Bailey Gibson

Hi! I'm an artist in the Seguin/New Braunfels area. I sell my art and do commissions to earn money for college. I don't take every request, but if you send me one that catches my eye, I might just draw it.

[gibusaan]

I get it, I had someone like that too. But I mean shit, sometimes it be like that. I still wish the best for them and love them a lot though, that’s always been my fault. I’ve never had the ability to just be able to GHOST someone (but then again, I’ve never probably felt something too extreme like that, as that’s a situation That’s different than mine) But such is life I guess, I bet they probably think ur the worst too ahdjks

I think maybe Tumblr mobile is fucking me over bc I was having a hard time being able to read the full ask, but from what I can see you just said that you had someone like that too. And that fucking sucks dude, I hope that person wasn't me 😢

[gibusaan]

shit what the fuck did they do ... (I’m guessing that’s the mess from earlier)

Heh, that's a big, long, complicated life story my dude. Perhaps I'll write an autobiography one day. Definitely too long and convoluted to spout on an ask 😂

They were definitely a huge part of my mess tho, I'll tell you that.

[gibusaan]

who’s lee? (Did u want it to be lee)

Lee is someone I had a complicated situation with and had to ghost for my own mental health no once, but twice. Ever getting them was just about the worst thing that ever happened to me and ended up wrecking my life for a few years. I definitely didn't want anon to be them.

[gibusaan]

Nah, it’s not lee

Well if that's true, then we're gucci my dude. I'm good to talk to pretty much anyone else in my life (past or present) except them.

[gibusaan]

It depends. Do u know me or do you just know the IDEA of me? do I feel like a ghost to you?

Mmmmmnope you feel like person I used to know perhaps by the name of Lee

[gibusaan]

Thanks, sorry I’m being personal it’s been a weird day and you’ve been on my mind recently so there’s that

Hey man, you're fine, really. I'm a pretty open book (and I've been told that I don't possess much of a filter), so don't worry about it. Besides, I'm pretty much always down for talking to people. I was just making sure you knew I'm down to talk if you need it.

It seems to me that you've got stuff on your mind and needed to talk. Though, you know I gotta ask, do I know you? I can't shake the feeling that I do (or maybe I'm being parinoid and I'm just a random artist you happened to hit up on Tumblr)

and also, I can delete the old asks if you don't feel comfortable with them staying up on my blog. (Not that anyone comes to look at my blog anyway)

[gibusaan]

What’s keeping you from being friends again? I’m scared of missing my family when I’m in Wisconsin, ur brother most likely misses u just as much

It's a bit of a complicated situation, and I can't let myself fall into that mess again. I'm finally in the best place I've ever been mentally, but I don't want to get mixed up in rebuilding something I myself put an end to right as I'm beginning my adult life. 🤷

And I definitely get being scared of missing people. We all get that, and it's hard to deal with. Relationships need to change and grow to accommodate distance, and it's a real process. I wish you the best of luck in keeping up with your people when you go away! (And if you ever need to talk it out, feel free to PM me. And if you don't feel comfortable using your main, you could always create another Tumblr for your anon activity. I certainly have one.)

[gibusaan]

Understandable, I don’t have a drivers license either so I get the struggle. Is there anyone you miss? (I miss my grandma)

It's good to know I'm not the only one behind, but I hope both of us can get ours as soon as possible!

As for missing people, I miss my brother. He moved to Nevada and left me alone with my parents which.... Isn't ideal. I also get to missing an old friend that I had to cut off awhile back. Even if I'm the one that ended the friendship, I still think about her all the time and it hurts sometimes. The good news is that it doesn't hurt nearly as much as it did two years ago. Now I can think back on the good times too.

[gibusaan]

hey, what’s your biggest regret?

Oh wow, we're pulling out the big guns tonight. But honestly? I don't have a huge amount of regrets. I'm a very deal with it, accept what can't be changed, and do better in the future kind of person.

I've got a few, but I think my biggest one is that I got too caught up in everything life was throwing at me these past few years that a lot of things snowballed and I'm rushing to get them done. I'm embarrassed to say that I'm 18 years old and I don't have a driver's permit, and I focused too much on one out of reach school, so I had to apply to after the deadline for Texas State---leaving me in anxiety limbo not knowing for sure what will happen next year and having to rush everything at the last minute while also maintaining a social life.

[gibusaan]

Dude, every college is out of the price range of 0 dollars. But honestly, it’s worth it for me

Yes, yes, so the admissions people tell me. I chose Texas state for a decent art program, and tuition under $15,000 so loans will be minimal. I'm hoping I've made a good decision, but we shall see

[gibusaan]

I thought about staying in state for art but I got a pretty sweet deal for art in Milwaukee so I’m just ready to go wild I guess

Dude, go apeshit in Milwaukee then! Chase that opportunity! 🎷 (Personally, I was gonna go to the University of Dallas in Irving, but even with scholarships and work study it was too far out of my price range of $0)

[gibusaan]

Nope never heard of it! But I figure ur staying in state then

Yep! It's this rad place in San Marcos and, thus, near Texas State.

[gibusaan]

You should definitely do more portraits, ur figure work is killer. Do u think ur gonna study this in college?

That's the plan! I'm definitely majoring in studio arts next year and I plan to take a few classes at the art colony near my college. Ever hear of Eye of the Dog?

[gibusaan]

you should make more art! It’s very nice to see u progress :)

Thank you so much! In all honesty, I kind of let this account sit for so long bc I was uncertain if Tumblr would keep chugging along after the most recent slaps to the face from @staff

Since things seem to have settled down, I'm going to make an effort to be more active here!

[gibusaan]

thanks for the answer. I had a bad trip recently. Felt like a psychotic attack? thought you might get it lmao idk stay cool okay?

Any time, man. You gotta be careful with that shit, though. Everyone reacts differently and it's not always a good time, as I'm sure you realized after that. Try and stay safe and well-researched my dude!

[gibusaan]

have you ever felt like you were losing your grip on reality?

Hell yeah my dude. Maybe this isn't the place to say this, but I often experience dissociation. Whether it's from stress, depression, anxiety, or a pre-existing condition, I think we all feel like we're losing our grip sometimes. I think mine comes from a mixture of depression and something else I don't have a name for. The important thing to remember is that those feelings aren't something we have to hide from. If we work to address them and (hopefully) find ourselves in a position to seek professional help in the future, we can maybe work past them and be better for the experience.

[gibusaan]

Hi. I have completed fan art of your lovley AU. :)

Superb funky boys!!!!!!

[gibusaan]

Reblogging with the link!

http://gotapenname.tumblr.com/post/183828530312/fan-art-for-gibusaans-yogi-twin-bother-au-i