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Hey, chickenfoot. x

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Hello!!! I just want to say a huge thank you. I know you're not Tumblr active anymore, but I still hope maybe you check your messages. I started reading In Other Words a couple years back, and it was the only fanfic that I bothered reading. You inspired me to write my own stuff, I then realized that I really like writing. I just started a college writing course and I couldn't be happier. THANK YOU for opening that door for me :) :)

I do get my asks! This is the nicest thing to hear! I am thrilled that you've found yourself a writer.

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Hey, tumblr.com.

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Dear Diary, I regret all of the not-nice things I said about Taylor Swift in 2012.

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thehauteprofessor is really good!

Oo yes! This is very good thanks. x

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Business attire: so difficult to be cute and comfortable. I am so bored of slacks and blazers. Do you guys know of any young professional style blogs?

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chelseahandler: Just sitting here watching James cordon giggle.

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Hey, listen. This is a huge, difficult decision for you. Sleep on it. You're thinking too much right now, and distracting yourself with a good night's sleep will help. It always does. I promise.

If only sleep had the answers! I’m okay doll, just in need of a place to bounce my thoughts around. Thanks. xx

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don't worry about what other people might think of you. you are your own person, and you owe nothing to any of those people. you decide whether you want to make amends on your own terms, don't worry at all about what other people will think. ultimately, this is about your health, and your life, and your relationship with this person. nobody else can lead your life this way.

Thank you. I feel like a good person, but I know things tend to get simplified in black and white in other peoples’ eyes. It’s hard not to be aware of that. 

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If you can find it in your heart to forgive her, even when she's been so horrible to you, then you are the best daughter. There's a chance that she will see you becoming kinder to her, and she might change how she is. If thats a chance you want to take, do it.

I have forgiven her, and will continue to do so, but not at the expense of letting her bring her disease and decisions back into my life. If kindness could have changed her, I think it would have happened before I was the only person to still care about her. 

Unless by kinder to her you mean give her unlimited access to my bank account so that she can live out her final days in a drugfest. She’d totally love me then. 

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I've just seen you say to someone that it's your mother. If anything, that entitles you to even more anger, because someone who's supposed to care for you should never act in an abusive way. I think that no one else should be able to impact your thinking, and you shouldn't worry what it looks like to others, because the way you're feeling is the way you're feeling. I think the most important thing to consider is whether or not you'll regret not making amends and focus on that.

I already have so many regrets, not the least of which is saving her life so many times. It’s like she died years ago, but I’ve just been enduring this, waiting for it to finally end. I can’t remember now why I wanted her around so badly. Love is a funny thing.