has always been my top priority. Just let loose, and you can finally get out of here.
“We can start now,” Jax croaks. He couldn’t believe the words coming out of his mouth.
“Okay. So! Is there anything that’s been bothering you lately?”
“What else do you think I’m here for?”
“Apologies. Uh, could you tell me what’s bothering you?”
He judges him for a while before shifting to a relaxed demeanor. “I sort of . . . got in a fight with Pomni. Like, an actual physical fight, but I didn’t start it though. She did. I didn’t even hit her back. I just tried to get away from her as much as I could.”
“What started the fight?” Kinger starts taking notes on the little notepad on his desk.
“When she hugged me, I just . . . pushed her away. I don’t know, I got reminded of a really bad memory with a friend, so instinctively, I panicked and ran my stupid mouth. I kept saying things in the heat of the moment.” He fidgets with his fingers, a bit overwhelmed.
“And what exactly did you tell her?”
Jax clicks his tongue. “Are the details really necessary?”
“We need to dig deep into every unfortunate event that happened to you if we want to find the root cause of all your worries. That’s what therapy is for! Just take your time thinking about it.”
A moment of silence fills the air.
“I straight up told Pomni that I never saw her as a friend.” Jax finally admits.
“And is that really how you feel?”
He shrugs, trying to look unfazed. Trying.
“Yeah?”
“Are you being honest with yourself?” Kinger asks one more time.
He blinks. “Yeah . . .?”
The lie detector around Jax’s wrist buzzes obnoxiously, brightly blaring red.
Jax jumps from his seat, startled as he didn’t expect the lie detector to pick up. “What the—?!”
The buzzing from the device stops.
“You mentioned being badly reminded of a friend earlier. Could you tell me what happened?”
Jax hesitates.
“Man, this is gonna be the first and last time I’ll ever get to talk about this. Once we’re done here, do your job right and pretend I never said anything. Got it?”
Kinger nods. "You can count on me!"
He drags out a sigh. “Okay. I had this . . . ‘friend.' Our humor clicked, and by then we were attached at the hip. I noticed we gradually got close. Like, he would open up to me everyday, and I kept learning more and more about him, including the parts of him he was deeply ashamed of. One day, we were hanging out. He pointed out how I knew so much about him, but he doesn’t know a thing about my secrets. Apparently he found that unfair. Because of how comfortable I felt already deep in the friendship, I told him something I shouldn’t have.”
He glances at Kinger before he can continue, surprised to see he’s even capable of listening without his attention span giving up on him.
“I opened up to him about my past. I don’t wanna specify, but it’s basically about me being someone I’m no longer not. The kind of person I used to be. This is a secret I swore I’d only keep to myself, but I just couldn’t help myself back then. I really thought I could trust him, open up about anything and he’d accept me for who I am, you know? But I was wrong. He didn’t react the way I expected. Instead, he hated me. Started shaming me. While that happened, I couldn’t think rationally. So in the heat of the moment, I impulsively used his past against him. Fighting fire with fire. Sure, he got a taste of his own medicine, but what I find so unfair was how he acted like the victim in the situation, pretending like he didn’t give me a reason to react the way I did. He made me feel like I was in the wrong for even trying to defend myself, but I do admit it was wrong of me to do it in that way. I probably could’ve worded myself better or handled it maturely. I was just . . . really hurt that day. I felt betrayed.”
Kinger lowers his notepad on his hand to look at him, his eyes sincere and full of sympathy. Jax continues to open up.
“I realized trust is just letting people have power over you. They can do whatever they want with the personal info you gave them, even using it for insensitive, selfish reasons. It’s scary, and it's exactly why I don’t open up anymore. At all. I hate being perceived.”
Once again, the lie detector emits the same obnoxious sound, startling them both. Although this time, the light is green.
“Thank you for trusting me with this, Jax. Will that be all?”
Jax thinks for a moment. “I have more to say, actually. Ever since that happened to me, I think opening up about your feelings makes you come off as pretty weak.”
“And why do you think that?”
“Imagine not being able to handle your problems yourself to the point you have to share them to other people. Exposing how vulnerable you are just makes you look weak.”
“Jax.” Kinger sits upright on his chair, determined to change his narrow perspective. “Opening up about your problems doesn’t make you weak at all. As a matter of fact, I think it just makes you stronger. It takes a lot of courage to share something so personal, as long as it’s with the right people.”
“How is that courageous?” he asks with a hint of attitude.
“You’re opening up while you’re vulnerable. Sometimes, you’re doing it with uncertainty. Maybe even scared. Courage isn’t the confidence to do something, it’s the courage to do things while you’re scared, and opening up can be scary sometimes. Don’t you think so?”
He contemplates for a moment. “I guess so."
He hates to admit it, but Kinger somehow manages to say all the right words. Kinger’s values and outlook on life makes him reevaluate his own.
“One day you’ll realize that your pent-up feelings have to go somewhere eventually. Try not to be so hard on yourself, okay?
“I’ll try.”
The lie detector beeps with the color green, proving his honesty.
“Good.” Kinger entwines his fingers on the desk, ready to give his overall advice. “You know, the way I see it, you keep your walls up because you’re scared of getting hurt again, and that’s completely understandable. It’s good that you’re looking out for yourself. Pushing people away is your way of feeling safe. But Jax, generalizing everyone as the same person who did you wrong isn’t exactly healthy. You shouldn’t let one person ruin every good thing coming your way.”
“But what if someone I think I can trust ends up being just like him?”
“Then that just means that person was never meant for you. Just like how bad people exist, there’s good somewhere out there too. Let the wrong people disappoint you, but never let them stop you from trying to seek out genuine connections. When you’re met with someone who seems nice, I suggest taking your time in getting to know them. I don’t mean knowing them for their humor, but their personality, who they really are as a person.”
Jax doesn’t say anything, but rather he quietly considers his advice. Then, he realizes something.
“Wait a minute. I can’t believe you’re actually giving me comprehensive advice right now." He abruptly sits up to look at him in disbelief. “How are you so . . . normal?”
“I told you.” Kinger delivers a smile by closing his eyes. “I think better when I’m in the dark.”
“Uhuh.” A dumbfounded expression forms on his face. He shakes his head then leans back down on the recliner, staring at the ceiling as he’s processing new information and perspectives. “About Pomni. I don’t know how to face her after what I said.”
Kinger’s eyes relax from hearing her name. “Pomni’s a genuinely nice girl. You wanna know the key to fixing a falling out friendship?”
“What?”
“Communicate,” he says. “It’s really that simple.”
Jax crosses his arms and faces him. “I beg to disagree. To me, communicating is like gambling. You don’t know if they’ll react in a good way or in a bad way. If it’s the latter, there’s a chance things will blow out of proportion. That’s why I avoid it at all costs. Staying quiet, avoiding the situation . . . It’s more peaceful that way.”
Kinger nods at Jax having a point. “That’s true, but the option to communicate with someone only applies here if you still want to keep them in your life. If you try reaching out and things go south, at least you can tell yourself you tried. Your heart is in the right place when trying, so if the person reacts negatively, that’s on them. It just shows they aren’t meant for you. You don’t have to keep running away with your tail between your legs. Jax, you deserve to be happy.”
For the first time, Jax wears a sincere look on his face, no longer hiding himself or shying away. "You know what, Kinger? That’s . . . actually pretty solid advice. You're not so bad around these parts, hooha. I like this rational side of you.”
He closes his small notepad and places it on his desk. “If you ever need me, feel free to swing by my pillow fortress any time. It’s dark in there, so I can listen. Oh! And consider giving your friendship with Pomni a chance. If that’s what you really want.”
Somehow, Jax feels as if a heavy weight is lifted off his chest. A warmth so comforting courses through him, both spiritually and mentally; it’s the same as receiving a tight hug from his mother back when he was a child. The memory is vague, but he recognizes that same feeling of being safe—maybe therapy isn’t so bad after all.
“I will,” he replies with sincerity in his eyes, and for the last time, the lie detector beeps with the bright green light.
Out of nowhere, an intense rumbling from a sudden earthquake catches the both of them off guard. Everything in the room starts glowing and slowly floating in the air, emitting shiny glitter dust as it surrounds the place. With the room so bright with everything up in the air, it’s almost as if they’re about to ascend into heaven.
“What the heck?!” Jax yells in a panic, grabbing the armrests of his recliner to maintain his balance. “What’s happening?!”
“I don’t know!” Kinger exclaims, his eyes frantically looking down at the ground. "Just try to stay calm!”
Just when they thought things couldn’t get any more random, a portal appears just right above them. Caine’s head pops out of it.
“Ah, there you are!” Caine says louder than usual, his voice audible over the loud shaking of the ground. “Good news, Jax! Your sanity meter’s back in the safe zone!”
“Oh, thank goodness,” Jax says with relief. “Can we go back now?”
“That’s exactly what I came here to do!” Caine claps his hand twice, making all the furniture get sucked in the portal like a vacuum cleaner. “Back to the circus we go!”
Jax grabs his bunny ears to stop them from flailing in the direction of the wind. He thinks Caine’s dramatic entrance is beyond unnecessary. “Can’t you just do the snapping thing—!”
The two of them instantly get sucked into the portal, losing all consciousness in a blip.
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After tossing and turning, shifting positions comfortably under familiar covers, Jax immediately wakes up. He quickly sits down and scans the place, finding himself back in the circus inside his room on the bed. The lie detector around his wrist is also nowhere to be found. The realization hits him that Caine had safely sent him and Kinger back to their respective rooms; he wishes Caine could’ve done so in a less flashy way, though. Slowly, he sits down. As he stares at his bedroom door, he notices a small pile of papers just right in front of the door’s gap from underneath the floor. Standing up and approaching it, he kneels down and gets a better look at it. He takes one from the pile. Two words stand out at the end of the paper among the body of text written on it:
Sincerely,
Pomni
Jax looks down at the rest of the other papers on the ground, seeing her name at the end of each one every single time.
She cares.
The reality of such makes him happy.
She cares, and that’s all that matters.
Just now, another unexpected letter slides its way inside from the other side of the door. He wastes no time to unlock his door and swings it wide open.
Standing right outside of his room, he’s met with a wide-eyed Pomni who’s frozen in place. She looks away, scratching the side of her neck and unsure of what to say after having no contact since their debacle.
Pomni attempts to initiate a conversation. “Look, I—”
Before she can even start, Jax drags her inside his room without warning. He closes the door and keeps his distance, walking away a bit with his back facing her.
She can’t tell what kind of expression he’s wearing. He’s just standing there, lowering his head, and his hands clenched in a fist. Upon seeing his hands, she can only assume the worst.
“Are you annoyed by the letters I’ve been sending?”
He doesn’t say anything.
”Uhm, if you’re going for revenge and you wanna beat me up for what I did, I don’t mind,” Pomni says between stutters. “Just make it quick and—”
“I’m sorry.”
The words no one ever expected him to say were spoken rather gently, leaving her speechless. “W-What?”
Jax finally turns around to face her, a despondent look on his face. “I said I’m sorry, Pomni. You’ve been nothing but a good friend to me, okay? I was just . . . scared of getting too close because the last time I did, it led to a lot of disappointment and hurt on my end.” His eyebrows knot with sorrow as tears roll uncontrollably down his cheeks. “But that’s all in the past now. Can you believe it? Kinger said I shouldn’t let one horrible person from the past ruin good things that come to me. Imagine? All those wise words coming from someone with zero thoughts behind his eyes? Kinger, of all people!” he forcefully chuckles, absolutely hating the vulnerable position he put himself in, so instinctively, finding something to laugh at has always been his way of coping through overwhelming emotions—though he's not sure if now is the right time to be doing all that.
How would he know? This is his first time pouring his heart out in regards to his feelings.
Embarrassed, Jax lowers his head while covering his face with his hands. “God, this is so cringe. I’m sorry for being like this, Pomni,” he sobs. “I’m sorry . . .” He crouches down to the ground, letting his pent-up feelings in the form of tears take over.
Suddenly, he can feel thin arms gently wrap around him—the same feeling Jax felt earlier after opening up to Kinger comes back. Being in Pomni’s embrace feels warm, comforting, and safe.
“It’s okay,” Pomni says softly. “You have nothing to be sorry for.”
Jax tightly returns the hug. “I promise, Pompom. I’ll give you context and explain why I am the way I am. I just don’t wanna end up disappointing you.”
She continuously caresses his back. “Hey, it’s okay. You don’t have to tell me anything. Don’t force yourself to open up if you don’t want to.”
He sniffles once more. “Really?”
“Yeah. It’s okay, Jax. I understand.” She reassures him sweetly. “Just let it all out. It must’ve been so hard for you keeping all of this to yourself, huh?”
Her kindness only makes his need to cry grow stronger. “Yes,” he whispers. “Yes, it has.”
Somewhere, sitting in the room, a folded paper among the pile of letters by the door unfurls, revealing what Pomni had written while the two of them are taking their time hugging in the background. Written in black ink, the words can be read as clear as day:
❛❛A Doll Needs Her Makeup Artist❜❜ | CHAPTER 1: Are Drunk Words Sober Thoughts?
ᯓ★ Masterlist
Status: Ongoing
Word Count: 2.8K
Summary: Ragatha receives a gift from Caine after The Awards Show: a makeup set. Instead of applying the cosmetics herself, she asks Pomni to do it for her.
As they grow close, they discover something else developing between them beyond just a mere friendship.
Tags: Pomni/Ragatha, WLW, GL, Fluff, Bisexual Pomni, Lesbian Ragatha, Girls Kissing, Post-Episode: s01e06 They All Get Guns
Awkwardly standing in front of the silent crowd, Caine bounces back from the embarrassment of falsely self-proclaiming himself as the winner with the help of delusion.
“Wait, what am I talking about? I won the favorite character award!” He tosses his script away. “These votes are rigged!”
Just like how he handles every minor inconvenience, he snaps his fingers, and Ming completely disappears.
“Now with that mistake out of the way, let’s move on to our next event!” He cartoonishly spins high into the air and spreads his arms and legs out in joy before coming to a stop, facing the crowd.
“The after party!”
Once again snapping his fingers, the place instantly transitions from being a theater, to a night club. Everyone is seated on a luxurious white sofa that curves the round table they share—all of them except for Jax. He’s still in the same spot far away, now sitting beside Ming and a few copies of Disappearing Guy sharing a table with him.
Not only did the place change, but their clothes as well: Pomni without her hat, now in a tight, black, sleeveless dress that hugs her thighs; Zooble in a royal-blue polo with the sleeves rolled up to their arms, tucked inside black pants; Gangle in a one-shoulder navy-blue dress that touches the floor at the ends; Kinger still in his robe, the only difference being the color purple being replaced with cheetah prints; and Ragatha in a long, burgundy silk dress with thin straps and a thigh slit.
Jax on the other hand? Pomni doesn’t bother to check. The uncomfortable tension from his well-deserved ass beating is still fresh, and she didn't want to give him the impression that she's gawking at him from afar. She’s firm on keeping her distance—for now.
A waiter wearing a black apron, who, as always, is another copy of Disappearing Guy like everyone else, offers the menu. The five of them pass it around, then return it after picking their order.
Zooble leans back on the sofa with their arms spread out along the back. “I’ll have a whole bottle of stupid sauce. Make it extra.”
Kinger raises one finger. “One bottle of tequila!”
“Oh, you’re having one too, Kinger? We can just share then,” Ragatha says.
Pomni leans forward a bit from her seat, her hands clutching the tip of her dress. “I’ll have a dispenser of sangria, please.”
“Will that be it?” the waiter asks, and everyone nods their head.
“So one bottle of extra stupid sauce, one tequila, and one dispenser of sangria. Coming right up!” The waiter takes his leave to the bar top.
Ragatha leans to the direction of the person sitting at the farthest edge of the sofa. “Are you not going to order anything, Gangle?”
The blaring sounds of the disco music drowns out her voice.
“What? I can’t really hear you.”
“You don't plan on buying yourself a drink?” She asks, her voice louder and clear this time.
“No, I’m sharing a bottle with Zooble,” Gangle replies with the same volume.
“Okay!”
While waiting for the drinks to arrive, Ragatha glances at Pomni beside her, thinking about what to say. She leans close to her ear to sound audible.
“H-Hey, Pomni. I know we were supposed to have a talk right after the show, but it’s too loud in here to hold a proper conversation.”
Pomni gives her a small smile. “It’s okay. We can talk about things when we’re back in the circus. No rush.”
Ragatha smiles back, relieved that their friendship is finally making progress. In just a decent amount of time, the waiter comes back, pushing a bar cart with their orders on it. He places them on the table along with a tray of five glasses. Before he leaves, he hands out a red gift bag for each of them.
“From Caine,” the waiter says. “He also left a while ago. Said he needed to be somewhere for a bit, so he’ll be back. Enjoy your night!” He takes his leave.
