Why do I always crave to dissociate? Is it because I’d rather not think about how people make me feel when they don’t meet my incredibly high and complex expectations? Why aren’t I able to tolerate literally anyone after learning their failings? Why can’t I love unconditionally instead of on a transactional basis?
I’m afraid by the time I figure out how to let my guard down and stop giving everyone else the same hard time I give myself, it’ll be too late. Therapy doesn’t seem to help because I keep flying off the handle at every little inconvenience or disappointment. It might be time to see a psychiatrist.












