Jul 28
Im like at a point right now, of if these 3 specific people pull some bullshit im giving up on developing a social life. My emotions are too big and my patience is too thin to trust peole anymore
#🐦⬛log#i hate bpd and i hate feeling like this.#i understand it wasnt malicious im trying so hard to let go but its hard when you contribute to ongoing suffering of my partner#ans hate the other out of pussy footing and stewing#its hard not for ME to ruminate on. its so hard not to sink into the splitting. i dont want to feel like i hate my friend but it hurts#and im scared its all feeling lkke when i was in tge constant ebb ans flow of drama as a kid#i wish people werent so hard for me i wish i were normal and felt emotions a regular amount