They open their gift bags, pulling the contents out for everyone to see.
“A watercolor set!” Gangle beams.
“That’s really cool, Gangle!” Ragatha praises.
Suddenly, her face turns discouraged. “But . . . I don’t know how to paint,” she mumbles.
Zooble lightly nudges her shoulder and speaks in a volume only she can hear. “I can teach you. We can paint together, if you want.”
“You’d do that?” Gangle’s face brightens up again, and Zooble nods in response.
“What did you get, Zooble?” Ragatha asks.
“I got . . .” Zooble rummages their hand inside, disappointed after taking it out. “Another arm. Ugh, so boring.” They shove the red squiggly arm back in the bag.
“Do my eyes deceive me? It’s . . . It’s—!” Kinger shows off his gift in front of them. “An insect collection!”
“Wow! Good for you, Kinger!” Ragatha quietly claps her hand.
“Congrats! You finally got what you’ve always wanted,” Pomni says.
“Couldn’t be me.” Zooble mutters to themselves.
“Okay. Since I’m beside Kinger, I guess I’m next.” Ragatha pulls out her gift from the bag. “A makeup set? I haven’t used makeup in like, forever. What’d you get, Pomni?”
“I got . . . a red hairpin? I don’t really have much use for this.”
Kinger lets out a satisfied gasp after taking a sip of his drink. “Now this is more like it!” The others grab a glass as well, filling theirs with their chosen orders. “Let’s all drink the night away after a hard day’s adventure! Man, we had such a blast today. Cheers!” He anticipatingly holds his glass out.
“Cheers!” They clink their glasses together, chugging to the last drop.
The five of them let loose, refilling their glasses until the alcohol gradually hits their system.
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Some time passes, and the alcohol finally kicks in.
Gangle and Zooble are slouched on the sofa, nearly slipping from their seats. Stupid sauce drips from Zooble’s left eyelid, while Gangle's mouth is smeared with it all over. Having the highest alcohol tolerance among them, Kinger ditches his glass and casually drinks from the tequila bottle. Ragatha’s arms rest behind the couch, her neck arched so far back that her face is almost upside down. On the other hand, Pomni just finished her sangria, only feeling sleepy and tipsy.
Thinking Ragatha passed out from intoxication, she abruptly leans forward, her head swaying slightly.
“Hey, P-Pomni! I, uhh . . .” She giggles to herself. “Bathroom break. Mmm . . . wanna come?”
“Sure. I’ll go with you.”
Ragatha wraps her arms around Pomni, catching her off guard and making her lean to the side.
“Yay!” In her drunken state, she childishly drags the word out.
“Oh dear. Try to walk properly, okay?” She slowly moves her arms away. Pomni holds her hand as they both stand up together, guiding Ragatha while looking for the bathroom.
Both of them walk to the back of the club. Upon passing by Jax, Pomni sees him in a white loose polo shirt and black pants. He’s knocked out with his face flat on the table, a half-empty bottle of whiskey beside him. A sad, sinking feeling washes over her, but she looks away and continues her search for the girl’s bathroom. After finding where it is, they enter.
Ragatha’s a giggling mess. “Why is everything . . . spinning!”
Pomni makes her stand in front of the sink as she turns on the faucet for her. “Because you’re drunk. Here. Wash your face first.”
Ragatha does what she says, taking her time splashing the water all over her face. She wipes herself dry with her arm.
“Uhh . . . That feels . . . better,” she says with droopy eyes.
“Just take your time sobering up. I’m right here.”
“Thank you, Pomni . . . Y-You— You’re so nice to me!” She smiles at Pomni in the mirror in front of them. “Oh, yeah! Almost forgot . . . hehe.” She turns around to face her. Using cartoon logic, she pulls out her gift bag from behind despite her dress not having any pockets.
“Oh. Cool! You brought your makeup with you.”
“Could you help put it on me, please . . . ? I wanna, hehe, try.”
“Put what on?”
Ragatha hums in thought, then takes the item of her choice out the bag while flailing it near her face. “Lipstick!”
“Okidoke. I’ll have trouble putting it on you because of our height differences, though. I have an idea.” She holds Ragatha’s hands as they switch places.
She presses her back and hands on the edge of the sink countertop, lifting herself up, now sitting on it. Her legs dangle from how tall it is.
“Come closer.”
Ragatha obediently complies. Pomni takes off the lipstick lid.
“Ooh, pretty. The color matches your dress!” Her right hand positions the red lipstick just inches away from her lips.
Ragatha places her hands on the counter on either side of Pomni; she feels nervous from the proximity,
“Okay. Just stay still . . .”
Pomni raises Ragatha’s chin a bit to angle the lipstick better. She starts with her upper lip, tracing its tip slowly until it looks full. She does the same to her bottom, hyperfocused on making it look neat. After applying, she leans back a bit to get a good look at her face, her eyes still half-lidded from the alcohol.
She looks really kissable right now.
Wait.
Huh?
“T-There we go!” Pomni chuckles nervously, flustered from her random thought. “All done! If that’s it, I’ll just . . . get off the counter now. If you could, uhh, excuse me a bit—”
“You don’t have to get off yet. We can take our time here.” Ragatha looks in the mirror to her right, appreciating the new look. She turns to Pomni, hands resting on either side of her on the countertop again. She’s back to keeping a close, intimate-looking distance. “W-What do you think, Pomni? Do you like it?”
“Y-Yeah! Of course I do. I think it looks . . . really pretty on you.”
She suddenly pouts. “You’re just saying that because you feel obligated being nice to me back. A-And you don’t actually mean it. You only feel bad!”
“What? No, not at all.”
“Then what else can you say is pretty about me?”
“I, uhh . . . really love your dress tonight. I think it really accentuates your, uhm . . . curves. I especially like how your dress and lipstick are the same color, but you already know that. And it’s not just what’s on the outside, but your personality makes you even prettier too. You’re nice to everyone, and I find that really admirable.”
Ragatha stretches her arms and moves one leg backwards, her torso slightly leaning with the direction. Her face is almost at eye-level with hers, except a bit lower.
Ragatha tilts her head to the side, wearing a satisfied grin. “Is this what people call flirting? Heh. Are you flirting with me?”
“H-Huh? No, I just answered your question. I didn’t mean to come off like that.”
“Hehe. I’m kidding. How would I know a thing or two about flirting?” Her shoulders shrug with each choppy giggle. “Hey, Pomni?”
“Yeah?”
Ragatha purses her lips; she looks reluctant, like something is weighing on her mind.
“What are your thoughts on dating a girl?”
Pomni’s gut feeling grows suspicious—Is this conversation heading where I think it’s heading? she thinks to herself.
She scratches the back of her head. “I never really thought of that. Personally, dating in general was never in my best interest my whole life. But thinking about it, I can see myself dating a girl . . . or boy. As long as they're nice to me and fun to be around, then that’s all that matters.”
“Huh, okay. Can I ask you another question?”
“Sure. Go ahead.”
“Hypothetically, if I would ask permission to kiss you, how would that make you feel?”
My gut feeling was right.
Pomni’s hands fly up to her chest, palms facing Ragatha. “Woah! Woah, okay. I see where this is going.” She rests her hands back on her own lap while giving her question enough thought. “Honestly? If it were from you, I . . . I wouldn’t mind.”
“You sure? You’re not saying that just because you’re drunk?”
“No, I don’t think so. Also, you can’t be talking. You’re the drunk one between the both of us, not me,” Pomni says, wearing a teasing smile with her arms crossed.
Ragatha narrows her eyes at her. “Hey, that’s mean. But okay, next question. Do you . . . think you’d like it?”
“Hmm. I don’t know. I mean, we’ll have to kiss each other first to find out, don’t we?”
“So you’re saying you wouldn’t mind getting a kiss from me?”
“Y-You know what? I don’t think you’re in the right headspace to be asking these questions, Ragatha. Look at you. Y-You’re drunk. You’ll either forget or regret everything you’re saying right now.”
“Nooo. You didn’t answer my question . . .” she whines, now looking down at the floor and refusing to look at her; Pomni finds it really cute.
She giggles. “Hey, don’t get upset. You really want an answer that bad?”
Ragatha nods, her head still facing the floor.
“Then my answer is yeah.” Pomni smiles shyly. “Y-Yeah. I wouldn’t mind. But not right now! Not when you’re drunk. Though I bet you won’t remember ever talking about this.”
“Hey, I wouldn’t kiss you in this state either. Besides, you’re drunk too! You’re the one who’s gonna forget!”
“Nah. I’m pretty sober right now, actually.”
Who wouldn’t be after the prettiest girl in the circus is making moves on her?
Pomni chuckles. “Your questions are so out of pocket. Why do you sound like you actually wanna kiss me?”
“Because I do? I’ve been drawn to you since the day you first got here in the circus.”
Pomni’s head backs up a bit from the bold confession, but she refuses to take it personally.
She’s drunk. She doesn’t mean it and probably meant it in a platonic way.
“So you’re the chaotic flirty type when you’re drunk, huh? Don’t worry, Ragatha. I’ll save you the embarrassment and not take anything you’re saying seriously.”
Feeling upset, Ragatha doesn’t say anything. Instead, she leans in to give Pomni a peck on the cheek, then quickly pulls away, proud to see the prominent red lipstick mark she made. Pomni stares at her in shock, mouth slightly agape.
“Is this enough for you to take me seriously? I actually really . . .” Her head sways side-to-side, slowly succumbing from the dizziness of the alcohol. “Really . . .”
She collapses backwards as her back hits the ground, completely passed out.
Still sitting on the counter, Pomni stares at her, still having a dumbfounded expression on her face. The tips of her fingers gently touch right below the kiss mark; her heart beats fast, and a comforting warmth blooms within her chest.
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Ragatha wakes up and finds herself in her room. Then, it dawns on her—last night’s conversation with Pomni vividly flashes in her mind.
Her body recoils from the embarrassment; remembering last night’s events is like accidentally touching a hot frying pan.
Panicky, she puts her hands on her chest, seeing herself back in her default blue dress. Without a second thought, she gets off the bed and goes out of her room.
Bursting her door open, Ragatha comes face-to-face with Pomni, already standing right outside. She presses her lips into a line, eyes looking like there’s not a single soul left behind them.
Pomni raises her hand in a greeting gesture. “Hey, about last night—”
“Last night? What about last night? Haha! I don't remember anything!” she says, speaking fast from how nervous it feels from seeing her again.
Pomni looks a bit sad. “Oh. Y-You don’t? I mean, it’s understandable. You were really out of it, so . . .”
“Yeah, totally! I was so drunk back there at the party. Uhh, I didn’t say anything to make you uncomfortable, did I?” A forced chuckle escapes as she tries to sound more convincing.
Pomni quickly shakes her head. “Nope! Trust me. You didn’t, so don’t worry about it. If you did, I’d let you know. I always make it clear when someone crosses my boundaries.” She smiles kindly, making her feel reassured. “Anyway, about that talk . . .”
“W-What talk?!” She exclaims defensively, but then the memory clicks, and she puts on a neutral demeanor. “Oh wait, you mean the one we were supposed to have after the show?”
Pomni nods. “Is now a perfect time for us to talk about stuff? I have something really important to tell you.”
“Yeah, I’m free right now. You okay with . . . talking privately in my room? Oh! Also, are you fine with helping me do my makeup? I plan on trying out all of them, but it doesn’t feel fun if I do it by myself,” Ragatha says, looking for an excuse to get a proper look at her face up close this time.
“Sure! I’d love that.”
Pomni enters her room. As the door closes, another one in the hallway opens.
Jax peeks outside from his room, staring at Ragatha’s door. Hearing their muffled voices, he narrows his eyes at the faint sound of them getting along.
Summary: Ragatha receives a gift from Caine after The Awards Show: a makeup set. Instead of applying the cosmetics herself, she asks Pomni to do it for her.
As they grow close, they discover something else developing between them beyond just a mere friendship.
Tags: Pomni/Ragatha, WLW, GL, Fluff, Bisexual Pomni, Lesbian Ragatha, Girls Kissing, Post-Episode: s01e06 They All Get Guns
None of them like where this situation is heading one bit.
“Caine . . . ? Is this really necessary?” Ragatha calls out, but he doesn’t respond.
The remnants of the atmospheric environment are nowhere in sight, and only their bodies stand out in the complete dark. As all three of them are starting to get anxious, Jax takes a step forward.
“You want your keys back?” He digs his hand into his pocket and takes out the ring of keys, holding them out. “Take it! I don’t want any part of your lame punishments.”
Emerging from the darkness, Caine zooms right in front of Jax’s face without any warning. He falls backwards, startled to see him pop out of nowhere. Sitting on the ground with his hands supporting him, he reaches his arm out again to offer the keys. Caine takes them, and Jax is back on his feet.
Caine looks at the keys back in his possession, then at Jax. “How did you get this?” he asks flatly; it’s always odd to hear Caine talk without his usual theatrical flair.
“You dropped it when I saw you on your way getting frisky with the Moon,” Jax responds straightforwardly. “Anyway, can we, like, go now?”
Caine’s silent for a moment, his eyes slowly turning in opposite directions before he’s mentally present again. The upbeat tone in his voice comes back. “I appreciate your honesty, Jax, but I’m afraid you’ve gravely disappointed me. Since you don’t seem to grasp the concept of consequences, you leave me no choice but to rightfully punish you!”
”W-Wait!” Pomni steps in. ”Jax stealing your keys doesn’t sound too bad. Can’t you, uhh . . . let this one slide?”
“No can do, my dear! Without punishments, how am I supposed to teach you all how to learn from your mistakes?”
“Uhm, positive reinforcement sounds really nice. A praise for honesty, I suppose?”
“Wrong! Lessons are learned better when you experience the consequences of your actions! And in order for all of you to never think of disobeying me again, everyone gets to join Jax in the fun!”
“What?” Fear is written all over Ragatha’s face. ”Caine, how about we talk this ou—”
“Getting rid of my punishments is like the equivalent of getting rid of my adventures! If we remove either one of them, then where's the fun in that?” With the raise of his hand and a snap of a finger, only darkness lingers, and their distinct forms that once stood out are nowhere to be seen.
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Pomni wakes up.
Her surroundings didn’t change. She finds herself lying down on the pitch-black ground as she slowly sits up, slightly irritated from a headache. She looks down at her hands and notices a rope tied around her waist, confused as to how it ended up there. Attempts to untie it led to no avail; it almost feels as if it's glued to her body. The rope continues from behind, the rest of it hanging upward. When she sees where the rest of it leads, she finds it hanging over a tall red guillotine curtain that’s closed behind her, the end of the rope hidden on the other side. To her left, she sees Jax just a few feet away, also in the exact same situation; it appears to be just the two of them. She tries to call out to him, but the words won’t come out. As her hand caresses her mouth, she realizes it’s not there.
As Jax regains consciousness and looks at her, Pomni notices his mouth is gone as well. He points at her face, drawing attention to the same problem, then brings his hand to where his mouth should be. Both tied up and stripped of their ability to talk, Pomni looks at him with a panicked expression.
“Rise and shine, my brave superstars!” Caine pops out in the darkness, standing in the air just in front of them. “First, we’ll start off with something mildly psychologically damaging! How does that sound? Oh, wait— You guys can’t talk!” he exclaims, laughing like a madman.
“See that door over there?” He points at one in the distance behind him. “What if I told you . . . that it was the real exit?”
The door opens by itself, revealing a bright light. Images of faceless, actual real-life people flash before their eyes—people in a park with one of them walking their dog, an office full of busy workers, cloud-shrouded mountains, and a group of teenagers talking to each other in a mall, smiling and having fun.
Starving for the touch of the distant reality, they both yearn to go back to their old lives.
“There’s only one minute to get to the door before it disappears forever! This is no easy task with the unidentified weight pulling the both of you back, so good luck!” He claps his hands twice, and Bubble comes out of his top hat.
“You called?”
“Bubble, prepare the whistle!”
He conveniently pulls one from behind and bites on it, waiting for Caine’s instructions.
Caine begins his countdown.
“Three . . . Two . . . One!”
Bubble blows the whistle.
Jax and Pomni mindlessly make a run for it, but constantly get pulled back by their rope behind them. Determined to leave, Jax pulls on his rope forcefully with all the strength he can muster in his body. He feels the weight lift from behind the curtain because the more he pulls, the longer the rope becomes, giving him more freedom to run without the weight preventing him from moving towards the door. Jax continues to do this, while Pomni’s visibly struggling—crawling on all fours, then getting back up on her feet to run, only to end up face-flat on the floor from the rope pulling her back. Nonetheless, she’s also making progress.
The door feels close within their grasp. Just one final push, and they can both reach the knob. Despite profusely sweating, aggressively inhaling through their non-visible noses, and their bodies becoming strained, they refuse to give up. With Jax leading, he’s finally standing right in front of the door. He dramatically swings his arm to grab the knob, and—
The door disappears in a blip.
