SIONS_BELOVED

Hai Im Jacob! (19) READ MY STRAWPAGE for the record im a GUY. A BOY A MAN! He/They Object show lover and Phighting Lover!!!

[jacobdoodlez]

hey btw i made a straw page a while ago! if anyone GAF its has some things i like and a dni too so please read it sometime. (Also gets updates time to time)

[jacobdoodlez]

I feel blocked. I feel muted I feel soft locked I swear I was oomf with someone on twitter I can't remember now

[sillyratzo]

Dumber and dumb

[jacobdoodlez]

awwhh.

[bichitodeluz83]

Eww eww why are they doing that ewww

[johnmightberamly]

the FUCK yall know about zegect

[jacobdoodlez]

oough..

[strangler-fish]

Last resort

[jacobdoodlez]

is this a safe space to post vent art or do i deserve to get slaughtered

[perceptivepangolinpal]

Seafood Boil

Commission from @yoyleberryyoyleland Thank you for this wonderful piece, please go check them out

[inktended]

hello peopl e

[jacobdoodlez]

i colored this but didnt liek it so go my sketch! more yumeship doodle

[amaranththelazanha]

Self-indulgent Zegect LOOK AWAY

[jacobdoodlez]

//ventish ig

I feel like im so annoying to be around my partner and their friend(s). Not that i hang out with the 2 of them a lot over vc because i dont like to.

Im gonna be honest I dont see my partners friends as my friends and i feel really petty for it purely cus my though is "They dont make an effort to be my friend outside of when i hang out with them and my partner or outside of the server" I dont do that either #Sorry but i dont have to be their friend right? am i wrong for that? am i wrong for not really liking that because of my jealousy? i cant help it tho. AND i KNOW what im thinking and feeling is irrational.

I get really jealous over my partner. And EVERYthing i get really mad at the thoughts and scenarios i make in my head. "oh they didnt invite me to vc. ok then whatever." or "They played my favorite game without me they must think i suck. they must think im annoying about the game cus its my interest" Every time I see them in vc i just get so. upset I feel so left out and this is also a personal thing "Oh jacob why dont u just join them?" because its not just that I feel like i made it clear how talkative i am and how i want to be included, I feel like not getting some kind of invite just means they dont really care (also irrational thinking i know)

I hate how upset i get when my partner brings up hanging out with them after We vc. I get so angry. so upset. I just want to Isolate myself. I feel like they dont like me. Like they hate how i get Because to me: it feels like theyre taking them away from me and just do more things with me than i do with my partner and it makes me jealous. What if my partner finds me boring (Despite the countless times i have asked them about this)

I CONSTANTLY WANT THEIR ATTENTION!

But really.. I dont have any place to say anything or even keep my partner to myself. They have a life. They have had these friends for years! I just came into their life recently. Sometimes i feel so below them all for this reason. Ive never been in a group that was ever mine. It just makes me wanna be friends with them less.

I haven't gotten iver anything.

They always say how "cute" its is when i get jealous. But when it gets serious and ugly.. it suddenly was "I dont understand you." Why cant they understand why cant anyone understand. Why cant I understand WHY i feel this way. NO ONE UNDERSTAND AND THEN GET UPSET WHEN IM UPSET ABOUT IT Honestly when I get upset i try to isolate myself and just drown in this feeling cus its no use to make a big deal about things that are a non problem. I constantly get pissed off, constanly feel irritable, constantly blowing up about somthing in a personal channel about somthing minor/tiny After letting my feelings build up. I really need to better myself and i hope i can get help soon

[jacobdoodlez]

i love subkit i wish ppl stopped posting how much they dont like it on main tag / dont censor it

[jacobdoodlez]

i feel so cringe and like some kind of weirdo when i talk about selfshipping with sion im not even weird about her in the slightest shes just pretty and cute to me. Like yeah i like this character and lose my mind over them when theyre mentioned and selfship with them eeewwwwww

[jacobdoodlez]

I loveeee my wifeeee

I actually haven't drawn Sion properly hopefully drawing her over and over again can motivate me to draw more again

[euctinos]

You seem so small.

[jacobdoodlez]

still thinking about that one artist that was my fav who i followed here and instagram i think they blocked me... the doors been shut on me 4ever and idk WHY ! I MISS YOUR ART!!!!