i want to leave, ill probably stay another year

sick sick sick so we like danger

[casualistic]

[qvotext]

[iwanttobeperfect]

Is it so much to want people to want to hang out with me lol

[iwanttobeperfect]

Do you still think about me?

[iwanttobeperfect]

I would just really like to have people in my life who value me as much as I value them

[iwanttobeperfect]

Thinking about how how many times I've been commissioned to draw ocs for peoples friends and how no one has ever commissioned art of my ocs--- I mean I have, but only once have I actually gotten the art I commissioned-- and its like. Lmao I'm just having a really hard time feeling valuable

[iwanttobeperfect]

My friends: I love him

Me:

[iwanttobeperfect]

People who think its cute to be annoying 👎

[iwanttobeperfect]

I'm so hungry but I'm too sad to eat

[sheismysquishy]

Do you ever just lay in bed and realize how not okay you are

[approvers]

[iwanttobeperfect]

The distance remains

[iwanttobeperfect]

When I realized people only talked to me when I started the conversation, when I stopped dumping my every thought on you, you didn't notice. When I pulled back, you didn't follow me to keep the closeness. You let the space sit between us, and now I've made my peace with it. That maybe I was better friends with you than you were with me. And that im so cringe and so pathetic for being like this over a friendship but.. it sucks to realise someone doesn't care about you as much as you care about them. I've gotten over it, I've let myself stop caring about you. But it still sucks, knowing there used to be something special there, and now its just distance.

[iwanttobeperfect]

WHY CANT I JUSR SHUT UP

[neckkiss]

MISANTHROPY

[abduction]

[iwanttobeperfect]

People are complex and multidimensional, but I don't have to keep giving them a chance just based on that. Sometimes not liking someone is enough.