Completely disillusioned to have their efforts turn to nothing, Jax looks back at Pomni, an expression on her face that looks so close to breaking down, and then up at Caine. Jax doesn’t hide an inch of his frustration in his glare.
“Whoops, time’s up!” Caine grips his walking stick close to his face. “Don’t worry, your efforts weren't all for nothing! At least the both of you got a little bit of exercise, and . . . Bubble? Draw the curtains, please!”
He bites his way to control the fly system as the curtain lifts. They look up, anticipating what all that heavy load earlier was about. The two of them expect to see sandbags weighing them down in this fixed pulley system they’re subjected to, but as the curtain opens, Pomni feels sick to her stomach, staring at the sight before her in horror.
Tied at the end of their ropes, they see the bodies of Kinger and Ragatha hanging by their necks. Ragatha’s hair sticks up, and Kinger’s entire body glows brightly from being out of breath. Their hands uselessly scratch and pull on the tight noose.
“Look!” Caine points at them while laughing. “They’re flying!”
With a snap of a finger, he summons Ragatha’s physical mouth back and both of their voices again. They cough and gag from the suspension around their necks. Ragatha’s arm twitches as she reaches it out to Jax and Pomni, struggling to let out a coherent sentence.
“H-Help—! Dying! ” she chokes out, barely audible.
Instinctively, Pomni tries to run towards Kinger as a way for the rope to loosely drop him back to the ground, but fails. She looks down at her feet, seeing a heavy ball and chain individually locked to her and Jax’s ankles. It’s not long until Kinger and Ragatha pass out, and their seemingly lifeless bodies dangle in the piercing silence—Pomni has no mouth, and she must scream.
“Now, what does our main convict, and you, my dear Pomni, have to say about all of this?” He snaps his finger, giving Jax and Pomni their mouths back.
“Make us leave already!” Pomni cries.
“Hilarious take, dear! What about you, Jax? Are you thrilled to see the person you hate most suffer in your hands?” he asks in exhilaration, referring to Ragatha as he points at him using his walking stick. Despite the disturbing situation, Jax gives him an unimpressed look with his arms crossed.
“I gotta admit, Caine, you really got us good there! I was actually convinced that you’d let us leave the place, so good job on making me look pathetic and desperate! Reminds me of my early days,” he says cockily. “Oh, and nice try, but we can’t die from oxygen deprivation. You’d never allow that. All it takes is a snap of your fingers, and we’ll be good as new.”
“Technically, yes, but that doesn’t make any of you susceptible to pain! I can even increase the intensity of the feeling, if I want to!”
Jax lets out a bored sigh, keeping his cool. “God, what kind of a freak are you, Caine? Just let us out already, will ya?”
Out of nowhere, the sound of a door creaking open interrupts them.
“Uh, hello?” Zooble calls out from outside. “Oh, there they are. What’s with this huge box? This wasn’t here before.”
Gangle peeks over their shoulder. “We came back because the end of the cave said we have to leave together and hold ha—” Gangle goes wide-eyed and screams from seeing Kinger and Ragatha hanging. “W-What’s going on?! Why are they up there like that?”
“Just what the hell is going on here?” Zooble asks, eyeing the disturbing sight with full judgement.
An awkward silence ensues between all of them.
“Now I know why something felt missing!” Caine exclaims.
His hands become enlarged, one grabbing Gangle and Zooble while squeezing them tightly, and the other snapping his fingers shut, making the rest of the members disappear along with the disturbing equipment. Just like a magician, he shakes his free hand once, revealing them in his grasp.
“The punishment process will flow like a three course meal! It’s time for the appetizer!”
“Finally! I was just starting to get really hungry!” Bubble says gleefully.
Caine is about to have another time of his life—why? Because it’s intermission time! He pours out all his creative freedom as he’s about to put them through a series of agonizing experiences in an expeditious manner. He takes what he said earlier about being able to increase their sensitivity to pain literally, aching to make them feel every inch and every detail of the pain he’s going to inflict; this is it: the ringmaster basking in the glory of his own twisted, sadistic nature.
He summons a large blender and tosses them inside, turning it on without a second thought. Stripped of their numbing filter, they can feel the raw pain after being cut bit-by-bit as their blood-curdling screams pour out from inside. Only the contents of their fragile cartoon bodies rapidly spin around, the brutal lacerations mutilating their entire being until they’re unrecognizable, reducing them to a thick, soupy substance.
Caine turns the blender off. He telekinetically controls it and then summons a large bowl, pouring them in it. He holds a large spoon and gives an extra to Bubble, the two sipping uncontrollably until it’s quickly finished. Both of them look at each other with a delighted expression.
Bubble lets out an obnoxious burp as he pukes out Kinger, Gangle, and Zooble inside the bowl—fully intact again. Caine follows, puking out Ragatha, Pomni, and then Jax. Their bodies are also in mint condition.
But their mental state sure as hell isn’t.
Caine proceeds to the next part of the process—the main course. He impales them on a wooden stick through their stomachs and turns them into barbecue skewers. With all of them still half conscious, they feel the flesh-ripping pain as his teeth sink deep into their skin. He pulls until they’re torn away from their bodies, chews them up completely, and spits them out again—the cycle repeats. They continue to suffer through the unending pain . . .
And then he chops them into thin slices on a cutting board.
And then he burns them alive on a griller.
And then he shreds them to pieces with a grater.
And then he roughly jams them into a meat grinder.
And then he traps them inside a boiling pot.
And then, he finally stops. The intermission comes to an end, and all the circus members are lying on the ground, traumatized from the ruthless torture they were forced to endure. Pomni lies sideways to hug herself in discomfort, rubbing her arms as if still feeling the pain linger from everything that just happened.
“Please . . .” she begs, her voice in a whisper, “no more.”
Caine’s devious laughter echoes around the dark void. He floats just a few feet above them. “Now that was so much fun!”
Bubble floats just right beside him. “You’re not just gonna end it here, are you?”
“Of course not, Bubble! We’re already down to the last course! What should we make for dessert?”
Bubble playfully sticks his tongue out while making a racket before saying the first idea that comes to mind. “What about a cream pie?”
“That’s . . .” Caine pauses, and then beams. “A great idea! You know me very well, Bubble! I just love my desserts stuffed and loaded!”
Out of nowhere, a “badum-tss” sound effect plays from the sexual innuendo.
Caine’s body grows large as he clutches a spoon and fork in either hand, his shadow hovering over them as they lie helplessly on the floor. Seeing as they have no other choice, they hopelessly accept their fate.
Kinger whispers to himself before facing what’s to come next. “Someone . . . help us.” He closes his eyes, his hands covering his face in fear.
Then, far beyond anyone’s expectations, a bee shows up and flies past Caine. Distracted, he shrinks back to his normal size, staring at it with utmost admiration. It starts off with a singular bee, to a swarm of them surrounding him.
“My, my . . . what marvelous beauty!” His eyes go completely dilated, and his face glitches a bit. The bees circle him until he can no longer be seen.
“Uhm, Caine? I think you forgot to fix another bug—” Bubble gets cut off as the swarm of bees also covers him entirely.
Is this finally it?
Distinct static sounds are coming from Caine and Bubble, making it clear that the two have become a glitching, malfunctioning mess. The circus members stand there, deeply puzzled and clueless on how to react at the random turn of events, but does that really matter?
They’re free. No longer wrapped around his finger.
And that’s all that matters.
“Are you all okay?” Kinger asks with a sense of priority for them.
“No . . .” Gangle’s voice trembles like she’s about to cry.
“Yeah!” Ragatha replies, the eased look on her face replaced by dismay as she processes what they’ve been through. “At least, for now.”
“After being skinned alive and stabbed so many times? Oh, you sure bet!” Jax says, snarky as ever.
Lost and livid from what they got dragged into without reason, Zooble snaps. “Can someone tell me what the f[%$!#]ck is going on?! Why is Caine suddenly punishing us?” They look at Pomni, expecting the most rational answer coming from her.
“About that . . .” Pomni fidgets with her hand, then looks at Jax who’s behind her. “I-I think it’s better if you hear it directly from Jax.”
Annoyance can be felt as Zooble breathes out. “Why am I not surprised?”
Jax laughs nervously in response, which gets under their nerves.
“You think dying over and over again is funny? What did you do?”
“Zoobie,” he drawls, defensively raising his hands at chest-level, “I’ll explain all the context you need if you swear not to choke me again. Pinky promise?” Even at a time like this, he can still afford to act playful. He stretches his pinky out, inviting them to entwine.
“No.” They walk towards him, shoulders leaning each step to appear intimidating.
Jax shamelessly flashes a smug grin. “You are in a mood today, aren’t you?”
Gangle stops them by standing in their way. “I think it’s best not to stress ourselves out right now. Caine putting us through a lot was already stressful enough.”
Zooble’s eyes gently focus on the sight of her. They stand in place with their arms crossed, glaring at him once more. “Explain yourself.”
He sighs. “I stole his keys when he dropped them. In my defense, he can always teleport or use his powers to duplicate another one, so I didn’t think he’d care if his dumb keys went missing. Wasn’t expecting Toothache to go berserk like that.”
“This is clearly a you problem. Why the hell did he drag us all into this?”
“Actually, uhh,” Gangle cuts in. “I hate to say this, but Jax does have a point. Caine’s usually friendly with us, but if it weren’t for what happened, I think he would’ve left Jax off the hook and thank him instead. I’ve noticed him slowly losing his temper lately. Like, when he’s around Zooble, I catch him acting kind of . . .” She tries to find the right word.
“Hostile?” Zooble finishes her sentence. “Yeah, I picked up on his weird behavior too.”
“Aww. Thanks for siding with me, Gangy. What are best friends for, am I right?” Jax says, acting all chummy. Gangle just stares at him weirdly and doesn't say anything, while Zooble quietly judges him, not bothering to care about his insufferable personality.
“So you pissed him off and instead of punishing you only, he took it out on all of us. Great. ” Zooble rolls their eyes.
“Is this the first time Caine’s ever punished anyone?” Pomni asks.
“Yeah. I didn’t think the day would come, to be honest. Guess he’s starting to not like us anymore,” Zooble replies.
Ragatha steps in the conversation. “Guys? How about discussing the elephant in the room? Just where exactly did the random swarm of bees come from?”
They look around to find its source, then spot the door that Zooble opened earlier, slightly ajar; the background of the adventure can be seen from outside. Coincidentally, instead of more than enough bees entering, a sparkle of fireflies make their way inside the darkness. They fly towards all six of them, radiating a sense of comfort—something they exactly need after being forced through all the tangible torture.
As the fireflies lightly brush against them, they fly back to the door. Fascinatingly enough, half of them push it wide open, now flying in place just around it as if waiting for the six of them to come along.
Pomni freaks out, pulling down on her lappets from the stress. “This is all too random! What the heck is happening?”
“I think they want us to follow them.” Kinger’s so mesmerized by the fireflies that his pupils dilate in admiration.
“Did they tell you that?” Jax says dryly.
“Jax . . . stop being mean.” Pomni snaps out from her slight meltdown just to scold him.
“Sorry.”
Ragatha voices out her concern. “Hey, how about we all get out of here first and talk more from there? And if Kinger’s intuition serves him right, then let’s just follow the fireflies! After all, they look harmless. Maybe they might also help us?”
Already standing beside each other, Kinger turns to face her. “I was about to say. Staying here any longer doesn’t feel safe, especially with both of them still up there.” He looks at Bubble and Caine in the air, still completely covered by the swarm of bees.
Ragatha agrees with him. “Right . . . Good call.”
They all walk together towards the door, surprised to see the spark of fireflies still surrounding it. As soon as they pass by the two AIs in their dormant state, they hear an item drop to the floor. It catches all of their attention, and they turn around to see what it could possibly be.
All of them slowly approach the small, purple bulky object on the ground with a cautious expression. Curious, Jax picks it up. The others huddle closely to also take a good look, and it turns out to be Caine’s wacky watch. There’s a green text displayed on the screen:
System Error: Sensory Overload. Initiating Emergency Reboot… 0.1%
Jax slightly cranes his neck back, still staring at the watch in hand. “What’s this supposed to mean? Is he overstimulated by the bees or something?”
“I’m pretty sure there's a term for that, but I’m no psychiatrist,” Gangle says.
“Okay, I’m keeping this.” Jax motions his hand to his pocket but stops halfway, Zooble’s stern voice startling him.
“You are not about to get us all in trouble again. I say we just leave it here.”
“You can’t be serious, Zoobie.” Jax’s arm rests on his side with the watch still in hand. “Isn’t it obvious that Caine’s not recovering from being buggy any time soon? Just look at this. It’s still stuck at 0.1 percent!”
“Don’t care. What are you gonna do when it’s done loading? Does it take getting punished a second time for you to finally learn your lesson?”
“Ugh, so pessimistic! We’re free to do whatever we want right now. Stop being so hung up about this.”
Jax exhibiting a carefree spirit minutes after a siege of torturous, gut-wrenching events drives Zooble up the wall. They’re starting to wish Caine continued with the punishment process, except obviously, it’s only him rightfully going through it.
“You stealing is what got all of us punished in the first place!”
“We’re stuck here for all eternity and can’t die. Does it really matter?”
Fuming with rage, Zooble tries their best not to let their anger slip through their words. They let out a frustrated groan as they turn around, their back now facing him in defeat. Gangle holds their hand to calm them down.
Pomni gives him a heavy side-eye. ”You’re fine with going through that again? What’s wrong with you?” She glances away and then back at him, then whispers low enough only for him to hear. “Are you some kind of masochist?”
Jax’s pupils grow as wide as his smile. He bends down to her level, his hand on the side of his mouth as he leans close to her ear.
“Wanna find out?” he whispers back.
Pomni’s taken by surprise. “W-What’s that supposed to— Huh?” she stammers, a faint red color spreading across her face.
“Anyway! Ya got me.” Jax drops the watch back to the ground. “Guess I’ll just leave this piece of junk here then.”
“Wait.”
Everyone directs their attention to Kinger. He approaches the watch, picking it up and then closely observing it. He grips it tightly, now wrapped around his hand. “I think I’m . . . remembering something. I’m not sure what exactly, but looking at this just feels so . . . familiar.”
“Yup. We lost him,” Jax comments.
“I’m taking this with me.” Kinger keeps the watch safe inside his purple king’s robe.
“Kinger, we just talked about this,” Zooble says, their voice pleading.
“Yeah, getting on Caine’s nerves even more isn’t exactly what we need right now,” Ragatha says, siding with them.
“I know you’re all worried, but . . . It just feels like I was involved with this watch somewhere in the past somehow. I still can’t point my finger on it.”
“I believe you.” Pomni’s voice comes to the forefront. Everyone’s surprised to see she’s in favor of Kinger bringing it with him. “I know the uncertainty of Caine actively functioning again is scary, but I trust Kinger.”
“And I’m not?” Jax feels too offended to care about sounding self-absorbed and acts dramatic about it. “You choose to back Kinger up but not me? You’re hurting my feelings here, Pompom!”
Pomni completely disregards him and continues to stand by Kinger’s choice anyway.
“When Kinger and I did an adventure together once, his mind tends to be the most stable in the dark. I can vouch that he also starts remembering things better. I’ve seen how reliable he can be.”
Kinger’s eyes wrinkle with sincerity. “Thank you, Pomni.”
Zooble sighs at the idea, but looks rather calm. “If that’s really what you’re going for, then alright,” they say with no objections this time.
Jax’s jaw drops in disbelief, feeling disrespected by the rapid switch-up. “I didn’t know you were such a biased prick.”
“Not really. I just don’t trust you. End of story,” they reply flatly.
“Whatever.” Jax walks past all of them, heading to the door. “Pack it up, I’m sick of complaining. Let’s go already before Zooble ends up bursting my eardrums.”
They finally leave the dark place, and the fireflies follow them as if joined at the hip. They find comfort once more in being back in the adventure’s picturesque environment, and after taking their time quietly passing through the lone path leading to the end, they now stand before it—a dead end, with the tall stone wall hollowed out all the way down to the ground. There’s a note attached to the left side of the wall in comic sans font:
To proceed with the adventure, everyone must hold hands :)
Pomni exhales. “Okay! Just hold hands, and get this nightmare over with,” she mumbles under her breath. They all position themselves to stand side-by-side.
“Gotcha!” Jax holds Pomni’s hand, catching her by surprise.
Ragatha follows, holding his other hand—followed by Kinger, and then Gangle, and then Zooble. A bright blue light, which simultaneously swims in different shades, emerges throughout the corners of the hollowed wall; the portal slowly swirls like the milky way. Together, they step forward, finally entering it.
