Dara

25yr old asexual ambivert deaf Londoner | Army, NamSeok OT7 | MOA, SooGyu OT5 | Stay, SungChan OT8 | Swiftie

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hello to new followers and readers! welcome. i would firstly like to express an apology, as i’ve been getting questions asking to continue writing some stories i haven’t finished and/or edit my links to other stories. here is the downer: i do not write anymore, as for one: my main muse was sebastain stan and given recent events and the recent projects he’s been involved with, i have gone off him completely and utterly, i still like bucky, just not him. i also have lost interest in writing completely since when i was writing, nobody read anything. so i thought? what’s the point? please refrain from asking me to fix links or carry on with some unfinished stories, i will not and do not plan to in the future. this blog is now dedicated to other things. i completely understand if you wish to unfollow me after seeing this. thank you for reading, i did enjoy when i was writing, but no longer.

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honestly super grateful for this little break i have just before the next lot of shows coming to my theatre after the sold out mess last week. then in a few weeks i’m back at college! so everything will be back to normal!

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what’s the most silliest thing you believed when you first got into k pop? for me it was when i was freshly into bts, i thought their first names were their surnames. so i thought they were referring to each other by their surnames. it took me a while to realise i was wrong

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had a full on k drama moment on the train yesterday. a cute korean guy kept smiling at me and blushing everytime i looked up at him. when i smiled back at him, he turned bright red and smiled back at me. but alas, i’ve never attracted anyone before so i didn’t know what to do, so it was just the odd smiles at each other then when the train reached my stop, i smiled at him and he nodded softly at me with his cute smile 😭

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plz help give me strength for today’s show bc there’s a chance i may have to usher for a third time this week on a really fucking boring show. plz don’t make me usher bc i don’t want to see the play again and we have it until saturday 😭

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just checked my rota and i’m working with someone i really don’t like today 😩 shes rude and she hates everyone in the building and she hates working here. she’s so rude, and last time she worked with me, she threw the ticket scanner at me and told me to turn it on for her because she didn’t “want to do anything that wasn’t part of her job”. news flash: ticket scanners have to turn the ticket scanners on because that IS part of their job.

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i’m not used to working on mondays, we rarely have a monday show, so the fact i’ve been working since monday has really thrown me off. i keep thinking today is thursday.

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wish me luck as i head for a round 2 of a sold out show for the entire week….and i’m ushering a very strict show. send all the good thoughts my way, please.

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to follow up on my day at work. on my way home i was on the tube with the worlds most annoying and loud group. one started vaping, one smoked a cigar and another smoked a cigarette. the train was literally filling with smoke and i felt sick and dizzy the entire journey. anyway, bts helps me relax so i focused on jin’s angelic voice with the astronaut, and as soon as i looked up, the moon was right in front of me in the sky, shining brightly. honestly? that made me feel safe. jin knew i needed him and he made himself known. and literally after that, arson came on (i’m hobi bias) so i felt like my boys were watching.

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so i was back at work yesterday after 2+ months of not working. i was nervous and i did make a few mistakes but i’ve really won with “best manager” with my mistakes he just looked at me and said “don’t worry; it’s just because you’re likely nervous because we’ve been closed for two months. it’ll come back to you in no time.” 😭 also? this audience are lovely??? one lady said i was very pretty and literally nobody tells me that so i was taken aback 😭😭😭

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i just had a big anxiety attack because i am currently without a car and i missed my bus which meant i wouldn’t be able to get to the property i volunteer at on time for the event, anyway, i told my manager and i was going through this big anxiety attack, only for my manager to reply saying it was all okay and that there is currently enough volunteers to help out and he was grateful i let him know. all that anxiety for literally nothing?????? fuck anxiety.

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i don’t wanna scan tickets on a sold out show on monday, someone give me a good reason not to go to work-

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WINNIE THE POOH 2011 | dir. Stephen Anderson & Don Hall

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where does everyone (preferably uk fans and preferably NOT amazon) get their photo card binders from? i have three but they’re all bts related and i don’t like mixing and matching my photo cards. i currently have four stray kids and two tomorrow x together ones that aren’t protected and i’m highkey panicking about it. my bts ones are safe, but skz and txt aren’t. if anyone has any safe uk stores (again NOT amazon) i’d be truly grateful!!

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today was busy. doctors appointment was really good, everything dandy. and training day was really fun. it was nice to see my colleagues and managers, everyone just rubs off each other perfectly: managers and colleagues alike.

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busy ass day today. doctors appointment in an hour then i have to go to work for a training day - i do be ded after today