[iceandgum4me]

Making a pinned post!!

Hello, you guys can call me cassie im 22. Im trying to be more active on here and keep myself consistent. My page is all about weight loss and €d, alot of venting about it. My blog is like my diary, if you don't like what I post that's okay feel free to block me or scroll by just please don't report this is all I have keeping me sane. Also I would really like to have some wl friends

Let me know what kind of things you want me to post other than rants and venting

[iceandgum4me]

I wish I could just stop eating. I wish I could starve myself to death, i wish I was as small as gh thinspl I see. No I wish I was smaller then them I need to be the smallest, I eat only when someone else is and I have to eat less then them. Everything is a competition and I have to win I have to be the sickest

[iceandgum4me]

TW:sh

Sorry I know i usually only post about eating but I'm feeling alot different today.

I truly have always thought I wasn't good enough and like I would never live up to anything. I have been sui. cidal since probably the 4th grade and have sh since the start. I feel like I just can't stop. Hell, im 22 now, and why has none of those feelings ever gone away? In fact, they have only gotten worse, way worse.

Am i truly just not good enough, I'm feel like I'm the worst person alive. I love my boyfriend more than I've ever loved anything but we just can't stop fighting I don't even know why we get started.

Im just so exhausted what if he is just better without me I can't help but to think about that, what if he just feels bad for me or idk hell I can't even have sex right, it's all he wants and I'm not good enough to even give him that when he wants, my mom has a love hate relationship with me, my dad left my mom when I was young but he stayed to visit my sister, she's not even related to him. Why wasn't I good enough for him, my eating im not even enough to stay consistent. I've has an ed since I was sui. cidal yet I'm still fat. All I can think about ever is kms and 🌟ing myself

I just wish I could disappear, not die, just be in a spectator mode. See if anyone truly cares i mean I know my boyfriend does i just feel like he would be happier with someone else, someone who's not mean or constantly wanting to die maybe someone who will just give him the world god do i love him more than anything tho. I just sometimes feel like he doesn't even care. I remember everything about him I go out of my way to do things for him like buy him the things I know hell like I say the stuff he wants to hear but he has to ask me everything,"what do you want, what do you want me to say, or sorry I was going to say that you just didn't let me finish, what do you want to do" I just with he would do something without asking. Am I not good enough for him to even want to do that? Am I holding him back? Why can't I just be enough

[iceandgum4me]

Tw: I'm fat

Okay I've never posted myself but if I wanna stay consistent I have to be true to myself

Im 5"1

170pounds

Sorry I dont own any more fitting clothes that more show how big i am

[iceandgum4me]

I feel as though I did good with eating today, it only ate a small fry from steak n shake. I know it's not healthy food but my boyfriend bought it for me because he was worried (which only makes me happy to hear) I hope tomorrow is just as good, lately I've been really on and off with it

[iceandgum4me]

Anyone wanna be weight loss mutuals

[iceandgum4me]

I've lost 10 pounds in the last 3 weeks I feel like I can try harder. Like I'm not doing enough. Like I'm not good enough I'm still overweight by alot. I want to use excuse it's because started 80pounds over weight but I KNOW it's just because I'm not trying enough. Im not committed. I just get borde and I eat or i get upset and I eat how do I make myself stop. How can I be good enough. Even my mom comments on my weight still and I'm 22 and a state away I just wish I was good enough and pretty enough and not disgusting. Please someone put me down like a pig already

Sw:190 (I'm lying it was 200.8)

Gw:90

Cw:169.5

It does help that my boyfriend is overweight to but Im feelling like "birds of a feather flock together" and that we look like beached whales going out together

[iceandgum4me]

I feel as though I am drowning in my thoughts like I am pushing and pulling from my €d I want to be skinny so bad i would die or kill for it, but I have a husband who doesn't get it. I know if I was truly dedicated, he wouldn't stop me. Sometimes I can get him to diet with me and I can eat way less or nothing at all for days then it's like I forget I have eating problems, well not forget because no matter what I see myself as a fat fuck who has no self control. the second I eat one thing I wanna eat everything in the house and I do. I can't even make myself throw up, I used to so much I burned my esophagus and ruined my intestines it truly felt like I was flying when I did it. But now I just repeat the cycle of starving and eating, I haven't lost any progress like I never gain the wait back but I'm not consistent enough to be where I wanna be once I starve the pounds just fly off it's the easiest thing in the world but the second food touches my lips all progress stops. I have it I feel like a pig I'm never fully committed even tho it's all I can think about %90 of the time but I need 100 I am ruining my life about it I just want it more than anything no I need it. Im overweight, I'm fat, I'm disgusting, I'm not good enough, I'm not pretty. It's so shocking that the same thing that is slowly killing me mentally is the same thing I have zero self control over.