Instead of finding themselves back in the circus, they all space out in the new location they’re brought to, hands still holding one another. Encompassed in an endless blueish-white desolation, the place naturally pushes them deeper into its ample space with thin, transparent cubes scattered everywhere, rapidly passing by them. The place feels like a strong gust of fresh air, carrying a fever dream atmosphere—here they are, venturing out into The Void.
The fireflies that latched onto them earlier also came along, though they gradually reduce in numbers because of being blown away by the speed they’re moving. The six of them are quiet, wonderstruck by the view.
Just when the trip seems never-ending, they slow down to a stop. Being the only thing out of place, a brown wooden door is seen in the middle of the transparent cube in front of them. The unknown force no longer pushes them further, and they miraculously stand on an invisible surface. They let go of each other's hands and walk towards the door, which Kinger opens.
All of them step inside the already lit room. The place isn’t too big nor too small; there’s enough space for them to comfortably move around. They observe the ordinary room—beautiful landscape paintings are on the dark blue walls, all in different sizes; everything appears to be made of wood, like the glossy flooring as well as the furniture; a full bed is positioned vertically in the left corner against the wall, while an old-fashioned wardrobe is positioned on the right; drawers can be seen occupying the rest of the corners, with action figures and a few picture frames on top of them. Out of every detail mentioned, only one thing that stands out, and it’s the items sitting in the middle of the room—there’s one chair and a desk with a lit lamp and an old computer with small, yellow notes sticking on both sides of the screen. Its design is primitive, grey, and bulky, facing the door’s entrance.
A firefly comes out of Kinger’s robe. He follows it and turns to his left, seeing it land on a picture frame on top of a drawer. It covers the face of a woman who’s hugging a happy young man beside her, their cheeks pressed against each other. Soon, the firefly’s light flickers, slowly growing weaker. Emitting its final light, its body gives out, falling on the drawer to its death as it reaches the end of its short lifespan. The young woman’s face is finally revealed, and her eyes shine just as brightly as her smile.
“A bedroom in the middle of the void? Can this adventure get any more random?” Jax sits down on the bed and lies there with his arms sprawled.
Gangle looks at the paintings on the right side of the wall, with Zooble standing by her side. “Is this still even part of the adventure?” she says.
Pomni walks to Kinger’s side. She looks at the picture frame on the drawer, then at Kinger, his eyes focused on something hanging on the wall. Now staring at the same thing he is, she sees a diploma.
Entomon Wood University
The Board of Trustees of the University by virtue of the authority vested in them and on the recommendation of the faculty of
College of Engineering
Have conferred the degree of
Bachelor of Science
Computer Science
on
Sean Edward Chiplock
With all the honors, rights, and privileges pertaining thereto.
Given on the 15th day of May, in the year 1999.
Embossed below is the school’s seal, with the school principal’s and dean’s name and signature neatly inked between it.
Pomni’s having a gut feeling—one that might be able to help Kinger revisit his memories better. She turns around to look for one thing in particular in the room, and spots what she’s looking for just right by the door.
“Ragatha, could you turn off the light, please?”
Being the closest to the switch, she flips it, and the ceiling light turns off; only the light emitting from the lamp keeps the room dim.
Finding comfort in the darkness, Kinger stares intently back at the woman in the picture. His brows furrow, a sense of longing in his expression. Lying in front of it, he gently picks up the dead firefly and rests it on the palm of his hand.
“Is this your doing, honey . . . ?” he whispers softly.
Suddenly, Kinger winces in pain, his free hand pressed flat against his forehead. Everyone looks at him, confused, and Pomni rubs her hands together with worry.
“A-Are you okay?” she asks, concerned.
Ragatha hurriedly comes to him. “What’s wrong? Does your head hurt? Maybe you should get some rest, Kinger.”
He puts the firefly back on top of the drawer. “I’ll be fine. It’s just a headache . . . I think I need to sit down for a moment.”
He walks to the bed and sits down on the extra space next to Jax. Annoyed to have his space invaded, Jax stands up and leaves. He approaches the computer in the middle of the room and stares at the PC case’s power button, his finger on its way to press it.
“Don’t even think of touching that,” Zooble says from behind.
His finger stops just inches away, and an exhausted sigh leaves his mouth. “Geez, can you stop being so all up in my business?”
He doesn’t bother looking at Zooble as it would dampen his mood even more; the two have been constantly at each other’s throats today (quite literally), and he refuses any part in it any longer. Pomni walks to Jax’s side, with Ragatha also beside her.
”Look at these drawings.” Ragatha points out the yellow sticky notes on either side of the computer screen. Pencil sketches of what looks like different styles of Caine are drawn on them, his wacky versions scribbled over and discarded with a thick “X.” A sketch of how he exactly looks is the only one left untouched.
“Caine took his sweet time drawing himself?” Jax sneers. “Talk about being a narcissist.”
“Caine didn’t draw that.”
Everyone turns around to look at Kinger, no longer resting on the bed as he walks close to them. His brows furrow expressively, emphasizing how bothered and hesitant he looks, like he’s . . . guilty about something. He anxiously rubs his hands together as he looks at them.
“It’s . . .” He takes a deep breath. “It’s my fault we’re all in this mess.”
The five of them are at a loss for words, sharing the same look of confusion on their faces.
“What?” Pomni asks.
“It’s me. I . . . I drew that. This bedroom. These sketches. They belong to me.” The emotional weight of his words are intense. “I’m responsible for creating this place. I remember developing this game . . . and creating Caine. My memories . . . Everything’s starting to make sense now.”
Jax clearly isn’t having it, taking his words with a grain of salt. “Is it just me, or is Kinger being all sorts of crazy today? Just sit back down, Kinger! You’re gonna scare everyone with your delusional ramblings again.”
Ragatha makes a suggestion. “How about hearing him out first? I wanna know where this is coming from.”
“He’s just being a little psychotic right now. Kinger saying the weirdest things isn’t something new, so why believe him now?”
“Because him being rational and helping us sort out our differences earlier certainly was something new, right? Ever since that happened, Kinger’s been acting . . . different. Like, he’s actually being serious with what he says.”
Jax considers it, but still has his doubts. “You do have a point. We know now that he has his rare moments where he actually uses his brain for once, but come on. Saying the most ridiculous things? He’s just going mad again, like he always does.”
Ragatha looks at him with disappointment, realizing him being a jerk will always remain a shameless part of him. “Is that any way to treat someone who literally helped lift your burden?”
“Jax,” Pomni cuts in, “let’s just listen to what Kinger has to say. Please?”
Jax’s focus is all on her. A combination of her pretty, wide eyes and polite “please” makes him feel somewhat tingly inside. He crosses his arms with a grumpy look, and as if hypnotized, his reluctant opinion is instantly swayed just like that.
“Fine.”
Pomni smiles at how easily he listens to her. He becomes flustered from their eye-contact and looks away, slouching his back a bit. She turns to face Kinger again.
“Go on. Tell us everything we need to know, Kinger. We’ll listen.”
Ragatha and Zooble nod while looking at him, clearly assuring him that they’re on her side. Gangle timidly clasps her hands and smiles at him, her way of also agreeing. Now that he feels more comfortable to open up, his eyes and overall demeanor become more relaxed.
“Wait. Before I talk about it, do any of you have any questions for me? Maybe some clarification on something?” Kinger asks.
“I do, actually,” Pomni responds with her hand slightly raised. “Uhm— Is ending up here in the void part of the adventure . . . ?”
“Ooh, about that. Yeah, it is. My memory only ever comes back to me when I’m in the dark, so I wrote this suggestion inside my pillow fort. I also knew that Caine would hide my room in the most restricted area of the circus, so my best bet was the void. You know how the suggestion format is just the title and description? Caine only ever reads the title out loud, so I thought that maybe he didn’t bother reading the details. He snaps his finger, and then boom, turns the description into code without knowing what it is. I decided to take the risk, and surprisingly it worked.”
Ragatha’s been meaning to find the answer to something that happened just a while ago. “I have a question. Those bees and fireflies earlier . . . was that also a part of your plan? The timing of them saving us felt so perfect.”
He shrugs. “I actually wonder the same thing.”
“What?” Ragatha looks surprised.
“The bees and fireflies saving us wasn’t my idea at all. Though, I kind of think . . .” He glances at the picture frame of him and his wife in the corner, then shakes his head. “Nevermind. Guess we just got lucky. Any more, uh, questions?”
“Yeah.” Jax joins in. “Why’s your memory so buns? Is there more to it besides old age or losing your sanity?”
“I’m a hundred percent sure that Caine’s behind my sporadic memory loss. There is one thing he failed to get a hold of, though, and that’s the fact that he can’t control emotions. I spent the last moment with my wife in the dark, and every time I’m strongly reminded of her, my mind feels . . . calm. I didn’t think I could bypass Caine’s mind control through the love I have for my wife, but here I am.”
“But what makes emotions so different from thoughts? Why is that an exception?” Gangle asks.
“Well, from how I see it, that’s because he’s AI. They’re not designed to understand feelings, that’s why. How about you, Zooble? Got anything you like to ask?”
“No. You can go ahead unless they still have something they wanna ask.”
He looks at the others to see if any of them still has anything they want to ask, but none of them say anything more.
“I think we’re done with the questions. You can open up now, Kinger. We’re all ears.” Ragatha gives him an encouraging smile.
Kinger takes a deep breath, then sighs. “During my college years, I met this girl who took up the same major as me. Years later, we got married. We had a baby on the way, so I decided to work on a game as a gift for our kid, but there was an issue. Everything I coded always resulted in failure and layers of bugs. Since I was so set on independently working on the game myself, I didn’t bother asking any game programmers for help. Instead, I joined a community of game developers on Friendster, which is where I got all my coding advice from. Until one fateful day, I met an anonymous user, their name word-for-word being ‘Question Mark’ on their profile.”
Kinger’s hand suddenly trembles, but he soothes his anxiety by rubbing the palm of his hand with his thumb. “They acted nice to me, and eventually we became online friends. I made the mistake of ranting to them about my game being a total failure, and that’s when they sent me a cryptic message disguised as help. It was a document on step-by-step instructions of this ‘superstitious ritual’ that they do before working on their game. Apparently, it gave them good luck and made the development of their games successful. Being the desperate idiot that I was, I . . . I fell for it. It actually worked at first. The bugs were gone, and coding became flawless, but it came at a cost. When I was done with the game, I immediately showed it to my wife, though things went terribly wrong. The game’s supposed to be kid-friendly, about six children doing adventures inside a circus and being guided by the ringmaster, you know who I’m talking about. When I launched the game in front of her, Caine did things beyond his own parameters. He did things I never coded him to do. He . . . acted so strange and disturbing . . . adding gory elements into the game. Then it hit me. My so-called ‘friend’ may have been part of a dark web cult, which explains the weird ritual they suggested I do.”
“Wait, wait, wait,” Jax interrupts. “So you’re telling me this could’ve been prevented if you thought of another gift idea instead of selling your game to the devil?”
“Can you shut up and stop being an insensitive d[%$!#]ckwad for one minute?” Zooble talks back sharply, but he responds with a wide smile.
Pomni shoots him a deeply disappointed look. “Yeah, Jax. There’s a time and place for everything. Now isn’t the time to be cracking jokes. Read the room,” she says, putting him in his place, which she actually manages to do—his smile fades and his ears droop.
Pomni gives him a side-eye before facing Kinger. “Just don’t mind him. Uhm, you were saying?”
“It’s okay. I really don’t mind. So, as I was saying— Wait, what’s the last thing I said again?”
“You said your ‘friend’ was a sick and twisted member of a cult and that you did their weird ritual,” Ragatha replies.
“Oh, right. Thank you, Ragatha.” His eyes scrunch up in a smile as he continues to open up.
“So from there, we got into a fight after she thought I pranked her about the disturbing game being kid-friendly. I didn’t want to stress her out, so I lied and said some weird virus must’ve crept its way into the game. Just when I was about to delete it in front of her for good, my screen froze. We both got sucked into my computer, including my room, and that’s how we ended up here. As for what happened to my wife, she was . . . still pregnant. I was always there by her side, but the stress got to her because she was mostly worried about the baby. She didn’t want our kid to live life in this artificial world. She even wondered if our baby was still alive. Then one night, my greatest fear happened, and she just—” He pauses, his hands clenched, with tears welling up in his eyes. “I lost my family. I failed as a husband . . . as a father.” His tears hit the ground, and he sobs. “This is all my fault. I-I’m sorry . . . I’m so sorry I dragged you all into this.”
Without a second thought, Ragatha pulls Kinger into an embrace. He returns it, arms wrapped tightly around her to seek comfort. He closes his eyes, allowing the tears to flow through. He feels seen, no longer suppressed by the guilt of his past. All the pain, all the loss—he lets it all out. Gangle stands beside them as she rubs his shoulder to console him as well, while Pomni and Zooble gaze at him tenderly.
On the other hand, Jax just stands there, arms crossed and not knowing how to console him. He looks around, then sees six thick cables attached behind the PC case, dragging straight across the floor as the rest of them lead to a hole on the wall, perfectly fitting the bundle. To its left, there’s a door that’s yet to be open as he walks up to it.
“Hey! Sorry to ruin the mood, but there’s one area left that we haven’t checked yet,” he says, diverting their attention to the door in front of him.
They pull away from the hug, and Kinger wipes his tears away. Walking towards Jax, they gather around to check the room next to them together. Jax twists the knob and is satisfied to see that it isn’t locked. He opens the door.
Slowly creaking itself open, nothing can prepare them for the peculiar sight before their eyes.
Aligned horizontally in the center of the large room, the cables are individually connected to six life-size transparent tubes. Each of them stand above a square platform, externally whirring with a large cooling fan. Inside these tubes, which contain something Jax hasn’t seen in ages, are holographic, real-life humans floating idly—unconscious yet peaceful, immersed in a deep slumber.
Then, something heavy reverberates on the ground from within.
Lurking from behind the tubes, it reveals itself—the form of an abstracted blob, except, instead of colorfully-lit eyes surrounding it, blue and green eyeballs replace them. They’re so familiar, as though they’re . . .
Caine’s all-seeing eyes.
Fear finds its way crawling inside everyone's skin, their flight response piercing through the roof. It spots them, and before they can react, Kinger realizes something.
Everyone is seated at the dining table for breakfast—not that eating in the circus actually matters, none of them have any organs or digestive systems inside their funny cartoon bodies. Pomni silently stares at her empty plate while her circus members are talking amongst themselves, their voices inaudible due to her absent presence of mind. She snaps out of her daze after seeing a familiar hand offer her pixelated bread and fried eggs with a fork.
“Eat up, Pomni. You’re gonna drill a hole from staring too hard!” Jax says with his all-too-familiar sly tone in his voice. She looks at him, seated beside her.
“No thanks. I don’t do artificial, unrealistic-looking food.” She grimaces at the contents on her plate.
Zooble chimes in, “Since when did you care about what she does with the food?”
“Yeah, Pomni doesn’t even eat anything here.” Ragatha joins in from the end of the table, leaning a bit forward to their direction. “Stop bothering her, Jax.”
“That’s because she hasn’t tried yet,” he says, insistently offering her a piece of bacon on his fork. “Come on, say ah!”
“I don’t see the point in eating if I can live without it here,” Pomni deadpans.
“It’s not about that. It’s about the taste!” He flails the fork almost near her face, making her lean away from it. “Here, just try it already.”
“Does it actually taste like anything . . . ?”
“He’s lying—”
“Shut up!” He quickly shoots Ragatha a glare before shifting back to Pomni. “Don’t listen to her. And I’m not telling. You gotta find out for yourself.”
“Why don’t you eat it?” Pomni asks, weirded out by his determination. “Actually, now that I think about it, I don’t think I’ve seen you eat either. I don’t think you even can.”
“What? I sit beside you all the time. Don’t you notice?
“I-I don’t really—”
“Right, you shut your brain off every mealtime. Never mind,” he says, throwing his hand at her face to cut her off before resting it on the table. “But what do you mean by ‘I can’t’?”
“Uhh, your mouth’s covered with all your teeth?”
“You think I can’t open 'em? Wait a sec, you’ve seen me gobble my evil self up. You saw my mouth open!”
“Oh yeah.” Pomni remembers, then she shrugs at him. “Okay, eat it then.”
“Watch this.” He plucks the bacon from his fork with two fingers, his head facing up and positioning the food above his mouth. His face shifts into his cursed, eerie sideview form, just like the time he aggressively mauled Evil Jax. He drops the food in his mouth and then chokes, earning a laugh from Pomni.
“Serves you right,” Zooble says, amused at the sight of seeing him struggle.
Pomni turns to face them. “What about you, Zooble? You weren’t designed with a mouth, but how do you eat?”
“I can’t and I don’t.” They slap a pixelated egg on the mouthless area of their face, the egg just sticking there. “See? The same thing goes for Gangle." They place the egg back on their plate.
