lylas notes 𝜗ৎ. im assuming you wanted nsfw, so i delivered ahhehea. also this is my first mori smut writing, i hope he's not ooc (･ัω･ั) this has been in my drafts for a while, so thank u for your patience! please enjoy<3
YOU'VE LOST HOW MANY times you've released all over your sheets and in him, CHUUYA only in the same boat as you — thrusting deep into you, a pleasured moan pouring out of you faster than you're cum.
forehead touching, he holds your hips steady with one and while his other rubs your bottom lip as your thighs are spread — both of you a heaving and panting mess,
"that's it' — good girl~ taking my cock sooo well~♡"
your face was hot, body trembling, every single compliment or praise he gives you only making it worse.
"look at you ... my beautiful girl~ so perfect f'me~"
you hide your face in his shoulder, sweaty and overstimulated — whiny softly into his skin but he just chuckles lowly, taking two fingers and forcing to to look back at him — his eyes lidded and dark.
"don't hide now, sweetheart~ i want to see you, i wanna see how pretty you look when you fall apart under me~"
every time you whimper or moan they praise you more — he knows how much you love when he has his undivided attention all on you, his pretty girl~
"ngh~ you wanna cum, princess? i can feel it, aha~ c'mon ... cum f'me~" you didn't need to have him repeat himself, tossing your head back as you cum all over his cock inside you earned you a grin and a loving kiss to the lips.
after all, you deserved it~
~ ♡ ~
EVERY SINGLE WHINE YOU made him thrust into harder — deeper. he had you pinned to the bed of the large bedroom — thanking any god out there that the walls are soundproof. DAZAI'S black coat was discarded, tossed to the floor in almost an instant seeing you half naked on the bed, not being patient enough to wait until he got home — you slipped into nothing up a black thong and an baggy t-shirt.
his hands were on you almost immediately, hungry and angry — not with you, just at how shitty his day was. it all went away seeing his beautiful girl in his bed looking smoking hot.
everything happened so fast, he aggressively turned you over on your stomach after a few moments of hot and messy kisses, biting your lips and shoving his tongue deep in your mouth — forcing an arch from you he fumbled with his belt as he leaned down and whispered darky in your ear,
"you made my night, donna~ you gon'a be a good girl f'me, your mine, tonight~ you hear me, im all yours and your all mine~"
kicking his dress pants and boxers off in one swift motion, he didn't waste another minute and shoved himself inside you, deep and raw. you grunt — gripping the sheets of the bed until your knuckles went white. your head was flat against the pillow, suffocating between the fabric.
"relax~ don't move sweetheart, i got you," he grunts, his mouth hot against your ear as he looms over you while fucking you at the same time.
every noise, whimper, moan you made — earned you a wave of praises, because he knows you love it, how you crave it.
"you—ngh, taking me so well'donna~ahah — y'so pretty under me like this,~"
"good girl, good fuckin' girl~aha — your—incredible~♡"
"just like that`yaha~ just a bit~ngh .. longer, you can do it, baby~♡"
his thrusts were hard as raw, like he's been waiting for you all day. coming home to a pretty sight like this can only get him railed up more than he already was. because you've been such a good girl for him, he'll make sure you end it off making you feel like your on cloud nine for the eighth time tonight.
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YOU'RE CLINGING TO HIS SHOULDERS like you were digging into his skin, body trembling as he kept moving back and forth inside you — every sound that slipped out of you earned you a praise.
"there she is ... that's it, my good girl~ taking me so perfectly~" MORI pants, thrusting faster, skin slapping against one another echos in the room. he knew how much you loved the sound of his voice in your ear and how you tremble just at his voice, he has you wrapped around this finger .. or in this case, cock.
you whimper at his words, tossing your head back with your mouth gaped open. thighs shaking as he only pulls you closer while still thirsting deep inside you, lips ghosting your ear, you can hear every syllable.
"my~ so tight 'round me~ ... you were made for this, weren't you~ made for me,"
your head was fuzzy, brain melting under every praise he whispered in your ear — you shiver and jolt when he would hit a sensitive spot against your clit. that's when you start to break, begging to cum and blabbering pleas, and when you do he holds you tighter — like he's scared to let you go. fingers curled into your hair it feels like he's going to pull it out.
you were his, and only his.
"let go, princess. that's it, baby, good girl~ you're mine, always mine ... no one can make you feel as good as i can, hmm ... yeah, that's right~"
the mix of his voice and pace has you ruined, body trembling, pleasure crashing down as you cum on his cock until your dizzy and cockdrunk on nothing but the sounds of his praises.
end notes. when someone asks me what my kinks are, ill just show them this. guys what r these tags, help??
could i req chuuya x reader ( who also works with the pm ) that just comes in his office from time to time whining about how much they need him , so he just lets them sits on his couch while he ' s on his knees eating them out <3
candy! — chuuya x fem!reader
cw: nsfw, fingering, oral (reader receiving), dirty talk, explicit language in general, reader is teasing and whiny, very slight crack if u squint
a/n: hihi anon, loved this req, thanks for the wait, hope u enjoy it! ♡
your body was an unsatisfied, aching mess. your panties were soaked, your pussy was throbbing with the need to get eaten out until you couldn't take it anymore—and there was no chuuya to soothe it all. you knew he had his work and duties—he was a mafia executive after all—but you were too horny to think rationally. so you decided to go to him this time—you had waited patiently for too many mornings anyway.
chuuya's office was dimly lit, the warm glow of the desk lamp casting flickering shadows across polished mahogany and neatly stacked paperwork. the scent of expensive cologne, aged whiskey, and leather filled the air. you walked in without a word, without a knock, pretty lace under your coat—he didn't lift his head when you came in. he knew it was you even if you didn't announce it, because only you could barge in like you owned the room.
"hey", chuuya muttered. he was at his desk, pen in hand—signing over some documents you couldn't care less about, which meant he was busy, which also meant—it was the perfect excuse to be as needy as possible.
there was a beat of silence—then you moved, muttering a 'hey' that was barely a sigh than a word before plopping onto the luxury couch by the side of his office, stretching your legs out like a spoiled queen lounging in her throne.
you shifted, restlessly rubbing your thighs together, but it wasn't nearly enough. your body was hot, aching, desperate, needy—and he was ignoring you. how fucking dare he?
"chuuyaaa," you whined, the drawn-out syllables slipping from your lips in a breathy, high-pitched slur. one dripping with saccharine sin. "need you..'
he exhaled through his nose, not looking up. "busy."
you groaned, throwing your head back, "ugh, but I missed youu, need your mouth, it's been so long.. since like this morning.."
chuuya clenched his jaw, trying to focus on the document in front of him. he refused to give in so easily, even when you were sprawled out like a goddamn temptress.
"you love me, right?" you slurred, getting up, "then why're you actin' like work's more important than your pretty little girlfriend-" you gasped, sharp and needy, coming up behind his chair and leaning towards him, "-when she's so horny she can barely breathe?"
chuuya kept writing, flipping a page, though his lips twitched.
"I missed you so much," you whispered, your lips grazing the sensitive spot just below his ear. "you have no idea how much I've been aching for you..." you pressed closer, letting out a breathy, needy sigh that had him gritting his teeth. your tongue flicked out, tracing slow, teasing stripes along his ear before you kissed down the side of his neck—wet, deliberate, sending shivers down his back.
he inhaled slowly through his nose. his grip on the pen tightened. you knew exactly what you were doing.
you leaned in close, lips at his ear, "need your mouth," you whispered, high and airy, breathless. "need you to fix it, chuuya.. need you to lick me up," you pressed a hot, open-mouthed kiss to his jaw "need to ride your face, need to tug on that pretty hair," another kiss "need to make you choke on me-"
he finally looked at you, and your breath hitched. for a brief moment, wide eyes looking at him expectantly, lips parting in anticipation, thinking you had finally gone through his head-
until he turned right back to his paperwork without a word.
he—what?
you gawked.
"what the fuck chuuya, are you serious?" you snapped, flabbergasted, watching over him with a seriously.. devastated look.
there was a moment of silence before you heard him let out a chuckle. and before you could say anything, he turned his chair around, grabbed you by the back of the neck and pulled you down into a deep, heated kiss, laughing against your lips once more.
"no babe, 'm just messin with you." he mummered, voice low as he pulled down your panties while gently pushing you back on his couch, hands roaming up your legs before spreading your thighs against the cushions, bare fingers digging into the soft flesh.
"needy fuckin' doll," chuuya groaned, voice rough, breath hot as he pressed a kiss to the inside of your thigh. "so messy.. dripping all over the place, and I haven't even touched you yet."
you moaned—soft, high and desperate. and then finally—finally—his mouth was on you. he dragged his tongue over your soaked folds, slow, languid—licking a long stripe up your slit, hot and wet, savoring your taste with a quiet hum.
"oh fuuck chuuya-"'you let out a sharp gasp, back arching, hand flying to his soft auburn hair, gripping tight, yanking just a bit as your thighs immediately closed around his head. "yes, yes, yes-"
his fingers joined in, sliding between your soaked folds, pressing against your tight, fluttering hole, but not pushing in yet. dragging the pads of his fingers in circles, spreading your slick, just teasing as soft, warm lips wrapped around your clit, pressing a slow, deep kiss to the aching bud before his tongue flicked out, "fuck," you gasped, back arching off the bed "s'good.. so fucking good-"
"shh baby, i know baby I know," his mouth latched onto your clit, tongue tracing little figure eights over the swollen bud, drawing tight circles before sucking it in his mouth. "you're doing so good for me, so patient for me doll", he mummered, groaning into your pussy in a way that showed his own patience was thinning. two fingers slid in deep with ease, stretching you open—your mouth fell open as another loud keen ripped from your throat.
the squelching sounds were filthy—loud, obscene beyond words. you were drenched, slick dripping down his fingers, soaking his palm, as the sound of his fingers pumping into your swollen walls got louder and louder in the so called quiet office.
soft, sticky whimpers filled the air, your toes curling, eyes fluttering closed, letting out these pretty, breathy moans that made him exhale shakily into you as he took his time devouring you, feeling himself getting harder and harder by the second. his grip on your hips tightened—and his mouth worked your cunt like you were the only goddamn thing worth kneeling for.
you whimpered, trying to lift your hips, but his hands pinned them down—your breath start to hitch again—body curling ever so slightly as she lets out a shaky, "m'close chuu... don't stop please, oh god-"
you were flushed, eyes fluttering, lashes casting shadows on your cheekbones. your hips rocked slowly into his mouth, your back arching with each exhale until-
you came with a cry, legs trembling around his head, slick gushing as you moaned, loud, high-pitched, completely gone. you were a mess—ruined, body twitching, head spinning, barely able to breathe. your body locked up before collapsing as waves of pleasure crashed over you, drowning you in white-hot bliss.
"fuck, fuck, there you girl sweet girl, there you go-", chuuya cursed under his breath, feeling you shake, hearing those perfect, sweet little moans as you came undone right there in his mouth. fuck, he lived for this. he held you close, his hands smoothing over your thighs, letting you ride out every last tremor as he gently lapped you up, fingers pressing into your sweet spot and pumping you through it until you started to twitch from sensitivity.
when you finally slumped against the couch, still trembling, still catching your breath, he pulled back slowly, pressing a lazy kiss to the inside of your thigh. "'m not done sweetheart," he murmured with a lazy smirk on his lips, eyes half-lidded, pupils blown as he stared up at you, voice low and hungry. "and you better not be, either."
your head fell back with a satisfied, wanton, as your legs clamped around his ears again.
Hi!! I stumbled upon your blog yesterday and have been binge reading your stuff cause I love it so much!!! I have a request if they are still open and if you are still taking them!! I crave a little angst with comfort at the end where the reader almost does for them?? But they’re just severely injured T_T Maybe for Tetchou and Dazai and Chuuya if possible?? Thank you so much for reading till here and hope you’re doing well <3
Hello!! Agh, it makes me so happy to hear you love my stupid little fanfics. ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡ I apologize for the lateness but no worries, as promised your request shall be answered! Who doesn't love a little angst? So let's get to it! ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧
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The Things You Do for Love
Angst--> Comfort
Ft. Tecchou, Dazai, Chuuya
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Tecchou
He knew he shouldn't have brought you...for god sakes its military business. But he just had to give in didn't he? He couldn't deny your pleads to join him on a mission, his defenses crumbled at your sweet pout...and now look where his weak will power landed you two.
With a loud thud, your body heavily slammed into a concrete wall creating a small crater...your eyes struggled to stay open as you slumped forward. What had just happened? He told you to stay behind him, he told you to run away and prioritize your own life if the fight got too bad. The attack was aimed at him so why...why on earth did you jump in front of him?! Tecchous mind ran in turmoil, his body frozen in a defensive stance, holding his swords hilt as his hands trembled. He was fully ready to take the blow, if he got hit he could get back up, but you...you...
"[Name]!!", his voice broke as he immediately dropped his guard off the enemy and ran to you. His steps were staggered as he dropped his sword and grabbed you. His unsteady hands grasped your shoulders, shaking you as his eyes were wide in panic. "[Name]!! Can you hear me?! Open your eyes, talk to me!!", his voice leaked with desperation. Tecchou moved the hair out of your face to inspect your injuries only to be met with the horrible sight of his lover unconscious in his arms as their head bled. "No..nononono, no come on wake up look at me. Look at me come on open your eyes!" He tapped your cheek and after getting no response he checked your pulse. His eyes grew wide as he felt a feeble weak little heart beat. His breath became shaky as he held you close to his chest, allowing your forehead to stain his already crimson uniform. His face darkened as his eyes ran over your sprawled out figure all bloodied and beat up.
"Weak useless pawns should not be on the battlefield", the deep stern voice of the enemy rang out through the large building. Yet to Tecchou, it was nothing but background noise. Tecchou stood up, his arms carrying his beloved. He turned and looked at the filthy creature who dared lay a hand on you. "You..." Tecchous voice did not spare the enemy of its threatening tone. Tecchou raised his head, revealing his blood shot eyes as he reached for his sword. "Useless are the ones who hurt and torment the weak.", he barked. Before the enemy could retort, he felt a deep pain on his arm...or at least where it used to be. A loud cry of agony shot into the sky as blood poured on the concrete floors. Tecchou looked at the enemies severed arm, the same arm that caused you suffering. He glared at it and stepped harshly, his sheer stomp was enough to crack every bone within.
*Shing* a single sharp noise from his sword was all that was needed to cut the enemy into pieces, forever silencing his cries. He spared not a glance at the enemy as he carried you away. His lips quivered slightly as his eyes were hidden under the shadow of his hat.
After a while, he stopped walking at the feeling of soft shuffling in his arms. He looked down at you with hope and his eyes flooded with tears at the sight of your half lidded eyes. "Te...cchou?", your weak voice was enough to break him as he immediately wrapped his arms around you. Burying his face into your neck, his hands found their way around your back and into your hair. "[Name]...you're okay, you're alive.", his words aimed to reassure himself. "Don't ever do that again..", he sternly spoke into your skin. "Tecchou...you would have gotten hurt..." "Then allow me to be hurt!", he retorted. He held you tightly, as if letting go would make you disappear forever. "Don't ever do that again...I don't know what id do if I watched you slip through my fingers like that again...please, don't put me through that again...", his voice broke your heart and you couldn't bring yourself to turn down his request. "I just didn't want to see you get hurt", you explained. He tightened his hold on you and whispered, "I would choose a thousand deaths if it meant you could stay unharmed."
Closing your eyes, you rested your throbbing head against his chest as his arms held you. Your ears picked up on the rapid beats of his heart, a heart so devoted to you that it would surely break if he ever lost you.
Dazai
High pitched ringing followed by muffled voices filled your aching head. What was happening? Did you successfully complete the mission? Why was your body so stiff? Oh right, you took a heavy blow to the chest to shield Dazai, but it’s nothing major you should be fine right? Whose unsteady hands were holding you? Why were they shouting? These were your final thoughts before your vision went black.
You awoke in a familiar room. Gazing up at the white tiles you could faintly tell you were back at the agency. Your eyes fell on a vase full of beautiful flowers in the prime of their bloom, adding life to the otherwise bland room. Looking past the flowers, a man sat in a chair with a pensive look, his eyes stared at the floor seemingly lost in his own world. “Dazai…”, your frail voice was like a call from heaven to your lover as he immediately perked up with hope. He quickly stood up and walked over to the bed. “You’re awake,” his voice was deep and raspy, deprived of its usual cheerfulness. His slender hands found their way around your body in a tight embrace, allowing you to take in his comforting scent. “You had me so worried,” the way he spoke was enough to show you just how anxious and agitated he had been. His appearance wasn’t any better. His coat seemed tattered, his hair was messy seemingly due to running his hands through it so many times, and his eyelids drooped slightly. How long had it been?..
“I had Yosano heal your injuries, if there is any discomfort rest is the best option. Although resting is all you’ve been doing for 3 days…” he explained aiming to ease your confusion. “Three days?” “72 hours and 15 minutes to be exact…Ive been by your side waiting for you to wake up.”, he pulled away and stared at you. His hands moved down and took a hold of yours. “Why?”, hearing no response from you he grew more upset and continued to probe. His hands squeezed yours as his voice shook with anger and frustration,“Why did you jump into the fight? I told you I had a plan all you had to do was stay where I said. I-i put you there for a reason, i always have a reason and a way to keep you safe so why- why did you move?!”, his voice was drenched in anger but his fury was directed at himself. How could he not have taken your stubbornness into consideration? The love and devotion you have for him and his useless life to the point you’d risk your own for his. How could he have overlooked this potential outcome and taken measures to protect you?
Solemn silence filled the room as your lips stayed sealed. You didn’t know what to say…you had never seen him so agitated and vulnerable in your life. At this point in time, no words could be spoken…only actions could bring peace. You both embraced each other for what seemed like hours, your eyes brimmed with tears as he melted in your arms. "Im sorry...", you muttered into his skin. Pulling away, you cupped his cheeks and placed tender kisses on your lovers tired expression. He relished the feeling and relaxed into your soothing touch as he spoke.
“Please, don’t leave this world without me…we go together. There is no point to this thing called life if I cannot live and die alongside you…I will not allow death to do us part.”
Chuuya
Chuuya was known to be violent and single-minded when fighting against an enemy. No building was spared of his destructive ability as he easily crumbled walls and floors to capture a single opponent. In the heat of battle all of his focus was placed on his enemy, disregarding his surroundings. Yet hearing your voice call out to him as the ceiling collapsed snapped him out of his reality. Time suddenly slowed down, he slowly turned his head but he was too late...you had already pushed him out of the way. He could only see your panic stricken face, hand still reached out from the push before, time resumed.
**BAMM** the sound of rubble crashing down nearly shook the earth. Dust filled the air and fogged the eyesight of both participants present. Chuuya stumbled and covered his mouth as coughs erupted from his throat. His stunned eyes scanned the area, hoping to catch a glimpse of you but he saw nothing...he fearfully looked down, hoping, praying even..that you hadn't-his heart sank as he stared down at a hand sticking out from under the rubble. There you were...
"[NAME]!!", he yelled as he immediately used his ability to lift and break the rocks above you. He cleared the area in an instant, his eyes turning bloodshot as he saw your body sprawled out like a lifeless corpse. He fell to his knees and grabbed your body- turning you around and checking for any signs of life. His breath hitched at the sight of your injuries; scrapes and bruises adorned your hands as blood freely leaked from your mouth and nose. The panic overwhelmed his mind, not allowing him to think rationally. All he could think to do was shout your name, shake you, and urge you to wake up. “Fuck- no no no, Come on dammit wake up! Open your godforsaken eyes. Don't joke around anymore come on!!! You have to wake up Plea- I can’t- I can't lose you too!”, his chest ached as his mind raced with thoughts of his old companions and how they all met an end. He couldn’t risk losing you too…you were all he had left. This cannot be real, he refuses to believe the love of his life is on the verge of death because of his own carelessness.