[g00my-4ng3lss]

Some wl tips that I learned over the years lol

(Tw: Very disordered tips)

1. Look up what your bmi will be when you get to your desired weight (and vis versa). This way you'll be motivated to keep loseing weight

2. Don’t act like you hate your body in front of other people. This will increase suspicion

3. Use a rubber band and snap it on your wrist when you want to eat,or if you think about eating, food=pain.

4. Look at food as calories and fat, not food.

5. When your own your period, use it as an excuse to why you’re purging. (If you already purge. Don't start if you don't already)

6. Use school as a way to get out of eating. You can lie and say you ate a big lunch so your not hungry for dinner.

7. Drink as much water as you can, water DOESNT make you fat! It can also help make you feel full!!

8. Chew sugar free gum when you want to eat. And if your like me and gum makes your jaw hurt tic tacs are a good alternative.

9. Only eat if you have to, don’t eat if you don’t want to or don’t need to, the longest you can fast is most likely for 5-7 days, it depends who you are.

10. Chew your food into tiny bites, until it’s like apple sauce. And if that is gross to you (real) then eat SUPER slowly in small bites

11. Don’t eat until 7am and don’t eat past 7pm, so you’ll have a 12 hour fast everyday.

12. Have thinspiration in different places, having a gallery for it on your phone help, and you can put it on your lock screen as well.

13. Eat ice when you’re hungry, that can help as well.

14. Distractions will be your bff. Binge shows, watch movies, etc. I make little rules for myself that I can only eat when I finnish [insert movie/show here].

15. Don’t tell anyone that you’re trying to loose weight, not even your closest friend (only tell people if you’re overweight).

16. Get clothes that don’t fit you and are too small and hang them up, they should motivate you to loose weight.

17. Exercise when your bored. Honestly keeping your body moving will do wonders for weightloss. Hell even fidgeting will help some. While fidgeting won't burn cals necessarily it will get you into the habit of moving more

18. Buy smaller clothes when you go shopping. so when you loose weight you’ll have clothes to wear. It will also work as motivation!! You can try them on to see how much more progress you have to make/how much progress you have made.

19. Do things that you enjoy when you loose weight THAT ARENT EATING,such as getting your nails painted, getting your hair done, buying nice clothes, etc. Basically non food related rewards

20. Whenever you do eat, eat food 500 and under, split serving sizes in half, it helps ALOT.

21. Find a photo you think is utterly revolting, like rotting meat. Look at it while you eat and really think about it. Pretend it is what your eating.

22. A fun distraction I do is add rules to myself as that one I can remember my goals/rules and also have something to do lmao I highly recommend it's so much fun and really helpful

I also make weird ass rules for myself

1. I can only eat when I finnish x amount of tasks. Like cleaning my room, showering, brushing teeth, complete homework, study for tests, etc.

2. I can only eat after I've had a nap

3. I have to at least fasted for 12 hours between dinner and breakfast. And 6 hours between breakfast and lunch.

4. I can only eat after paceing for 3+ hours

5. I can only eat after journaling. That way I can ensure it's not emotional eating lol

6. Can only eat when there is no 0s in the time. So instead of eating at 6:09 I would have to wait until 6:11

7. Can't eat with hands. I'm not a pig so I won't eat like one.

8. Have to drink at least 1 water bottle (16oz) before/after eating

9. Stick to more healthier food. Only have fun foods once every other day.

10. With that being said don't deprive yourself of craving too exstreamly. If it's between binging and moderation PICK MODERATION!!