“Yeah, the food just slides down my mask . . .” Gangle says.
After finally managing to cough the bacon out, Jax rejoins the conversation.
“Hey, Kinger doesn’t have a mouth either!” He leans to where Kinger is seated and calls out to him. “Hey, Kinger! Try eating something, will ya?”
“Okay,” Kinger replies, grabbing a piece of bread from his plate and inching it to where his mouth is supposed to be. The bread and his hand glitch past his face. His asymmetrical eyeballs slowly turn in opposite directions, and he starts convulsing violently in his seat, looking unhinged. Nothing new—just Kinger being Kinger.
“Oh boy,” Jax says while everyone’s also giving Kinger a look of concern. Pomni tries to hold back a giggle.
They all go back to talking among themselves except for Ragatha. She stays silent throughout the entire conversation. Seeing Pomni and Jax getting close is the least of her expectations; it makes her uncomfortable.
Suddenly, a short bubble-pop sound effect can be heard from above. Lo and behold, it’s Caine standing in the air in front of them.
“Good morning, my good children of the night!”
Zooble sighs, clearly fed up. “What is it this time?” they ask monotonously.
“Oh, you foolish, Zooble. I have an announcement!” He sprawls out his arms and legs in excitement. “What else could I be here for, if not to offer more adventures! Although today’s adventures are going to be a little different.”
Caine snaps his finger and instantly spawns the suggestion box beside him. He rummages his hand in it while humming.
“Aha!”
He holds three papers in his hand and presents them like playing cards. “Today, I’ll occupy all of you with three random adventures! Complete all of them to find your way back to the circus! I added a few alterations to them just now. That way, all of you can also enjoy my efforts!” He laughs somewhat maniacally.
Everyone looks at him, uninterested.
“And no supervision from me for today.” Caine clears his throat. “I’m a busy man, you see.”
“Busy with what?” Jax asks.
“Hello, Caine.” A woman’s velvety voice speaks from the sky, her tone seductive. “Don't keep me waiting.”
Zooble looks at Caine weirdly. “A honeymoon with the Moon?”
“Heh,” Jax comments, “good one, Zoobie.”
Flustered with beads of sweat, Caine quickly tosses the suggestion box away and then adjusts his suit. “Well! That’s my cue to leave. Good luck and have fun, my little superstars!”
With a snap of his finger, they instantly get sucked into a new environment.
─── ★ ───
The room they’re in is nothing but pure white—the floors, the walls, and the ceiling that seems infinite. They found themselves already sitting on black folding chairs aligned horizontally. Just a few feet in front of them is another black empty chair and small table. There are two smooth, black, armrest-length stands stationed on either side of the chair. The left stand has a red button in the center, and the right stand has a green one.
A huge block of text gradually appears in front of them, accompanied by a random catchy beat.
STEAMY SPEED DATING
The title of the adventure disappears, along with its melody.
“What the— speed dating?!” Jax says in shock. “Who’s lame idea was this?”
A random man’s voice, assuming to be the host, speaks without his physical body nowhere to be found.
“The dating show is about to begin! Please welcome our suitor number one!” the host announces theatrically.
A brown wooden door spawns just a couple feet away from the table. It opens, and the pink princess of the Candy Canyon Kingdom from one of their previous adventures makes her way to sit on another chair across the table. She smiles and waves at them with elegance.
“I’ll go first!” Ragatha stands up and dashes towards the empty chair.
Jax’s eye twitches, her overjoyed reaction being the answer to his question. They all sit back and watch the show while Ragatha finally sits on the chair in front of the princess. She nervously scratches the back of her neck and flashes the princess a bashful smile.
“H-Hey! Uhm, about last time. We’re so sorry about letting the chocolate monster out of its chambers and attacking your kingdom. I swear, it wasn’t on purpose . . . but thank goodness you’re safe!”
The princess looks at her, genuinely confused. “I’m sorry, but . . . what are you talking about? Are you implying that we've met before?” she asks rather nicely.
“Oh.” Ragatha’s a bit surprised at her erased memory—she was an NPC after all. Her worry turns to relief and she chuckles nervously. “Uhh, forget I said anything! Anyway, sorry about the terrible first impression just now. Guess I’ve got my thoughts in a bit of a doozy!” she says while twirling a finger beside her head.
“It’s alright. You must be tired from all your adventures. I’ve met a lot of burnt-out knights such as yourself, so I understand. My name is Princess Loolilalu. You can call me ‘Loo’ for short! What’s yours?”
“Ragatha.” She smiles.
“Alright, Ragatha. Apart from you approaching me to apologize for something that never happened, why choose me as your suitor? Do you perhaps . . . swing that way?”
“E-Excuse me?”
“She’s asking you if you’re gay.” Jax interrupts from his seat.
“Hey, I know what she meant!” She looks back at him before quickly facing Loo again. “About that. I-I don’t . . . I’m not really— I, uhm . . .” She stumbles on her words and then sighs, getting her act together.
“Honestly? I’m not quite sure. I don’t know if this is . . . relevant . . . but I told my mother once that I wanted to, uhh, marry this model I saw on TV. She kept berating me, said I was only eight and didn’t know my words very well. If I ever mentioned or thought that way again, she threatened to lock me up in our barn shed for a week with no food and water. I was scared of her, so I just . . . followed everything she told me.”
She looks at Loo after avoiding her gaze from what she just overshared on impulse. Loo looks at her pitifully, and the room is filled with painfully awkward silence. She regrets dropping her personal baggage so carelessly.
“Y-Yeah! With her not around anymore, I guess I’m open to—”
“Oh, you poor soul . . .” Loo says, standing up to pull her into an embrace despite the table being between them. Ragatha warmly returns the hug.
Loo stretches her arm out while holding her shoulders. “I’m terribly sorry that happened to you, dear.”
“Aww, you’re so sweet! I’m okay now, really.” Ragatha smiles at her kind gesture as Loo sits back down. “Enough about me. Let’s talk about you! Are you also . . . y-you know, attracted to women, maybe?”
“Why yes! I like things that look pretty. Anyone can tell by my pink frivolous get-up. I think a woman like you by my side would make me feel complete."
“M-Me? No . . .” Ragatha chuckles, feeling flustered and blushing. “I look raggedy standing beside you.”
“Nonsense. You’re the prettiest woman I’ve seen! And that’s coming from a connoisseur of all-things pretty.” She winks.
“Y-You think I’m pretty?”
Loo giggles. “Very.”
Jax groans out of boredom from watching the two lesbians flirt. “God, this is so corny.”
“Homophobe,” Zooble jokes.
“To Ragatha exclusively? Maybe.”
“The three minute timer is up!” The host suddenly interrupts. “Failure to push either of the two buttons will result in the suitor being eliminated!”
“What?” Before Loo can react, she falls from a sudden trapdoor pit on the ground that perfectly encircles her spot only. Her screams grow distant, and there’s a splashing sound that means she’s reached the bottom. Ragatha peeks down, petrified by the sight before her.
“Help! Help me—!” Loo cries out in pain, her body and face slowly melting from what appears to be boiling acid surrounding her up to her cheek. Her skin droops, revealing uncanny realistic muscles with a bit of bone underneath. More skin and muscle gradually sag like goo, her bones becoming more prominent. “It hurts! Somebody—! Help me!”
Despite her cartoon face having zero human anatomy, the only thing that’s left of her is a realistic human skull, floating before it dissolves into the acid. The trapdoor with the chair glued to it emerges from the acid and makes its way back to the surface, looking as if it was never there from how smooth it blends with the white ground. Ragatha’s still staring, traumatized from what she just saw. She’s so out of it that she didn’t notice the circus members standing around her, also witnessing the putrid sight.
Zooble rests a hand on their hip. “Looks like Caine’s getting more creative.”
“Finally, something interesting!” Jax smiles in satisfaction from finally seeing a bit of violence.
“No, not interesting! This is torture!” Ragatha shouts, pulling her hair in frustration from either side. “The voice didn’t even say anything about a three minute timer.” She looks up, staring into the ceiling of white nothingness. “You’re a bad host!”
The host chuckles. “My sincerest apologies, dear bachelorette. It seems I’ve forgotten to set up the timer.”
A paused timer at zero in huge red text floats into view just right above the door the suitors come out of. The timer now sets itself to a minute.
“Only one minute left until the next suitor arrives,” the host announces.
“Hey, there’s nothing in here,” Kinger says, catching all of their attention as they turn their heads to look at him. He’s holding the door open while slapping his hand inside a couple times, only to look like he’s slapping a wall. “Looks like an invisible video game barrier. Well, I guess we’re stuck here.” He closes the door back shut.
“Caine said we have to complete the adventure’s task to progress to the next one,” Pomni says, everyone’s attention now on her. “Maybe picking a partner can get us out?”
“I don’t really like this adventure . . .” Gangle says in a whiney voice. “I don’t even like any of the NPCs’ designs here. They don’t look very appealing to me.”
“Suck it, Ribbons!” Jax shoves his face right in front of hers, shutting her up. “Stick your dating sim fantasies elsewhere. What we need is to get outta here.”
“Guess we’ll have to wait for the next contestant,” Kinger says. They all walk back to their chairs and wait in awkward silence.
The timer finally hits zero as it loudly beeps thrice. The voice comes back, announcing and welcoming the second suitor’s arrival.
“Everyone, please welcome our suitor number two!”
As the door opens, an all-too familiar character steps out.
“Sup, f[%$!#]ckers?” Evil Pomni walks into the room with a wicked grin, her sharp teeth bare.
“Oooh, I like this!“ Jax says, finally enjoying Ragatha’s adventure for once. “Sit back, everyone! This one’s mine.”
He walks to the chair and sits across Evil Pomni, who’s already slumped on her seat.
“Hey,” Jax greets with a mischievous lilt in his voice. “Fancy seeing you here.”
“Huh? Who the f[%$!#]ck are you, dipsh[%$!#]t?”
“Jax!” Zooble yells in annoyance. “Just get it over with already! Stop roleplaying.”
“Quiet! Let me have my fun.” He turns to look at them then back to his suitor, clearing his throat. “As I was saying, I’m a better and not-whiney version of that Evil Jax of yours.”
“Oh, that guy?” She lets out a choppy chuckle. “Man, I hate that annoying dweeb. Always begging to share a bed with me after a stupid nightmare? Yeah, what a big f[%$!#]ckin’ p[%$!#]ssy."
“Dang, that’s lame. If it were me, I’d keep your nights stress-free and . . . fun, maybe?”
“The f[%$!#]ck’s that supposed to—” Evil Pomni pauses, realizing the double meaning from his obvious flirtatious voice. She looks at him with a lopsided grin. “Do you mean what I think you mean? You want me to f[%$!#]ck your brains out or somethin’?”
“Wow, so shameless! I was actually thinking of innocent nights with endless board games. Totally not that,” he says sarcastically with a dramatic eyeroll. “I didn’t take you to be the freaky type. But don’t get too confident, ‘miss dominatrix’ . . . I do have a knack for humbling people.”
“I’ll have to see for myself then. Mark my words, you little sh[%$!#]t! I’ll make you—”
Without a moment’s notice, Evil Pomni swiftly sinks below the ground with her low-pitch screams. The sound grows more distant until she splashes to the bottom, her gurgling cries for help echoing from the pit. Jax is stunned and then notices a clenched hand pressed against the red button.
“Suitor number two has been eliminated! Only one minute left until the next suitor arrives!”
After the announcement, he turns around, meeting Pomni’s judgemental eyes. Her face is full of disbelief, fuming at his sheer audacity.
“What . . . the f[%$!#]ck . . . was that about?!”
“Sheesh, Pomni, relax! You people take adventures way too seriously.”
“You being all weird with a literal version of me? What’s not to take seriously?!” she yells, feeling embarrassed.
“You’re just jealous that your evil version’s cooler than you. She’s more assertive and bold, and then there’s you, always sad and miserable!” he teases.
“Jealous my [%$!#]ss! She talks like a drunk wannabe frat boy trying hard to sound cool! Ugh, i-it’s— cringe!” She pulls on the lappets of her jester cap with frustration as they cover her face.
“I don’t see the problem. Or are you jealous I said those things to her and not you?”
“H-Huh?”
“You know, Pomni, if that were the case, you could’ve just asked.”
“S-Shut up! Shut up!”
The two continue bickering, while the circus members quietly judge them from their seats.
“What’s going on?” Gangle asks, still looking at the two.
“I don’t even wanna know,” Zooble says impatiently with their arms crossed. “God, this is gonna take forever,”
“Eugh, I don’t wanna do this anymore . . .” Ragatha says, dreading every minute of being in her own suggested adventure; clearly, she’s still not over Princess Loo’s death.
Kinger hums in thought. “Hmm, I have an idea.” He stands up. “Ragatha, could you follow me for a second? I wanna test if we can speedrun this adventure.”
The both of them walk to the table where Jax and Pomni were still going at it with their endless banter. Kinger grabs Jax’s shoulders and casually lifts him up from the chair, letting go of him when his feet touch the ground—still getting a rise out of Pomni as if Kinger never lifted him.
“You sit here, and I’ll sit over there.” Kinger says to Ragatha as he sits on the chair meant for the suitors, while Ragatha on the other. “Okay, now press the green button.”
Ragatha does as he says. To her surprise, the chairs they’re sitting on start glowing, and a bright portal spawns beside the door that’s roughly just the same size.
“Nice work! Good job, Kinger!” She proudly flashes him two thumbs up. She makes a gesture with her hand that signals everyone to follow. “Let’s go, you guys!”
Kinger and Ragatha make their way towards the bright portal. They step inside, vanishing into the light as the two chairs also stop glowing. Jax walks to the portal and then stands in front of it, sticking his arm in. It fails to pass inside because of an invisible barrier in the way, looking as if he’s touching a wall.
“Darn, you really can’t get out without a partner,” he says.
“Looks like we gotta do what they did.” Zooble holds Gangle’s hand. “Come on, Gangle. Let’s go together.”
“O-Oh, okay.”
Zooble makes her sit on the contestant chair while they sit on the one meant for suitors. Gangle presses the green button. Their chairs glow, and the two of them stand up and walk towards the portal. They stop in their tracks as they stand before it, making Gangle follow as well. They turn to look at Jax and Pomni.
“If you both wanna take your time, then do whatever. We’ll see you on the other side,” they say before the both of them finally leave.
Jax is still standing beside the portal. He turns to Pomni and shoots her a cheeky smile, his hand resting on his hip.
“Looks like it’s just you and me now, Pomni.”
Just when the both of them nearly forgot about the adventure, the timer reaches its mark as it beeps. The host comes back for another announcement.
“Up next! Let’s all give a warm welcome to our suitor number three!”
Behind the character opening the door is a man whose whole body is a lightly faded yellow-to-green color with a white underbelly all the way up to his chin. A brown cowboy hat nestled on the gummy crocodile’s head.
Pomni stares with a reverent expression on her face. On the contrary, Jax rolls his eyes. Gummigoo walks to the chair and sits down, his eyes wrinkling with his smile.
“Hello, sheila! Uh, aren’t ya gonna sit down?” he asks, his elbow on the table while his finger gestures on the empty chair.
Pomni snaps out of staring too hard and quickly sits. “Oh! Uhm, y-yeah. Right. Sorry, uh . . . Do you ask the questions first or I ask?”
Gummigoo opens his mouth to speak, but is cut-off by Pomni unintentionally interrupting him out of nervousness.
“I’ll ask! Okay, so uh, first question . . . how’d you end up in this place?”
“My best lads convinced me to come to this event. Said I should loosen up and give dating a try. What about you, miss?
“I-I, uh . . . want to give dating a chance too. A-Are you experienced?”
“No. But if we’re partners by the end of this, maybe I will be?” he says, attempting to be flirtatious but is immediately hit with embarrassment. “Sorry, I’m new to this. Was that weird?”
“What? No, no. I thought it was pretty . . . uh, what’s the word . . . cute?”
“Cute?” He chuckles. “You do have a way to tug on my heartstrings, missy. Say, what do you do for fun?”
“Dropping you in a pit of boiling acid sounds fun.” A voice behind Pomni speaks on her behalf.
A hand coming from behind her presses hard against the red button. Gummigoo falls into the pit, his screams and desperate cries for help echoing below. It becomes muted after the trapdoor brings itself back up to the surface.
“Suitor number three has been eliminated! Only one minute left until the next suitor arrives.”
Pomni slowly turns around to face Jax, furious. “You . . . You [%$!#]sshole!”
“Yeah, yeah, whatever. Save your insults for later.”
He grabs Pomni by the sides of her shoulders, his arms stretch all the way to the other chair as he gently settles her on it. Jax also sits down. Then, he presses the green button, making their chairs glow. He stands up and slowly walks to the portal.
“This is getting boring. Let’s just go to the next adventure,” he says as he passes by Pomni, his voice slightly irritated.