Seeing this as a perfect opportunity, the enemy quickly fled the scene yet Chuuya could care less. He held you in his arms as he clenched his teeth. The rim of his eyes turned red, glowing crimson lines began to creep up his arms, his emotions were so out of control that his own corrupted form threatened to erupt at any moment.
A frail cough erupted from your throat, some blood soon followed. Chuuyas eyes widened--the red marks of his corrupted form shrank back down-- as he immediately sat you up, "[Name]! Can you hear me?!" He cupped your cheeks, his eyes darting to all the corners of your bruised face. Your lovers heart thumped seeing your eyes finally open, relief spreading through his body as he pulled you into a tight embrace. His relief soon turned into anger, "What the hell is wrong with you?! How could you think of doing something so fucking stupid?! You could have died and for what, to save me from some measly rocks? Quit trying to be the hero and for once in your life prioritize yourself!", his hands dug into your shoulders as he blew up in pure frustration. But even if his words were harsh- you could hear the distress and worry behind his broken words.
Your body felt so weak to the point you couldn't quite rebuke his scolding, only small phrases left your quivering lips. "I'm sorry...just didn't want to see you...suffer anymore than you already have...", although these words were small they had a deep meaning, and an even bigger impact on your lovers heart. His eyes widened at this, he froze for a moment. He clenched his teeth, pulling you into his arms once again. Resting your face in his shoulder all you could do was hear the way his heart thumped and his form slightly shook. Chuuyas face was buried in your hair as muffled words left him, "Seeing you get hurt right infront of my eyes is the greatest form of suffering you could put me through...you idiot, you never think things through..." Although these words were unrelenting in their harshness, they somehow found a way to ease your mind. Causing you to melt against his body, loosely wrapping your sore arms around his neck. You held onto each other, the warmth reassured him that you were still here, he hadn't lost you, you were here to stay by his side...forever.
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I had so much fun writing this small fic for you!~
I am a sucker for the romantic sacrifice trope, but I honestly prefer it when they die in the end- (I LOVE ANGST, LET IT STING.) (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)
Anywayssss, as always I hope you enjoyed this! Love ya! <3
hear me out. Aphrodisiacs/marathon sex w dazai x fem reader
⋆˚࿔ Lust haze °❀⋆
Warnings : Explicit, aphrodisiacs, fem!reader, multiple orgasms, squirting, public sex, fingering, MINORS DNI !!
A/N: Ok so I know I said I was gonna do older requests first... HOWEVER I got this and I just HAD to do it. I love Dazai and he's not on this blog nearly enough plus this prompt was lit perfect. (lmk if I've missed any tags & tysm for requesting anon!)
It was just another typical work day for you, until it wasn’t. Kunikida, too exhausted with Dazai’s antics and reluctance to work, had offloaded the maniac with no regard for his own life onto you, forcing him to accompany you on the field as you apprehended whatever criminals got sent your way. As much as you and Dazai got on perfectly fine on any usual day, there was no lying that he could get in the way when he wanted to, and apparently that particular urge to be a constant source of irritation was very common for him. Aside from the unrelenting teasing you had to endure from Dazai all day, it wasn’t turning out to be too awful, the only issue lying in a particular criminal you’d been attempting to track for the better part of the workday. You should’ve had Ranpo with you, at least his genius mind could be useful. Dazai on the other hand seemed content not doing a lot, hands buried in his trench coat pockets, strolling beside you with an overly casual gait whilst he rambled on about something you hadn’t had the mind to be paying attention to in that moment, far more consumed with different courses and tactics that could be utilised to find and take down this criminal before the work day was over, you’d rather not have to labour away doing overtime.
“So as I was saying, I asked for a double sui- are you even listening?” Dazai noticed you’d stalked ahead a meter or two, eyes trained on the ground with focused precision, tracking every mark, every imprint in the dirt for a single sign of recent activity. He rolled his eyes, why bother wasting time doing something so mundane as attempting to track a criminal, they’ll come to you eventually. You’d sure make some pretty bait to lure out a scumbag or two, though for once he refrains from sharing that particular thought, conscious of the fact he’d probably receive a slap in the face for such a sentiment.
“How mean Bella, I’m wounded you’d disregard me so” He huffs out an exasperated sigh that you’re not confident is truly sincere and turning around to throw an unimpressed glare his way you note the way one bandaged hand rests dramatically on his forehead, the other just above where his heart lies, the picture of theatricity.
That glare cost you more than you’d realised.
The second your back is turned, an overwhelming haze of rosy mist floods the area, seeping into every crevice of space, until it’s so thick it feels like you're choking on it as it fills your lungs with something vaguely tingly. You cough, waving your hands like it’ll waft the smoke away, “Shit- what the fuck is this?”.It’s like looking through tinted lenses, the way it plasters the world in glimmering fog and you unconsciously inch closer to a surprised Dazai who’s holding a sleeve over his mouth and squinting through the vapour. The air is thick, like the clouds have descended down to earth to perform an unusual phenomenon. It begins to faintly dissipate, subtly, and in the edges of your clouded vision you barely make out a figure clad in dark clothing, face obscured, rounding the corner of the building and skidding away.
Copying Dazai’s movements and throwing an arm across your face, you scramble after the person, pushing your way through the pulsating fog. Ducking around the same corner they disappeared mere seconds ago leaves frustration building inside you, adding to the already pounding headache you’re sure wasn’t there a minute ago as the suspicious figure is nowhere in sight, only vast alleyways that seem to stretch on for miles greet you. Sighing in resignation, you drop the arm still obscuring your mouth and nose to take a greedy inhale of air, clear of whatever peculiar mist had spread across the area moments before. Only then do you register the faint buzzing beneath your skin, like your nerves are vibrating with every brush of clothing against your body. You hiss as one step back towards your original location causes desire to immediately pool in your underwear at the feeling of your thighs making contact with one another. Fuck.
Ignoring the now insistent burning between your legs, you swiftly make your way back to see how Dazai’s faring, aware he was unfortunate enough to be enfolded in the ‘fog’ you’ve now determined to be some form of aphrodisiac powder. Every whisper of clothing against your skin sends rapidly intensifying shudders across your skin, restrained pleasure rippling through every contraction of your muscles. Desperately attempting to ignore the igniting desire overtaking your mind, you stagger back to where you once were, scanning the area for the lanky frame of your field partner through hazy vision. Your gaze locates him hunched over, arms leaning above his head on a moss clad wall, entire body heaving in time with heavy breaths, lips parted and panting. Oh. Oh.
He seems to be even more affected than you are, though you can’t deny the fog crawling into your mind has your thoughts jumbled in a mix of desire and fragments of shattering control. Your own body is turning on you, legs struggling to hold up your weight, skin flushed a furious pink and breath leaving you in broken pieces. You take one slow fumbling step after the other, closing in on Dazai. You’re not sure what solution you have to solve this predicament and it’s not like you even have the capacity to think of anything other than the feeling of your panties clinging to your soaked folds and the shuddering of Osamu’s body barely a meter away from yours. You’ve never seen him so uncomposed, so…unravelled. In a matter of minutes an aphrodisiac has managed to force his appearance unruly, hair messier than usual, tussled and sticking to his forehead with perspiration, prominent bulge straining painfully against ivory trousers, eyes purposefully darting away from yours - lidded and clouded with molten desire.
Seeing your own condition paling in comparison to the utter state of his, you reach out a hesitant hand to faintly grasp his shoulder, touch normally scarcely tangible through the thick cloth of his trench coat now concentrated, sending the blood rushing to his already agonisingly hard cock. He doubles over further and moans at the contact, unabashedly loud as a full body tremor can be seen physically running down the long planes of his body.
“Hngh- f-fuck don’t do that…” He narrowly manages to mutter out and you can see his knuckles, just peeking out of his bandages, turning fiercely white with the force he’s exerting on the wall. Your hand lingers but without moving your fingers along his shoulder the pleasure derived from such simple contact is muted to a vibrating tingle beneath the skin. You’re not sure whether not to withdraw your touch, and your better judgement is becoming hastily clouded with the same desire reflected in the stance of the man before you. Hesitancy causes your hand to slip from his shoulder, though not before trailing down his back to do so. Another deep groan erupts from the back of his throat and you immediately realise your mistake.
“Oh- sorry I didn’t ev-” Your words are cut off as his head snaps in your direction, and the sight has your knees weaker still and slick gushing out of your pussy, unconsciously forcing your thighs together to gain some sort of friction to relieve the pressure that seems only to grow with each moment. Osamu’s eyes are wild, heavily lidded, hues of amber and chocolate brown swirling together in one pool of pure need, and in that moment you’re confident that his gaze could drown you, and you’d go along with it willingly. One more owlish blink of your eyes and his control snaps like a string pulled taught. He’s on you in speed you’ve never witnessed, lips crashing onto yours, all teeth and tongue, not a millimetre of space between you as he moves against you, devouring you.
There’s nothing innocent or gentle about the way his mouth moves against yours, greedy and consuming, like he’s trying to swallow you whole with each possessive tug of his teeth on your bottom lip. His tongue wastes no time, layering over yours with lustful intensity that has your head spinning, hands grasping and clutching onto any part of him you can get. His hips rut frantically against your own, cock pressing onto you with fervour that has pleasure sparking like fire up your spine and his alike. You moan and gasp, and he swallows the sounds in every ravenous stroke of his tongue between your parted lips.
In a second he has you pinned against the wall he rested on moments before, hands clutching your hips like a lifeline and lips moving to bite and suck a trail of scarlet marks and teeth indents down the slope of your neck, growling low against your skin every time you gasp and keen out at his ministrations. That buzzing in your veins has developed to full on pulsing, with each overwhelming canine sunk into your skin sending vibrations of pleasure running through your bloodstream like it’s second nature. His movements are frantic, bordering on animalistic in a way that says you’ll be wearing his marks for days. You don’t even realise your blouse has been torn open, lace clad tits out for Dazai to rain down another flurry of heated open mouthed kisses onto the skin. Deft fingers work swiftly to unbutton your trousers, slipping into your ruined panties to swipe through your drenched heat without hesitancy. “Hahh…s-so wet for me, dirty girl” His tongue barely leaves your skin to mumble the statement, returning immediately to claim any area of skin that doesn’t already bear evidence of him.
“S-samu!” The word leaves your lips between shattered moans, hips bucking desperately, chasing the friction like it’s the only thing keeping you alive, “Wait- someone could s- hahh see” His fingers seem to speed up at this, dragging back and forth through the gushing slick of your folds, though for someone so desperate he’s cruelly avoiding inserting one inside you and the tension coiling tight in your stomach intensifies every time he just traces your entrance before he’s skirting away again, leaving you to let out a frustrated whine. Your fingers have an iron grip on his shoulders, trench coat slipping off as you scramble to ground yourself in the face of such immense pleasure.
“Don’t care” his response comes muffled against your skin and yet another wave of pleasure courses through you as sharp teeth mark the hollow of your throat again and again, “let them have a show”. The next few seconds pass in an indistinguishable blur of hands and teeth and heat, Osamu’s fingers finally find where they’re supposed to go, one then two inserted into the impossibly tight confines of your walls with lewd sounds that echo off the surrounding walls, your hands fervently shove off his trench coat and then his shirt until he’s clad only in the bandages that find home around his upper torso, neck and arms. Your back arches like a bowstring, hips meeting his as you unconsciously roll them in tandem with every press of his fingers into that sweet spot hidden inside you. His teeth have finally let up on your bruised skin, only now for him to swallow every pitched whine that escapes your parted lips as his mouth returns, greedy, to layer over yours again and again until your head is spinning with the lack of oxygen.
You pull away, chest heaving with every inhale and he chases you, lips locking onto yours like the only air he needs is coming through you. You can feel the strain of his cock against you, and as he brings his thumb to your clit to flick and tease at the sensitive bud whilst his fingers scissor and prod your g-spot, you release one of his shoulders to palm his cock through his trousers. His head drops into the crook of your neck, groaning and almost whimpering at the feeling of your hand on him. He adds a third finger, stretching you out impossibly more, and combined with the fact every touch is like an inextinguishable flame of pleasure burning against your skin, you’re quick to fall off the edge, hips writhing and twitching beneath his touch as your walls clench and spasm, “O-oh fuck! Osamu!” His name falls like a mantra from your lips as your orgasm rolls through you like tidal waves.
“Y-yeah go on, make a mess on my fingers” His ministrations don’t slow, still plunging deep inside you and every coherent thought seems to desert your mind as he repeatedly hits that sweet spot over and over again. You don’t even realise your hand has stopped rubbing his cock until the bucking of his hips alerts you to the issue still present. In the haziness of your aftershocks you manage to fumble and undo the button, shoving his trousers and underwear down just enough to free his cock and it springs up to slap his abdomen. He’s big, in a way you didn’t even think about, long with prominent veins running up the underside until they reach his tip, red and swollen with pre leaking from his slit. You wrap a shaky hand around the base, fingers just unable to fit around it, and he groans low from the back of his throat with the contact.
Patience deserting him, his fingers are abruptly pulled from your heat, leaving you whining at the loss until his hand, soaked in your release, spreads your fluids on his cock, grasping your hand to guide it up and down his shaft. The irony of his cock fitting in his own hand isn’t lost on you but through your lust addled brain it’s a fleeting thought that goes as quickly as it comes. The aphrodisiac hasn’t calmed down at all, your stomach still coiling tight with sheer need, desire translated into a ravenous hunger for release that only Osamu can bring you. Hiking one thigh over his hip, you hook your arms behind his neck, grasping the short hairs at his nape before grinding your soaked folds along the length of him. His head tips back, and you take the exposed column of his throat as an invitation to trail heated kisses down it. You can feel him physically twitch at the feeling of your kiss bitten lips tracing his neck, and another bead of pre leaks down from his tip to mix with the already obscene amount of slick coating your pussy.
“O-ohh fuck.. Bella let me fuck you, have to- hah be inside you” His gaze meets yours, drowned in desire and want and you swear you see your reflection in his eyes, head half tilted back onto the wall, body heaving with lust and dizzy pleasure as your hips still grind slowly onto his length. He ruts into you, the head of his cock catching on your overtsimulated clit with every thrust against you, and the need to have him buried as deep as he can get is making you light headed. You nod as furiously as your brain will allow, but that’s all the signal Dazai needs to join himself to you in one agonising thrust. “Ohh fuck- you’re s-so fucking tight”, he hisses out as his cock practically splits you in half, and you wince, expecting pain that never comes. Instead, the pleasure vibrating under your skin reaches its peak, unravelling your mind until you can’t focus on anything other than the sensation of his heavy cock pounding into you with relentless force.
You attempt to raise your hips in time to meet his thrusts, but it proves difficult with the strength and pace he’s slamming into you with. “Shit- gonna fuckin ruin you-” It’s sloppy, in his haste to pursue release his rhythm is lost, fucking into you with hunger alight in his eyes, fueled by the lewd look on your face and the sensation of your fingers tugging at his hair like you’ll break apart without him, “till this pretty cunt remembers my shape”. Your head knocks back against the wall and your back jolts, scraping painfully against the concrete as his thrusts force your body backwards with the strength behind them. Your hands move down to his shoulder blades, scratching angry red lines into the pale skin. His hips drive into you with intense vigour, relishing in the tight clamp of your walls around his cock and the way you’re screaming his name over and over again.
You can see the peak of your desire swiftly approaching, clenching down on him as you chase the pleasure he’s giving you with desperacy. “Hngh- so c-close ‘Samu” He huffs out a broken laugh, interrupted by a moan as you squeeze hard, clit brushing against his abdomen as he draws you impossibly closer so not an inch of space remains between your bodies. Sweat beads and drips off his forehead onto your own, mixing with the perspiration soaking your own face. His pace never slows, hips continually meeting yours in a messy blend of your slick and sweat, colliding with lewd squelches that ring out into the empty space of the alleyway. “Go on, come for me- f-fuck you’re tight- come on this cock” He shifts deliberatley, assuring your clit grinds along his abs with every jolt of his hips. You’re so painfully tight around him, and your skin seems to tremor with pleasure with every contact it makes against his, so much so you can’t tell where his ends and yours begins. Wound in the unending spiral of desire, you’re swiftly pushed over the edge, stars bursting behind your eyes as you gush around his length, still pistoning into your sweet spot as Dazai chases his own release which follows almost immediately after yours. You feel his hips still for a split second, warmth blooming inside you as he spills deep inside, pressed flushed to the entrance of your cervix.
He takes you in, head tilted back and lips parted in a silent scream before your whole world shifts and suddenly your hips are being held up by surprisingly strong hands and your own are braced on the wall you’d been leaning on moments prior. You feel the filthy combination of your own sweat and a mixture of both yours and Osamu’s release trickling out of your abused pussy and down your thighs. His cock has barely left you before you feel the thick stretch of him pushing into you again, cock kissing the deepest spots inside you that he couldn’t reach before, “O-oh hahh.. Samu!” You keen out, pushing back onto him despite only having been filled up seconds before. You can already see your third orgasm of the night on the horizon, and yet you still chase it like it’s the oxygen you crave.
“N-not enough, need more, more” He’s not even directing his words at you now, just muttering into the skin of your back, finding another area that’s been unclaimed by his greedy mouth. His canines are sharp, sinking into your skin repeatedly as his hips collide with yours with renewed passion, aching to force another tidal wave of an orgasm out of your sensitive body. One hand releases its possessive grip on the fat of your hip, snaking around to draw tight circles on your swollen clit. Your legs shudder, struggling to keep you up, but Dazai’s other arm wraps tight around your stomach, holding you steadfast to him. It proves even more fruitful for him as he can feel the bulge of him in your stomach, unravelling him even faster as intended as the added stimulation tips him over the edge again, spilling another heavy load into you deeper still. The feeling of his hips stuttering and fingers still circling your bud causes another mind numbing orgasm to wash over you, gushing and spurting all over him, soaking the ivory of his trousers and his hand.
“Hngh- so- fuckk so fucking good for me” Yet again, you’re manhandled into another position, marked back now flush with the wall once more yet this time you’re completely suspended in the air, secure arms beneath your thighs as Osamu plunges his - still hard - cock into the consuming heat of your walls again, pounding and pounding into you like he’s trying to make you forget your name. “Shit baby- constricting me hah-”. His moans come in tandem with your own, raw and unfiltered against your skin, thoughts consumed by nothing other than getting you to squeeze on him like that again. He finds your sweet spot, abusing it until you can feel, what is this your fourth orgasm?, approaching you. This time it feels different, like the already present pressure in your stomach is about to unfurl in a tsunami of pleasure, and you realise far too late. “W-wait hah- Samu! I’m g-gonna p-” You’re cut off as liquid pressure comes shooting out of you, spraying his abdomen with your release as your body shudders with the aftershocks. His eyes widen for the first time since the aphrodisiac affected him, hips still pistoning into your gushing heat with inhuman speed but soon he’s following you again, and you’re surprised he’s not shooting blanks yet as another wave of heat floods your insides.
