Too Much Bullshit

Kat. She/her. Hopelessly fumbling through life one fucked up decision at a time.

[lridescential-deactivated202003]

Rory shield // sorority noise

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[illicitbehaviour]

you deserve to be loved without having to hide the parts of yourself that you think are unlovable.

[irrelevant-situations]

The end of a relationship is such a scary thing. Knowing its over for good, knowing you can never go back.

You pour every ounce of your being into someone, just for it to never be enough. The end of things felt so entirely familiar to me, and it hurt so much, purely because we became everything we swore we never would.

We grew apart, towards the end. Deep down I think we knew we were miserable. But when it comes to someone you love so deeply, so wholly, walking away feels like tearing an arrow from your chest.

I know you left me first, but the consideration of trying again, only for you to be so unsure was what broke me. Because I didn't want to, but the déjà vu of being in limbo with someone so unsure about whether they wanted me was too much.

I had hoped that this time, I would be enough. That I wouldn't be too much, that I wouldn't give too little of myself. But despite giving you every part of my being I could give, things festered and grew bitter. We were so entangled in our own lives that we took too little time to stitch ourselves back together where the seams were tearing.

I felt I had to give more and more, to make up for the resentment you seemed to have towards me. It had seemed like I'd finally glued back our faith in one another, only for all the poison to come pouring back out with your leaving.

This is not how I wanted to leave things. I had never intended to break down your ability to love. It's been hard to accept that we all love in different ways. That even though I felt so utterly unloved at times I thought my hope would shatter, you still loved me. And it's been even harder to accept that despite the love we had, love isn't always enough.

I know you're hurting now. The ache you're feeling in every part of you, I feel it too. But know that love will sprout from the cracks within you. Know that you will one day be loved by someone who will understand and fulfil you in a way I never did.

Part of you will always stay with me. It hurts now. And it will for a while. But one day we will feel our cracks close over, and we will be at peace again.

[quoteconfessions]

I’m so thankful to be the one who get to hold you, see you smile, hear you laugh, and be the one who get to comfort you through your hard times, that means the world to me. Just knowing that you are alive makes me the happiest person alive.

Poets Love Her (via poetsloveher)

[irrelevant-situations]

Being with someone who genuinely loves you, wants to be with you, and strives to make the relationship happy and healthy sure does put past relationships into perspective. 

Although I don’t regret spending the time I did on people whom I’ve loved in the past, I sure as fuck wish I hadn’t gotten so wholeheartedly involved knowing they never 100% felt the same. 

[candour-fuck]

Neck Deep – What Did You Expect?

[rtpoetry]

[dreams-come-true]

[xlucvvs]

[sheisrecovering]

Cracks do not mean you are broken. It means you were put to the test and you didn’t fall apart.

[6hotlovefacts9]

But this time, I wanna know why, I can’t sleep without you to my right?

- RoyWoods (6hotlovefacts9)

[ugh-blog1]

[miranda-ann-deactivated20210705]

•all matching, all VS•

[pacifylocks]

[turkey-vulture]

*blows a kiss at the ocean (for the sharks)*

[uneplace-ausoleil]

[ambermaitrejean]