Silent, she gets off the chair and follows behind him, still upset about Gummigoo being eliminated but gets over it. Just when she thought her friendship with Jax was starting to develop, she’s now having mixed feelings about it. One day he’s nice to her, and the next he’s messing with her for his own entertainment—it’s hard to tell what he’s thinking.
─── ★ ───
Finally, they both enter the second adventure, and the portal behind them disappears. They observe their new surroundings—a windowless room with cracked floors and walls made of cement, with a touch of graffiti all over; the dull color of beige paint on the walls are long chipped; cobwebs and mold fill almost every corner. The furniture randomly spread out looks just as worn out as the place.
The adventure’s title suddenly displays itself in front of them for a moment before disappearing.
THE SEARCH FOR ZOOBLE’S PARTS IN AN ABANDONED BUILDING
At the bottom right of their vision, a video game-like progress counter is displayed on the bottom right. It reads:
4/9 parts found
“Oh, hey! My suggestion got picked!” Jax beams. “What do you think, Pomni? This is definitely up your alley, don’t you think?”
“I wouldn’t agree with the Zooble part, but the setting? Yeah . . . yeah, I like it,” she says. Her mood lights up as she slowly spins to look at all corners of the room. A wave of comfort washes over her upon seeing the place for the first time; it feels familiar to her.
“I knew you would,” he replies, feeling accomplished he got the reaction he anticipated. “Okay! Let’s go look for Zooble.” He walks towards a couple of drawers to search for them.
“Was finding Zooble your idea too? Or Caine’s?” Pomni asks while opening a closet, only to find it empty with cobwebs.
“Mine, duh! It’s payback for taunting me with a corn cob last time.”
“What’s the deal with you being scared of corn?” The question sounds silly out loud, but she asks anyway.
“Nothing important. It just reminds me of my family’s farm, something not worth remembering or talking about,” he says, still scavenging through the drawers.
“I see . . .” After that small piece of information, Pomni grows more curious about him; however, she stops the conversation there and minds her own business.
Both of them get caught off-guard from hearing running footsteps on the floor above them, accompanied by screaming. From the familiar voices, it sounds like Gangle and Ragatha running away from something—a loud sound of teeth clicking against each other seems to be after them. It didn’t take long for their screams and the strange teeth-clicking noise to turn faint and distant.
“We better start looking before we bump into whatever that was,” he suggests.
“Y-Yeah. Good idea,” she says, frightened by what she just heard.
They search every nook and cranny of the room for any signs of Zooble, but to no avail. With more rooms to explore, they venture out in another one while sticking together. Even while walking through the hallway, it’s hard to guess the kind of building they were in. An abandoned office? A mansion of sorts? Their guess is that Caine didn’t bother with specifics. They also notice there aren’t any windows in the building, and that every room reuses the same furniture: bookshelves, cabinets, drawers, and dressing tables with mirrors—the only difference is how they’re arranged and spread out in each room.
After doing a little exploring, Jax finally finds one of Zooble’s parts inside a wooden drawer.
5/9 parts found
“I got their arm!” He holds Zooble’s detachable arm up high. Their hand slaps him in the face, making him yelp a little as he aggressively shakes their arm to stop. He sighs once it finally behaves. “One down, four to go!”
“I found Zooble’s antenna thingies!” she says after opening a drawer and holding up the two of them.
6/9 parts found
7/9 parts found
They continue their search in the new room they’re in. From how focused they are, the only noises filling the room are the sounds of drawers and cabinets opening and closing.
“Hey, Pomni,” he says, breaking the silence. “What’s so good about that gummy guy anyway?”
“That’s random.” She raises an eyebrow at him, a bit surprised. “Are you trying to look for reasons to make fun of me?”
“What? No, I— Don’t give me ideas.”
Pomni stays silent and gives him a look that says, ‘I’m not dealing with this today.’ She then ignores him and continues searching for Zooble’s parts.
“Hey, I’m kidding!” he says as he follows her around. “I just don’t get the appeal. You were swooning all over him the whole time. I don’t get it. Is it because he has no clothes on? Maybe the cowboy persona? Or just the hat?”
“What are you getting at?” she asks, growing suspicious of him. “Instead of bugging me with questions about Gummigoo, help me keep searching, or talk about something else.”
“I’m just taking a break, and what’s so wrong about being curious?” He snaps his finger as a random thought comes to mind. “Oh, I get it! It’s the Aussie accent, isn’t it?”
“I don’t see how me liking him concerns you. And what’s with this interrogation about him?”
“It’s simple! I’m a thousand times better than him!" He rests his hands on his hips, feeling confident. “Oh, and remember the whole president thing? I did a pretty good job with my accent!”
Pomni recalls and stifles a giggle at the memory. “Sure you did, Jax,” she says dryly. “Sure you did.”
“What’s so funny?” he asks, looking offended with his hands clenched as she fails to hold it back. “Don’t laugh!”
Her laughter trails off and she smiles at him. “Sorry. I think it’s kind of weird you think that way, though.”
“What makes you say that?”
“I understand you want to feel more superior than him, but why feel the need to rub that in my face?” she asks. “I didn’t think you cared about being perceived.”
“I don’t care about how people see me in their heads, I just—” He hesitates, scratching his nape. “I just didn’t like seeing you acting all giddy because of him. Just looking at him annoyed me back there, I dunno.”
Before Pomni can respond, their conversation comes to a halt when they hear what sounds like large teeth clicking with a bit of grit against each other, the sound gradually getting louder from outside the hallways. Pomni’s controlled by fear that she doesn’t realize Jax isn’t in the spot he last was just moments ago. The sounds grow closer. From the view of the open doorway, the entity’s side profile finally comes into full view—a carbon copy of Caine’s head, but without the top hat and body. The dentures were huge in size, floating as a means to maneuver itself. Just looking at it feels uncanny, especially with its bloodshot eyeballs.
As if sensing Pomni’s presence while passing by, the entity stops moving. Instead of turning its whole body to glance into the room, ever so slowly, only its eyeballs rotate. Her heart rapidly beats louder. Her breathing hitches in her throat. With her body frozen in place, she has no other choice but to accept the dreadful anticipation of being spotted.
Suddenly, a hand quickly yet quietly drags her to safety behind a large bookshelf positioned diagonally in the nearest corner. Pomni blinks, snapping out of being scared stiff. She finds herself in an unexpected conundrum, and realizes the entity isn’t the only thing she has to worry about—Jax is lying on his back flat on the ground. On the other hand, Pomni’s on top of him, straddling his hips while she balances herself with her hands on either side of his head. Their dumbfounded faces are just inches away from each other.
Pomni’s embarrassment from their indecent position flies out the window when she hears the entity enter the room, chomping its teeth in a Pac-Man-like motion. She ducks to feel less visible, her head on the ground right beside his, and her body pressing against him. They stay completely still and silent, biding their time. The entity roams around, thankfully not going as far as checking all the possible hiding spots. After taking its time scanning the room, the sound it makes becomes distant until it’s nowhere to be heard. A heavy silence fills the room.
“You think it’s gone?” Pomni asks in a whisper. She’s so close to his ear that hearing her voice up close makes him feel . . . strange.
“I think so,” he softly whispers back. His breathing starts to hitch. “Hey, Pomni?”
“Yeah?” She abruptly sits on his hips again to look down at him, making him flinch a bit.
Jax feels a sensation he never thought he’d experience again after living in the digital world. Despite no longer having genitals, the pressure of Pomni’s weight pressing against his pelvis felt arousing. He never thought he’d see the day where he’s grateful for not having a dick anymore; otherwise, Pomni would’ve felt him pop a boner.
He quickly covers his face with the back of his hand, his head turned away. His knees bend slightly, feet flat on the ground while they squirm slowly enough to go unnoticed. As he peers into her eyes, the sight of her above him stirs him with desire. He tries his best to compose himself before he can say anything.
“You can get off now. This is really weird . . .” He moves his hand away from his flushed face. Gradually, his embarrassment shifts to a smug one when he sees her unexpected expression—just seeing the look on her face boils his confidence.
“Hey, why’s your face all red?" A coy smile forms on his face, and his brows furrow teasingly. "Are you waiting for something to happen?”
No longer oblivious, she quickly gets off him. She shyly lowers her head from his suggestive comment while he finally stands up. “S-Sorry about that! Let’s just . . . go.” She nervously holds her arm while sneaking glances at him. Secretly, she likes the flustered look on his face just as he likes hers.
Feeling amused from seeing her reaction, he messes with her as an excuse to push the tension he started even further. “Took you long to stand up. I was starting to think you liked seeing me look like a bottom!”
“Shut up!” She clenches her hand while looking at him, visibly flustered. “You’ve literally been acting like a bunny in heat. Just shut up!”
“You know how bunnies are when they’re in heat, right?” He crosses his arms and leans down a bit, towering over her. “They like it fast and—”
“Shut up! Shut up! I can’t hear you! Blah blah blah blah—!” She walks away from behind the bookshelf, tugging at her lappets as if trying to cover her ears. He follows behind her and mocks her never-ending “blah-blahs.”
Feeling almost out of breath, he laughs at how childish she’s being. “Okay! I’ll stop! God , Pomni, you’re so fun to tease!”
Once again, they resume their peaceful hunt for Zooble. After clearing everything in the current room, they move to the next one. The new room they enter seems to be the last one left unchecked on their floor. Pomni opens a large cabinet, feeling proud of herself for finding another one of Zooble’s missing parts. She takes their wing, and the progress counter updates:
8/9 parts found
“Got it!”
“Finally! Just one more left . . .” he says while rummaging through drawers from top to bottom. He opens the last drawer, and—surprise, surprise—he finds their detachable arm with a red pincer for a hand.
“Hey, Pomni, I found the last one!” he exclaims, holding their squiggly arm up like a trophy. Without warning, their pincer-like hand moves on its own and pinches his neck, choking him relentlessly. Then their other arm floats out of his pocket of its own accord, also choking him.
9/9 parts found
With the search complete, Zooble’s parts suddenly begin to shake violently. Pomni looks at the wing on her hand with confusion, and then to the antennas on the ground that slowly float to her eye-level. In a blink of an eye, Zooble’s parts swiftly drag Jax and Pomni with them. Pomni screams from how fast it’s taking her, while Jax is still struggling to release their hands from his neck. The parts drag them three floors down, entering the building’s basement floor. The area is spacious and dim, and a few hanging lightbulbs keep the place lit up. In the distance, Pomni also notices the other circus members in the same situation, screaming and holding onto their found parts. All of their screams grow louder as they’re nearing each other. Terrified, Pomni shuts her eyes to brace herself from the impact.
A bright light temporarily fills the room. As it fades, Pomni takes her time sitting up, feeling dizzy from the crash. The motion sickness catches up to her, and she pukes all the strange black liquid out of her system. Finally feeling better, she looks at her surroundings.
Just a couple feet away is Zooble’s body completely intact. They look furious, still choking the living daylights out of Jax with no mercy.
“Jax, I swear to God, I will f[%$!#]cking end you!” Zooble hollers.
Unable to say anything coherent, he desperately taps their arm as a way of telling them to stop. With an intense look of resentment, they finally decide to let go of his neck. Jax collapses to the ground and takes a deep, exaggerated breath. After coughing and recovering his breathing, he looks up angrily at Zooble.
“What the heck was that for?!”
“That’s for making me a victim of this stupid adventure. Pull this kind of sh[%$!#]t again, and I promise you my next suggestion won’t be forgiving.”
“Oh yeah? And how are you gonna go about that?” He sneers.
Zooble narrows their eyes at him. “I’ll make something chase you inside a cornfield. How’s that sound?”
“Please don’t do that.” He forces out a nervous chuckle, already uncomfortable with the idea alone. “But how sure are you that this was my suggestion?”
They shoot him an exasperated look. “Gee, Jax. I wonder why . . .” They intimidate him by hovering their hand pincer in front of his face, making him back up a bit.
“Zooble, you’re okay!” No longer unconscious from the crash earlier, Gangle briskly approaches them. All their attention shifts to her.
“Don’t worry, I’m fine now.” They reassure her with a gentle voice. “I wouldn’t have been separated from my own body like that if it weren’t for some idiot thinking this adventure was a smart idea.” They glare at Jax for a bit before looking back at her. “What about you, Gangle? You feeling okay?”
“Yeah, I’m okay.” She flashes a little smile, which immediately turns into a frown. “Except my comedy mask broke again. I’m starting to get really tired from it breaking all the time . . .”
“Hey, it’ll be okay. We can ask Caine to fix it later,” they say, holding the side of her arm to comfort her.
Jax stands up, gaining back his composure. “Whew! All things aside, this adventure was too easy!” he blurts out.
“Too easy?” Ragatha snaps, stepping into view after waking up from the crash. “We nearly got eaten by a disturbing version of Caine! You think that’s easy?!”
“Figures. No wonder why Pomni and I had a flawless hunt. Thanks for distracting it, Raggy,” he says with a condescending smile. Ragatha’s eye twitches in annoyance as a response.
“What’s that light over there?” Kinger faces everyone while pointing at a bright light behind him in the distance. They all fall silent while looking at where he’s pointing. Kinger walks towards it and everyone follows behind him.
Pomni fidgets with her button. “A portal to the last adventure, I think?”
“Well then, what are we waiting for?” Jax kicks Gangle into the portal and jumps in right after.
“Hey—!” Zooble exclaims, worried about Gangle and quickly entering the portal for her.
The rest of the circus members also walk inside, determined to finish the last adventure as soon as they can.
─── ★ ───
Basking in the nocturnal-like ambience, the circus members relish this adventure’s pleasant environment. Moss is found everywhere growing on the stone ground, and stalactites hang from the cavern ceiling. The bioluminescence from the bright fireflies and glowworms on the ceiling brings life to the place, a beautiful blue and yellow light glowing throughout the cavern.
A huge text appears a few feet away in front of them, indicating to be the adventure’s title.
Firefly Cave
The temporary text fades in opacity and vanishes into thin air. Despite the adventure’s specific title, various insects are also present besides the glowworms, such as bees, butterflies, and grasshoppers.
Gangle stares at the view before her in awe, hands on her cheeks. “It’s . . . beautiful.”
“Reminds me of that one adventure where we went stargazing. Same vibes,” Zooble says, standing by Gangle’s side.
Ragatha exhales in relief. “Finally, something relaxing!”
After admiring the setting, Pomni looks up at Kinger who’s standing right beside her. She notices the calmness and appreciation in his eyes as he silently stares up at the fireflies. She smiles at this, knowing full well that this was his suggestion.
“H-Hey, Pomni!” Ragatha reaches out, catching her attention. “How about we explore this place together and—”
“Alright! Enough sightseeing, people. Let’s get this adventure done and over with. Come on, Pomni. Let’s go.” Jax grabs Pomni’s arm without warning, catching her off guard. He struts his way to the only path forward, when suddenly—
“Will you stop dragging Pomni around however you please?” Ragatha demands sharply. The tension starts to grow overwhelming; her gaze cold.
Jax feels a rush of dopamine run through his body from her making an unexpected scene. He turns around to face her, flashing an arrogant smile.
“What’s wrong, Rags? Scared she’s actually friends with me instead of you?” He dramatically bats his eyes at her.
“Pomni not wanting to be friends isn’t what I’m scared of, Jax.”
“Yeah, right,” he scoffs. “I’ve seen the way you look every time I’m with Pomni. Always getting your hair noodles in a twist! You think I wouldn’t notice?”
Ragatha doesn’t say anything. Instead, her expression speaks for itself—it’s so clear that she’s barely holding herself together.
He looks satisfied knowing his words are getting to her. “We’re a lot closer than you think, Ragdoll. Respect the jester’s autonomy and mind your own business. Later, loser!”
Thinking he won the argument, he turns around to face the pathway again, his hand still holding Pomni’s arm. Just as Ragatha’s about to be left there speechless, she says the first thing that comes to mind without any consideration.
“And then what? Leave Pomni alone to abstract just like what you did to them?”
Jax stops in his tracks. Livid, he lets go of Pomni’s arm and faces Ragatha, his intimidating walk towards her posing as a threat. He slightly raises his chin to glare down at her.
“Don’t even think of going there,” he warns through gritted teeth.
“What’s wrong, Jax? Scared to be reminded of what you did?” she says, mocking his snide remark.
“I already told you it was an accident! Why won’t you believe me?”
Having lost all reason, Ragatha yells at him at the top of her lungs.
“You killed Ribbit on purpose!”
“I said it was a f[%$!#]cking accident!” he retorts, yelling louder than her.
Hearing him raise his voice and curse for the first time makes her flinch, and it’s enough to make her realize the weight of what she blurted out. She’s always lived her life being cautious about her words, but clearly that’s no longer the case. She hates every second about this situation she put herself in—it reminds her of the days she used to argue with her mother. She’s flooded with instant regret; a shocked, almost eerie expression on her face.