“Ohh shit- did you just fucking squirt on me? Fuck-” He doesn’t bother changing positions this time, just withdrawing his hips to start fucking back into you sloppily, skin meeting skin with a clap! Clap! Clap! “W-wait Osamu- m’still too sensit-” your voice morphs into another series of broken moans as you realise he won’t be stopping anytime soon. You’re relatively sure the drug has worn off by now, not that you could communicate that through the haze of lust obscuring both your vision and mind. This is going to be a long night.
Tysm for reading hope u enjoyed!! All likes & reblogs r appriciated and reqs r open as usual ^^ love u all <33
Wow hey first request to you but your work is so fire🥹
If it’s okay with you can I request a size difference moon god!Dottore x reader bc I love size difference and he’s tall af🥹♥️
✶ ʾ ៹ 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍, 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓?
notes. hello anon, tysm!! fah you definitely starting off strong with this one.. size difference always got me feeling a type of way i swear, and moon!dottie no less?? my walls bouta get a fresh coat after this one.
tw. size difference, manhandling, power play, use of ‘dear’, fingering, overstimulation, dirty talk, finger sucking, riding, dacryphillia, stomach bulge
uncomfy or -18? dni! this is def not for you homeslice..
trilune god!dottore x afab!reader
dottore always leaned towards being well above the average height for a guy. whether that was something in his genetics or some modifications that he had done to himself over the years, was a total mystery to you.. and probably for good reason. most people liked keeping their heads.
if you thought you had trouble before with meeting him for a kiss or even taking him down to the hilt.. think again.
with the moon marrows under his belt, and the experiment at long last in motion that he had carefully been crafting for this moment, dottore found himself quite pleased at the results. power coursed through his veins like never before, and the change in attire was certainly to his tastes — he could see himself getting used to this- godhood.
you on the other hand.. you were barely digesting his grandeur before, and now? goodness, he had you standing there mouth slightly ajar, pupils dilated, knees gradually weakening.
he looked.. mostly the same, but there were evident alterations in his appearance, which you were unable to stop yourself from personally examining.
dottore encouraged it, however, watching behind that mask of his as you took careful steps towards him, feeling your fingers drift along the planes of his body.
stopping in front of him, it was there that you’d confirmed he was taller — as your line of vision was no longer where it was, but now lower. if you had to say, getting on your knees was probably no longer needed to give him head.
curious, you stepped around to observe the device he had engineered, pausing halfway when you found that even his hair had grown longer — cascading like twin waterfalls down his back. he was beautiful before, but this was beyond anything synonymous to that.
returning in front of him after taking a lock between the pads of your fingers, you looked up when a gold hand cupped your cheek, cradling it as though were made of porcelain.
it felt cold, metal clinging to or replacing flesh, but it mattered little. he was there with you — gracing you with his affection and divine touch when he should have been well beyond your reach by now. you felt special — lucky. doted on.
an azure hand slid down your hip with relative ease, reaching your dampened sex with half the time needed as two large fingers pressed against your clit enough to leave you leaning into his hand for support.
he chuckled at that, humming in what could have been defined as amusement. “oh dear, i have my work cut out for me, don’t i?” he spoke up, sliding his fingers down your clothed folds at your shuddered sigh as he tilted his head curiously. “mm.. can you still take me as you normally would? or could it be that i’m too big for you now..” he voiced his thoughts aloud, feeling you grind down pathetically against his fingertips.
how cute.
that made dottore smile, another laugh tumbling from his lips. “what’s the matter, my dear? afraid i won’t give it to you now because of my change in build?” he cooed out softly, pulling your undergarments aside to slip a finger into your fluttering hole — testing. “worry not, i was eager to see the difference in performance anyhow. i can feel that you’re tighter already, and that’s just one finger..”
“i-i can take you-!” you blurted out unthinkingly, unable to live with the idea that he might not go all the way because of an extra difference in size. the last thing you wanted was to be incompetent or no longer compatible with him — that would be a nightmare. “please.. please try with me, dottore.. i wanna be filled, ‘n feel you inside of me- i don’t care how big you are- just please.. give me a chance..” you whimpered out, tears gathering at the corners of your lashes as your hands clasped moved over his wrist, pushing it downward.
the doctor would be damned if that didn’t turn him on a little, watching how easily you came apart at the mere possibility of him rejecting the idea of stuffing you to your absolute limit. he wasn’t going to deny you of it, his curiosity was too great to not test it out — but it was endearing to see you so worked up over it.
he could have some fun with this turn of events. “is that so?” the harbinger mused out, running his thumb gently beneath the corners of your eyes. “you don’t care about my size?”
a few beats passed after the question, the weight of his finger stilling in your gummy walls as you blinked up at him before you were suddenly shaking your head frantically. “o-of course i care! what i meant was that you..” taking a breath, you looked away, suddenly feeling shy. “you can be as big as you want, i’d.. still take you either way,” size wasn’t about to be what made you back down.
silence hung in the air for less than a minute, but it felt like more, as your lips parted to add — maybe clarify what you meant even more, only for a sharp moan to escape when another finger joined the one present.
the stretch was.. definitely something, bordering on the same you would get once his dick was inside of you, but still not quite there. regardless, it was still an adjustment that needed to be made, as you weren’t entirely prepared as yet.
patterns were traced on your clit with his thumb, pressing and sliding in a way that had you coating his hand with slick not long after. whoops.
no harm in that, however. in fact — dottore was ever so pleased with the results; he could work with this. “you came quicker than you normally would.. you like this, don’t you?” he prompted with another laugh, tearing his fingers free to bring them to your lips. “being reduced to such a small, fragile little thing that i could break if i so much as lost control with you..”
hardly even given the time to catch your breath, let alone answer his question, slick coated digits were slipping between your parted lips, which you lapped up diligently. false god or not, he should not be anything short of pristine.
and dottore appreciated that you considered all of that- you were always such a thoughtful little thing. it would be criminal to not extend his generosity to you, wouldn’t it?
freeing his fingers, he moved that same hand down to his cock, pumping it thrice before using both hands to lift you off the ground with ease.
the split second that you had caught sight of his cock left your insides clamping in anticipation around nothing before a thick head was suddenly pushing against your entrance. it was big- larger than what you were used to having inside of you.. but it wasn’t going to deter you from the words you had previously declared to him.
wrapping your arms around him, you buried your face into his neck, squeezing his waist with your thighs. “‘m ready.” you muttered into him, rubbing back as though imploring him to continue.
and he did.
with another mirth-filled sound, dottore sunk you onto his cock, inch disappearing after inch inside of you until he could see himself in your abdomen.
your vision blurred for the second time, breaths coming out strained and labored as you clung to him for dear life when the stretch became unbearable. fuck, maybe confidence got the better of you — was he fully sheathed? you sure hoped he was, you weren’t sure if any more of him could fit.
tears tumbled down your cheeks as you willed your body to relax and adjust, knowing that being tense would only make things harder.
dottore must have noticed your unease because he shushed you gently, pressing a kiss to your temple as he lifted you slowly. “bear with me, my dear.” he mumbled into your ear, gripping your hips before bringing you back down onto his dick.
and goodness gracious, it was only the second instance of being filled wholly by him but you were certainly feeling it.
the third was no less painful, but by the fourth.. it was starting to contort into that all-too-familiar pleasure that you’d felt with his fingers thrusting in and out of your heat.
you found yourself bouncing on him by the seventh stroke, feeling him fuck into you as you met him each time in a rhythmic pace.
his given name clung to your lips, spilling through a needy whine into his shoulder when he brushed your sweetest spot in such a way.
because his thumbs were not too far from the action, he let them press into your clit, chuckling breathily as he felt your hips stutter against his own from the stimulation. “ah, you take me so well — my dear.. i knew you would.” he nearly hissed out, feeling you squeeze around him. “even with this larger body, you were still made for me.”
notes. AHH IM RUNNING I DEFINITELY OVERINDULGED WITH THIS ONE AKAKAJSKI moon!dottie save me moon!dottie
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got a deal with a devil
pantalone x fem reader x dottore
In which Pantalone knows exactly under what circumstances and how much he's willing to share.
Notes: Written for a friend who desired some double penetration with this lovely duo uwu
Tags: Pantalone x fem reader x Dottore, fatui reader, technically age gap (they are old yknow), smut, sex as a bribe, petnames (pup, sweetness), oral (reader giving), vaginal fingering mention, unprotected sex, brief anal, implied master/pet dynamic, choking, squirting, possessive pantalone
1.3k words, reblogs and comments much appreciated
Minors DNI
"Grandpa didn't say you were having uhm.." You looked between the two men, the weight of the newcomer's gaze heavy enough even behind his mask that you wanted nothing more than to seek refuge behind The Regrator's familiar form.
Pantalone quirks an eyebrow, patting the other man's shoulder. "Company? Ah I'm sure you know Dottore already. No doubt The Mayor would have told his dearest granddaughter to steer clear of the labs? But don't worry, you'll be safe as long as I'm here, Dottore is a dear colleague and friend."
The Doctor scoffs, swatting away the touch with a detachment that makes you take a few steps towards Pantalone while circling around his 'friend'.
You're pulled into his embrace, silken hair tickling your skin as Pantalone buries his face against your neck.
"Mm.. Wearing the perfume I gave you? Good girl."
You focus on Pantalone's smooth voice, on the firm placement of his hands on your hips, and try to breathe out your nerves. It's easy enough when you close your eyes, beholden only to the fingertips clad in silk that dip beneath your shirt and not the eyes like blood that The Doctor had revealed upon taking off his mask. You'd never seen his face before. You hoped you'd never see it again.
"Oh?" Pantalone's purr brings your focus back to his embrace, arching just a little when he toys with the waistband your lacy undergarments. "Wearing one of my favorite sets as well? How adorable. Were you looking forward to today?"
It's always the same, showering you in honeyed sweetness and all the luxuries you could possibly want. In return, you pretended not to see the disdainful glances and handshakes exchanged between him and your grandfather, instead playing into Pantalone's desire for control.
To say you were simply playing the part would be saying you took no enjoyment from it. No, you relished it, like an eager pup told to sit knowing there'd be a reward.
Your fingers tightened their grip on the sheets as you struggled not to collapse forward. It'd been a blur of nervousness to get this far today, Pantalone's tip pushing between your swollen folds, conditioned to crave him. The Doctor had looked on with thinly veiled disgust while his colleague had whispered praise and undressed you, guided you onto all fours on his bed and spread you apart without resistance. You'd come once around gloved fingers already.
Meanwhile, The Doctor had been (on Pantalone's instruction) trying to get you familiarized with his touch, awkwardly stroking your cheeks and hair. His hands were far rougher than Pantalone's, gnarly fingers and calloused palms that made you shiver.
Pantalone caught your hips in an iron grip when he bottomed out, ensuring you didn't collapse onto your tummy. His neatly trimmed pubes tickled your sensitive flesh with every grind of his hips against your ass. Before the soft whine could escape your lips, two of Dottore's fingers slipped into your mouth and pinned your tongue down with frightening precision.
"Is that good sweetness? You're clenching so beautifully for me." Pantalone chuckled softy as he began moving with more purpose, thrusts slow and controlled, every ridge dragging along your walls. "Go on Zandik, I didn't bring you along just to gawk. Enjoy yourself a little, unless it's been so long you've forgotten how?"
Just as you'd gotten content with sucking on The Doctor's fingers, he ripped them out without warning, an annoyed sneer leaving the man in front of you. Pantalone continued his languid thrusts, enough to have slick slowly dripping down your thighs but not at all enough to soothe the ache in your gut.
Through blurred vision you saw as The Doctor pulled at the straps of his outfit, movements stiff and hurried. It didn't take long before the plane of his torso was exposed, your eyes drawn to the thick happy trail leading downward. He gave you no time to think, no time to breathe, before one hand tangled in your hair, the other pulling down his trousers and letting his cock - longer but slimmer than Pantalone's - spring free and pushing it into your mouth.
You realized, much to your dissatisfaction, that he wasn't even looking down at you. Carmine eyes locked somewhere above you.
"There, satisfied?" The Doctor hissed, his cock twitching between your lips and scraping against your teeth with every unpracticed jerk of his hips. Heat rushes to your cheeks and you try to swallow, the slightly bitter taste making your nerves tingle.
Pantalone didn't answer, his pace picking up instead and a tender hand running along your spine. "You like being stuffed from both sides?"
In response you could only moan around The Doctor's length as you fought to relax your throat for him, just as Pantalone had taught you. Their uneven thrusts had you rocking back and forth, Pantalone's tip now mercilessly nudging a spot that had white dotting your vision. You could hardly breathe with The Doctor keeping your head still and using your mouth like he was forgetting you were human.
When your arms collapsed beneath you, he merely shifted his position to kneel on the edge of the bed instead of standing beside it, your chest in his lap and your nose buried in thick blue hair. Your arched back invited Pantalone to sink a little deeper, the press of him against your insides making you claw at The Doctor's thighs.
"I think she's enjoying herself Zandik, you should feel how tight she's squeezing me."
The Doctor doesn't let up despite your teary eyes and wriggling. "Yeah? Move over then."
You feel Pantalone's thrusts falter for just a moment before he abruptly slams into you hard enough that you would've screamed if you could, the sound stuck painfully in your throat. The Doctor finally releases your hair and Pantalone seizes the opportunity like a starving predator, his lean body curling over your back and yanking you back up onto all fours, away from The Doctor's lap. Everything you'd held back spills out when his thumb pushes against your tight rim without warning, the stretch cruel and burning as he pushes the tip in.
"Don't forget your place and don't be greedy, you're here as my guest." Pantalone uses his free hand to reach around your body, gloved fingers pinching your clit harshly. It makes your vision go white, your body's response cultivated and conditioned to let go at that simple touch. Your heart hammering is all you can hear as you pulse around Pantalone's cock, hot spurts of your release leaving you in waves as your insides are painted white.
When you slowly come to, body aching and muscles protesting from the force of your release, you realize you've collapsed fully onto the bed. The Doctor sits right before you, his length standing tall against his abdomen and drops of pre slowly trickling down the shaft. His sharp teeth are bared in a sneer that would make you hide if you had the energy to move.
There's a hand rubbing soothing circles against your hip while another slowly pushes the mess of fluids back between your folds.
"Hm. Only I get to have my sweet pup like this. And it looks like she's had quite enough for today wouldn't you say? I think it's best if you took care of your condition yourself." Pantalone's voice is cold enough to make you flinch before you realize it's not aimed at you.
He doesn't acknowledge The Doctor further, not when he protest, nor when he starts cursing in a foreign tongue while haphazardly clothing himself. Instead, Pantalone collects you into his lap, keeping your head close to his chest and pressing a kiss against your forehead. "Let's get you cleaned up shall we? We'll have a nice long soak and then some refreshments."
synopsis. immensely impatient, you’re quick to seize their clothing and pluck each article off to get to the beauty beneath, however.. it’s not so simple.
disclaimer. uncomfortable with smut or younger than 18? please dni.
notes. based on a conversation and discussion with @aedeselysia about undressing the guys — feel free to check out her phainon version!
afab!reader.
➫ 𝓓𝗥. 𝓡𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢 ୨୧ ˎˊ˗
“come now, you were so eager to get me to drop everything for this,” veritas spoke up in a lilt, watching as your hands fiddled frantically with the overlaying fabrics separating his unblemished skin from your zealous touch. “where is that confidence from before? don’t tell me it’s too difficult for you to remove my clothing..” he added quietly, a sound following that registered more or less like a chuckle to you.
it’s. hard to say how you ended up like this — or actually, it’s.. really not. while you were studying away for another exam of yours, veritas was busying himself with a book you couldn’t quite care to know about, sprawled in a way that should have been illegal. for aeons' sake, you had to pour hours into a test that practically determined whether or not you would be able to pass this meddlesome course of yours.
and here this man was, blissfully unaware of what he was doing to you by having his his legs parted in such an inviting way, deft fingers running along the spine of his literature in a manner that made your clit shudder against your own attire. that should be you right now, not some stupid ass book you could hardly bother to read the title of!
in any case- without a reasonable doubt, you needed that man carnally.
unfortunately- greed got the better of you, and your advances had become nothing short of an embarrassment when met with how truly.. complicated his clothing had been. for once, you were hyper aware of all the times you two had gotten intimate, and how most of the time — it must have been him removing his robes. memory was failing you if at any given point you had done the same for him, because if you had- maybe this wouldn’t have been such a struggle.
“‘s not my fault you wear the most complicated arrangement of fabrics.” you bit back a little louder than intended, at last freeing his cock in your anger for the lack of performance, to say, as you slid onto his lap, bracing your hands against his broad chest. “now if you don’t mind, i’d like to be fucked.”
clicking his tongue in a more or less condescending manner, the doctor brought his hands to your hips, amber orbs glinting with something indiscernible. “such vulgar language, it’s a wonder you’re even taught anything in your courses here, rhetorician.” he muttered out, lining himself up with your entrance. "good rhetoric calls for decent vocabulary and articulated speech, yet you resort to profanity.. for all i know you might be making use of fallacious reasoning as well."
and before the rebuttal could quite reach your tongue- a last line of defense for your crumbling ethos, he sheathed his cock into your fluttering heat, hardly bothering with preparation. impatience got the better of you, so what need was there in gently prying you open? if you had some patience, he might have considered going easy on you.
but what did it matter? you always did like it a little rough when the stress was at an all time high.
choking on the beginnings of his first name and a hitched breath, the breach of his size in your sopping hole had your body arching on command into his, eyes practically rolling back in ecstasy. aeons it hurt like hell, but your insides only seemed to sing with wanton, craving impossibly more.
and as though your prayers had been answered by the man bringing you down onto his cock, pressure greeted the bundle of nerves above your entrance. his fingers, you surmised, the ones that had held and slid along that book so sensually within the peripheral of your vision — now bullying your clit into utter oblivion.
“h-holy shit- veritas..!“ you cried out involuntarily, bouncing enough for the tip of his cock to brush so sweetly- so cruelly against your most sensitive spot. “too much, s’too much!”
letting out a satisfied hum, indigo curls fell gracefully to the side his head had tilted to, blunt fingers pressing almost purposefully harder. “is that so? your body seems to say otherwise, dear..” he mumbled into your ear when he leaned into it, crescents blooming beneath blunt nails at the curve of your hip. “better hope your mind remembers the content you studied beyond what i will be doing to you tonight, it'd be a real shame if my name is the only thing that makes it onto your paper tomorrow morning.”
➫ 𝓡𝗘𝗥𝗜𝗥 ୨୧ ˎˊ˗
“lightkeeper, the work is practically already done for you and yet you still struggle.” the sinner commented lowly, tourmaline falling to your knelt figure as your hands worked at the metal overlaying the fabric shielding him from your ever-eager gaze. “now that you’ve finally gotten my attention, you choose to make me wait?”
looking up from your hands and the tent beneath them, your gaze became flat, lips pursing together in a deadpan. “honey, have you seen this shit? what the hell even is this?!” you couldn’t help but proclaim, gesturing to the planes of what more or less resembled armor? it was hard to tell, but who cares? “you playing sports or something to call for this choice of aesthetic? archons, it’s like you don’t even want to get cracked.” you shook your head, rolling your eyes before making another attempt at prying the steel that was quite literally cockblocking you.
..look, maybe you shouldn’t even be trying to be crack the literal reason behind the increase in work and deaths of your fellow colleagues lately — but things were going south before any of that could matter anymore.
a hand was around your throat, the wall greeted your back in a way that no longer rang as a figment of combat, and the proximity was all but eliminated between your bodies.
how else were you to interpret that? were you expected to not let out a moan or call out his actions?
silver brows knitted in confusion, a beat passing and then a second right after, before it clicked. which was.. truthfully not at all a term he would have ever foreseen being used for an act so.. sensual. 'cracking' rang to him as something violent or destructive, but maybe this wasn't too far off- certainly if you had enjoyed it rough.
nevertheless, it mattered little. you got the both of you into this situation, and after being deprived of anything sexual for the past five hundred years, he wasn’t about to let his chances slip from his fingers. least of all by a filthy lightkeeper like yourself, betraying your very colleagues and responsibilities.
all for good cock.
