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this.
âIf you are not enough for yourself, you will never be enough for someone else.â
â Rupi Kaur
I needed to post this on my blog for my own personal archives cause this was kind of hot. Just sayin.
David saying âfuck me.â Thatâs it thatâs the post
ma jolie...
A part two to my appreciation for Natalie. That woman is just so beautiful and amazing. She deserves the world...
âď¸đ⨠tarot questions â¨đâď¸
the fool: do you have any nicknames? the magician: have you ever written a poem or song about somebody else? the high priestess: what is your dream date? the empress: do you think you will ever get married? the emperor: what are some names that you like? the hierophant: do you believe in ghosts? the lovers: do you have a crush? the chariot: thoughts on astrology? strength: what is your dream occupation? the hermit: what is your favorite soda pop? wheel of fortune: first three songs that come on shuffle? justice: favorite color of rose? the hanged man: favorite movie soundtrack? death: what are three things you want to do before you die? temperance: can you describe a strange dream youâve had? the devil: do you enjoy thunderstorms? the tower: favorite colors to wear? the star: have you ever seen a psychic? the moon: have you ever written a love letter? the sun: do you believe in magic? judgement: do you enjoy school? the world: do you like waking up early?
REBLOG THIS IF YOU THINK THAT YOUR INTERNET FRIENDS DESERVE THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING BEYOND THAT.
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(Also not my ig so creds to them)
My favorites I love them :â)
A dad and his son
All the quailties a girl wantsđ
I want to be very clear right now...
Yall. We were so close to knowing...
Me and Harry were just soaking in our sorrows in the club when we saw you...
Truly a fucking mood always. I'm using this phrase forever now.
Forms of self harm you probably see or engage in but donât realize
smoking cigarettes
drinking too much
eating things you know will make you sick
skipping your meds
being around people who make you miserable
seeking out/engaging with bigotry on the internet to ultimately make yourself upset
exposing yourself to your triggers
engaging with media that upsets youÂ
exposing yourself to potentially dangerous situations (ex: going for walks in the middle of the night with the thought that you could be potentially hurt)
not eating/drinking
seeking out sexual relationships that you know will leave you feeling unhappy or self conscious
practicing unsafe sex
getting so high you cant function
overexercising or staying in bed all day
isolating yourself from people who make you happy
putting yourself down
asking (as in literally) for criticisms that you know will not be productive, but will upset you. (ex: posting on r/roastme when you know the comments will upset you, making a âdo i passâ post in an environment where people will ostracize you for not âpassingâ)
Binding/tucking when it is uncomfortable
Picking at your face and skin
Seeking validation through sex
Skipping therapy, rejecting help that you want and need
Depriving yourself of warmth/intimacy
Instead of seeking attention healthily by asking, dredging up drama or arguments with your loved ones to get it. (Attention seeking is perfectly normal, and seeking negative attention is normal too, but not healthy.)Â
Calling yourself a âtranstrenderâ ânot black enoughâ âFaking mental illnessâ âLUGâ etc⌠and invalidating your own identity and struggles.Â
Overspending Please remember that self harm is not something to be ashamed of, but something to grow from as you learn healthy ways to cope with your natural human need for love, attention and respect. Please notice these things and teach yourself not to bully yourself. So many people engage in these behaviours, and they are very hard to confront and move away from. You are not weak or wrong for how you are suffering.Â
âLook what I found! This guy has been hiding here the entire time!â
this was so ridiculously funny and adorable at the same time
And also hot, I cannot understand how he does it đĽ´
going under | ilya feddy x reader
Pairing: Ilya Feddy x Reader
Warnings: underage drinking, mild violence
Summary: you have always found ilya to be quite on the annoying side, but one night changes everything when he convinces you to sneak out of a party with him.
A/N: Iâm back, sorry itâs been so long. Also this doesnât have a read more cut like usual because I wrote this on mobile and I have no idea how to add one on here yet. I broke my laptop so that definitely added to the delay a bit too. Anyway, I hope you enjoy!
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Itâs late at night and youâre in some strangers swimming pool, the only light is that of the moon illuminating the water surrounding you. The way it hits ilyaâs features does something to you, though. It makes your skin itch in a way that it hasnât before.
You had no idea how you had ended up getting manipulated into jumping into someone elseâs pool with your frenemy, ilya. The only time you had ever had to put up with him before was because this was high school and you saw him in the halls - not to mention your best friend was Natalie, and she was friends with him. It wasnât necessarily hard to be civil with himâŚmost of the time. But there would be times where he would get on your last nerve and it would take everything in you not to slap him.
