bravado

esther | 21 | proverbs 3:26

[cafe-muse]

[elenamjacobs]

@elenamjacobs

[youmysalvation]

[llovinghome]

[cabinporn]

Cottage on an island near Nora, Sweden. Submitted by Jonas Loiske.

[artificialmonsters]

the other day i read about somebody who fixed a butterfly’s wings and it made me want to cry.

ciara, i can’t think about such tenderness without flinching away. you taught me how to throw knives in self-defence and now i can only anticipate violence.

ciara, i cried in front of a room full of strangers and when they came closer to hold me, i wanted to scream. i don’t know how to let others touch me without being afraid of hurting. like all of me is an exposed wound that i can’t let anyone put their fingers on. it’s easier to live in fight-or-flight than have the strength to hope.

i’ve been dreaming of drowning, ciara. i dream i’m in a glass tank and everyone outside is taking photographs. capturing how i look as i try to punch through the glass. anger makes for good art. collateral damage is often worth it. i wake up with bruised fists. i am a warning sign, a tense guitar string ready to snap, a red blinking light. i almost understand why they would watch instead of breaking the glass and risking a flood.

i don’t know how to uncurl these fists. to let someone touch my hands as gently as a butterfly’s wing. to let them look at my jagged edges as something other than a threat. to believe i’m injured, not damaged.

i saw someone reach out the other day. i let them hold on to me. i became more anchor than someone drowning. i think i’m scared to admit kindness lies closer than expected. that i’ve already made space for it.

[selierynn]

[showerthoughtsofficial]

Music is just wiggling air

[the-sunshine-cult-deactivated20]

don’t do this. don’t do this to me today.

[labella-instagram]

[magnolia-lies-deactivated202403]

I’ve always thought stretch marks were like golden tree branches or antlers. So beautiful

[labella-instagram]

@ellemaywatson

[betterself]

22.11.2019; i'm getting into journaling again. i used to write a lot when i was younger and i would like to get back into that habit. not everyday, but when i have something to say. specially now that i'm trying to decide what to do with my future, it's so helpful to detangle my mind.

[jen-bern]

[trembeling]

[design-art-architecture]

@frapln

[whateverisrealised]

Armando Reverón - White Landscape (1940)

[modedamour]

Instagram @modedamour​ 

[j-p-g]

[gallerias]

(via flimzy, j-p-g)