There's more but I'm tired rn so I'll update when I wake up (let's pray I don't wake up guyss)

Update: I added the ones I didn't add before I went to bed lol (6-10 on second list and 22 on first list lmao)

[hazirottengrave]

Reminder: grábate esto en la cabeza

[g00my-4ng3lss]

Some wl tips that I learned over the years lol

(Tw: Very disordered tips)

1. Look up what your bmi will be when you get to your desired weight (and vis versa). This way you'll be motivated to keep loseing weight

2. Don’t act like you hate your body in front of other people. This will increase suspicion

3. Use a rubber band and snap it on your wrist when you want to eat,or if you think about eating, food=pain.

4. Look at food as calories and fat, not food.

5. When your own your period, use it as an excuse to why you’re purging. (If you already purge. Don't start if you don't already)

6. Use school as a way to get out of eating. You can lie and say you ate a big lunch so your not hungry for dinner.

7. Drink as much water as you can, water DOESNT make you fat! It can also help make you feel full!!

8. Chew sugar free gum when you want to eat. And if your like me and gum makes your jaw hurt tic tacs are a good alternative.

9. Only eat if you have to, don’t eat if you don’t want to or don’t need to, the longest you can fast is most likely for 5-7 days, it depends who you are.

10. Chew your food into tiny bites, until it’s like apple sauce. And if that is gross to you (real) then eat SUPER slowly in small bites

11. Don’t eat until 7am and don’t eat past 7pm, so you’ll have a 12 hour fast everyday.

12. Have thinspiration in different places, having a gallery for it on your phone help, and you can put it on your lock screen as well.

13. Eat ice when you’re hungry, that can help as well.

14. Distractions will be your bff. Binge shows, watch movies, etc. I make little rules for myself that I can only eat when I finnish [insert movie/show here].

15. Don’t tell anyone that you’re trying to loose weight, not even your closest friend (only tell people if you’re overweight).

16. Get clothes that don’t fit you and are too small and hang them up, they should motivate you to loose weight.

17. Exercise when your bored. Honestly keeping your body moving will do wonders for weightloss. Hell even fidgeting will help some. While fidgeting won't burn cals necessarily it will get you into the habit of moving more

18. Buy smaller clothes when you go shopping. so when you loose weight you’ll have clothes to wear. It will also work as motivation!! You can try them on to see how much more progress you have to make/how much progress you have made.

19. Do things that you enjoy when you loose weight THAT ARENT EATING,such as getting your nails painted, getting your hair done, buying nice clothes, etc. Basically non food related rewards

20. Whenever you do eat, eat food 500 and under, split serving sizes in half, it helps ALOT.

21. Find a photo you think is utterly revolting, like rotting meat. Look at it while you eat and really think about it. Pretend it is what your eating.

22. A fun distraction I do is add rules to myself as that one I can remember my goals/rules and also have something to do lmao I highly recommend it's so much fun and really helpful

I also make weird ass rules for myself

1. I can only eat when I finnish x amount of tasks. Like cleaning my room, showering, brushing teeth, complete homework, study for tests, etc.

2. I can only eat after I've had a nap

3. I have to at least fasted for 12 hours between dinner and breakfast. And 6 hours between breakfast and lunch.

4. I can only eat after paceing for 3+ hours

5. I can only eat after journaling. That way I can ensure it's not emotional eating lol

6. Can only eat when there is no 0s in the time. So instead of eating at 6:09 I would have to wait until 6:11

7. Can't eat with hands. I'm not a pig so I won't eat like one.

8. Have to drink at least 1 water bottle (16oz) before/after eating

9. Stick to more healthier food. Only have fun foods once every other day.

10. With that being said don't deprive yourself of craving too exstreamly. If it's between binging and moderation PICK MODERATION!!

There's more but I'm tired rn so I'll update when I wake up (let's pray I don't wake up guyss)

Update: I added the ones I didn't add before I went to bed lol (6-10 on second list and 22 on first list lmao)

[hazirottengrave]

Reminder: grábate esto en la cabeza

[deranged-girl52-deactivated2025]

Wannarexics or girls who have an £d/4n4 like me listen up!

If you want to lose weight FASt,use this post

The official 4n4 guide of 2025

- drink 500 ml of warm water before every meal

- cut your food into tiny bites (try cutting a cake into half, then cut that half into quarter,then cut the quarters,etc)

- drink at least 3 liters of warm water daily

- eat fiber! Forget protein (not really but I know people have been focusing on hitting a certain protein goal but fiber is often overlooked and you don’t want constipation or digestive issues,drink plenty of water to go with it though)and focus on fiber

- go on the treadmill either every day and burn 200-300 cals OR every other day and burn 400-500 calories

- do workouts you can STICK with! Not ones that burn the most calories

- I took this tip from a book (if you know you know lol which one) buy 2 scales, tamper with one to show you a fake weight (this tip is for if your parents are suspicious,pick a high weight like 55-60 kg if you’re like 40-45 kg ya know?)