“i’ll crack you in two if you continue to test my patience, ratniki, and i cannot promise it’ll be the same definition you are referring to.” he threatened lowly, lifting his hand to possibly either act on his word or free his hardened cock instead, but luck thankfully seemed to be on your side.
a low whistle. “would you look at that," you commented without thinking at the sudden reveal of his cock, lips quirking upwards. "and here i thought it was gonna be your heart all over again.” in other words, a lack of another more or less vital organ.
gritting his teeth at the backhanded comment, rerir was almost tempted to conjure up misty abyssal hands to restrict and force you upon his aching erection, when he was greeted by leather-clad fingers. and on his five hundred years spent alive, he’d long since forgotten this.
your fingers were deft, not too fast or slow either — but just enough to have ivory beads collecting at the tip of his cock, which caught your tongue greedily before anything could fall.
that was only the start of it, however, as your fingers moved to more or less hold onto the base while each inch passed gently through your lips.
uneven breaths and grunts were music to your ears while your tongue worked the stiffened flesh, coaxing his long-awaited orgasm. it’d been far too long, after all, and if anyone needed good head to keep the demons at bay — it was probably him.
although that.. didn’t quite seem to apply to the likes of yourself.
somewhere along the way, large hands seemed to slot themselves onto your head, urgency blooming once his hips began to jerk forward — chasing.
tears clung to the corners of your lashes, moans muffling against the intrusion of your mouth with every stroke that came to bully the back of your throat.
stealing a glance down at you, the rächer of solnari let out a huff more or less of amusement, sliding a sharp thumb almost mockingly beneath your waterline. “how’s that for choking?” he pressed, grunting at the final twitch his cock gave before the coil snapped — pearly ropes spilling from the corners of your lips. “had i known this would have shut you up and marred your face so beautifully, perhaps i would have considered doing so sooner.” he whispered, dragging his claws lightly down the curve of your cheek. “now swallow the fruits of your efforts, ratniki.”
➫ 𝓓𝗢𝗧𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗘 ୨୧ ˎˊ˗
“eager, aren’t we?” dottore chuckled, the stretch of leather like music to his ears with each jerk your wrists gave against one of the many belts that once clung to his clothing.
perhaps it would have been wiser to have considered your initiative to undress him, knowing that the likelihood of foul play was greater when it came to the second harbinger.. but you went for it, anyway, and why?
it’s been a long week, alright? and maybe he was looking a little too fine for you to be able to stay normal with what you were occupying yourself previously with ( you'd already forgotten ).
tugging the last belt over his coat off with your teeth, you offered a glare in return to his question, cheeks sizzling with warmth. “you say that like your dick isn’t suffocating in your pants right now, doctor.” which was.. visually true. “so i’d watch my words right now if i were you.” you finished curtly, ignoring his laughter to yank off the diamond shaped piece that sat at the center of his chest, hardly flinching at the clattering sound it made upon impact with the flooring.
everything else followed after that — from the white coat that you parted rather easily to roll down his shoulders to the irksome buttons of his navy dress shirt. good grief, you really shouldn’t have been so willing knowing there were buttons underneath his choice of overcoat.
meanwhile dottore relaxed against the sofa without so much of a care in the world, eyeing you behind the beaked mask on the upper half of his countenance with a lazy smile playing at his lips. “oh but you’re doing so lovely, my dear. i knew you had it in you — you’re rather capable, if not a little feisty.” he mused, bouncing his leg just enough to have your teeth sinking into his clavicle out of surprise, verbal retort muffling as you did so.
fuck, was your mind so far gone that you’d forgotten what you were straddling?
possibly.
a pleased hum was all the doctor provided in turn, as though having intended this outcome. perhaps it might discipline you into watching that filthy mouth of yours, spewing nothing but profanities in his presence. “was there something you wanted to say, darling? apologies, i couldn’t quite hear you..” he mocked, waiting patiently for your lips to part again for response before delivering another jerk towards your aching heat.
“d-dottore..!” you hissed out, lifting your head to meet his stare, “i swear to — mmf!!”
“ah- silly me," the harbinger shook his head, "i’d nearly forgotten my gloves..” he intercepted with a tender smile, despite forcing his index and middle fingers deeper between your lips. “pry them off for me, won’t you?” he added with a tilt of his head, seafoam curls falling gracefully with the movement.
archons, you were going to kill this man right on the spot if he continued to fuck with your flow. it wasn’t enough you were undressing him with your hands bound together, using your mouth and teeth for everything, but no — he needed to go the extra mile.
nearly gagging on the intrusion, you narrowed your eyes at the masked individual before biting down harshly on the fabric ( maybe even his fingers as well ), seeking a correct angle to pull once your head tipped back.
it didn’t stop there, however. the other hand would have been next to follow, for the second glove to join the one that fell to the ground, but you craned away from it, leaning into his face instead.
dottore expected a kiss even in spite of your current display of annoyance, placing his hand on your shoulder to feel your soft appendages collide with his own.. but they never did.
instead, the weight that had long since become customary to being over his crimson eyes had been lifted, dropping to his pile of accessories as he was brought face to face with you.
a glint of surprise briefly crossed his carmine hues before his grin widened, teal brows furrowing. “huh.. what a daring thing you are.” he commented briskly, watching as you moved away from his face, equally as shocked by your own actions- if not a little more.
okay — so maybe that was a step too far..
but regardless of your shrinking back, he only leaned further into your bubble, tugged into your orbit even as your back made contact with the cushions on the other side of the couch. it was an effort not to combust right then and there when his knee bullied itself into your clothed clit, jaw slackening with the shape of his name on your lips.
but dottore basked in the sight he was met with, narrowing his ruby orbs sweetly. “i hope you like the texture of leather filling you, my dear.. it’s all you’ll be feeling for the rest of this evening.”
notes. i haven’t posted nsfw since 2024 brother and ofc i had to be a tiny bit greedy with the characters i chose but it’s fineee dw abt it.. anyway, hope it was ok! tried my hand at keeping the reader gn despite being afab to see if i was able to manage that, so if it’s well received- i’ll continue to do that<3
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Dom!Scαrαmouche x ShyObessive!Reαder
꒰ MODERN AU ꒱
*•.¸♡ summary Scaramouche is the school's most notorious bully... who's also your neighbor... who's also your crush... who's also the very person who fully consumes your thoughts. He doesn't know who you are, and you know everything about him. And one day, you finally get what you wish for; he finally, finally notices you.
warnings (cw) .ᐟ bully x victim, obsessive behavior, yandere reader, masochism, non-con photography (reader takes pics), self-harm (non-suicidal), unhealthy coping mechanisms, dark themes, possessive thoughts, blood play, knife play, loss of virginity, rough sex, degradation, manipulation, possessive behavior, unhealthy everything
word count . 21k+
˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ authors note i did everything in the GIF at the beginning (like srsly even the pop-ups I edited separately), and it took me 8 hours... this fic has been sitting in my drafts since march 9th, and after a crap ton of rewrites, it's finally done!! this is cross-posted onto ao3. best viewed in dark mode!!
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You’re invisible at school… at home… at life in general.
But it’s not in the cool, mysterious way. Not in the “she’s so quiet and interesting” way that girls in movies get to be.
The way people look right through you.
The way where you sit in the same seat every single day and no one, not once, has ever asked if they could borrow a pencil or copy your notes or sit next to you at lunch.
You eat lunch alone… You always have.
But that's fine, that's okay. Because being invisible means you get to watch.
And fuck, do you love to watch.
7:42 AM
You're at your locker, grabbing stuff for your first period, when he walks in.
Scaramouche.
Even his name feels dangerous in your mouth, like saying something you shouldn't. You've never said it out loud to anyone.
Who would you say it to?
But you whisper it sometimes, alone in your room. Pretending he’s in there with you, pretending he’s your boyfriend, pretending he’s saying your name back, moaning your name bac-
Well… let's stop there.
He’s wearing black today, which isn’t really news because he always wears black. Black band tee, grey long-sleeve undershirt, baggy jeans. His dark indigo hair falls into his eyes, and he shoves it back with an irritated hand as he walks through the hallway like he owns the building.
Childe is next to him, as always. Ajax, technically, but everyone calls him Childe. That’s just some joke you never understood the origin of. He's tall and ginger, but surprisingly, despite him being a ginger, he’s just as popular as Scara is. He's nice to girls, flirty with them, it’s practically his personality.
You've heard him call underclassmen "sweetheart" and "pretty thing" in the hallways, and they giggle and blush and don't realize he's the same person who shoved a freshman into a locker last week for looking at him wrong.
Scaramouche doesn't bother being nice... Not to anyone.
You watch them walk past your locker, close enough that you could reach out and touch Scaramouche's sleeve if you wanted to. You never dare to, though. You press yourself against your locker instead, making yourself smaller, and they don't even glance your way.
Your heart is pounding so hard you feel sick.
First Period: AP Literature
You sit three rows behind him in this class, and you love it. Why? Because it’s the perfect viewing angle. It’s better than him sitting behind you, because you wouldn’t be able to see him, and you'd rather shoot yourself than deal with that, all period. You'd also absolutely hate it if he were sitting across the room because then he’d see you staring at him, catch you in the act.
But in this seating arrangement, he’d never see you or feel your stare.
You take pictures from time to time, to send to no one, just to keep for yourself… to print out later.
You watch the way he slouches in his chair, the way he spins his pen in his fingers when he’s bored, the way he tips his head back and stares at the ceiling, letting out a groan because being in class is physically painful to endure.
Against all odds, pointing at Scara being a complete dumbass, he’s actually really smart. You know this, or notice it, because you see him ace every single test he takes despite his never studying or taking notes. He doesn’t cheat on them either, even though he’s a bully who looks like he’d harass students to do his homework for him.
Academically lazy to sum it up.
It’s infuriating… how he can be so smart with little to no effort… and also so fucking attractive.
Everything about him is attractive to you, even (especially) the things that shouldn't be.
A girl is sitting next to him, a popular girl with long brown hair. You watch her lean over to whisper something.
You can't hear what she says, obviously, but you watch Scaramouche's face, the way his expression doesn't change, the way he doesn't even look at her when he responds.
"I don't care."
Three words.
Clearly, to dismiss her, not caring how rude the dismissal sounds, because why would he? The girl’s face crumbles even though she did expect it, and she turns back to her notebook, visibly embarrassed.
You want him to talk to you like that.
You want him to look at you with those cold… beautiful indigo eyes and tell you he doesn't care about you.
You want him to be mean to you.
Cruel to you.
You want to matter enough to him that he'd bother being cruel.
Is that fucked up? Probably. But who the fuck cares in this day and age?
You’re wearing one of your favorites today. A babydoll pink and white polkadot dress that's a little too short… but you paired it with a skirt for extra layering. You're also in white knee-high socks and Mary Janes, and you have a cute little bow clip in your hair.
You look like a doll, and you always try to maintain that style, that vibe.
As someone passes by your desk, they whisper, "Cute outfit", on their way to sharpen their pencil.
You don’t even know the classmate's name, but you smile automatically, ready to say thank you, but they’re gone before you can even respond.
And that's the extent of your daily social interaction. Compliments from strangers: surface-level acknowledgments that you exist and put effort into your appearance. But it just makes you feel like you’re just a person who takes up space in the world.
It's not enough… It's never enough.
You go back to watching Scaramouche.
Second Period: Calculus
He sits in front of you in this class. You can see the back of his neck… the way his hair curls slightly at the nape… the way you want to tug on that hair.
Childe isn’t in this class, which means Scaramouche sits alone in this one. You notice, when he’s not around Childe, he’s in a worse mood than usual. You wonder if you meant something to him, if he knew you, that maybe your presence would be the same as Childe’s… that he’s less moody when you’re around.
Maybe one day.
Staying optimistic about the unrealistic always helps.
A kid walks toward Scara’s desk, and the teacher orders him to sit in the empty seat, but the kid accidentally bumps Scara’s chair on the way with his backpack.
"Watch it," Scara says, barely any words, but there’s a clear threat in his tone.
The kid, some nervous-looking boy with glasses, apologizes profusely.
Scaramouche doesn't acknowledge the apology. Just turns back to his notebook and keeps writing, and the kid spends the rest of class pressed as far against the wall as physically possible.
You wonder what it would feel like to have Scaramouche's attention focused on you like that. Even if it was negative… Even if it was cruel. At least you'd exist to him.
At least he'd know your name.
Your mind goes blank after this period, after you walk out of the 2nd and sit in the 3rd. You don't have a 3rd period with Scara, so you don't care to log about it.
And after the third period comes…
Lunch
You eat in the corner of the cafeteria, at the table no one else wants because it's right next to the trash cans. The smell doesn't bother you anymore. You've been sitting here since freshman year.
From this angle, you can see Scaramouche's table perfectly.
He's surrounded by people. Not because he invites them, but because he tolerates them, and in high school, tolerance from someone like him is as good as a gold-plated invitation. Childe is there, of course, holding court, telling some story that has half the table laughing. Scaramouche isn't laughing. He's eating in silence, scrolling through his phone, occasionally looking up to say something mean that makes whoever he's talking to flinch.
A girl approaches their table, she's holding a bento box wrapped in a cute cloth, and you know immediately what's about to happen.
"Um, Scaramouche?" Her voice carries across the cafeteria, clearly nervous. "I made this for you. I thought maybe-"
"No."
He doesn't even look up from his phone.
"But I spent all morning-"
"Did I stutter?" Now he looks at her. That cold, flat stare that makes your stomach flip. "I said no. Take your sad little lunch box and go cry somewhere else."
The girl's eyes are already welling up. Childe, to his credit, reaches out and takes the bento from her with a charming smile. "I'll take it, sweetheart. Looks delicious… Don't let this asshole ruin your day."
She gives him a watery smile and scurries off, and Childe opens the bento and starts eating while Scaramouche rolls his eyes.
"You're too soft," Scaramouche says.
"And you're too mean." Childe shrugs, popping a piece of tamagoyaki into his mouth. "We balance each other out perfectly."
You watch the whole thing with your heart in your throat.
You want to be brave enough to approach him, to offer him something, to have him reject you to your face. At least then he'd see you. At least then you'd have something real, even if it was rejection.
But you're not brave.
Just as you’re about to get up and leave the lunch room, hide in the bathroom or walk around the school until the next period starts… something happens.
You hear a splatter coming from the exact same direction Scara is in. And when you look up, hand pausing on your tray, the one you were just about to pick up, you see who's the victim of a splatter.
Scaramouche.
“What the fuck.”
Some kid, visually poor and dorky, some… soon-to-be-dead kid is standing in front of Scaramouche, frozen, with an empty lunch tray.
The contents in that lunch tray?
On Scara, grape soda, to be exact, just soaking his band tee and dripping down his jeans, with remnants of the purple liquid on the floor beneath him.
Like his piss turned purple.
The cafeteria feels like it's gone silent. Heavy on the feels part because it isn't entirely silent, it's still loud like any high school lunch room, it's just silent in Scara’s orbit.
All of Scaramouche’s friends are looking at him, and the same thing is happening with some of the tables around him. You included because obviously.
Scaramouche stands up slowly, not jumping up, not scrambling, not yelling at the kid, immediately pushing him, no. Just slow. He rises and looks down more closely at his lap, and when he looks back up at the kid, his expression, which is normally never warm or inviting, looks worse than ever.
Like, in one second, he's going to snap at that kid.
“You have three seconds,” Scaramouche starts, voice low and eerily calm as he doesn't break eye contact once while that kid breaks it exactly 5 times, “to give me one good reason why I shouldn't break your fucking jaw in front of everyone.”
The kid breaks out of his frozen state and starts stammering, placing his empty tray on the table, which makes Scaramouche, who's still ‘calm’, throw the tray off the table with a force that, if anyone happened to be walking by, they would've been smashed across the table across from his.
The kid tries to back up, but Scaramouche steps forward with his arms crossed. And, as if they're bound together on a fucking unbreakable string, Childe also stands up, moving beside Scaramouche, his once-easy, flirtatious grin… gone.
“Dude,” Childe says, not to Scaramouche as his eyes are on the kid, and his tone is friendly, but not in a nice way, given the context. “You should probably run.” It doesn't come off as a suggestion but as a clear threat.
You can’t help but giggle a little at how cheesy those two are, especially Scaramouche, acting like some Disney Channel villain whose favorite line is, “If my eyes turn red… run.” Except, in this moment, he’s more like, “If my pants turn purple… run.”
The kid processes Childe’s words faster than you'd think and bolts. Scaramouche watches him go with clear murder intent in his eyes before turning to Childe. “Handle it.”
Two simple words that make Childe activate, immediately, like he's some robot servant that does all of Scara’s dirty work. Childe nods and moves away, not at all rushing or bolting like the kid, just walking, casual, because he knows he doesn't need to.
Scaramouche turns away from the table, away from his friends, you know, he despises, and storms past yours.
He doesn't look at you; you didn't really expect him to, even though you know when or when not to be delusional. He walks past, but you do get to see something the others didn't… he makes a sound, and an agitated grunt while moving past your table, your table.
For some odd reason… well, no, for some obvious reason because you’re obsessed with him and everything he does is hot to you, that sound…
It makes you feel something between your legs.
You smile, a stupid grin, out of adoration of the way he gets when he's angry like this, when he moves like he's barely containing something violent… he's the most stunning thing you've ever seen.
And when he’s out of the cafeteria?
That’s your cue.
Cue for what? To follow him.
To the boys' locker room.
You've seen him go in there before, you know he’ll go in there, and you’ve seen his locker before, opened it yourself, you saw it during one of your… reconnaissance missions.
And you know a shortcut he doesn't.
Fuck the lunch tray. You leave it there, already moving toward the side door of the cafeteria, through the hallway specifically where all the science classrooms are, though the empty gym that nobody uses during lunch period, because the basketball court is better outside.
Lots of ‘throughs’ as this is a shortcut.
And, just as planned, you’re there before he even crosses the main Hall, you assume. You just know he isn't here yet. (as the room sounds deceptively quiet and someone with a temper like his wouldn't burst into that room without making sounds.)
As this is a boys' locker room, a room where boys get naked, shower, etc, it stays locked at all times from the outside. But… you have a key.
Not the original key that belongs solely to the janitor, but one you made from a silicone mold. Three months ago, you waited until the janitor left his set of keys on the supply closet shelf during his break, then pressed them into the mold. After school, on your walk home, you had a duplicate cut at the hardware store.
So yeah, a creep like you has free access to the boys' locker room. Just one of the many things that'll land you in the counselor's office if you ever get busted.
You slide the key in, turn, and twist the knob, slipping inside before any passerby sees. The lights are slightly off in some rows of lockers, some flickering, in clear need of a lightbulb change, but the janitors are clearly too lazy to fix something as ‘minor’ as that because it’s above their pay grade.
You look for a good hiding spot that seals you enough that you’re able to have a clear view of his locker… and him, when he comes in. You press yourself against the wall in the second row, closer to the end gap, just so you’re ready to hide between the wall and the last locker in case he walks past this row.
You don’t have to wait long, thankfully. Because in exactly 50 seconds, the door bursts open, and the familiar scent of him fills the room.
