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Beastars, The Symbolism Behind Legoishi Eating Louies Leg

by letting Legoishi eat his foot (wow) he helped Legoishi become stronger- thats symbolic for the duality that herbivores and carnivores have. The duality of herbivores being compassionate and generous as Legoishi states in a few episodes before this one, by letting Legoishi eat his leg it gave Legoishi enough strength to pursue justice by beating Riz, leaving some dignity in Tens death. Legoishi accepting  to eat his leg but with the utter most respect and to aswell lift Louie of his curse is symbolic of a carnivores protective instinct and respect. With the context of this scene Legoishi wanted to bring justice to Tem’s death by beating Riz and he accomplished that with the help of Louie’s leg. But he never used that as an excuse, he mainly ate his leg because Louie wanted him to, to lift him of his curse.

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Emotions And Relationships, Misato & Kaji

I have always found Misato and Kaji to be a cute paring with each other despite how much flaws their relationship holds. I never really bothered to care that much about Kaji and Misato the first time I watched it I just simply found them cute and brushed them off as a way of compromising so I can focus on understanding what the hell is even happening in nge. But during my third watch of nge, getting a decent grasp on the plot I got to focus on more of the ‘trivial’ things, and what left me really mesmerised the most was Misatos and Kajis relationship because I really underestimated its depth the first time I watched it. Lets get into it.

Misato and Kaji were viewed to be the perfect couple and seemed to be genuinely in love from Ritsuko and her mothers perspective and they honestly were. They were such a perfect pairing it begs the question why they would ever even break up in the first place? Well it all stems from Misatos inner turmoil about her father and her emotions surrounding him.

Misato began to see her father in Kaji and it made her repulsed by herself, not Kaji. Kaji was never the problem speaking retrospectively at the relationship before they broke up it was Misatos self hatrad that ended the relationship, because she was ashamed that she sees a man she hates in a man she loves- lets dive into that because we will never be able to fully understand why Misato would end her relationship with Kaji without bringing up her relationship with her father.

Misato has vowed to hate her father because of his negligence over his wife and his daughter. He never took care of them and instead prioritised his work over them which ended up making his wife depressed and left his daughter to take care of her. Misato hated her father for how he treated them and instead of grieving the absence of her father, she grew to hate him because she couldn’t process her emotions because she had to take care of her mother. But then the second impact happened, Misato almost died if it weren’t for the man she hated saving her.

Now, Misato is conflicted. How is she supposed to feel now that the man she vowed she hated, saved her life? She never even exactly understood why, it all felt spontaneous, even in her final moments she never called out for him- so why did he? That day had changed the trajectory of Misato’s life, making her develop self destructive tendencies (such as being  promiscuous, impulsive, self sabotage etc.) She literally joined nerv almost in spite of her father. So imagine feeling so filled with hatred and indecisiveness towards a person, then you suddenly see that exact person in your romantic partner.

So yeah Misato couldn’t stand being in a loving relationship with a man like that because she ended up feeling ashamed of herself- sleeping with a man she saw her father in, the same father she hated?! She felt as if she was betraying herself and felt so dirty around him. But after some time, Misato found comfort in that, she found comfort in Kaji and she ended up using him as a result.

When Kaji returned to Misato’s life she was not one bit happy and didn’t want to do anything with him, but with Kajis persistent advances she eventually succumbed to him, she loved feeling dirty it comforted her and she could of only found that in Kaji’s embrace, and well his dick too. (I dont think Kaji should of made so many advances at her, he should of respected her and i know he does but with how he acted that didnt seem like it.) As a result though, Misato ended up using Kaji for her own comfort, indulging herself in self destructive behaviour and Kaji just let her.

Misato enjoyed and indulged being nothing but filth around Kaji because she thought in that way she was rebelling against her father, even after all that time. Its so immature but Misato just couldn’t see it in any other way. She denies all of this in the instrumentality project because she never verbalised her feelings and instead expressed them physically, subconsciously.

I do think Misato loved Kaji, but with her issues she ended up tainting that love with nothing but pleasure.

