hc - sonny's last thoughts before he is gunned down in the causeway, about sandra, lucy, his children, the don, mama, brothers and sister
iâm not crying, youâre crying
-Oh, the kids, the poor kids were the worst; he tried to think what heâd tell them, what anyone would tell them--what if this was it, really, it?
-But there was also Sandra, fuck, he could just imagine what sheâd think when she saw him, all beaten and shot to shit, the poor thing
-Lucy was almost worse, she was so young and innocent, practically a kid; he couldnât let her see a thing like this, no way in hell
-In his head he was praying now, actually praying, when the bullets hit him, heat and pain searing through his veins, his lungs, praying for the family, and for Sandy and Lucy and the kids, sure, but most of all praying for Connie, Jesus fuck, his only sister. And that piece of shit husband. But by the time his thoughts would drift to Carlo and the anger would start to bubble up out of him in a scream he couldnât hear, it would be over, sarebbe finita, goodnight, Santino Corleone.
Disclaimer: Iâd like to think this is how it played out, but Iâm not sure thereâd actually be room for this kind of life-flashing-before-his-eyes type moment. The scene is very raw and instinctive (much like how Sonny is as a character), and leaves little room for Sonny to have time to reflect on the important people in his life. Even as heâs frantically looking around in the tollbooth and slowly realizing whatâs going on (while the tollbooth guyâs dropping the quarters, etc.), those kinds of thoughts arenât racing through his head. Itâs not that kind of death scene; itâs a different kind of death scene. Heâs on alert. In crisis, the brain goes into animal mode. If anything, shortly before death, his thoughts would be dominated, for a fleeting moment, by Connie and Carlo, because that was the last thing he was going to do. Maybe after the first couple shots hit him, he was hoping to God he would stay alive/intact long enough just to make it to Connie & Carloâs house and beat the shit out of or whack Carlo, but after that, fuhgetaboutit, rational thought has left the chat.