You had never seen him in this light before but, god, you almost never wanted to leave.
~~
You had been dragged to a party earlier this evening, Natalie wanting to go but not wanting to go alone. She had convinced you, saying that she needed her best friend. You were always pretty easily persuaded when it came to your best friend and her puppy dog eyes. And so you said okay.
The party was pretty laid back at first. This was your favorite time during parties - when there wasnât a bunch of people, but you could feel a storm coming. Where you were on your first full red solo cup, but it was just the beginning. When there werenât very many girls crying and there wasnât a line leading to the bathroom, the music was as loud as ever but you still felt as if you didnât have to yell to speak.
You took a sip of your beer and winced in disgust. You were usually a classier gal, drinking vodka or whiskey. Beer was definitely at the bottom of the list of beverages you liked putting into your system, but it got the job done.
Natalie was all bright smiles, somehow already on her second cup of beer and counting. âI love this song.â She announced just loud enough for you to hear the shakiness in her tone all of the sudden.
You quirked a brow at her and she chugged the rest of the liquid in her cup before speaking again. âIlya is going to be here soon.â
You couldnât help but roll your eyes, he was his most annoying while intoxicated. Last time he partied with you, you ended up having to break up a fight. âPlease, try to be nice to him. He really is cool once you look past the annoyingnessâŚâ she hugged into your side and you shrugged.
âFine but I am NOT going to be breaking up any fights tonight because of that boy.â
Natalie laughed and nodded, âUnderstandable.â
The song changed just as you watched him and David dobrik walk through the door, smirks plastered across their faces. David was a little bit more bearable, although he was a complete dork.
âLadies.â Ilya spoke in a mocking tone before resting his arm on Davidâs shoulder. Was he already drunk, you wondered.
You forced a smile and nodded their way, âAcquaintances.â You hoped to copy his mocking tone. You grimaced underneath your fake smile, knowing that you were going to have to put up with his annoying was for the rest of the night. You looked back over at Natalie who was holding a conversation with him and sighed, anything for her.
~~
The night carried on pretty smoothlyâŚfor awhile. You even found the boys to be tolerable, even in their intoxicated states. Maybe it was the alcohol you had put into your own system but you didnât really care, at least you werenât rolling your eyes constantly.
You were dancing with some cute stranger before you knew it, running your hands through his hair, down his back. His hands had plans of their own, though. He moved his hands slowly down your entire body before grabbing your ass, causing you to hiss in unexpected pain. âWhat the fuck, dude?â You practically yelled, loud enough to catch mostly everyoneâs attention. The room fell silent except for the music that was suddenly pounding through your skull.
Before you knew it, ilya was walking up beside you. âHey, watch where you put your hands.â He growled, shoving his way through the rest of the crowd to get closer to the stranger.
The stranger just smirked, âWhat the fuck are you going to do about it if I donât?â His reply made you wince, you already knew that he had made a brave mistake with challenging ilya.
You could practically hear ilyaâs teeth gritting over the music, you looked over to see his fists clenching. âIlya, no!â You grabbed his arm but it was no use, his other arm swung around and hit the stranger square in the jaw. You could have sworn you had heard a crack. The room filled with gasps as you jumped back in shock, watching as the boy fell to the ground with a loud thud. Your breath hitched in your throat, and your eyes immediately found their way back to ilya again. âIlya, please donât. Itâs fine, Iâm fine. It isnât that big of a deal.â You slowly grabbed his arm again and he slowly looked up at you, almost like snapping out of a trance.
Your breath hitched again, but this time it was for a different reason. It dawned on you that the boy who you thought found you just as annoying as you found him, had just hit a guy because he had disrespected you. In that moment, it felt like everyone else was just gone. Your eyes stayed locked for a moment longer than they probably should have. Without giving it too much thought, your hand found his as your fingers intertwined. âDo you wanna leave?â He asked.
