I noticed that the posts you post here are all just complaining about me. It’s never a “I love my girlfriend” post anymore. That’s fine. I don’t even post here anymore.
There are moments in our relationship that make me think that I’d last with you forever-- just imagining the love and beginning of our life together (the whole shabang). In other moments, the obstacles of our relationship, one argument or misstep feels like it could be the end of us. I do feel like, even now, almost 5 years into the relationship, that I’m walking on eggshells-- dancing around my words and actions to avoid stepping on the landmine of your emotions. I feel like it’s even worse now, where at times, I’m frozen in fear that I end up saying little words or nothing at all. I don’t know how to comfort you. I don’t know how to make the situation better. At times, I feel like I can read you like the back of my palm. Other times, I feel like I don’t know you at all. The longer we stay together and have our little arguments, the more that I realize that you shut me out. You no longer have any interest in talking about our conflict. And, that’s my fault. But, I’m trying. Trying to talk to you. But, how can I talk to someone who doesn’t want to talk?
Tonight, I mentioned your dog. It’s always an argument about your dog, isn’t it? I guess now’s the time to lay it all down on the table. To be honest, I find it annoying and hypocritical to complain and worry about your dog not eating. Not only that, but complaining about how your dog is so annoying. Like, where do you think he learned these behaviors from? An enabler-- you. And I’m sure that you know this. Your dog has separation anxiety, food aggression, aggressive in general, whines constantly, wants to be let out all the time, and literally starves himself. I didn’t say anything at the table because I was honestly stunned at the words you said-- talking about how you didn’t ask for our opinion. Okay, that’s fine. Then, you complain about how no one wants to say anything and how we’re all talk and don’t even help you fix him. It’s like, how are you gonna say that when you don’t even listen to what we tell you to do. How are we supposed to help when you won’t listen? I just don’t understand. We’re telling you to stop feeding him human food. Feed him his kibble after we finish food. If he doesn’t eat his kibble after 10-20 minutes, that’s it. I get that it’s hard to watch him starve, but breaking an almost 8 year habit is gonna take time. Especially, if it is a severe case where he won’t consume anything that’s not meat. It’s a process and won’t happen overnight. But, how can we even start this process or help you help him when you throw a tantrum when we even say anything? It literally makes no sense. On another note, his separation anxiety. I don’t think it will be possible to move into an apartment with separation anxiety this severe. Literally screaming when you leave. Like, I understand that you love your dog to point that life would be pointless without him. But, I can’t think of a way that we can help you when you obviously just don’t want the help. Also, you even mentioned that he was doing good the other day and he stopped eating his food because we ran out of the air-dried food. Like, why not go and buy him so he can continue eating his kibble?
Anyway, I’m done. I’m done trying to co-parent your dog. I’m just going to stay silent about it, because it seems like if it’s not your way, it’s not the right way and I’m just going to get backlash on it. That’s fine. You raise your dog however way that you want. I just don’t want to hear you complain about him-- his eating habits, his annoying behavior, just him being him. I don’t want to hear it anymore. Honestly, I feel like it’s the toxic relationship that you have with your dog and just your dog’s annoying traits that makes me hate him. It makes me hate you too. But, from now on, that is all behind me. I won’t care about your dog anymore.