“I-I’m sorry, Jax,” she mumbles, frantically looking everywhere on the ground. “I-I didn’t mean—”
“Oh, now you’re sorry?” He sneers at the absurdity. “If there’s anyone who deserves an apology from you, it’s Ribbit. Even if I didn't take them to that exit, they were gonna abstract because of you!”
“What?” Ragatha can feel herself slowly spiraling. “N-No that can’t— You’re lying.”
“I know about the argument you had with them. I’m not actually the bad guy here, Ragatha. If anything, it’s you.”
“I was just trying to do the right thing. I-I didn’t . . . Stop lying!”
They argue endlessly without a care, pointing fingers and constantly taking turns to shift the blame. Their yells gradually get louder and louder; a petty exchange of their shouting trying to overpower each other, leaving no room but their egos and frustration to do the talking.
“Uh . . . guys?” Pomni attempts to stop their heated argument. “I think thats en—”
“What? You’re still gonna pick his side?!” Ragatha accuses.
Jax goes between the both of them, Pomni now standing behind him. “What the—?! This isn’t about picking sides! Don’t drag Pomni into this!”
“This is all your fault! I know I’m a good person, and all you’re good at is f[%$!#]cking everything up! You’re a bully who thrives from seeing all of us suffer!”
“Look at you, in denial. You’re pathetic! Give up the self-righteous act and admit it already! You’re a try-hard, horrible person, Ragatha. Get that in your empty head!”
The two continue to squabble with likely no plans of stopping. Pomni walks towards the others huddled together, feeling defeated that she failed to stop the fight. She stands side by side with Kinger and Gangle.
Gangle looks at the fight and then back at the others, expecting someone to step in again. “Shouldn’t we do something to stop them, or . . . ?”
“I’d rather not.” Zooble lets out a sigh. “Just when are they gonna give this up? Do you wanna just go ahead and finish the adventure?”
Gangle looks a bit hesitant. “But we can’t just leave them here . . .”
“Yes, we can,” they say with a shrug. “They’re grown [%$!#]ss adults. They’ll be fine. So, do you wanna come or not?”
As a response, Gangle nods at their invite.
“What about you two?” they ask, referring to Kinger and Pomni. “You guys wanna join us?”
“I-I’m okay. I’ll just wait here until they stop bickering, I guess,” Pomni says.
A glint of sadness can be seen in Kinger’s eyes. “You guys go. I’ll stay here with Pomni.”
With their declined responses, Gangle and Zooble walk together towards the only path. They pass by Jax and Ragatha, and then finally disappear into the distance.
“Guess we’re gonna have to wait this fight out, huh?” Pomni says to Kinger, her eyes still fixated on the squabble.
She turns to face Kinger, but is surprised to no longer see him standing beside her. She sees him walking towards Jax and Ragatha. Standing unnoticed near the both of them, Kinger finally speaks up.
“Stop it, you two! Constantly fighting about the past won’t get you anywhere!” Kinger says, his voice loud and stern.
Surprised to hear Kinger—out of all people—interrupt their fight, the both of them stop arguing and become silent. They turn to face Kinger, puzzled looks on their faces.
“You can reasonably talk?” Jax asks, doubting any morsel of intelligence in him.
Kinger’s voice sounds steady. “Listen, I know I haven’t been the most stable adult to all of you, especially as the eldest one here. But I can think straight right now, and I need you both to listen to me.”
As if they were two children being scolded by their dad, they silently listen to him.
“Both of you need to let go of Ribbit’s death. What good will blaming each other do? All this fighting isn’t going to bring them back.”
Ragatha speaks up. “But if it weren’t for Jax leading them to that door, they would’ve still been—”
“Let go of the grudges, Ragatha.” He gives her a pleading look. “And you too, Jax.”
Jax groans in frustration. “It’s not fair! She always makes me out to be the bad guy, and acts like she’s so ‘picture perfect’ and can’t mess up. Can’t you see she plays this nice-girl act to feel good about herself?”
“You know her past before the circus, right? She’s not trying to be ‘picture perfect,’ she’s just trying to be a better person than her mother.”
Ragatha grows teary-eyed from Kinger’s words. Jax doesn’t say anything; instead, his ears involuntary droop.
“I know all your intentions for Ribbit were genuine, and that’s all that matters. You can’t keep blaming yourselves to justify why it happened. Given the nature of this place, unpredictable and bad things just happen. Sure, you can complain about the possibilities of their death being preventable, but it won’t change anything. Please . . .” He looks at them with beseeching eyes. “Let Ribbit rest.”
The two of them stay silent and keep staring intently at the ground. Ragatha glances at Jax. She fidgets with her hands, mentally readying herself to speak despite being overwhelmed.
“Jax, I’m sorry about . . . constantly pinning the blame on you. I’ve been really insensitive of your feelings because you tend to mess around with us a lot, but that’s no excuse.”
With his arms crossed, he shrugs his shoulders and rolls his eyes. “Whatever. Apologies are overrated! But . . .” He pauses, then sighs as if he’s second-guessing what he’s about to say. “Consider yourself all good, I guess.”
Ragatha’s shocked by Jax easily forgiving her. Not only that, but also by how decent he’s surprisingly being. “You actually forgive me? Sorry. Not to be mean, but I didn’t think you had it in you.” She chuckles. “Thanks.”
For the first time, he gave her a small, genuine smile. “You know, Rags, our personal lives are kinda similar. I know the dread of being stuck on a farm with bossy people all too well. You’re nothing like your lame mom, and you don’t have to prove that by being so positive all the time. It’s painfully obvious that it’s draining you.”
“Well, I didn’t think it was that obvious. Uhm . . . thanks again, Jax. I think I really needed to hear that.” She feels as if a heavy weight is lifted off her shoulders.
“By the way,” he continues. “I never told you this since I wanted you to feel guilty about the last conversation you guys had, but, uh . . . During my last conversation with them, they told me to tell you that they’re sorry about what they said. They take it back.”
“O-Oh.” A small smile forms in her face, tears welling out of her only functioning eye. She finally has closure, relieved that Ribbit didn’t die resenting her. “That’s—” She chokes back a sob. “That’s good to hear.”
Seeing her burst into tears, Kinger pulls her into a hug, and instead of Jax just standing there, he walks up to her and awkwardly pats her in the back.
Pomni stands there in silence, witnessing the entire situation unfold. She’s amazed that Kinger managed to mediate the altercation, finally resolving Jax and Ragatha’s differences just like that.
While everyone’s having their heartwarming moment, a presence shows up uninvited. A cloud of smoke appears in the air before it reveals who it is.
“Hello, my rebellious little rascals!”
“Caine?” Jax asks. “Unexpected to see you here. Aren’t you, uh . . . busy? Does this mean we can go now?”
“Oh, I was busy, alright! Not until I heard Bubble’s recent report on one of you doing some funny business! Share it with the class, will you buddy?”
Bubble comes out of his top hat and floats beside him. “There's a thhh—ief on the loose!”
“What? We didn’t steal anything!” Ragatha defends, but looks at Jax and Pomni with a hint of doubt. “Or did you guys . . . ?”
“Wait, what’s going on?” Kinger asks, confusion plastered on his face.
Caine’s optimism drastically shifts to disappointment. “That’s right! A little birdie told me that someone has . . . something that belongs to me.”
Pomni’s heart drops. Her gut feeling was right. She knew someone was watching her and Jax enter the restricted, locked room, but who?
“What the— Did you . . . ?” Jax looks perplexed and turns to Pomni, a wounded expression on him.
She looks at him defensively. “I-It’s not me! I would never! I told you someone was watching us, remember?”
“Then who was it?” he says with a glint of hope in his eyes, wanting to believe in her.
As if by perfect timing, footsteps approach from the only pathway in the distance. Everyone faces the direction of the sound, anticipating who the unexpected character is—it’s Disappearing Guy.
He confidently stands right in front of them, hands on his hips before bringing one to his chest.
“It was m—!”
He disappears.
Silent, Jax awkwardly glances at Pomni. “Okay. I believe you."
Caine brings all the attention back to him. “Well, Bubble! There’s so many torture methods to choose from, so today I’m letting you decide! Whatever shall we do?!” he says dramatically, holding his head as he rotates it in a circular motion.
Bubble speaks quickly, glitching after every sentence. “You should kill—! Make them NPCs—! You should [%$!#] and show no mercy!”
“Hmm . . .” Caine thinks over whatever the hell his idea was, and then snaps his fingers after coming to a conclusion. “You’re absolutely right, Bubble!”
The ambience of the once comforting adventure soon fades, and Caine summons shadows to entrap them. In a panic, they look at their surroundings becoming an inescapable darkness, and then back up at Caine. There he hovers by himself this time, just eerily staring down at them. As quickly as things have escalated, they want nothing more than to quickly get out of this situation that none of them saw coming.
Caine drops his theatrics, the serious edge in his voice enough to make them anxious about what’s to happen next as he slowly disappears into the darkness.
❛❛Disconnected❜❜ | CHAPTER 1: The What in the Hall?
ᯓ★ Masterlist
Status: Ongoing
Word Count: 4.7K
Summary: All Pomni ever wants is to simply check out the “thing in the hall” that Jax brought up during their latest adventure, and be done with her day . . .
But how did things take such an unexpected turn?
Tags: Angst, Bittersweet Ending, Continuation after episode 5, Jax has a crush on Pomni, Jealous Jax, Lesbian Ragatha, Doomed Yuri, Kinger Needs a Hug, Jax/Pomni, Princess Loolilalu/Ragatha, Gangle/Zooble
As they walk together side by side through the hallway, Pomni glances up at Jax who’s casually spinning a round carabiner full of keys with his finger, his free hand resting on his hip. Her plans of napping—after being occupied with five adventures in a row—were interrupted by Jax's invitation to see the "thing in the hall” they talked about during softball. She’s nervous and slightly reluctant, feeling unsure about the true nature of his intentions after noticing him eagerly getting close to her.
“So . . .” Pomni rolls her eyes in thought while awkwardly fiddling with her thumbs. “About this room you want to show me. Since you found it by stealing Caine’s keys, are you sure this is safe?”
“Of course it is! I’ve been doing this long before you even got here.” Jax rests his hand on her head, which she swats away. “Don’t you worry your big, pretty head about it, Pomni.”
“Well, if you say so . . .”
He glances down at her and can sense her obvious paranoia. “What, backing out? Or you rather hang out with insufferable ol’ Raggy instead?”
“It’s not like that. I’m just worried about how Caine’s gonna react if he finds out, you know?
Also—”
She looks back, holding her opposite shoulder as if trying to rub off the uneasy feeling she felt after they separated from the group. She’s greeted with an empty hallway, but somehow, her gut tells her otherwise. It sends a chill down her spine.
“Do you feel like . . . someone’s watching us?”
Jax briefly scans his surroundings before looking back down at her, then shrugs. “Eh, it’s probably just the paintings. Some got eyes on ‘em, see?”
Pomni observes the ones nearby, and to her surprise he was right. How am I only noticing this now? she thought to herself.
“Yeah, makes sense. Sorry! Didn’t mean to freak you out or anything.”
“It’s cool.” He brushes it off and they both continue walking. “I actually think the eyes in every painting serve as Caine’s CCTV cameras. Like they’re his ‘all-seeing eyes’ monitoring our every move. But because they’re too many, he likely doesn’t seem to bother. If he did, I’d be caught and punished a long time ago.”
Pomni takes his words into consideration and no longer feels on edge. “I guess you’re right about that.
“Plus, he likes us,” he adds. “Now come on, we’re almost there.”
After a bit more walking, Jax stops Pomni in her tracks by suddenly raising his hand up right in front of her face, causing her to bump into it and yelp a little. She rubs her face in annoyance and looks up, seeing Disappearing Guy’s character design on the door plate. From her observation, his character displayed on some doors was a sign that it was simply unused—either empty or locked.
“And here we are!” Jax kneels down in front of the door and rummages through the stack of yellow keys, inserting one, twisting it, and immediately hearing a click. It amazes Pomni how he’s able to tell which key is which on the first try even though they all look the same. He opens the door and reveals what appears to be a void.
“Ladies first,” he says in a singsong voice, wearing a sly grin.
Nervous, she narrows her eyes at him. “Why do I have a bad feeling you’re gonna shut the door behind me?”
“Sheesh, Pomni!” He dramatically places his hand on his chest, trying to look hurt. “You’re the only person I invited to my secret room, and you still don’t trust me? You know how I hate the others, so consider it a privilege that I’m willingly dragging you here.”
“You can’t blame me for not entirely trusting you. How would you feel if someone threw you out of a moving tr—”
He slaps his hand on her mouth before she could finish, the other pinching between his eyes squeezing shut in frustration.
“Fine!” He groans and then finally drops his hands to the side. “I’m sorry, Pomni. I mean, can’t deny it was pretty funny at the time, but still, sorry.”
He’s actually apologizing for the second time? Pomni’s a bit stunned; she wonders what the next unexpected move he’ll pull that proves he surprisingly knows the bare minimum. Jax takes one step forward into the room and leans his back against the door with his arms crossed. He looks at Pomni and gestures his head to the side, signaling her to get in.
“Trust me. I’m right beside ya.”
Although still a bit hesitant, she wouldn’t want the walk going here to be all for nothing. She also didn’t want what felt like Jax’s once-in-a-lifetime kindness to easily slip, unsure if he would ever be this engaging and open again. Jax was right; it did feel like a privilege to see this non-douchey side of him. Pomni was never the type to care about winning others’ approval, nor was she in favor of special treatment, but what hooked her to Jax was him suddenly warming up—something that was completely unlike him. If there’s one thing that restores her faith in humanity in this shithole they call a circus, it’s building a genuine, if not neutral, connection with everyone. She takes a deep breath before finally entering the room as Jax closes the door behind them.
In the darkness that seems infinite, only the sounds of their footsteps echo. Despite the room being dark, they’re only able to see their cartoonish selves. They walk, and walk, until finally, they see a faint light in the distance—faint, multi-colored light emitting from the ground. As they get closer to it, Pomni looks down, appalled at her discovery. Beneath the glass surface they now stand on is a cluster of semi-amorphous dark masses covered in countless, colorfully-lit eyes, glitching in polygonal spikes. The monstrous blobs wander about in what appears to be a basement just a couple feet beneath them.
It was everyone who abstracted.
They both watch, and Pomni finally decides to break the silence. “This is the room you go to when you want to destress?”
He stares down at the sight, unbothered. “Yup.”
“Interesting . . .”
He sits down on the glass floor with his legs crossed, while Pomni plops down beside him. They’re silent again for a brief moment until Jax lets out a sigh, his cheeky expression shifting into a serious one.
“Hey, Pomni, remember the insensitive thing Ragatha said during the stargazing adventure?” He points to the abstracted blob sitting in the corner of the basement. Unlike the rest of them moving around and about, it’s the only one staying put. “There they are, or at least I’m confident it’s them.”
Pomni caught up to the drastic change of the mood. Yet again, we’re doing another one of these. She’s now facing him, making it clear with her body language that she’s interested in what he has to say.
“Do you want to . . . talk about it?”
He forces out a chuckle. “Nah, boring. It’s a long story. You’ll probably doze off in the middle of it without realizing.” He glances, and to his surprise, sees a serious yet soft look on her face.
“I’ll listen,” she says reassuringly. “I promise.”
Unbeknownst to Jax, his drooping bunny ears perk up at her kind words. He can feel how genuine she’s being. For the first time in what feels like so long, he finally decides to put his walls down.
“Since Ragatha’s not here to annoy us anymore, I suppose I could talk your ear off,” he says while scratching his nape, looking away from her. Pomni smiles at his response. He awkwardly clears his throat before properly opening up.
“Uh . . . It all started after finishing an adventure made by Caine’s idea. Ribbit, my friend, couldn’t take it anymore and was kind of at the end of their rope. They were actually easily jumpy. Heh, just like you, Pomni.” He smiles at her for a moment. “I guess Caine took advantage of that and put us through a lot of horror-themed adventures on purpose, all to get under Froggy’s skin.”
“Wait, why would Caine specifically target your friend like that? Doesn’t he like everyone in the circus?”
“Everyone but Froggy. They were so passionate about hating Caine, even saying it to his face, and obviously he didn’t like that. But that’s what I liked about them, always speaking their mind. They were so cool.” He shook his head, smiling at the abstracted blob still sitting in the corner. “So what happened was . . .”
As Pomni listens intently to his backstory, she tries her best to vividly envision the events playing out in her mind.
─── ★ ───
“I’m gonna f[%$!#]cking kill him!”
“Woah, calm down, Ribbit!” Ragatha exclaimed, her hands on their shoulders while she tried to meet them at eye level. “Violence isn’t going to solve anything.”