He bursts in, dramatically, and you can’t see it, or him just yet, but you hear the door slamming against the wall with a bang that echoes through the empty room.
“Fucking grape soda. GRAPE. Are you kidding me…” he’s talking to himself, pacing, muttering things under his breath, “I’m going to kill that kid, I swear to god, I’m going to…”
You hear a locker, metal, kicked hard enough that you swear he just made a dent in a random student's locker. “It smells disgusting, like a candy store… sticky piece of shit…”
You’d lick the grape juice off of him, do all the work if he let you, you’d be the best girlfriend for him and only for him.
You get wet, stupidly quick, but it isn’t surprising, as you are fully devoted to this man. Just his voice, the fury in it at this exact moment, the way he sounds like he’s one inconvenience away from putting his fist through a wall-
You’d calm that anger for him, in more ways than one, get on your knees until his rant turns into endless pulled back moans that he’d hide with his hand, because you know him, you know he’s the type to never admit to how good something feels, only the bad.
You press your thighs together and bite the inside of your cheek, peering through and staring at his locker, waiting until he stops at it.
He’s finally at his locker, and you see him, the back of his hair… that beautiful dark indigo hair, and his hand moving against the combination of his locker, opening…
And then what you’ve been waiting for this entire time finally, finally happens.
He starts with his shirt, of course, sliding it up, and you bite your lip, seeing his skinny frame without a shirt, slightly toned abs that you could’ve never guessed existed on his stomach.
You’d give anything just to see him naked, just once, what his dick looks like, have the perfect vision for your fantasies in class, and at night.
But would he slide off his jeans that are slightly damp at his crotch? Would he slide down his boxers, too? You hope for both, but just the first would be enough for you.
He throws his shirt somewhere on the bench without looking and reaches for his belt, his fucking belt. He shoves his baggy jeans down his leg in rough, jerky movements, clearly because of the state he's in.
omg, omg, OMG.
You don't overreact yet, as he's still in his boxers… but it's actually the only thing he's wearing. The sight is lewd without it being inherently sexual, lewd from the dark stain from the soda spreading across the crotch area of his boxers. It clings to his skin in a way that makes your underwear wet and ruined, and he's annoyed at how sticky it is against his bare skin underneath.
He looks down at himself, letting out a groan and muttering, "You've got to be fucking kidding me." He hates that his boxers are soaked, that they still took damage even though his jeans took most of it. And he's too mad to think properly or logically because he's realizing he needs to rinse out his jeans AND his boxers, and the frustration in his posture is very apparent.
He yanks his boxers off. He just… stands there for a second, holding the wet boxers in one hand, looking at them, then looking at the jeans he dropped on the bench, then looking at the sinks across the room.
He needs to go to the sink, but he just took his boxers off, and now he's just standing in the middle of the boys' locker room completely naked from the waist down, and he seems to realize how stupid he is for fully stripping himself, and he mutters, "the fuck am I doing?" under his breath.
But you aren't processing his confusion… you're processing him.
He's… fuck. He's everything you've imagined. His thighs are lean, toned in a way that makes your mouth water, and when he turns just slightly to toss his boxers onto the bench next to his jeans, you get the full picture.
His fucking cock… your crush's cock… your wannabe future boyfriend, husbands cock.
It's soft, hanging between his legs, and even soft it's… so beautiful. It's long enough that you imagine what it looks like hard, thick enough that the fantasy you've built in your head suddenly feels so minor compared to the real thing. He's circumcised, as you would've guessed, and he's fully shaved, smooth skin, not a hair in sight.
You would do anything just to get out of your hiding spot, get on your knees, and lick off the grape soda just to see what it looks like hard.
You're shaking, like actually fucking shaking. Not in an anxious way, fuck no, in a anticipating way, like you're so excited you'd jump out of your own skin and play out your fantasies right here and now if it wasn't so scary.
Your phone is out, because it's better to save a memory of moments like these than to just witness them and never remember the full picture again. You get the camera app open, point it at him through the gap between lockers, your thumb hits the capture button once, twice, until you just use the volume button so you can get better angles of everything. You glance down at your camera, making sure the photos are high quality and fully focused on him.
You get the best angles on your phone, a clear shot of him from the side, another from behind when he bends down to grab his jeans, one more when he straightens up, and you can see him in profile. His cock swings slightly with the movement, and you realize your camera roll is becoming evidence that would end up in a court of law.
Your other hand is under your dress… It's not something you did consciously; your fingers just migrated there. You reach under, the babydoll dress hiking up when you find the front of your underwear, and you press directly on your clit through the cotton. You're soaked, or actually have been for a while, and the pressure of your own fingers through the damp fabric sends a jolt through you that you have to physically bite your lip to contain.
You rub in slow circles, your thighs instinctively closing around your hand as you're still taking pictures, watching him through your phone screen, multitasking on something a normal person would call unhinged.
You're biting your lip to suppress the sounds that you're so close to letting out, because if you even let one noise slip…
He'll find you.
And not in the sexy way.
After school, you're 100% printing these photos you're taking out, on glossy photo paper, and you'll pin them up inside of your closet door… so your parents don't see, so only you can see, and you'll kiss them every night like it's a ritual, everyday you do your makeup, mouth prints of whatever shade of pink you're wearing that day.
A shrine of kisses over images of him that he never consented to.
You'd set one as your phone wallpaper if you weren't so paranoid about someone seeing.
Actually, no, fuck it. You will. But you'll be careful with it, you'll use one of your favorite images from the many you just took, and put an emoji, sticker, something to cover up his… private, and it'll be ambiguous anyway because you have a privacy screen protector. Yeah, it's cringe to have a privacy screen protector because no one cares, but you care.
You don't want some rando in class to spot you zooming in on pictures you took in class, or just one's from his Instagram, that would be embarrassing.
You won't stop at printed photos and your phone's wallpaper; you'd draw him, too. Draw his… cock. You imagine it now, sitting at your desk with your cute pink notebook, sketching the shape of his cock from memory… fuck… even doing it in class, with the slight anxiety of getting caught, now that would feel good in comparison to someone seeing you stalking Scara's pictures on your phone.
You'd lick the paper, kiss it, kiss and lick your phone, too, tasting nothing but glass and your own depravity, imagining the warmth of his skin you'll probably never feel.
If you could get your hands on him, really get your hands on him, you'd tie him down and make a mold.
A full cast, silicone, the kind they sell online for making custom toys, and you'd use it on yourself every single night. Fuck yourself on a perfect replica of him while whispering his name into your empty room.
And you're not kidding, this is all very serious to you.
You watch him gather his jeans and head straight for the sinks. He walks right past your hiding spot, and he's close enough that you can reach out and touch his bare hip. He doesn't even notice you; he doesn't notice someone moving quickly into the shadows to hide with their phone in one hand and the other in their underwear.
Unnoticed, as always.
And this time you're happy about that.
He just quickly moves right past, naked, annoyed, and completely unaware of the predator he's sharing a room with.
You take that as your opening to leave. But just as you're about to pass his locker when you start moving, you spot it because you notice he forgot something on his trip to the sink.
His boxers.
You grab the boxers, ball them up in your fist, and you're at the door in seconds, gently opening it without worrying about the noise, since the sound of the faucet he's using in the background is enough to mask the door.
You sit against the wall next to the locker room door, chest heaving, heart going insane, with Scaramouche's boxers in your hand like you just won a rare prize from an arcade's most notorious scam machine.
You bring the slightly damp, from the grape soda, boxers to your face. The sickeningly artificial smell of the grape soda hits first, but underneath it, in the spots where his jeans took most of the spill, where the fabric stayed mostly dry…
You can smell him.
Musk… and warmth… and something like laundry detergent layered over skin… his skin. The fact that this fabric was pressed against him all day, cradling the part of him you just took pictures of… that this specific fabric was absorbing his body heat for hours…
… existing in a place you'd kill to occupy…
You press the boxers harder against your face and inhale until your lungs burn.
So, your plans after school are changing, but for the better. You were planning to just masturbate to the images you took of him, but after claiming something like this? You're going to touch yourself in bed tonight, wearing them, and you're going to cum so hard you forget your own name.
You wish he'd make you cum so hard you'd forget your own name… but technically he is, isn't he?
From inside the locker room, you hear the hand dryer start up; you assume it's him washing his jeans. You have maybe 2 minutes before he realizes his boxers are gone.
You don't wait 2; you just push off the wall and walk, fast-paced, not running, because that's stupid, even though your nerves are screaming at you to. You head to the nearest girls' bathroom, which isn't too far away, and duck inside, find a stall, and lock it.
And you do the very thing that proves you need professional help.
You slip off your underwear, which is normal in a bathroom, but what you're doing is nowhere near close to normal. You slide them down your legs and off, stepping into the boxers… his boxers, that you're clutching onto and pulling them up your thighs. They're big on you, loose at the waist (especially at the area meant for a man's bulge and not a woman's crotch), but they sit against your skin in a way that's comfortable to you, and the fabric of it still carries warmth.
His warmth… it's residual, fading, but there and that…
That makes it impossible to fight back on what you've been craving to do this entire time.
You have one hand holding up the skirt of your dress, and you close your eyes as you press the other palm flat against your lower belly, over the boxers… feeling them. You're so desperate, so pathetic, that you let out a moan, pressing your teeth into your lip to suppress any more that comes out. You feel the fabric over your skin, fingers brushing past your clit, and your thighs close around your palm, not at all caring how batishit isane this is.
That you're standing in a school bathroom during lunch wearing a boy's stolen underwear, on the verge of cumming if you make a full effort to masturbate in here.
You don't make a full effort, because it wouldn't be fun in a gross school bathroom.
What's more fun is the anticipation, watching him in class the rest of the day, knowing he doesn't have anything under his pants. And then finally rewarding yourself at the end of the day, in bed, where you can actually take your time with it. In a place where you can spread out, look at your phone in your soft, comfortable sheets, pressing your face into your pillow, falling apart properly.
You lift your palm from between your legs and your dress, fold your underwear, tuck them into your bra, set a reminder in your brain to put them in your backpack during passing, and walk out of the bathroom as if nothing happened.
Fourth Period: Biology
You know something that every other person in this classroom doesn't.
Care to guess what that is?
The seating arrangement in this period is you, tucked against the wall in the back row, and Scaramouche sitting in a row across from yours, one seat down, giving you a clear diagonal view of his profile.
What's in the profile is the secret you and Scara share… without him knowing you know it too.
That under those jeans, he's wearing nothing.
He looks different in this period, different in a way that only you notice. And what you notice is that he looks… uncomfortable. He looks uncomfortable all the time in class, because he'd rather be anywhere but class, and that's normal for most, but he looks like he's physically uncomfortable.
His posture keeps shifting, once every minute or so, sometimes longer, his jaw tightens, and there's a flush at the back of his neck that never goes away. The flush is so obvious against his pale skin, and it travels up to the tips of his ears.
It's driving him absolutely insane that he's not wearing underwear.
Childe's next to him, which is always expected, and you watch as Childe leans over with that stupid shit-eating grin of his to say something, and you assume it's about the grape soda incident. Scaramouche doesn't even give Childe a look; he just responds with a sharp, rushed, "Shut the fuck up," and that has enough irritation to make Childe raise his hands in surrender, as if he thinks Scara's overreacting.
Childe bumps Scara's shoulder, ignoring the glare he gets back in response as he casually adds, "I'm just saying, bro, you should've seen your face-"
"Don't fucking touch me," Scara starts, leaning in even though he's still mad about Childe's invasion of his personal space. "I said shut the fuck up, Ajax. I don't care what you did or how you handled him, but after this class is over, we're finding that kid, and I'm making him wish he never even stands within a mile radius of me without pissing his pants."
Childe just agrees, leaning back in his seat, staring straight ahead while mumbling something else to Scara you can't pick up on. You see it in the way his lips move and his hand gestures, but then you can't see it clearly at all as the teacher dims the lights in the classroom.
She puts on some boring documentary that you're all forced to watch and take notes, but she knows, and everyone knows nobody's writing shit on their paper.
You like it when the lights get dim in a classroom, yes, it makes you feel sleepy, but it also makes staring so much easier… and you're also too excited to even feel sleepy.
You're still watching him, the way his hand keeps drifting down, between his legs. He shifts, adjusts, tries so hard to find a position that doesn't remind him of the fact that his cock is pressed directly against the rough denim with nothing between them. You watch as his fingers squeeze hard against his upper thigh, so close to his crotch, but he's too embarrassed to even touch that area in class.
You aren't.
Not at all.
His hand moves back to his desk after squeezing, and just 20 seconds later, it's back down again… then back up. It's all a cycle of discomfort he can't break… and you're the only person in this room who understands why.
Because what he needs is on you right now.
Your hand, like a magnet, is already pulling up the hem of your skirt, zero shame because you don't care where you are when he's in the room. You pull it up just an inch, and you glance down.
Even in the dim lighting, you can see his boxers… on you. Black against your skin, peeking out from under your pink underskirt, it's an odd combo with your sense of style, but you don't even think of it that way.
You look back at him, watch the way he's slumped in his chair now, his jaw clenched, neck still flushed, one hand of his gripping the edge of the desk while the other is resting on his lap.
He's miserable and embarrassed, trying so hard not to let it show, and you've never been more attracted to anything in your entire life.
The lights are dim enough, and nobody is sitting next to you… But you aren't going to just touch yourself in class. That's something you agreed to finish off at home. But it is so tempting…
So you just press your thighs together, feeling the fabric of his boxers shift against your skin, the seam pressing just right when you angle your hips. You squeeze and release, squeeze… squeeze, and release to create friction that isn't even nearly enough to get you anywhere, but it still feels good in your lower belly.
You watch as he shifts in his seat again, how his hand drops between his legs… stays there for way too long, then jerks like he caught himself doing something inappropriate. His ears are red, even in the dim light, you can tell… and you don't think you've ever seen them get red before.
Squeeze… release… grip on the desk before your hand 'accidentally' drifts down between your legs.
You imagine, in a dream, a made-up reality of being his girlfriend. Sitting next to him, in the same spot Childe is in, dropping to your knees in front of his desk in the dark and unzipping his jeans, and finding him with nothing underneath. You imagine worshiping his dick without a thought, imagine his hand fisting in your hair, forcing you down when it gets fully hard, using your mouth while the documentary plays, and nobody takes notice of the girl between his legs.
Squeeze… release… keep. your. hand. on. the. chair.
The fabric of his boxers is warm now, from your body heat. It's not his anymore, but that's almost better in your mind because that means you're mingling.
His warmth soaked into the fabric…
… Your warmth replacing it…
You're both overlapping in a way he doesn't know about and would probably… maybe find horrifying.
You press your thighs together again, hard, and hold it. A tiny pulse of please rolls through you, but not enough for any release, but enough that it makes your toes curl in your Mary Janes.
Scaramouche shifts again in his seat, his hand going right in between his legs in his chair, squeezing his legs shut, then opening them up, tilting his head from side to side just slightly to make sure Childe and whoever's next to him didn't notice before retracting his hand.
And you just smile in the dark, repeating his exact movement.
Fifth Period: Art class
Childe and Scara carried out the whispered plan they discussed in class.
You know this because, as you're coming back from the bathroom, you hear Scara's voice. You stagger back, behind a corner, and when you peek out, you see Scaramouche and Childe just cornering someone in the hallway.
It's the boy from lunch, and he looked small in the cafeteria, but here… he looks even smaller than both of them (especially scara).
He's holding up his hands in surrender, and you can't make out what they're saying; it's fully incoherent. But, you can pick up on the tone, how they're shamelessly berating this boy, and well, Scaramouche's expression. He looks bored, annoyed, like this is some chore.
Like, hurting this kid is just something they do to pass the time.
Childe is next to Scara, but he's slightly behind him, at a distance, arms crossed, just watching this all play out with an easy grin. He's not really participating, currently at least, he's just observing…
Letting Scaramouche take the lead.
Scaramouche says something that makes the boy shake his head frantically, and Scaramouche's hand shoots out in response, grabbing the front of the boy's shirt, yanking him forward roughly.
Your thighs press together, and you let out a silent, involuntary whimper.
You watch as Scaramouche shoves the boy back against the lockers. The boy scrambles away the second he's released, running down the hallway, and Scaramouche watches him go with a satisfied smirk.
Those hands.
Those hands that just hurt someone… Those fingers that gripped and shoved and bruised.
You want them on you.
You want Scara to grab you like that… shove you against a wall, shove you against anything. Get in your face and tell you that you’re nothing, that you’re pathetic, worthless. You want him to hit you, punch you, wrap his fingers around your throat, and squeeze until you can’t breathe.
You want him to hurt you and then fuck you with the same hands.
You're wet. You’re fucking wet watching a boy get builled in the hallway, wishing that were you.
There's something seriously wrong with you.
After School
You follow him outside the school. Not in an obvious way… You're careful. You've been doing this for months. You've mapped and memorized his routine by heart.
He stays after school on Tuesdays and Thursdays for some club he's in, something music-related. Today is Wednesday, which means he goes straight to the parking lot.
His car is impossible to miss. A sleek black sports car, parked in the best spot because no one would dare take it from him. You watch from behind a pillar as he approaches it, Childe at his side, both of them laughing about something.
They look like they belong in some kind of movie. The popular boys, the… untouchable ones.
The kind of people you'll never be.
Childe claps Scaramouche on the shoulder and heads to his own car, a red thing that's almost as flashy. Scaramouche gets into his, and you watch him pull out of the parking lot. You stand there for a long time after he's gone.
Then you start walking home.
It’s not a long walk, fifteen minutes? maybe… You pass his house on the way; it’s huge, modern, full of big windows, perfect for stalking.
You live in a gated neighborhood, most of the houses here are modern with big windows, because no one is afraid of stalking, because it’s gated.
You stalk him, of course.
Your house is three doors down.
Scara is your neighbor, has been since you were both kids, and he has no idea you exist.
10:47 PM
You're in your pink room. Soft and sweet and nothing at all like the thoughts in your head.
It looks innocent, like you… but…
You’re not innocent at all.
You reach under your bed and pull out the box.
It’s small, just a plain wooden box you got at a craft store. Inside is a razor blade, some bandages, and a bottle of antiseptic.
Anyone with a brain could guess where this is going.
You've had this nightly routine down for a while now. This isn’t about wanting to die, being suicidal, or whatever the fuck that crap is.
You don’t want to die… why would you want to die when Scaramouche exists? When there's still a chance, however small, that he might look at you someday?
This is about love.
This is the only way you know how to express it.
You push down your pajama shorts, carefully keeping his boxers, which you put on after your shower, on your hips, as you drag the shorts down.
But that's for later!
You look at your thighs. They're a mess of pale scars and fresh lines; some are healed, some are still healing. But the ones that actually matter are the ones in the center.
SCARAMOUCHE.
His full name, carved into your left thigh in careful letters. You did it over multiple nights, letting each letter heal before starting the next. It's raised now, scar tissue spelling out your devotion, and every time you look at it, you feel something like peace.
On your right thigh, smaller: SCARA. His… nickname. The one his friends use. The one you'll never be close enough to use out loud.
Tonight, you add to your right thigh.
You press the blade to your skin, just below the nickname, and you think about him.
You imagine it's him holding the razor, him marking you, him claiming you as his.
You carve a heart into your skin.
It's small and a little wobbly; it’s hard to carve a heart perfectly… but it's there. Blood wells up, and you watch it drip for a moment before pressing a tissue to it.
"I love you," you whisper to your empty room. "I love you so much, Scara."
