You are back at your calm and collected self now. It is because you took 0.5 mg of Lorazepam. It is OK. You did your best to not give in. You tried to convince yourself that you will feel better, and to just let your pounding heart have a life of its own. You inhaled and exhaled deeply. You even burned your tongue because you took the doctor's advise to drink hot tea when you are in that situation. But this time the monsters in your head were so strong and that left you with no choice but to reach for that half-cut pill. It is OK. You did your best. You brought yourself out of what would have been a terrible situation for you. You were brave enough to endure those few heart-pounding moments in your life.
And now for the (hard) truth:
You woke up feeling rested. So perhaps you did not need that cup of coffee --- that warm and frothy cup of freshly brewed coffee that seemed like a cozy hug with the pouring rain in the background. The caffeine hit --- you can convince yourself that it helped you focus in your driving class today. But did you ever think how you'd manage to successfully complete every round, on your own, without the driving instructor's guidance? Dear one, you have guts - and you don't need that caffeine hit - or anything - or anyone - to prove that it exists. You are enough.
And your body will produce adrenaline naturally to help you fight whatever battle you put yourself into. That is enough.
So let's make a visual for today's mishap by formulating an equation:
Caffeine ✅ + adrenaline 🆙 = Trouble 🔥
Dear one, you learn by making mistakes.
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