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Feel free to talk to me about anything <3

i don’t fucking know what to do anymore

other than everything of course

#it can talk

i feel so much, too much for just sitting in my bed experiencing mundane life. these feelings were supposed to be saved for bigger things. tragedy, hurt, murder. there should be more blood. feelings like this come with more blood i think. more corpses. there should be flesh and bones and danger and obsession and teeth sharp as knives and knives intimate as teeth. these feelings take place in motel rooms and deserts and seas and cars driving too fast on empty roads. these feelings are too big for a human body. they require the body to be torn open with its own hands. rib cage clawed apart, skin peeled off, wrists bitten through. these kinds of feelings require a heart beating in my palm as blood fills the empty space in my destroyed chest. these feelings need to be let out like an excess of blood because tears just don’t cut it. it feels like pulling out your veins. it feels like suffocating under ice. it feels like betrayal. it feels like choking on a lovingly prepared and lovingly poisoned meal. it feels like throwing up your organs. it feels like a scream in the night, full of rage and pain.

but here i am, sitting in bed. the best i can do is scratch myself. the best i can do is drink and cry over other people’s pain that i see in their art because i can’t cry over my own without seeing theirs. the best i can do is go to sleep and hope nobody sees the blood around my mouth and a plaster on my wrist. the best i can do is keep going.

#vent post #tw blood #tw suffocation #tw mental illness #tw gore #tw self destruction

sharpth1ng

ITS SIMPLE, MAN

This is a little old so I just see flaws now (would re-draw Maureens face if I had the energy) but here, you can have it

sharpth1ng

Boyfriends (murder type)

vd03x

Folie à Deux

sharpth1ng

Guys bein dudes

(Click image for higher resolution, tumblrs makin in fuzzy)

cannibaltranssexual

trans will graham

cannibaltranssexual

@tantamounttoflirtation you're so correct how could i have forgotten this hang on

cannibaltranssexual

trans hannibal lecter

I haven’t had many chances to experience transsexual joy but I sure as hell have plenty of transsexual rage. My existence has to be justified. Me having the body I want and doing what I want with said body has to be assessed by people who have no authority in my eyes.

Changing my documents to state the name I want puts me in mortal danger in the country I’m from. Transitioning has to be strategically planned to be as safe as possible. Or even possible at all. Russia outlawed it completely a few days back. I need citizenship in a country that allows it and I potentially need to give up my Russian citizenship altogether. Everything has to be carefully planned and considered. It will depend on views and decisions of people who have no business making decisions about the way I am. Them saying no doesn’t change the fact that I’m a man. Doesn’t change the name I give people. Doesn’t change the fact that if I could I would rip my chest off myself and rearrange my face shape into what I want with my bare hands. But you know what? This won’t stop at transitioning. It won’t stop at changing documents. It won’t stop at passing. Because I will always act and look like a fag. Because I, as a trans man, dare to enjoy makeup and jewellery and pretty feminine clothes and acting feminine and bitchy. I as a man dare be feminine at all. I will grow out a beard and I will go out with my father’s and brother’s face full of makeup and glitter, in skirts and platform shoes and long nails and I will continue to be the faggot that I am. And everyone around me will very likely have something to say because my existence, my appearance and my life is suddenly up for everyone else to judge and allow. Going to men’s bathrooms will be dangerous every time. Looking like that in my own city will be impossible. I’m very much pushing my luck with my appearance while looking like a girl. The only reason I get away with it now is because I made myself look scary and that I look only somewhat queer. They perceive me as a strange alt girl, not a feminine man. Not non-binary. And even if I do make it past all of that, my love life will always come with an asterisk. Making sure people I date know I’m trans. Making sure people respect the way I look, respect my pronouns and separate them from my appearance. I’m pan. I don’t give a shit about who the other person is. I barely give a shit about what they look like. But someone else with me? Everyone else will likely have something to say. I’ll either look really fucking gay or just straight up confusing if my partner is female presenting. What, you think after everything I need a fucking beard? I’m not even touching the polyamory. I’ll have to be so fucking loud about my identities that everyone knows and there’s no confusion and no idiocy. My existence is judged and assessed by people who have no right to tell me how to live and how to look. Anyone who thinks they have the authority to tell me what I can and cannot do with my own fucking body is getting their guts pulled out of their mouths.

#I hope one day I can experience transsexual joy too #just be fucking nice to trans people ok? this shit ain’t easy and none of us need to suffer for it #dear diary #it can talk #transsexual #transgender #anyway happy pride y’all go kiss a trans woman

hcnnibal

tethered-heartstrings

happy cannibalism day! 🧠🫀🫁🦴

dismoondart

ashfdhfgdsfk

tried experimenting with some harsher lighting

prisonhannibal

casino royale au just for fun and because mads mikkelsen is a bond girl <3 I didnt want the cbt to be part of an interrogation scene but felt like I couldnt make an AU based on the movie where mads did cbt without acknowledging the cbt, so in this they just did it for fun or something.

Agent Graham is back after a highly encouraged "vacation" due to his behavior etc while Jack Crawford was figuring out what to do with him. This time he's going to europe to investigate a guy suspected of being involved with a criminal organization. Will finds out that Dr. Lecter actually isn't that involved or loyal to the group he's just playing poker and having fun fucking with people, but he is a cannibalistic serial killer (which no one even suspected him of) and they run away together at the end<3

important detail (to me!) is that in the second picture he figured out what Hannibal's tell is while playing poker by accidentally copying his body language