You give it aftercare, clean it, bandage it, and finally put away your box.
You slide off your pajama shorts completely and get back into bed, spreading your thighs, and when you do, the cut you made stings, aches like a bruise. It's a good type of pain, for you at least.
His boxers sit loose on your hips, the hem reaching your mid-thigh. You reach for your phone under the pillow next to you, unlock it, and open your camera roll app. It doesn't take much to find the pictures you took of him today, and you click on one of the first few.
It's him, still in his boxers, the ones you're wearing, but not really, as they're pushing halfway down his thighs. You zoom in on his cock hanging soft between his legs.
You stare at his cock until your vision blurs.
Your hand slides down, over your stomach, over the waistband of his boxers, and you press your fingers against yourself through the fabric. The cotton is already warm from your body, already starting to dampen, and when you rub a slow circle over your clit, the friction of borrowed clothing against swollen skin pulls a sound out of you that you don’t bother suppressing.
Thank every god, archon, whatever that your parents are prefectures away on some romantic getaway.
You swipe to the next photo, and it's him from behind, bending over, reaching for his jeans. His back… the way his legs are slightly spread, and you can see everything between them from this angle…
"Hah…" Your hips roll up desperately in your own hand, grinding against your fingers through the boxers. The fabric is getting wetter, a dark spot is spreading, and some sick part of your brain loves that. Loves ruining his clothes, just like how much he ruins you.
You swipe to the next, and in this one, he's straightened up, turned just slightly, his cock is visible in his full profile. The length of it is so big, even soft… "F-fuck…" You rub faster, working yourself in tight, frantic circles, and the pleasure builds quickly, too quickly, the wave you've been craving for all day-
You stop. Your hand jerks away from between your thighs, and you slap down against your thigh, onto the bare bandage where you just cut into it not too long ago. The pain is instant, and you gasp, arching off the bed, but you don't let go. You hold the pressure, let yourself feel the pain and the pleasure that was so building, crashes back down, retreats. Leaving you nowhere near the edge anymore.
That's the punishment, because you know that's what Scaramouche would do if he were here. If he were… but he isn't.
You imagine his voice in your ear, low and mean, telling you the pathetic little stalkers don't get to finish that fast.
"Did I say you could cum? Huh?? Desperate little freak… You stole my boxers, and now you think you get to use them? Earn it."
You squeeze your thigh harder and whimper into the dark of your room. And when the pain levels out, you let go, your fingers coming back up to your crotch, rubbing gentle circles this time, though the boxers. The fabric is soaked, clinging to you, and every pass of your fingers drags wet cotton across your clit in a way that makes your toes curl into the sheets.
You do this over and over, look at a photo, memorize it, rub yourself to the edge, then you slam your hand down on the cut and rip yourself back.
Edge… punish… breathe.
You imagine him watching you with those cold, beautiful eyes, amused at how pathetic you are, how completely gone for him, how you’d torture yourself just to feel like he’s in the room.
"Again. Do it again. I want to watch you cry."
Tears are streaking down your face, overstimulated tears, not sad ones, and the photos blur through your tears.
You blink hard to clear your vision as you keep swiping, and you land on a good one. He is standing with his head tilted slightly, cock visible, and he looks oddly peaceful in this one. Like you took a quick shot before he went crazy. He looks just like a job, standing in a locker room, having no idea that the girl living 3 houses down from him is going to use these images to ruin herself every night for the foreseeable future.
You rub yourself through his boxers one final time, pressing hard against your clit, grinding your hips up, and this time when the wave hits, you don’t stop. You let your hand stay where it is, letting the pleasure climb, let it crest. When you cum, you let go of your phone and press your other hand into the cut on your thigh, holding it there.
You experience pleasure and pain at the same time. The orgasm rips through you, clenching and pulsing, your back arches off the pink sheets, and his name falls out of your mouth in broken syllables, “Sca… hah… ngh… f-fuck… Scara…”
The pain in your thigh screams right alongside it. You hold both sensations as long as you can. Fingers pressed to your clit, fingers pressed to the wound, riding it out until your body gives out and you collapse back into the mattress, shaking, gasping, and completely boneless.
You pull your hand away from your thigh and check the bandage. It shifted, and the adhesive loosened from sweat and pressure. You didn't reopen it, but you were close to doing so… but you're not changing the bandage. That's a morning problem.
You lie back down and curl into your side, pressing your thighs together so the fabric stays tight against you. Your phone is on the pillow next to you, and you pick it up, kiss the screen, and set it face-first on your nightstand.
Goodnight, Scara,” you whisper.
Morning
Today, you wake up with purpose.
You can feel it… how today is going to be different, that there's something in the universe, shaking you, telling you, promising you that today is the day.
You shower carefully, avoiding the fresh cut on your thigh. It's painful to walk around at first, because thigh cuts always have that odd bruised feeling, because thighs are mostly muscle. Your body gets used to it at some point, though, enough that you forget about it. You stand in front of your closet choosing what to wear today.
A black polkadot babydoll top that's slightly sheer under the bust, a pink miniskirt that hides the cuts on your thighs enough. You grab a pink cardigan and slide it on to make the top look less inappropriate, and you wear white lace ankle socks and pink shoes.
Before you leave, you sit at your desk and open your journal, grabbing the pink pen that actually writes in a pretty, pastel pink ink.
He'll notice me today. He'll notice me today. He'll notice me today.
You write it over and over, filling half a page, your handwriting getting more frantic with each repetition.
Manifestation. That's what the internet calls it. You're manifesting.
You close the journal, grab your backpack, and head to school, feeling way too happy.
First Period
It’s normal… he doesn’t look at you.
You watch him anyway.
Second Period
Ugh!
Normal, again.
But… his shoulder does brush yours when you’re both reaching for the door at the same time. He doesn’t acknowledge it or even look at you, but you replay the moment in your head for the entire class.
Third period
…
Fourth Period: Biology
This is when your life changes.
Your teacher is standing at the front of the room, talking about a group project. You're only half-listening, your attention fixed on the fact that Scara’s just two seats behind you. You wonder if he’s looked at you at all, period. He had to have you right there if he just looked straight ahead, right?
You can’t see him, and you don’t dare to look behind, but you imagine him, probably annoyed, slumped in his chair.
"I'll be assigning groups of three," The teacher says. "You'll have two weeks to complete the project. No switching groups, no exceptions."
She starts reading off names. You tune it out, doodling hearts in the margin of your notebook, until-
"Group seven: Scaramouche, Y/N, and Jacob."
Your pen stops moving.
Did she just-
Did she-
What the fuck, What the fuck, What the fuck, What the fuck!!!!!
"Jacob is absent today," she continues, "so Scaramouche and Y/N, you'll need to catch him up when he returns."
You can’t breathe… was there a time when you were breathing because you definitely don’t remember it…
Your lungs stopped working.
Your heart stopped beating.
You’re dead, you literally died.
This is the afterlife, and the afterlife is a fourth-period biology class.
Behind you, you hear Scaramouche's voice.
"Who the fuck is that?"
The words hit you like a bucket of ice water. Right, of course, the boy you’ve been obsessed with for years doesn’t know your name or that you even exist.
Why would he?
"Dude." That's Childe's voice. "The pretty girl who always wears pink. She’s 3 rows up."
"Uh…" You hear Scara snicker at the pink part. "Which one?"
"The one with the bow in her hair. Sitting by herself."
You can feel eyes on the back of your head, and you know, well, you can actually feel how hot your face is right now.
"Her?" Scaramouche sounds unimpressed. "Never seen her before."
"She's in like, all your classes, dude. I'm pretty sure she lives on your street too."
Your heart feels like it just stopped right then and there.
How the fuck does Childe know about that? No, scratch that… how does he even know about you to begin with??
"Bullshit, Ajax. How would you even know that?"
"I'm serious. I’ve seen her walking past your house before, unless she’s just some stalker and not really your neighbor." Childe doesn't sound like he's accusing you of anything; he just sounds like he's teasing.
"… Creepy."
You want to sink through the floor and disappear into the earth's core and never be perceived again.
Childe just told Scaramouche that you walk past his house. Which you do… Regularly.
Because you're a stalker.
And he just fucking called you one.
The bell rings, and you shove your notebook into your bag with shaky hands, ready to bolt, but before you can stand up, there's a presence at your desk.
You look up, slow, and he's right there. Scaramouche is standing there.
He's taller than you thought... Or maybe that's just because you're sitting down.
His indigo eyes are fixed on you, assessing, like he's cataloging everything about you and finding it all… lacking.
"So," he says, looking you up and down. "You're my neighbor?"
Your mouth opens, and of course, nothing comes out. You're frozen, pinned in place by his gaze, every fantasy you've ever had crashing into the reality that he's here, he's talking to you, he knows you exist.
"I-" You swallow hard, nodding. "Yes. I'm, um. Three houses down from yours."
"And you've never thought to mention that?" He crosses his arms, tilting his head.
"We've never talked before…” You say, voice small, but despite sounding nervous, the tone is almost snarky because of the words.
His eyebrow raises, just slightly. "We've never talked, but you walk past my house."
"I walk past a lot of houses... I go for walks sometimes." Your voice sounds weird… too high, and also too nervous. "I'm not- I'm not stalking you or anything."
Lies. Lies. You're such a liar.
Childe appears at Scaramouche's shoulder, grinning down at you like this is the most entertaining thing he's seen all week. "Hey there, sweetheart. Didn't mean to put you on blast like that."
"It's fine," you manage, glancing at Childe because it's easier to stare at a boy you don't find that attractive.
"I'm Childe. But you probably knew that."
You nod. You can't seem to form words anymore. You glance back at Scaramouche, and he's still staring at you, his expression unreadable, and you feel like a bug under a microscope.
"Look," Scaramouche says, and his voice is flat, irritated, everything you've ever fantasized about. "I don't do group projects. But since Jacob’s apparently too good to show up to class, I guess we're stuck together."
"…Okay."
"I'm not doing all the work."
"Okay…"
"Do you say anything other than 'okay'?" He says, his face still the same, still unreadable.
"I-" You fumble. "Well, what else do you even want me to say?"
Childe laughs, amused at all of this. "She's cute," he says to Scaramouche. "Be nice."
"I'm never nice," Scara says as he finally looks away from you to give Childe a glare.
"Yeah, I know. That's why I said it."
Scaramouche rolls his eyes and turns away from your desk, clearly done with the conversation. But before he leaves, he glances back at you over his shoulder.
"Don't make it weird," he says. "I know you've been staring at me all year."
Your blood runs cold.
He knew?
He's gone before you can respond, walking out of the classroom with Childe at his side, and you're left sitting at your desk with your heart in your throat and your mind racing.
He knew… He knew you were watching him. He knew this whole time, and he never said anything, never acknowledged it, just let you think you were invisible-
You don't know if that makes it better or worse.
The Rest of the School Day
He watches you.
You feel it in the fifth period, his eyes on the back of your head. You feel it in the hallway between 6th period, catching a glimpse of him staring from across the crowded corridor.
He looks away when you catch him. Goes back to his phone, his friends, his life. But he keeps doing it. Over… and over.
You don't know what it means.
After school
The walk home is fifteen minutes, and you spend every single one of them replaying the conversation.
"I know you've been staring at me all year."
He said that, actually said that… and that also means he knew. He knew you were watching him this whole time, and he just… let you? Let you think you were invisible while he was completely aware of your stare this entire time?
You don't know if you want to scream or cry or throw yourself into oncoming traffic.
When you get to your room, you close the door, drop your backpack, and stand in the middle of your pink bedroom staring at nothing.
Then you jump into bed, screaming into your pillow for approximately 20 seconds, until you reach over to your nightstand and pick up your journal. You rest it flat on your bed in front of you, opening it to its most recent page, where you wrote in pink ink, "He'll notice me today," over and over.
You write underneath the unfinished page, one sentence:
He noticed me.
It looks boring, so you underline it, drawing a heart, then 3… then 4 around it, staring at it, daydreaming about what'll happen tomorrow in biology with him…
You set 7 alarms that night, just in case.
Fourth Period: Biology
You're early today, like, embarrassingly early. Because just one minute after the bell that goes off when lunch is over, you were already in your seat.
You pick the best seat today, the window one, next to an empty chair, because it feels better than being close to where people walk by.
You overthink your outfit like crazy this morning, because you wanted to look cute, but not too much for him, because what if he thinks you're trying too hard? You're in a white babydoll short dress that ends at your upper thighs, thigh-high sheer white socks, and a pink underskirt. You hope it's not too much.
Students start coming in while you're just leaning back in your seat, scrolling on your phone, with your notebook open on the desk, 'ready to learn'. Childe comes in first; he acknowledges you as he walks past, cocking his head toward you with a slight smirk.
You don't react, not caring what he thinks about you, because all you care about is Scaramouche. You pause with your phone in hand, turning your head with his movements. You watch as he sits in his usual seat, alone, and just as you're about to turn your head back to the door to spy when Scara's coming in, you hear the chair next to you scrape on the floor.
You turn your head at the foreign sound, because no one ever sits next to you, and you see him. Scaramouche. Dropping into the chair like he's been sitting there all semester.
He doesn't say hi or acknowledge your existence at all. He just pulls out his phone, slouching in the chair. His slouch makes you sit up straight, feeling awkward that you're both leaning back in a chair.
He's just scrolling on his phone, not caring about the world around him, and you're freaking out completely on the inside.
You can smell his cologne… You can smell his… everything! He's right next to you; your crush is sitting right next to you. He chose to sit next to you and not that ginger leech that he's attached to in every class.
He's still scrolling on his phone as he asks, "Is Jacob here today?"
Jacob?
Oh, right, your third group partner, the absent one. You glance around the room with what you hope is a casual, "I totally know who that is" sweep, and see the seat you presume to be Jacob's empty.
"No." You say, shaking your head. "He's absent today."
"Of course he is." Scaramouche locks his phone and drops it face down on the desk. "Fucking useless. We're doing a three-person project with two people, one of who-" he glances at you sideways, judgingly, "can barely form sentences around me."
You stare at him, offended, still nervous, "… I can form sentences, actually. I'm talking right now."
He finally does a full turn at you, and he crosses his arms, the sides of his mouth going up in a smirk while his eyes stay flat in disbelief. "Oh, really? You said 'okay' six times yesterday."
You're already flustered, eyes darting to your phone like any nervous high schooler, then back to his face as you play with your phone case, as you say, "Okay, still counts as a response, especially a sentence, grammatically."
He looks amused at your response, well, not completely, just slightly. He rolls his eyes as he sits up, "Alright, Grammar, let's see if you're useful." He pulls your notebook toward him without asking, flipping it open, and you break out of your nervous stance and lunge for it, because you know if he opens it, he's going to see something about him.
But, you don't make it in time because he already flipped open a page, one, thank god, that doesn't have his name...
… It has something way worse.
It's 6 doodled hearts formed into a heart shape, 6 is his favorite number, and it's colored in blue ink, which is his favorite color. What's inside the heart is the scary part you don't want him to see. It's your initial, and his, with a plus sign in the middle. Your name in pink ink, his in purple because that's his favorite color… and he's looking at it.
"…Cute." He says, unreadable, and he flips to a blank page like he didn't just see his initial, clearly written in your own notebook.
Why didn't he question it? Does he assume it's about another person who has an S in the first part of your name? Does he know it's about him, and is he just avoiding it because he's uncomfortable? No, that wouldn't make sense, he's the type to address anything if it ends in a new victim for his bullying… so what does this mean…
You watch as he pulls up the assignment on his phone and starts writing in your notebook. You've never seen his handwriting before, apart from the times when you walk past his desk to go to the bathroom, and you squint, and it's messy. It's coherent, just… the lazy type of handwriting. "We need to split the cellular respiration sections. I'll date the electron transport chain because I know you'll end up getting us an F."
You let him use your notebook when he could just take out his, and you scoot your chair closer to the desk, sitting up to watch him write. "Why do you think I'd be the one to get us an F? I can do that part…"
"No, you can't because it's the hardest section and it seems like you've been writing love notes more than studying… if you study at all that is." He doesn't look up from writing, multitasking. "You can do glycolysis and the Krebs cycle."
You scoff when you process just what getting that topic compared to the others entails. "Those are… you're giving me the easy ones, and just giving yourself the more difficult ones?"
"Yeah, and?" He shrugs, still not looking up. "I'd finish it by the end of the day when I go to your house after school, you'd take a week to finish it if it were you. He scrolls through the assignment on his phone, then goes back to writing. "Don't mistake it for generosity."
He's going… to your house after school?
What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck.
The teacher starts talking, informing the class of the project's contents, even though Scaramouche is 50 steps ahead of her, and you aren't even listening to her; you sound it out… only focusing on him.
"You're staring, and it's super fucking annoying, can you stare at something else… or just, I dunno, work?" He says, pen still moving, not glancing at you.
You look away from him and at the board, pretending that's what you've been doing this whole time. "I'm not, and I can't really work if you're using my notebook."
He just says whatever, and he pulls out his notebook, practically throwing it at your side of the desk, telling you to write in that. It's stupid; he could just stop writing in your notebook and use his, but you don't argue because you'd love to use anything that's his. You write in his, as he writes in yours, and all you can think about are the stupid topics you're forced to write about and the quiet sound of him breathing next to you.
"What's the deal with the outfits?" He says, completely out of nowhere, taking a break and leaning back in his chair, finally acknowledging you.
You look once, sideways at him, before dropping your pen to turn and say, "Huh?"
"The…" He gestures vaguely at you… all of you. "Whatever this is, you dress like this every day, to what? Look like a doll?"
You glance down at your own outfit, honestly more offended than you'd feel if someone average said the same thing to you. His opinion matters a lot to you. "I… I like how it looks… Is it bad?"
"Didn't say it was bad… I didn't say it was good either." He tilts his head, looking at you with an analytical gaze, "Do people ever tell you that you look like a doll?"
You nod, kind of annoyed at this point, hearing the same word being tied to you, but also liking it when people do refer to you as such. "Sometimes… I guess."
"Do you like it when they do?"
You're quiet for a second before nodding again. "…Yeah. I do."
He hums, sitting up and grabbing his pen again to continue writing in your notebook. "Figured."
You study his outfit, now that the topic of outfit choices is out there. It's the same as ever: the black band-tee, the long-sleeve grey undershirt, baggy jeans, and the dark platforms he wears to compensate for his short height.
"You'd look good in what I wear." You say before you can even think about not saying it.
His pen completely stops, and he turns his head toward you, slowly. The look on his face is that of someone who just heard something profoundly disturbing and needs a moment to process it. "…Excuse me?"
"Uh- Like-" You start fumbling, trying to back up the words you already said, trying to think of anything that'll make sense. "Like… the pink, the bows, um- the girly stuff? It would suit you… Your face has that kind of… pretty structure? Like you have doll-like features- kind of? So, I just thought-"
He stares at you, and you stare back, your throat working nervously as you cut yourself off before you say any more dumb, useless things.
"I shouldn't even justify whatever bullshit you just uttered with a response, but I am, because it was that terrible." Scaramouche leans his body closer to yours, slightly, arms crossed, "You're insane, certifiably insane. What the fuck makes you think I'd be caught dead wearing one of those stupid bows? Over my dead body. Actually, if I do die, and your crazy-ass manages to put one of your accessories on my corpse, I will haunt you."
You shake your head, still trying to defend yourself, "I'm just saying-"
He cuts his gaze away from you, holds his hand out for you to stop speaking as he turns back to his notebook. "You're done saying. Work on your side of the project, and I'll work on mine."
