If you're reading this,

It's 2017 and I still want to die

[ftyani]

[nihilisa-frank]

[dasoarsquad]

[dasoarsquad]

[freddy-]

B&W perirhinal

[dasoarsquad]

OG

[gk2nist]

[saudi-blogger]

I barely talk to anyone anymore so if i talk to you congrats

[ill-wait-till-the-end]

[ill-wait-till-the-end]

Things that happened

I can't tell you everything that's happened to me because I don't remember. I don't remember when it started, and I don't remember when it ended, and I don't remember everybody. I don't know when it started but it may have been in school. I don't know what grade because my private school didn't have grades but I was in the primary class, which I left when I was 5. I think it was another girl. I don't know when it started but it started at home. It started small and was normal for children. It was a game. There were many games, most of which I remember. But I learned that it was wrong. This is so hard. It never stopped. I showed my best friend, and she enjoyed the games. We were so young, but I don't remember when. I asked my peers what games they played, and they were confused. He would ask if I wanted to play a game, and I learned to say no. He learned to keep asking, and I learned to pray. I learned to pray for a long time-30 minutes, then an hour, then two. Longer and longer he would persist and I would stall in fear of saying 'no'. I thought the games stopped, for a while. I was wrong.

[perirhinal]

There aren’t words for the hurt I feel There is no way to put words to what’s happened to me There is no person who could understand There is no person who could accept me if they knew me There is no person who I can share my life with I want to remember everything but I can’t live with my life

[ill-wait-till-the-end]

Christmas 2016

[ill-wait-till-the-end]

I'm still emo on the inside

[fried-chickn]

[godswollen-deactivated20171014]

[ill-wait-till-the-end]

It's not satisfying to cry in the ocean

Your darkness is like a current That swiftly carries you away You’re powerless against its pull After one misstep But it’s not satisfying to cry in the ocean So hold your head above the water Salty as your tears The sea’s dark and sad So if you want to access your soul Don’t let it drown Hold your stake deep in the sand Through the winds and the floods Don’t let the currents sweep you away

[littlealienproducts]

NERVOUS t-shirt by sundayschoolkid

[uncasts]

[fedswatching]