- don’t purge! The only way to effectively get rid of all calories is to burn it all off

- always check your weight FIRST thing in the morning

- distract your self as much as you possibly can

- do omads

- follow diets like the ABC diet or the 5 bite diet

- read books focused on anaorezia for motivation

- put your legs on the wall after eating for about 15 minutes (you can read it go on TikTok or tumblr while waiting)

- choose your fruits WISELY! Avoid high calorie ones like banana(100) and mangoes (200) and focus on low calorie ones raspberry and blueberries (one calorie each)

- always cut your crust of bread ( I didn’t know this b it before I got an ed I always cut it and I realized it reduces cals by 40/50 percent!)

- try to have a type of workout ritual like maybe 100 jumping jacks right when you wake up or sit-ups

Let’s talk safe foods

Raspberries,blueberries,oatmeal (made with water),teas, coffees(without milk and sugar),bread without crust,low calorie energy drinks,ice water or cold water,halo top,soups of all kinds really(just try to use 5-10 spoonfuls of it only),tuna fish,salmon,chicken breast or leg,popcorn,carrots,Diet Coke,yogurt,strawberries,watermelon,rice cakes,et. Anything low calorie,easy to make,higher in protein and fiber but lower in carbs and sugar!

So try to only eat these foods

Danger foods !

Mangoes,fast food,ice creams like Ben and Jerry’s or non low calorie ice creams,non diet sodas,all fast food chains,Starbucks,cakes like carrot cake,chocolate,etc (all types),cupcakes,cookies,all types of chips,frostings or creams,pizza if not homemade,burgers if not homemade,pb and j sandwiches,cereal,protein bars,all types of chocolate,noodles if they are higher than 200/300 calories,waffles,biscuits,

Grey area foods

These foods can be high calorie OR low calorie

Rice,pasta,macaroni,pancakes,fries,etc

How to avoid getting caught !

-Try to eat in front of your family

It doesn’t need to be a lot no just show people your are eating!

(If it helps try to schedule your meals AROUND the time you know your siblings or parents will be at the dinner table or kitchen)

- make food,learn how to bake because people assume that if you make food then obviously you ate it! Plus if you have cravings you can smell and touch and look at the food but know how in control you are by not eating it even though people around you are! Total power move

How to avoid binging

Go on the 5 bite diet I promise you it made me lose 5-7 kg in one week! It works by shrinking your stomach! If you guys do it then your stomach is shrink so much that you will barely eat and then you can’t binge!!

[4llb0n3z]

coming back to this every time i wanna b!ng3.

[iceandgum4me]

Vent post I don't think this about anyone else but myself

I fell out of everything and now I hate myself more than I ever have. I can't stand to look at myself anymore I can't stand to be the person I am. I'm nothing but fat and ugly. Why do I let food control my life. Why can't I just be hungry for a fucking day. Why can't I just STOP EATING I just wanna wither away but no I just eat and eat and eat. Food is the biggest enemy I have in life but it's my best friend. It makes me wanna cut off every inch of myself that I can pinch. STOP EATING. STOP EATING. STOP EATING. THINK ABOUT HOW HARD IT GETS TO BREATHE, THINK ABOUT ALL THE LOOKS YOU HAVE EVER GOTTEN, THINK ABOUT HOW NO ONE EVER FINDS YOU SLIGHTLY ATTRACTIVE, YOU ARE ALWAYS THE FAT FRIEND. I just wanna be skinny and pretty, I just want someone to look at me with love. I want to be able to wear a swimsuit and not want to puke I just wanna be happy with myself

[iceandgum4me]

Guysss!!!! I'm officially 160lbs I still have a long way to go but better than the 220 I started with

[iceandgum4me]

I just figured out my boyfriend has lost more weight than I have and he doesn't even want to and eats twice as much 😭😭😭

[tea4br3akfast]

Today I thought 'Wow, if I could live off of just fruits, veggies, tuna, cottage cheese and yoghurt, I would' and then I realized there's nothing stopping me.

[iceandgum4me]

Had to end my fast way to early. My boyfriend took me out on a date so I couldn't say no