long story short, I survived

[brutalgeneration]

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

And I was seven Was twenty one, was seventeen and was eleven It took a while to understand what my consent means If I was ruthless, they'd be in the penitentiary

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

I've been spending all my pain On drinks and Mary Jane

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

Last week, I realized I crave pity When I re-tell a story, I make everything sound worse Can't shake the feeling, that I'm just bad at healing And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

[bisexualmotif]

halsey – whispers

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

I hurt myself to make sure I exist I pinch myself to make sure that I'm real

[sustancy]

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

headboards should not feel like gravestones

[catluna-deactivated20170909]

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

Of course I deny it Can hardly believe it Dismiss or demean it 'Cause I know I can't speak it But when I began to tell, it became thе hardest thing I ever said out loud Thе words got locked in my throat Man, I choked

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

Scattered 'cross my family line I'm so good at telling lies That came from my mother's side

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

[astrovampz]

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

Oh, all that I did to try to undo it All of my pain and all your excuses I was a kid but I wasn't clueless

[consecuences]

[iwoulddleavemeificould]

I can still taste you and it kills me That there's still some sick part of it that thrills me That my own body keeps betraying me There is such power there, it may destroy me But it compels me

[iwoulddleavemeificould]