You write about… whatever the hell you were writing about before, taking quick glances at him when you think he isn't paying attention and turning back to your work when he moves his head even in the slightest. The period passes way too quickly, and you hear the familiar sound of students packing their things 2 minutes before the bell. Scaramouche closes your notebook, and he hands it to you, taking his own and shoving it in his bag. He leans back in his seat on his phone, waiting for the bell, and once it rings, he gets up, standing first, looking down at you.
"You live three houses down from me," he starts, shoving his phone in his pocket. "So, I'll come to your place after school. We'll finish the project early, and then we never have to interact again."
He walks away before you can even open your mouth, or even nod, and Childe appears at his side almost immediately, those two still, always being glued to each other.
You look down at the notebook he wrote in, the very notebook you still haven't put away, and you smile because his handwriting, his fingers, his skin touched this notebook. You close it and very carefully put it in your notebook as if it were something delicate.
You're never throwing this notebook away, ever.
3:15 PM
The final bell rings.
You're walking toward the exit, clutching your backpack straps, trying to figure out how you're going to survive being alone with Scaramouche in your house. Your room is covered in pink. Your journal is full of his name. Your thighs are-
Oh god. Your thighs.
You're wearing a short skirt. If he sees- if he somehow-
"Hey."
You nearly jump out of your skin.
Scaramouche is leaning against the wall by the front entrance, arms crossed, looking bored. His car keys are dangling from his fingers. He pushes off the wall and starts walking toward the parking lot without waiting for you.
"I'm driving," he says over his shoulder. "Keep up."
You scramble to follow him, your shoes clacking on the pavement. "You don't have to- I can walk-"
"You live three houses from me. It would be stupid for you to walk while I drive." He doesn't look back. "Get in the car."
His car is even more intimidating up close. All black leather and tinted windows. You slide into the passenger seat and clutch your backpack to your chest because you feel awkward putting it anywhere in his car.
Scaramouche gets in beside you, and he starts the engine.
"Seatbelt," he says.
You fumble with the buckle because your hands are shaking, but thankfully, you get it on before he notices.
He pulls out of the parking lot without another word, and you sit there in silence, staring straight ahead, trying to remember how to breathe. The music is playing low, something with heavy bass that you don't recognize. His hands are on the steering wheel. Those hands... Those same hands that shove and grab and hurt.
Those hands that you want on you so badly that it makes you dizzy.
The drive takes less than five minutes, but it feels like hours. You're hyperaware of everything. The way he smells, like expensive cologne. The way his jaw is set, like he's annoyed to be doing this. The way his eyes flick to you, once, twice, before returning to the road.
He pulls into his driveway, not yours, and he parks, turning off the engine.
"Well?" He's looking at you now, one eyebrow raised. "You said you're three houses down. Which one?"
"The beige one," you repeat, pointing vaguely. "With the white shutters."
He follows your gesture. Looks at your house, then looks back at you.
“Never noticed it before," he says, staring at you for too long and too deeply before unbuckling his seatbelt. "Come on. Let's get this project over with."
He opens his door and gets out of the car.
You sit there for a second, processing. Trying to figure out if this is real or if you're going to wake up any second now.
Scaramouche is going to be in your house. YOUR HOUSE!
You grab your backpack and follow him to your house.
He walks ahead of you, like he’s above walking next to you, or just waiting for you, but… he stops to wait when he’s at your front door.
You walk up your steps, trying not to shake even more under his stare, trying to stay steady as you unlock the front door.
You fumble with your keys twice before finally getting the door open, and you step inside with your heart hammering.
"Nice place," he says, and it sounds like an insult.
"Thanks. My parents are on a trip for a week, so it's just us…" Your voice comes out too small, and you clear your throat. "Um... My room is upstairs."
He follows you up the staircase without comment. You're hyperaware of every step, of the way your pink miniskirt swishes against your thighs, of the slight sheerness of your black polkadot babydoll top. You picked this outfit so carefully this morning. You wanted to look pretty, you wanted him to notice.
Be careful what you wish for.
You push open your bedroom door and step aside to let him in.
His reaction is immediate. "What the fuck."
He sees your pink walls, pink bedding, and pink curtains with little bows on the edges. Your bed is huge, piled high with plushies, my Melody, Hello Kitty, etc. You have a massive Hello Kitty squishmallow that takes up half the headboard. LED lights are on in your closet and on your walls, casting everything in a soft, warm glow.
Scaramouche stands in the doorway, taking it all in with an expression of disgust and probably disbelief.
"You actually live like this?"
You turn away so he won't see your smile. His cruelty always makes you happy, always makes you grin uncontrollably.
"I like pink..."
"Yeah, no shit." He walks farther into the room, looking around as if he's just landed on an alien planet. His black clothes are uncanny compared to all the softness, wrong in a way that feels right. "This is the most unhinged thing I've ever seen. It looks like a five-year-old's fever dream in here."
"You can leave if you hate it so much." You say, arms crossed, starting to get slightly more comfortable enough to throw that comment.
"Didn't say I hated it." He plops down on your bed without permission, right in the middle of it, leaning back against your Hello Kitty squishmallow like it never bothered him in the first place. "I said it was unhinged. There's a difference."
He's on your bed. Scaramouche is on your bed.
You've fantasized about this exact moment probably a thousand times, and now it's happening, and you don't know what to do with your hands or your face or any part of yourself.
"You gonna stand there all day?" He pats the space next to him. "Come on. We have a project to do."
You have to force yourself out of it and start moving to the bed before he thinks you’re weirder than what he knows you already are. You climb onto the bed, sitting against the headboard to give Scara as much space as possible. You reach down to your backpack on the floor and pull out your laptop, covered in Sanrio stickers, and flop it onto your bed.
"Cute," he says, and you can't tell if he's mocking you or not. You take it as a compliment.
You open your laptop and pull up the assignment, trying to focus on the words on the screen instead of the fact that he’s right there, close enough to touch, lounging on your bed as he belongs there.
He should belong there.
He pulls out his own laptop. Sleek and black and sticker-free. For a few minutes, there's just the sound of typing and the sound of you trying desperately to remember how to breathe and not glance at him any moment you can.
Then, he pulls out a vape. "Is that okay?" he asks, and it's not really a question because he's already bringing it to his lips; he knows you and most people wouldn’t say no to him.
"Um, sure..." You say, sounding very unsure, but letting it happen.
He takes a drag, exhales a cloud of something toward your ceiling. You watch the smoke float and dissipate. You think about how that vapor was in his lungs, how it touched the inside of him, how you're breathing in particles of Scaramouche right now.
You're so fucked up.
"So," he says, not looking at his laptop anymore, looking at you. "You've lived three houses down from me for how long?"
He's looking at you. He's looking at you. He's looking at you!!
"Two years."
"Two years." He takes another drag. "And you never thought to introduce yourself?"
"We don't exactly run in the same circles..."
"What circles do you run in?" His eyes are curious in a way that makes you squirm, feel too noticed. "I've never seen you with anyone. You eat lunch alone, and you sit by yourself in every class. You don't talk to anyone."
"I just- I don't really like talking to people... I like being alone." Lie, well, not entirely. You like being alone, but if he's there to fill the space, that's something you'd enjoy. And he's the only person you also care about talking to.
"…You're weird."
"That too." You say with a half smile, a nervous one.
He laughs… Scara actually laughed at something you said. You tuck the sound away in your mental collection, right next to every other scrap of him you've managed to steal.
"What do you do for fun?" he asks. "When you're not stalking me, I mean."
Your face burns, eyes widening as you sit back, fingers curling at your skirt. "I don't stalk you."
"Really? But you literally admitted to walking past my house every day." He says, taking another drag, like he’s totally unbothered while accusing someone of stalking.
"I live at the end of the street... I have to walk past your house." You say, squinting at him almost, playing out the perfect expression of someone who’s ‘innocent’, and getting annoyed at a stupid accusation.
"Hm… Convenient excuse." He says simply.
You don't respond because you don't have anything to say to that. He's so fucking right, and you both know it.
"Can we just work on the project?" you whisper.
"Boringgg." But he turns back to his laptop, and for a while, you actually manage to focus.
An hour passes, and you've gotten a decent amount of work done… all things considered. The project is on cellular respiration, which isn't hard, just tedious. You've divided up the sections, agreed on a format, and outlined the presentation.
Normal group project stuff.
But the whole time, he keeps looking at you.
You feel it like he's physically touching you; the stare is that heavy. His gaze on your profile, on your hands, on your legs tucked underneath you. And every time you glance over, he's staring at his screen.
But you know. You know he's watching when you're not looking.
It's making you insane.
Without warning, he shuts his laptop loudly.
You look up, startled at the sound, and when you see him moving, scooting across the bed toward you, you stammer out a startled, "What are you-" He closes the distance you so carefully maintained, and before you can react, he's reaching over and shutting your laptop too. Setting it aside… getting closer.
Close.
Really close.
"Tell me something." His voice is low, a lot different than before. "And be honest, because I'll know if you're lying."
You can't breathe… he's right there, right fucking there… just inches away.
"…Are you stalking me?"
You shake your head immediately, too fast, "N-no… I told you this before." The moment of your head, and your own words, contradict what you're trying to deny.
He doesn't look convinced at all. "Really?" He leans in slightly, and you press yourself back against the headboard. "Because I've been watching you, you know. All day today… And every day before that."
Your heart stops.
What?
So he has noticed you… does know who you are??
"You follow me between classes," he continues, "You watch me at lunch… You stare at me in every class we share, and we share all of them, don't we? Every single one. Childe told me, but I already knew."
"I don't-" Your mouth feels dry, so dry, and he cuts you off.
"You walk past my house every day, even though there's a shorter route to yours from school. My house is in the other direction, north, when the way to school is south… Don't try to deny that either."
"I…" He cuts you off again.
"And just now, when I was looking at you?" He smiles at you, not nice, not anything but mean. "You knew, didn't you? You could feel me watching. And you liked it, didn't you? Because you've gotten used to being the one doing the watching. It threw you off, having it reversed."
You want to cry and die all at once… and also run to escape all of this despite this being a fucked up version of exactly what you wanted.
"Shh." He reaches out, and his hand lands on your thigh… on your thigh. Right above your knee. "It's okay… You don't have to answer that."
His hand is on you… Scaramouche is touching you. After years of watching him from a distance, memorizing every detail, carving his name into your skin, he's touching you.
His thumb strokes across your thigh, slow and deliberate… higher. Closer to where your skirt ends.
"I have to say," he murmurs, "I've never had anyone this dedicated before. It's kind of flattering, in a fucked up way."
His hand keeps moving, up your thigh, fingers trailing over your skin, and you're so focused on the sensation that it takes you a moment to realize how close he's getting to-
His hand pauses, hovers. So close to where the scars are, where his name is, where every piece of evidence of your devotion is carved into your flesh.
He doesn't touch them, doesn't slide his hand any higher. Instead, he laughs, amused at your reaction to his touch and lack of response, and he moves his hand to your abdomen. Palm flat against your stomach through your top.
You exhale shakily, thank god. Thank god he didn't feel them, didn't see, didn't-
"But tell me this."
He leans in closer, lips brushing your ear, and you shiver, especially when his hand slides down, over your stomach, under the waistband of your skirt.
"Do you want me to fuck you?"
… What the fuck.
Everything stops: time, the world, your heart, the rotation of the earth on its axis. Everything just... freezes.
Did he just…
Did he really-
Maybe you misheard… Or maybe this is a dream. Maybe you finally snapped, and you're hallucinating in a padded room somewhere, and none of this is real-
But… his hand is still there. His fingers are still resting just below your waistband, waiting for a response. And his eyes are fixed on your face, watching your reaction.
He's serious. Completely serious.
You nod, tiny, nervous to give him a full one, nervous to admit that you want him that bad. But he sees it, he sees it so clearly because of the way he’s staring so deeply at you.
And he smiles at your tiny response, and he doesn’t give you a second, he doesn’t hesitate for even a moment to lean in and kiss you.
It’s not gentle, or soft, or anything like the first kisses you used to imagine back when you still believed in fairytales. He kisses you like he’s trying to consume you, devour you; his mouth is hot and demanding against yours, his hand is fisting in your hair to hold you in place.
Your first kiss... Your first fucking kiss, and it's with him.
How many girls get to even have their first kiss with their crush?
His other hand slides further under the waistband of your skirt. You can feel his fingers at the edge of your panties, and when he presses his hand fully against you through the cotton, you gasp.
He takes that gasp as an opportunity to slide his tongue past your lips, not hesitating for a moment as he licks into you like he owns every part of you.
His fingers roll over your clit, just right, and you whimper into his mouth.
You try to pull back, not because you want to stop kissing him, god fucking no, because you need air. But… he follows you, chasing your mouth, biting at your lower lip because how dare you even try and pull away.
"No breaks," he mutters against you. "I didn't say you could stop."
The kiss that follows is deeper this time, he tilts his head to get a better angle, and there’s something almost passionate about it… oddly passionate. It’s like he can’t get enough, like he’s been thinking about this as much as you have.
His fingers don’t stop their rhythm on your panties; he’s rubbing slow circles, and you’re embarrassingly wet already, soaking the fabric.
When he finally, finally pulls back, there’s a string of saliva connecting your lips; it’s risqué in a way that makes your cunt clench around nothing.
You’re panting, unable to even try to be quiet like you normally are, unable to compose yourself properly because that kiss lasted too long for 2 people that need oxygen like it’s a lifeline.
And yet… he’s barely even out of breath.
He gives you one last kiss while you’re still in a daze, trying to breathe; it’s softer than the others, tender. He moves, sliding down the bed, settling between your thighs, you don’t even process it until-
He lifts your skirt.
That fog in your brain clears instantly, like a reset.
"Wait-" You reach for him, try to grab his hands, try to push your skirt back down. "Wait, don't-"
It's too late. Way too fucking late.
He's looking at your thighs.
At the scars.
At his name, his own birthname, carved into your left thigh. Fully healed letters in raised star tissue.
Permanent.
Then, he looks at his nickname carved on your right thigh. SCARA. It’s smaller than the other, but just as deliberate, similar in depth to the other one, because you’re consistent with how you cut.
And beneath it… something not healed, fresh, still red, the heart you craved last night.
You watch his face. He doesn't look disgusted or scared. His expression is...
Amused.
"Well," he says slowly. "That's new."
"I can explain-" You stammer out, but he cuts you off.
"Can you?" He looks up at you, eyes narrowing. "Because I'm really curious what explanation you have for carving my name into your fucking thighs."
You, as predictable as ever, immediately started crying, tears spilling down your cheeks, talking so fast that your words sound jumbled. “I’m sorry, I’m so so so sorry. I know it’s fucked up, I know I’m crazy… I’m just- I-I’m sorry… P-please don’t… please don’t tell anyone-”
"Shut up."
You put your hand to your mouth, muffling your sobs.
He looks back down, ignoring your crying, and he stares at your thighs for a long moment. Then he pulls out his phone.
You move your hand from your mouth with wide eyes, "What are you-"
"Hold still." He grabs both your wrists with one hand, pushing them up above your head, pinning them to the headboard. "Don't move, and don’t even try covering it."
"Scara, please don’t-"
He takes a couple of pictures. He has flash and his ringer is on, so the sound and the light flashing right on your thighs make you flinch. You’re crying impossibly harder now, panicking at the thought of him sending this to his friends, to everyone at school to see, and Scara just looks at you, and he laughs.
He laughs like this is the funniest thing he’s ever seen, like exposing you to his camera lens is more amusing to him than anything.
"You're so fucked up," he says, his grip tightening on your wrists above your head because you desperately tried to thrash out of his grip. "Like, actually insane… I knew you were weird, fuck, the whole school knows how much of a weirdo you are, but this? You carved my name into your skin. What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"I love you," you whisper, true devotion in your words.
Scara believes it, he believes it in the way you’re trembling, tears streaming that you can’t wipe because he’s holding you down, and even so, you’re looking at him like he’s the only thing in the world that matters.
"Yeah, I can see that," he says slowly, then he snaps out of it, his fingers tightening their hold on your wrist like he forgot what he was just doing.
You hear him take another picture, you don’t watch, you force your eyes to stay closed, just waiting until the camera flashes are over.
It doesn’t end for a while; he’s taking a bunch, documenting your thighs from different angles, capturing every single piece of evidence of your obsession.
"Please," you sob, eyes peeking out just a little, “please, I'll do anything, just don't show anyone-"
"Relax." He tosses his phone somewhere on the bed behind him. "I'm not going to show anyone."
Your eyes shoot fully open, sobs turning quiet. "You're… not?"
“No.” He says, rolling his eyes. He releases your wrists, and your body moves automatically, bringing your hands around you like a self-soothing hug, and you try to close your legs to hide yourself. He doesn’t let you, though; he just forces your legs back open, wide open. “I took those for me, not for anyone else. My own personal collection of proof that you’re completely fucking unhinged.”
You don’t know how to respond to that; you don’t even know what to do other than just continue to cry, silent tears this time, as he looks at your thighs. You so desperately want to still hide from him.
Even though it’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen.
But you don’t know that…
"Where's the blade?" He asks, suddenly, zero context.
Your breath catches, you swallow, throat dry as you let out a tiny, confused, "What?"
"The blade." He says, and he says it like he’s annoyed he has to rephrase himself. "The thing you used to do this to yourself. Where is it?"
You shake your head, slowly, wiping your tears, not understanding why he wants to know, but your brain automatically tells you to lie, to maybe save yourself. "I don't-"
"Don't lie to me." He doesn’t even let you try. "I told you, I always know, always. And the heart's recent, you obviously have it in your room somewhere, unless you threw it out, promising to yourself that it’ll be the last time you cut yourself… but we both know that’s a lie. So, tell me where it is."
"...Under the bed." Your voice is barely audible, but he hears it perfectly. "T-there's a box."
He climbs off your bed the moment you say where and what it’s in, and you try to curl up, hide now that he isn’t practically on top of you, but you barely even get 3 seconds of freedom, because he’s back quick.
He’s not nice about it; he grabs at your ankles and yanks them, pulling you flat onto your back, forcing your legs apart. He settles between your thighs again, and this time he has the box.
With the razor blade inside.
"Scara..." Panic claws at your throat, finally understanding. "What are you going to do?"
He doesn’t respond at first; he just sets the box on your trembling thigh, opens it up, and takes out the blade. The box falls off your thigh from how much you’re trembling.
"I'm going to add to it," he says simply, examining the blade, the way it has a tiny amount of dry blood you were too lazy to clean off. "Give you something else to worship."
Your heart is pounding so hard you can hear it. "You're going to-"
"Shut up and hold still. This is what you want, isn’t it? Well… I don’t care either way." He slides off your skirt while he talks, tossing it aside somewhere in your room, then his fingers hook into the waistband of your panties, and those go too.
You’re bare now, well, from the waist down at least, spread open on your own bed, completely exposed.
This is everything you've ever wanted.
He lies down more comfortably between your thighs, at a full view now, and he presses a kiss on your left thigh, right over the S in his name. It’s a soft and seemingly gentle kiss, completely at odds with the blade in his hand.
"You really did this for me," he murmurs against your skin. "Every letter... Even every heart?"
"Yes..."
He kisses the C, then the A, then the R, works his way across his name, lips brushing over scar tissues, pressing the softest kisses onto his name on your thigh.
You’re trembling, exposed cunt clenching around nothing, and your waterworks have stopped. You don’t even remember when you stopped crying.
When the heart, the fresh one, is next, he pauses to look up at you. He looks up at you while he drags his tongue across it, slow, so fucking slow, almost lewd with how slow he does it, all while maintaining eye contact perfectly.