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Lain Rant (Lains room in the first ep)

Lain is already going through major depersonalisation and derealisation its showed visually and it doesnt directly tell us which is already a good thing because of TVs/storytelling no1 rule, show dont tell. Anyway we can see her depersonalisation further more displayed in her room. Rooms are a reflection of self and Lains room is pretty empty and dull, the only thing that stands out in it is the teddy bears. Teddy bears are supposed to symbolise young love and childhood which can indicate that Lain wants to be loved, didnt have a good childhood and most likely has depression as well. This all reflects that lain has no sense of her self.

I can also imagine that the teddy bears give Lain a sense of warmth because both of her parents dont seem to be that loving and instead are in their own world. Her mom seems to be completely apathetic and shows no interest in Lains life. Her dad seems to be less apathetic than her mother however he puts all his intrigue and motivation to the wired.

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Nana And Hachi Symbolism In the First Episode

Their meeting takes place in a train during a snowfall, the setting of this can already tell us what a big impact they are going to leave on eachother because both snowstorms and trains symbolise transformation and growth. But when Nana and Hachi met the train stopped due to the snow, and snow also symbolises violent emotions. The stop in the train when Nana and Hachi met shows that both Nana and Hachi are both going through a rough time in their life, in a way almost stunted in their progression through life with this symbolism in mind

For Hachi it is her dependency on other people and because of that can result in self esteem issues because Hachi literally cleaned her boyfriends entire house, completely forgetting to do things good for herself such as finding a job and getting a house. It seemed like such a silly thing at first until her boyfriend called her out, it reminded the audience that we are seeing everything in Hachi’s rose tinted glasses. Hachi just seems really lost and doesnt know what to do with her life, so because of that she relies on other people. Because of this dependency she is quick to be vulnerable, espiecally around people she is drawn into, and cue in Nana.

With Nana we dont know much about her at all in her first appearance, in this meeting we are currently seeing everything from Hachi’s perspective and Hachi is merely just enraptured with her. When we first see her she is asleep and the seat next to her is taken by her guitar, restricting Hachi from sitting next to her. In a symbolic sense, it could represent Nanas avoidance towards people, since she seems to be a polar opposite of Hachi in every sense it can only make sense that could be the case since Hachi is so easy to fall inlove with other people. But eventually she wakes up and lets Hachi sit next to her. She even went as far to be roomates with her despite seeming bitter towards her when Hachi said she wanted to buy the house- but as soon as she mentioned that shes been having some issues with her boyfriend Nana completely switched up and treated her with sincerity and generosity. This already tells an important detail about Nana because she was so quick to be sympathetic towards Hachi’s situation, and later on in the series we find out why Nana can easily relate to Hachi’s situation.

Symbolism In Snowflakes And Flowers

I would like to explore why Nana and Hachi are associated with flowers and snowflakes, its subtle but there is definitely a pattern.

Flowers itself depending on the type symbolise romances, admiration, joy, pleasure, purity and innocence, all words that describe the emotions she feels throughout the show and things shes infatuated with. But the specific kind of flower we see her be associated with in the posters are cherry blossoms. Like I said- flowers have so much different meanings depending on the type and with cherry blossoms it has multiple different meanings in different cultures, but in Japanese culture cherry blossoms symbolise that time is fleeting due to their low lifespan. Hachi constantly wastes her times with what I listed in the beginning that she doesn’t realise just how much she is missing in her life and shes not seeking her full potential.

Snowflakes symbolise a ton of things but what corresponds with Nana the most is individuality, transformation, intention and new beginnings. Nana doesn’t waste time distracting herself and let herself float by through life like how Hachi does, she is in a constant cycle of bettering herself and doing new things as well. She agreed to become roommates with some rando, thats more than enough evidence to show exactly how impulsive Nana is and how she jumps to new beginnings.

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Viktor’s and Jayce’s traits

The fact is jayce is more logical than Viktor. Viktor tried pursuing the imposible while Jayce was working pragmatically with the council to help hextech. As dishonourable as it was it was literally the only thing they could do Viktor literally became Jesus to reach his goal. One of his best traits, idealism ended up being his worst flaw, however with Jayce the opposite happened. Jayce’s arrogance led him to become a councillor and protect hextech, whilst Viktor’s idealism led him to wanting to destroy the hexcore which was the epitome of hextech.. duality!