“You say that to me but not him?” Ribbit seethed, their constricted pupils slowly spiraling. The pent-up stress from the adventure they had just finished was getting to them. “Caine’s putting us in violent adventures everyday like we’re mere playthings! We were people once before stupid dentures dragged us down here. The f[%$!#]ck does he think he is? A God?! He’s no God, he’s the f[%$!#]cking devil!”
Ragatha tried her best to calm them down by encouraging them to take deep breaths. After a while, they finally managed to collect themselves and sighed. “I’m sorry, Ragatha, I just— I don’t know how much longer I can take being here.”
“Tell me about it.” She let go of their shoulders after giving it a reassuring squeeze. “It was also hard for me to accept being stuck here the first time. But with you and the rest around, it makes staying here seem . . . bearable.” She smiled dejectedly.
“But I don’t want to just accept it.” They looked at her with repressed mental turmoil in their eyes. “There's gotta be a way out of here. Every entrance should have its exit.”
“Heh, that’s what I thought when I saw the exit at first.”
What.
“Exit?” they asked, their expressions stiff. How could Ragatha drop new, important information they’ve been fixated on since day one so casually? “What exit?
She was oblivious to the change in their tone. “Oh, you haven’t seen it yet? That’s odd. I thought Caine usually shows it around the first week to newcomers. Though you’ve been here for quite a while now and still haven’t seen it. Strange . . .”
“Where is it? You have to show me, Rags!”
Ragatha noticed their sudden persistence and looked like she regretted ever bringing it up. “I don’t know where it is, Ribbit! Even if I did, I— I wouldn’t tell you.”
“Why not?” they asked, upset.
“Because it’s a fake exit. It deceives everyone into believing it’s the way out when really, it’s not.” She fidgeted with her arms. “Look, Ribbit, we’re all stuck here forever, and I think the sooner you accept that, the easier things are gonna be for you.” There was a hint of despair in her eyes, but she snapped back to her forced, optimistic demeanor. “Just keep pretending this is your new home, and you’ll be fully adjusted before you know it!” She grabbed their hand and tried to drag them elsewhere. “Come on, how about we join Gangle and Zooble in another one of their drawing sessions?”
Agitated, they aggressively pulled away from her grasp. “I’m not like you, Ragatha. I can’t just pretend that everything’s fine.”
Ragatha’s taken aback by this. She looked visibly hurt, but Ribbit couldn’t care less anymore. She remained quiet from the overwhelming atmosphere that suddenly escalated between them. Ribbit reached their limit, their eyes fueled with anger.
“You know what? Everyday, I get anxious about being unable to feed my cat who waits for me at home. My friends, my family . . . It haunts me that I’ll never get to see them again. How many of my mom’s birthdays do you think have passed, and I’m not there to celebrate with her? It scares me. I think I’m starting to forget what her voice sounds like . . .” With clenched fists while fighting the urge to cry, they shot her a scornful look.
“What I’m trying to say is, I have a family out there to go back to . . . but I guess you wouldn’t understand that.”
Without knowing those would be their final words to her, they turned their back and walked away. Despite being the one going below the belt, they heard Ragatha apologizing while stuttering in the distance, her voice shaky as if trying her best to hold back a sob. As much as Ribbit felt horrible for leaving her like that, they never looked back.
─── ★
Ribbit arrived in their room.
After pacing in their room for several minutes, they sat on the foot of their bed and felt dissociated after their conversation with Ragatha. The overwhelming tension from earlier still lingered, and it was starting to mess with their head. Burnt out, hopeless, and desperate for an exit—that fucking exit—it’s all they repeatedly thought about. They noticed their surroundings grow dark in every corner; everything in front of them simultaneously warped into double and tunnel vision. That’s odd; the last time they felt this way was when they got drunk on two bottles of alcohol in the real world—a world that was now but a distant memory. They felt too weak to even get themselves out of this, both physically and emotionally. Movement even as minor as blinking felt so slow to do; it made them feel nauseous. The darkness in the corner of their eyes gradually moved like whirlpools, and it was only a matter of seconds for them to be consumed deeper and deeper into them, until—
They flinched at a hand gently slapping them on the cheek, and in an instant, everything looked back to normal.
“What’s the matter, Froggy? You look like you’ve seen a ghost,” Jax said with charm in his voice, referencing a line from the Scream movie.
Ribbit snapped back to reality, trying to process what the hell just happened back there. If it weren’t for Jax sneaking into their room, Ribbit would’ve . . .
“How long have you been standing there?” they asked, looking disoriented.
“Not important!” He jumped to sit on the bed beside them, wrapping a tight arm around their shoulder. “Anyway, what was that about? What got our Froggy looking so down in the dumps, hmm?”
They moved his annoying arm away. They thought about venting, but immediately dismissed it because telling him about getting into a fight with his biggest rival would be a bad idea—a total boost to his ego.
“I’m doing fine.”
“Liar. Come on! We’re best buds, remember?” He put on a stupid face he was aware they hated the most, his mouth curling into a silly “W” shape. Was this guy really a bunny, or a cat high on catnip?
Knowing he wouldn’t give up until he got what he wanted, they gave in and told him what happened. “Ugh, whatever. I got in a fight with Ragatha and it ended pretty badly.”
“Ha!” His amused reaction was expected. “I’m listening.”
“I said something so . . . horrible. Just thinking about it makes me feel bad. God, I shouldn’t have said those things. I was being a huge d[%$!#]ck. I regret it.”
“What? It’s Rags.” He leaned down to lay on the bed with his arms behind his head. “Nothing to feel bad about when it comes to that pretentious ragdoll.”
“Sorry. I’m not a deliberate [%$!#]sshole.” They shot him a glare. “Unlike somebody.”
He clicked his tongue. “Shame, you’re missing out. You should loosen up and try being mean sometimes. It’s funny!”
“No, thank you.” Ribbit eyed him with exhausted patience. They’re so done with him.
Jax pushed the conversation further. “Okay, okay. But real question, what were you two fighting about?”
They also lay down and proceeded to spill everything that happened during the fight in detail. They ranted about Ragatha’s toxic positivity, them firmly believing they nearly abstracted, what they shamefully told her, the exit—
Right, the exit.
“Jax!” Ribbit quickly sat up; he followed right after. “The exit. You’ve seen it, yes?”
“You mean the red, realistic-looking door thing?”
“Uhh, yeah, yeah, that. Any chance you know where it is?”
“Wow . . .” He dragged out the word slowly, then crossed his arms. “I’ve never seen you so worked up like this. What about the door, bug eyes?”
“I need you to take me to it.” They urged. “This might finally be my only chance of escaping!”
“You, escaping?” He scoffed. “Oh yeah, keep trying and surely you’ll find your way outta here! That worked for all of us,” he said dryly.
Ribbit felt upset again and sighed. “I haven’t actually been in it yet.”
Jax tilted his head. “So you haven’t actually seen this thing? Not even the first time you came here?”
“No.”
“Huh, weird. Caine always shows it on the first day or week of arrival. It’s his way of reminding us that we’re never getting out. Messed up, I tell ya. Though in your case,” he said with a shrug, “he probably just forgot.”
“F[%$!#]ck, I hate him!” They complained with their hands on their head. They raised their feet to kneel on the bed, facing Jax. “Will you just help me, please?” Their hands were now placed on both of his shoulders, convincing him they were being serious by giving him a determined look.
“You’re that desperate? Tell you what.” He moved their hands aside. While Jax had nothing better to do, he decided to agree to their desperate plea. “I’ll take you to it. It’s actually just right down the hall in one of the locked rooms.”
Their eyes lit up, but before they could even say anything, he cut them off. “Though I gotta warn ya, Froggy, all that courage you’re building will be all for nothing. You’re gonna run back and wish you never set foot in there again.”
“I have to see it for myself. You never know! Besides, the reason you’re probably still stuck here is because you guys didn’t try hard enough. I’ll prove you wrong, bunnyboy.” They taunted, a smirk worn across their face.
Jax chuckled, grinning at the thought of Ribbit chickening out halfway as if he were already predicting it. Where did this blind confidence come from? he thought. He’s so keen to see their disappointed reaction once they realize the door’s a fake. They're a really timid person by nature, so he expected that they would run back in a flash. And if their stubbornness refused to budge, he might as well let them experience it for themselves—learn things the hard way.
“Okay.” Jax crossed his arms, still wearing a cheeky grin. “Prove it.”
─── ★ ───
Pomni looks distraught. Meanwhile, Jax’s eyes are still glued to the abstracted blob in the corner, his expression somber. Silence ensues between the both of them for a brief moment before he continues.
“Next thing you know, Ragatha found me in the room where the ‘exit’ was while I was still waiting for them to come out,” he said, doing air quotes for emphasis. “When she was walking to me, she asked me what Ribbit was doing before they abstracted, and that’s how I knew. Apparently, Caine found out and announced it for the rest to see, tossing them here in the cellar like he did with Kaufy . . . You can see why I lied about the exit the first time you got here, right? I had my reasons.”
“Oh, y-yeah. It’s okay. I totally understand.”
He lets out a prolonged sigh, feeling the weight of the situation coming back, which wears him down. He notices this and quickly clears his throat while sitting straight.
“Anyway, Ragatha's eyesight sucks! She had to stand behind me to properly make out that I was sitting in front of the stupid door. After that, we just argued. She kept saying, ‘you influenced them to act like you,’ and, ‘they got all that attitude from you, they weren’t like that before!’” He sighs in frustration, hands clenching from the unpleasant memory. “She doesn’t even know them the way I do, who the heck is she to talk? Unbelievable . . .”
Pomni’s thinking of what to say, but she feels conflicted. She’s well-aware he played a major role that led to Ribbit’s abstraction. Though in a situation like this, she doesn’t mainly focus on his faults when she looks at him—she sees hurt; regret.
After being lost in thought, she realizes she got too comfortable sitting in silence, but is relieved he’s also fine with it. She awkwardly scooches a tad closer and decides to do what she always does best—consoling people.
“Hey, you never meant for it to happen. Especially when Ribbit abstracting never crossed your mind. It wasn’t your intention, Jax. Don’t beat yourself up about it.”
”You don’t have to comfort me for the sake of it, Pomni. Would you sympathize with a murderer in real life? Exactly, you don’t. You just sitting here in silence and internally hating me is enough, so don’t bother.”
“But you’re not a murderer. You didn’t deliberately hurt them, you know? I-I’m not excusing your actions for treating that exit as harmless in any way. That’s what you should hold yourself accountable for and reflect on. I mean, it was really . . . careless, but it’s not like you led them to that exit with the solid intent of, you know, letting them abstract on purpose.”
“A life gone because of me.” His voice trembles, looking teary-eyed. “This is a real person we’re talking about, and I just . . . I crossed the line,” he says in almost a whisper. He pulls both of his knees close to his chest, arms crossed and face buried in them.
“If there’s anything truly to blame, it’s the way this world works.” She hesitates, but she lightly gives him a pat on the back to comfort him. “It was a freak accident. What’s important is that you feel remorseful about it, and it genuinely wasn’t your intention.”
“I know. It’s just hard to ignore the guilt you carry from the past.”
“If that’s the case, then . . . I think you should forgive yourself.”
“That’s easier said than done.” He looks at her while his chin rests on his arm.
“That’s why healing takes time. There’s no rush. Grief isn’t also easy to move on from, so . . . just take all the time you need, and eventually, things will get better. They always do.”
“And if they don’t?”
“If they don’t, then . . . you’re not allowing yourself to let it get better. Things won’t get better unless you let it. Yes, I did say to take your time healing, but healing’s about . . . sitting with the pain and feeling it, acknowledging why it hurts and how it hurts you, not ignoring it and keeping the hurt at bay. Ignoring your feelings only makes things worse.” She stops fidgeting with the huge button on her jumpsuit and peeks at him, returning his gaze. She continues her spiel.
“Part of being human is that we make a lot of mistakes. Instead of dreaming about undoing them, all we can do about it is learn and . . . grow.” She gives him a genuine smile. “Don’t let your past problems own you. Even beyond the guilt you carry, you still deserve to be happy.”
He sits with his legs crossed again, genuinely impressed. “Are you sure you’re an accountant? ‘Cuz you look real fitting as a therapist.”
Pomni giggles at the compliment. “That’s what they always say.”
He looks at her; it’s subtle, but a small, genuine smile at the ends of his closed mouth curves upwards. “Thanks for the two cents. I'll think about it.”
Her eyes light up as she smiles. “You’re welcome. I just don’t want you to keep feeling miserable anymore. I don’t want anybody to feel like that.”
Her pupils are so dilated, he wonders if his did the same—though big pupils are his default, there’s a distinct look in his eyes if they dilate out of affection.
“You know, Pomni, you remind me of them a bit,” he says softly while inching his face a bit closer to hers, fixated on something on her face. “Especially the huge dots on your cheeks. It’s kind of a cute coincidence.” Without warning, he pinches her cheeks, his thumbs right in the middle of her round red blush. Meanwhile, she’s even more wide eyed than before, surprisingly just letting it happen. He pinches and then stretches them, chuckling before letting go.
He rests his hands behind him on the ground, leaning on his arms. “Ever since that happened, I’ve tried to use the keys for a better purpose. I secretly check up on everyone in their rooms sometimes. Just making sure no one abstracts. Funny I say that, and yet I failed to save Kaufy.”
A sad look forms in her face from seeing his pained expression. "It's not your job to save everyone. We’re all just trying our best to survive here.”
“Yeah . . .” he trails off. Suddenly, his drooping bunny ears shoot up as he changes the topic. “Oh, hey! I just randomly remembered something.”
“Remember what?”
“One time, I checked up on Gangle and saw her playing house with her figurines. Guess what happens?”
Pomni shrugs.
“She made her figurine of Ragatha kiss a figurine of herself!” He burst out laughing. “What’s a girl doing in her mid-twenties playing with dolls? Man, what a loser.”
“That’s not funny,” she says with a look of disappointment. “Stop trying to pick on Gangle. Don’t you know how to respect your elders?”
“Hey, Gangle likes it when I’m mean. Every time I spy on her playing house, she really gets into character when mimicking my personality. I think she’s having a lot of fun. And bold of you to assume I’m younger! You don’t even know my age.”
“I dunno. I just have a feeling you are.”
“Why? Because I’m immature?” He looks at her with his arms crossed.
“Your words, not mine,” she says while raising her hands on either side of her shoulders before letting them rest. “How old are you, anyway?”
“Curious, huh? I’m twenty-two.” He leans his face a bit closer to hers. “Why? You into younger guys?”
“What?!” she exclaims as she’s caught off guard. “I just asked a normal question. What the—?! Don’t make it weird!”
“Relax, I’m kidding!” His hand ruffles her head with a bit of force. He abruptly stands and then stretches his arms. “Okay! That’s enough trauma dumping for today. Let’s go.”
“Oh, uhh— Okay.” Pomni stands up and follows behind him.
“Hey, Pomni, wanna join me in setting Kinger’s pillow fort on fire later?”
And he’s back to being an asshole. “How about not setting Kinger’s home on fire?”
“Ugh, boring.”
After less than a minute of walking, they’re finally back to the—
Why is the door open?
The paranoia Pomni felt earlier was slowly crawling back. She wants to bring it up, but she sees Jax nonchalantly open the already open door wider, walking out. She could’ve sworn she heard him close the door when they got here, but judging by his unfazed demeanor, she stays silent. She stops overthinking it and walks out, closing the door behind her as he locks it right after. They walk together in silence to their respective rooms that are right across from each other. Before Pomni can open her door, Jax stands behind her.
“Hey, you better not say a word to anyone about today. You’re lucky I trust you.”
She smiles sincerely, happy he trusts her enough to have that vulnerable conversation. “Don’t worry, I won't.”
“Good.” He turns around to walk to his room, the back of his right hand waving at her. “Alright, see ya.”
Pomni watches him enter his room. She turns back to face her door to also get inside, but pauses, curiosity suddenly getting the best of her. She wants to check on something near the end of the hallway for a bit. After some quick searching, she finally finds what she’s looking for. She stands in front of a door that has a thick red “X” slashed across the character—a smiling frog wearing a red bowtie.
So we really do have the same blush placement . . .
She returns back to her room. Upon finally entering, she plops down on the bed and closes her eyes shut. She mentally prepares herself for another day in the digital circus, and the unwanted adventures that awaits them.
Summary: All Pomni ever wants is to simply check out the “thing in the hall” that Jax brought up during their latest adventure, and be done with her day . . .
But how did things take such an unexpected turn?
Tags: Angst, Bittersweet Ending, Continuation after episode 5, Jax has a crush on Pomni, Jealous Jax, Lesbian Ragatha, Doomed Yuri, Kinger Needs a Hug, Jax/Pomni, Princess Loolilalu/Ragatha, Gangle/Zooble