You knew he meant it in a pure, letâs get out of this party kind of way. But you couldnât help at laugh at the way he worded it. It was his turn to roll his eyes, âI didnât mean it like-â
âI know.â You interrupted. You finally looked around yourself again and was shocked to find the stranger gone. As if he knew he didnât stand a chance against ilya. You had no idea where Natalie was, and everyone else had seemed to have gone back to partying like nothing had happened. âWhat will David think if you just leave him here?â
Ilya just shrugged, tugging your hand a little bit. You looked down at where his hand still held yours. âHe wonât care.â
âI canât just leave Natty like that, either, you know.â You were suddenly snapping out of whatever drunken trance you had found yourself in not minutes before. You slowly released his hands but he just smirked. âYou can text her.â He spoke so confidently that you finally rolled your eyes for the first time in awhile.
âCome onn, I know a place we can go that isnât as loud as here.â
You looked up at the ceiling where the speakers hung and acknowledged the fact that you were beginning to get a headache from the constant pounding. âWhere?â
He smiled widely this time and grabbed your hand again, as if it was a thing the two of you did often. You had to resist the urge to jump back, with the shivers that the contact gave you. âHave you ever heard of being spontaneous? Do you want to do it now?â
He looked and sounded so annoyingly giddy and happy, you assumed that it was the alcohol. You couldnât remember a time where he seemed this happy. But for whatever reason, you couldnât say no to him. Not now. âSure.â You replied simply, a smile breaking through your words.
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You had been walking for about five minutes down a very quiet and dark street when you finally decided to speak up again. âHow much farther, exactly, is the place youâre taking me to? Are you leading me to my death?â
He laughed at that and shook his head and peaked around another corner - He had been doing that a lot since you left, seemingly looking for something. Finally, a smile broke out across his face and you knew he had to have found whatever it was he was looking for. He took your hand without any notice and began to quietly run into a unknown yard. âIs this your house?â You whispered, already figuring it wasnât but hoping you were wrong.
He just looked over his shoulder at you and smirked before slowly leading you to an opened fence, revealing an inground pool. You tugged on his hand and stopped, âWe canât just sneak into someone elseâs pool, I donât even have a swimsuit.â
He laughed a breathy laugh and ran his hand through his hair, âWe donât need swimsuits. Itâs dark out annnd by the look of it,â he peaked around the corner and then back at you, âNo one is home but us.â
You couldnât believe you were doing this. But, nonetheless, you proceeded to double check your surroundings before slowly taking off your shirt and pants. You were the first one in the pool, making a giant splash as you jumped into the water. It was surprisingly warm and you slowly went under, coming back up just as he jumped right in beside you. You couldnât help but laugh at how free you felt by this small action, and with ilya of all people.
You turned around to be met with nothing. Your were immediately confused, searching for ilya who had seemed to have just disappeared. And then you felt something grab your leg, you couldnât hold back the tiny yell that escaped your lips from the shock. You didnât think twice before kicking his hand off of your leg as he came up laughing, his face was just inches away from yours. His breath and the way it felt on your skin didnât go unnoticed by you, and the little features of his face that you hadnât noticed before suddenly began to become more apparent. Suddenly it was like you were back at the party again, his eyes locked with yours. You felt him slowly began to get closer, and you panicked, suddenly splashing him harshly with water. He jumped back, his face like the one of betrayal before he busted out into laughter once again. You tried to laugh with him but suddenly your mind was focused on one thing, like thatâs all its drunken state could handle. You watched the way his chest moved happily with each laugh and couldnât help but move your hands to rest of the bare skin of his collarbone. You swam closer to him and finally felt a smile reappear on your lips, âI hate you.â You felt like it was a suiting thing to say to him, even though you were beginning to feel it wasnât true. At least, not anymore. You slowly moved your hands to cup his cheeks before slowly moving in, brushing your lips lightly against his. He smirked against your lips, âI hate you more.â
You slowly pulled back, your hands resting lazily against his neck before pulling him closer, his hands finding their way to the small of your back as you deepened the kiss. And as much as you hated to admit it, this felt right to you. The way his hands fit perfectly against your curves and the way your lips moved together in sync.
And maybe tomorrow when you were both sober, things would go back to the way things had been before. But right now you didnât care about any of that as his lips trailed down your neck, and to your shoulder. In a total strangerâs pool.
Im on my Ilya bullshit again. I saw an anon mention this once and I needed to write it (I canât remember who it was but THANK U for the prompt). Anyway, enjoy, laid ease!!
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You watch the clock impatiently as the numbers tick from 5:59 to 6:00. Sighing, you roll onto your back and close your eyes, attempting to nap to pass the time until their plane lands. Not even 5 minutes later, the door handle turns and you sit up straight and watch the door. David walks in carrying a black suitcase and a backpack.
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