Queen of hell

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before." -Edgar Allan Poe

[dispiritedfae]

I’m sorry for all the times my mental health made me a bad friend

[survivor-of-my-childhood]

a bad person*

[x-x-bones-x-x]

BPD is so confusing. I don't want to be in another relationship again, I'm too afraid of them leaving me. But I want to have sex. I can't have casual sex though. Now I want more than that, I want to cuddle and be told that I'm precious and such a good girl. I want someone to tell me how good I'm doing and how proud they are of me. I want to cuddle someone to sleep while I'm wearing a t-shirt and they're completely naked. I want them to spoon me. But I'm too scared to be in another relationship. I can't deal with another person leaving me. I can't deal with anyone else, period. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of being used. I deserve to be alone. I deserve to rot. I deserve everything that comes to me but God damnit deep down I know I just want to be truly, purely, completely loved.

[ailurophilerebeccaexists-deacti]

Touched starved and touch repulsed

[dietcokeflavoredair]

“communication is key” i say, as i ghost all the people i care about because i cannot express my feelings due to trauma

[dispiritedfae]

Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Will these thoughts ever stop?

[allthesepurplelights]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Will it ever get better?

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

The fact that I'm still "alive" in 2024 just feels like a huge mistake...

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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[hopeful-recoveryy]

Shoutout to people who “just” have anxiety and depression. I’m sorry the severity of your disorders are downplayed. I know from personal experience, when I was dealing with “just” anxiety and depression, that this was something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. Depression is severe. Anxiety is severe. There is no “just” anxiety and depression.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

I'm proud of you for making it this far.

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]