i'm better than that

sophie/kit | 20 | redhead poet | peddler of dreams beatboxer | composer | vocalist feminist | bourbon enthusiast queer as hell | demisexual genderflux/demigirl she/her/hers pronouns curvy beauty w/ a big booty sarcastic fuck | beard lover i suffer from anxiety, depression, panic attacks, EDNOS/bulimia, disassociation and BPD but i am better than these things and i refuse to let my life become a succession of symptoms. if you don't like long-winded self-explorative blocks of text, you probably won't like my blog very much. if you wanna be my friend compliment my impeccable eyebrows my rabbit is named theodore roosevelt and you can find pictures of him here.

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I guess I'm back?? I was just gonna make a new blog but I really like this one. Just gonna do a redesign and delete every post I made about my exes and get back to it

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Did a #watercolor and #ink of these two little buddies today. #fox #owl #meandthebae

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Two nerds go to the Zoo #bestdateever #toledozoo (at The Toledo Zoo)

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Time to get schwifty, y'all. #bluehair Last #motd of the year!

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An O'Keefe inspired bit of geometrical #watercolor and #penandink. #art #okeefe #skulls

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what's your zodiac? ^u^

I am a Virgo/Leo cusp with an Aries ascendant :)

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It's not perfect but it's finished! #ink is the best medium. #selfportrait #realism #penandinkart #art

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It's ya girl again!! #selfportrait #pencilart #realism

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Greetings from your favorite shoujo protagonist #bluehair #freshdye #kawaii

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More lil #ink nudes #art

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The only thing I'm bad at in #ink is faces! #lifedrawing #art #artisticnudes #penandink

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#throwbacktuesday to my darkest smoky eye. I was so proud of this look! #smokyeye

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Kit uses "icy stare"! #itssupereffective #bluehair

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Hi I am deeply angry and sad and it is so unsatisfying to have no way to gain closure on that anger and sadness I know it will get better after the 22nd but I'm furious that I'm experiencing this much pain and he's been over it for sooooo long He doesn't care. Not even a little bit. It makes me want to tear my hair out. It makes me hungry for blood and revenge. I hate this monster living in me. It feels like the spell I did on Samhain backfired and now everything is dark and scary and I am dark and scary

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A year ago today, my life fell into teensy tiny pieces. I have grown so much. I have a new life now. Things are still hard - my partner and I still fight - money is tight all the time and sometimes I can't bring myself to get out of bed. But I chose this life. I chose it. I chose to let go of something I held so dear, a year of my life that I wanted to mean more than it did. It's not that I don't miss parts of that life. It's not that I don't miss the person I used to be, the way he made me feel when things were good, how many dreams I invested into him. "The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not 'get over' the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to." Six years from now, all my cells will have died and replaced themselves, and I will be a person you have never touched, never kissed, never loved. You have changed me. Thank you for that.

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