STRANGE LOVE

THE TRUTH RUNS WILD, LIKE A TEAR DOWN A CHEEK. TRYING TO SAVE FACE, AND DADDY HEART BREAK, I'M LYING THROUGH MY TEETH. THIS VOICE INSIDE HAS BEEN EATING AT ME. TRYING TO REPLACE THE LOVE THAT I FAKE WITH WHAT WE BOTH NEED. THE TRUTH RUNS WILD, LIKE KIDS ON CONCRETE. TRYING TO SEDATE, MY MIND IN ITS CAGE AND NUMB WHAT I SEE. AWAKE, WIDE EYED, I'M SCREAMING AT ME. TRYING TO KEEP FAITH AND PICTURE HIS FACE STARING UP AT ME. WITHOUT LOSING A PIECE OF ME, HOW DO I GET TO HEAVEN? WITHOUT CHANGING A PART OF ME, HOW DO I GET TO HEAVEN? ALL MY TIME IS WASTED FEELING LIKE MY HEART'S MISTAKEN. SO IF I'M LOSING A PIECE OF ME, MAYBE I DON'T WANT HEAVEN?

[marvelsdefenders]

[artsnquotes]

…and then, I have nature and art and poetry, and if that is not enough, what is enough?

Vincent van Gogh

[all-is-dust-soon-enough]

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[i-hate-life-so-so-much]

[lonur]

I tell people I’m a writer, but what I mean to say is, ‘I want to do big things, but all I have are these stupid words.’

Unknown

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[2gris]

[hvrperisms]

diamonds, lace, lipstick

diamonds: how do you feel about excessively spending money?

harper finds that to be extremely careless. he doesn’t spend money excessively, knowing how much value it holds and how quickly it can go all away. he can be considered cheap when it comes to the basic supplies shopping, but he goes the extra for the things he cares about - romantic partners, family, his hair.

lace: what is something in your life completely different from last year?

he has an actual paying job as a teacher this year. he’s been an assistant for past four years, watching over classes when the main teacher steps out or grades papers, so he’s happy to start having his own classes starting next year.

lipstick: do you enjoy talking to strangers?

not at all. harper hates small talk and speaking to strangers, that’s usually a must. the only way he’d openly speak to a stranger is when they approach him or he finds them attractive.

[hvrperisms]

freckles, painting, sunflower

freckles: what’s something that makes you happy? describe the first thing that comes to your head.

waking up early and realizing you have more time to sleep – that’s what makes harper happy.

painting: in what ways are you creative?

harper is creative with his date ideas. while he might like to netflix and chill, but he knows it’s not everyone’s style and he’ll like to impress whoever he’s seeing with something unique and special. either if it’s a trip to an art gallery or a night horse ride near central park, he likes to put a personal touch to each one to ensure a callback.

sunflower: if there was a door that went to a city that was a good representation of you, what city would it be and would you go through the door?

a slowed down version of nyc would be a good representation. that’s not quite suburban but also not too busy or rushed, however still captures attention of others. and yes, he would go through the door.

[hvrperisms]

painting, freckles, silk

silk: list songs you listen to for a jam

starboy - the weeknd

let’s go crazy - prince

black skinhead - kanye west

x - 21 savage

mask off - future

loyalty - kendrick lamar

in the closet - michael jackson

[hvrperisms]

painting, waterfalls

painting: in what ways are you creative?

through his writing, he feels like he’s the most creative. he enjoys writing in his personal journal, detailing important events in his life, as well as write short stories and poems about things that inspire him.

waterfalls: describe your perfect date.

netflix and chill …. he’s completely serious about this. he just wants to watch tv, vibe over similar interests then have sex.

[hvrperisms]

bubble bath, jazz

bubble bath: do you have any routines before bedtime? like skin care, etc. what are they?

besides simply washing his face and brushing his teeth, harper doesn’t do much. his “skin care” routine that includes shaving and moisturizing is done after his morning shower. at night, he basically jumps straight into bed upon five minutes of returning home which is just the way he likes it.

jazz: name a song that resonates with you and your emotions. explain the reason why.

tokyo by brockhampton. harper is still growing and maturing as a person. he's still reflecting on his past mistakes and trying to overcome his doubt/insecurity.

[hvrperisms]

pink & freshly cut grass!

pink: sunsets or sunrises?

sunsets. he’s barely awake to see the sun rise.

freshly cut grass: are you an early riser? if not, is this because you stay up late?

he’s far from an early riser, but he reluctant trying to become one for work. he’s a night hawk, and spends lots of time at night grading homework and binge watching breaking bad for the third time.

[hvrperisms]

waves, freckles

waves: is there one music genre you can’t listen to?

if you like country, then get out of harper’s face tbh

freckles: what’s something that makes you happy? describe the first thing that comes to your head.

sleeping in late. if he gets to sleep past noon, then harper is a happy guy.

[fuckyeahinteriordesigns]