You let out a moan without thinking, a pathetic little sound.
And it doesn’t just stop there. You jerk your hips up toward his mouth, trying to grind against him the same way if he were eating you out.
But he’s not eating you out.
He’s licking your cuts, and somehow, that feels better than any head (even though you’ve never gotten any).
"Hah... Scara..."
"Your sounds are fucking adorable," he says, still not looking away. "Do that again."
He makes you make that sound again, he bites at the skin next to the heart, the whole area around it is slightly red and bruised, so you feel that painful sensation you love. You let out a whine, needy for more, aching for anything he’ll give you.
"You’re good at letting me do what I want." He positions the blade against a clean patch on your thigh, somewhere unmarked, right below where his name sits. "But I wonder how you’ll handle this, real pain. You want to impress me, don't you? Hold still and don’t fight it even when it stings."
You nod, eager, not a care in the world about fear or anything trivial like that. You want it to hurt, need it to hurt, not just tiny cat scratches that won’t be permanent after a month, you want him to mark you in such a way that’ll never compare to what you’ve already done to yourself.
He’s quick to make the first cut, and the pain is sharp; it feels sharper than how it feels when you do it yourself. He carves an S, careful to make it perfect even though it’s hard to curve cuts, he takes his time with this one, and it feels even better that way, the pain being dragged out. You let out soft whines as he does it, letting your body relax in such a way that he doesn’t even need to hold you down anymore.
“That’s it, take it for me, my pretty little canvas…”
Something comes up next that you don’t recognize, and this one, this part, he cuts deeper, slower, making sure it hurts, making sure it’ll scar thick and permanent. You can feel the blood dripping down your thigh; it doesn’t register to you how much you’re bleeding, how deep he’s going, but you don’t care.
Your mind goes absolutely blank when he licks up the blood before it can drip onto your sheets, he drags his tongue up, all the way to the cut, and the sting of it makes you grind up, desperate for friction.
"Ngh... fuck... hah..." You moan out.
“Just one more,” he says, thumb rubbing over the S he did, just to hear you whine again, and he grins as he continues, “Just your initial, and then it’ll match. We’ll match.”
You don't know what that means. He does what he says, though; he cuts the last letter into your skin, your initial, taking the same sweet time he took with his own initial. You glance down to peek at what he’s doing, and you see the + sign.
He fucking put S + your initial on your thigh. Like lovers carving something into a tree stump, but this isn’t a tree. He does it because you belong to each other… or at least, that's what you imagine.
You try your hardest not to grin when you tip your head back against the pillow.
When he’s… sadly… done, he sits back to admire his work. There’s still blood flowing, mainly from the + sign he cut so deeply, and he looks at it all, even the scars you did on yourself, like it’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen.
"You're mine now," he says. "Officially mine. No one else's… just mine."
You don’t understand, well, you do, and you don’t. You’ve always been his in your own eyes; the scars you did prove it. You didn’t need him to notice you to be his, because you were his already in the way he lived rent-free in your mind on a daily basis. But the way he’s saying it now doesn’t at all sound like that; it sounds different, like a permanent seal.
And the way he’s looking at you, too, like you matter, like you aren’t just some girl he’s going to ignore at school tomorrow, makes the claim feel more… equal, truly equal.
But you’re lost if that’s just your delusion talking, or if you’re actually right.
"What does that mean?" you whisper, craving more context.
"It means what it means." He tosses the blade aside, lying back down between your thighs, spreading them further apart. "Now I'm going to reward you for taking that so well."
Before you can ask what he means, his mouth is on you.
Not on your thighs this time, higher. His lips press against your clit, soft at first, almost teasing, and you cry out at the contact. You’re already sensitive, so worked up from the pain and the blood and the overwhelming reality of him, the boy you’ve been obsessed with for ages, touching you, marking you-
"Fuck... oh god… S-scara…"
He doesn’t let the teasing drag on for too long. His tongue comes out, and he licks up your slit like he’s savoring you, then his mouth seals over your clit and he sucks, your back arches off the bed as you let out a whine.
"No moving away." His hands grip your thighs, forcing them open, forcing you to stay spread for him. "I said I was going to reward you. Don't make me change my mind."
"M’sorry... hah... I'm sorry, I just-"
Two fingers slide inside you without warning.
You scream while he watches it all, maintaining eye contact, grinning at the way you’re already falling apart.
You don’t scream from pain, you scream because of the sudden fullness, the stretch, the way he immediately curls them up to find that spot inside you that makes everything go white. He's not gentle about it at fucking all. He just shoves them in and starts fucking you with them way too fast, hitting that spot again and again, while his tongue works your clit.
"Shit, you're tight." He sounds almost annoyed, still fucking his fingers into you while he talks. "You really are a virgin, aren't you?"
"Y-yeah... I've never... ngh... never done anything..."
"Pathetic." But his fingers don't slow down now that he knows you’re inexperienced. If anything, they speed up, fucking into you harder, and you can hear how wet you are, the obscene sounds filling your pink bedroom. "Have you ever touched yourself thinking about me? Doing exactly what I’m doing, just pretending in your little delusion that it’s me finger-fucking you?"
"I have- ah- I have, I just-"
"Just what?" Curling his fingers more, fucking more and more into that spot specifically every time you start talking, just so he can hear your words fall apart.
"It's not the same... hah... it's not the same as the real thing..."
He laughs against your cunt, and the vibration of that makes you clench around his fingers, and he knows how close you already are.
"Look at you… Squeezing my fingers like a desperate little obsessive whore. You want to cum that badly?"
"Yes... please... please..." You moan out, grinding almost desperately against his fingers without any shame at this point, too lost to even care how stupid you look.
"Then cum."
It’s embarrassing how fast you cum, how you clamp down on his fingers, crying out his name, and he works you through it with his mouth still sealed on your clit, drawing out the orgasm until you’re shaking and sobbing.
When he finally pulls back, his chin is wet. Your slick glistening on his skin, something of you on him, and you smile tiny at that. He wipes it off with the back of his hand, looking down at you like he wants to do more than just devour your cunt.
Your top, the only thing left on your body, is askew. Both straps fall off your shoulder, and one of your breasts is almost spilling out. He reaches up and moves the fabric aside, just slightly, with minimal effort because it’s already almost off, and it exposes your breasts completely. His hand immediately reaches for one of your breasts.
"These are nice." He squeezes, rough and careless. "Proportional and soft."
"Hah..." You can barely even form words, just whimpers and moans, still in a daze.
He can’t resist kissing you again, and you can taste yourself on his tongue, musky and just… weird, and anyone normal would cringe at this… but you don't. It’s hot, everything about this is hot to you.
His hand keeps playing with your breast, rolling your nipple between his fingers until you're whimpering into his mouth. Then he pulls back, sitting up on his knees, and reaches for the hem of his shirt.
You watch him pull off his shirt in one smooth motion, and he looks the same as he did in the locker room. He looks like something out of a painting… Something you're not supposed to touch.
"Your turn." He nods at your top. "Take it off."
Your hands are shaking as you obey. You sit up just slightly and pull the babydoll top over your head, making you completely naked in front of him. Bare and vulnerable and terrified.
He looks at you… all of you. The curves and the softness and the marks on your thighs and the blood still drying on your skin. Then, he's reaching for his pants, unbuttoning them, shoving them down along with his boxers. His cock springs free, and you look at it, shocked. It looks the same as it did in the locker room, just bigger because it's hard, and it looks so intimidating up close, too.
He laughs at the scared look on your face. "Don't worry." He strokes himself, lazily. "You'll take it."
He positions himself between your legs, the head of his cock nudging against your entrance. "Look at me." You look back up at him instead of his cock, and his eyes are fixed on your face… watching you with an intensity that makes you want to cry again.
"Don't close your eyes," he says. "I want to see your face when I take your virginity."
He pushes in, all the way, zero warning, and zero preparation beyond his fingers. He bottoms out inside you, and you scream. The pain is sharp against your walls, the burn of the stretch, and it feels almost impossible to even be accustomed to the feeling.
"Fuck… i-it hurts…" You whimper out, a painful whimper.
"I know." He doesn't sound sorry, but he doesn't move yet. He just holds himself there, buried to the hilt, watching the tears stream down your face. "You're so fucking tight. It's almost annoying."
"Please…" You try to reach down to hold your stomach, anything, because the ache is almost unbearable. But he grabs your wrists and pulls them above your head, holding them there. Your whimpers don't stop, even though he isn't even moving. "Please… just… give me a second…"
"No."
He's mean. He pulls out and thrusts back in. Deep, and hard, bottoming out again, and you sob at the intrusion. He sets a rhythm that's neither fast nor slow, just steady, relentless, fucking into you like your pain is irrelevant.
And maybe that's the truth, maybe that's the point. Maybe you don't matter to him at all, and this is just him using your body because he can.
That thought alone makes you clench around him.
"Hah... there you go." His voice is strained, pulling out, going back in, over and over. "You like that? You like being used?"
"Yes... ngh... yes..."
"Fucked up little doll." He thrusts harder. "Getting off on being hurt. On being treated like nothing. You're so goddamn pathetic."
"I know... I know, I'm sorry..."
"Don't apologize." His hands let go of your wrists to grip your hips, pulling you into his thrusts. "Just take it."
Somewhere along the way, the pain starts to fade. Starts to blur into something else, something that builds in your lower belly like a coil winding tighter. You feel yourself adjusting to him, your body stretching to accommodate his size, and when he hits a certain angle, you moan instead of cry.
"There we go." He sounds satisfied, hitting you in the same angle that made you moan. "Feels good now?"
"Yes… god, yes…"
"Then beg me to go faster," He says, as he starts thrusting slowly on purpose.
"Please…" You don't even hesitate to beg, even in this state. "Please, Scara, faster, please-"
His pace picks back up, his hips snapping into you with brutal efficiency, and your eyes roll back in your head. It's too much, the way he's filling you up, hitting that spot inside you with every thrust… is too much… but also everything you wanted.
"Fuuuck..." His composure is cracking. You can hear it in his voice, the way it goes ragged at the edges. "You feel so fucking good. Tight little virgin cunt, squeezing me like you never want to let go."
"I don't... hah... I don't want to..."
He bites at your neck, and it's hard, so hard that you'll carry the mark even in the morning. His mouth works against your throat, biting, then sucking, not only leaving bite marks, but also leaving hickeys that'll be impossible to hide. Like you'd ever actually hide those, though.
You can feel yourself getting close, stupidly close, and you can feel him throb inside you, his thrusts starting to get messy. He cums into you without warning, slamming into you, burying himself as deep as he can go. You can feel the heat of his cum, the pulse of his cock, filling you up completely.
"Shittt..." His forehead drops to your shoulder, his breath ragged against your skin. "Fuck. Fuck."
The feeling of him inside you, the heat of his release, it's too much. You cum around him and fall apart, crying his name, nails digging into his back hard enough to leave marks.
You lose count of how many times after that.
He fucks you until you're boneless. Until you can barely move. Until your thighs are shaking and your voice is hoarse and you're so full of his cum you can feel it leaking out around him.
Three times? Four? Five?
Does it matter?
His lips are against yours, rutting into you slowly, when suddenly, your phone buzzes, the screen lighting up with a notification. Something mundane, and that was enough for him to break the kiss to glance at your phone, not too far away from you both on the sheets.
"… What the fuck is that?"
You're too dazed to think about what he's asking, but with the way he picks up your phone and his hips move to a stop while he's still buried inside you, it leads you confused… then shocked… then absolutely mortified because you know exactly what he just saw.
He's on your lock screen, your fucking lockscreen. Not just a photo you stole from his Instagram, no, it's one of the pictures you took in the locker room. And you put some dumb heart sticker where his crotch was.
He flips your phone toward your face, "Unlock it." He demands, but his tone is dangerously quiet. Your face unlocks the phone for him.
You watch, in horror, as the lock screen swipes up, and your home screen appears. The sound that comes out of you is not a moan or a whimper, but a full-body gasp of pure terror.
Your homescreen wallpaper is worse than the lockscreen one. Why? Because the homescreen is the uncensored version. Because not only is his cock out on full display on your homescreen, but you arranged your apps around it into a heart shape. One that feels dumb now.
He turns the screen toward him, and the silence is loud. He's still inside you… still hard… but he's not moving. He's not even breathing, just looking at his own cock on your phone screen, framed by a heart made by app icons.
"… What the fuck." His voice is quiet, not the sexy kind, a flat kind. This is the voice of someone processing something that their brain is actively trying to reject.
"Scara, give me my phone, please-" You reach for it, desperately, your fingers practically clawing at air because it pulls it out of reach immediately. His arm extends above his head while his other hand pins your wrist into the mattress.
"What the fuck is this?"
"It's nothing, it's just-"
"It's my dick." He brings the phone back down, holding it inches from your face. "That's my fucking cock on your home screen. And you made a heart out of your… what is that, your weather app? Your calculator?"
"Please, please just give it back, I can explain-"
He cuts you off, again. "What the fuck is there to explain? You arranged your apps into a heart around my dick." He says it slowly, like he's trying to make the sentence make sense in his own mouth, and it won't, because it doesn't, because what you've done is genuinely beyond the scope of normal human behavior. "When did you even take this? This is the locker room from yesterday? Are you fucking kidding me? You were in the locker room while I was-"
He stops himself, his jaw working, his eyes not locked on you, but your screen. He doesn't look amused or turned on… he looks genuinely disturbed.
"Give it back," You whisper, voice cracking, and you feel your waterworks starting again. He's going to leave… He's going to pull out of you and put his clothes back on and walk out of your bedroom and never look at you again.
He doesn't answer. You whisper out again, voice just as weak, pleading, "Scaramouche, please-"
"Why." He's not asking, he's demanding, and his grip on your wrist tightens until you feel like your bone just might snap in half. "Why is my cock on your wallpaper? Why did you take pictures of me naked? Oh, you know what, let's go take a look at your camera roll and see just how much your derganged ass took."
You squeeze your eyes shut because you know this is where it ends. Whatever fragile, impossible thing that was forming between you and him was just destroyed by your own insanity.
He ruts into you. One thrust, deep, so deep you can feel him in your stomach, and so all of a sudden. Hard enough that your eyes fly back open and a choked sound punches out of your chest. He's still holding your phone with one hand, but his eyes are still on your screen.
You don't understand. He was just looking at you like you're the most disturbing person he's ever met, like he's about to call the police, like he's genuinely reconsidering every choice that led him to your bed, and now he's fucking into you?
"Answer me." His voice is different this time, less full of disgust… just something you can't name anymore. His hips pull back and he slams foward again, you cry out in response. "I- hah- I did it beca- b-because I wanted you close to me-"
"Close to you." Another thrust. "How the fuck does that even correlate. My dick, on your phone, that's… 'close to you'."
You realize how dumb you sound, and as you try to answer to back up your claim, it's hard to make out the words because he keeps thrusting into you while you're trying to talk. "Every- hah- Everytime I u-unlocked my phone… I could see you, and it made me feel like- mmm- like you were mine even when you weren't-"
He's still thrusting into you, he's not doing it fast, just deep, really deep, slow thrusts. He's not even paying attention to what you're saying; he's just scrolling through your camera roll.
All forty-seven photos.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, and you feel him twitch inside you. You feel him get harder, thicker, his cock swelling against your walls in a way that's impossible to miss. "Scroll." He shoves the phone into your hand, forcing your fingers around it. "Scroll through them."
"Scara-"
"Now." He punctuates with a thrust that makes your back arch off the bed. You start scrolling, flipping through the photos with shaky hands as he fucks into you hard enough that the images feel like they're jumping on the screen.
"Which one's your favorite?" He rolls his hips and grinds into you, slow and deep, and the pressure on your cervix makes you whimper.
You don't lie. "The- the third one, the one where you're turning-"
Why." He doesn't even let you finish.
"Your face looks relaxed, and you don't know I'm- ngh, fuck- you don't know I'm watching-"
"What did you do with them?" He thrusts harder into you. "After you took them. What did you do?
"I looked at them," you gasp, scrolling past image after image of him, your own camera roll a testament to how far gone you are. "I set one as my wallpaper, I- I was going to print them, put them in my closet, I was going to-"
He leans down to you, close, his chest pressing against yours, and his mouth finds your ear. His voice drops to something barely above a whisper. "Did you take my boxers?"
Your thumb freezes on the screen, everything in your body freezing except for your rapid heartbeat, hammering so fast you'd think he could feel it.
He leans back, slightly, and you meet his eyes, mouth slightly agape as you nod, tiny, in response.
He laughs, low, "I was so fucking pissed off about that." His hips start moving again, lazy, almost like he wants a conversation mid-sex. "I came back from the sink, and they were just… gone. I had to put my gross, wet jeans back on with nothing underneath, and I sat through 3 more dreading periods with denim on my bare dick because some psycho stole my underwear when I wasn't looking."
"I'm sorry-"
"Was it worth it?" His stare is more intense this time, his eyes searching through yours. "Seriously, was it worth it? What'd you even do with them, sniff them like a freak?"
You stop looking at him, glancing to the side, and you feel his hand come to your jaw, gripping, forcing eye contact. "Was that the point? Steal my boxers so you can smell them while I sit in class, uncomfortable for the rest of the day? You're the reason I couldn't sit still in fourth period. You know that, right? You did that to me."
You try to apologize, again, in a small voice. "I'm sorry, I just-"
"You'll pay for that."
His hands grab your hips, and he spins you onto your stomach so fast that your phone goes flying. It feels like the room just went upside down and then back to normal. Your face presses into your Hello Kitty Squishmallow, your ass up.
He slams into you from behind, and the angle is so much different, deeper, that you scream into the plushie, your fingers fisting into the soft fabric as he bottoms out. He sets a pace that's punishing, brutal, so loud that you can only process the sound of his hips slamming into your ass with every thrust.
You don't suspect it coming when his hand comes down. He spanks your ass, the sound ringing through your bedroom, loud like a gunshot. Pain blooms across your ass, sharp and hot, and before you can even process it, his hand comes down again, harder.
"What did you do with my boxers?" His hand contacts your skin again when you don't answer immediately, turning your flesh red. "Tell me, I know you're not mute."
"Nothing!" You manage out, muffled by the squishmallow, "I didn't-"
Another slap, and it feels as if your ass is burning. Your tears are soaking into the squishmallow.
"Fucking liar." Slap. "Tell me." Another slap. "What?" Another slap harder than the last. "You." Slap, and you let out a moan that's between pain and pleasure as his cock hits that one spot inside of you. "Did."
"I wore them!" you sob, finally, your resistance crumbling because you can't take it anymore, the spanking and the fucking and the interrogation all at once. "I put them on in the girls' bathroom at school, and I wore them for the rest of the day under my skirt!"
You don't feel his hand slapping you again, so you assume his hand paused at your confession. "And then- hah- and then when I got home I kept them on and I-" You let out a whine, embarrassed, your voice muffled against the plushie. "I came in them. I touched myself in your boxers, and I came, looking at the pictures I took of you."
He stops entirely and flips you back over. Withdrawing from your cunt, and you clench around nothing, trying to keep him inside even though you know that's not how it works.
He stands up from your bed, completely naked, completely unashamed, and the sight of him like this… surrounded by Sanrio plushies and everything pink will never stop being surreal. Well, it might be because this time, you really, truly think he's going to leave.
"Get up." He stands in front of where you're still lying on the bed, looking down at you, and he doesn't look like he's suggesting anything. "Show me where you put them."
"Put… what?" You whisper, voice tiny.
"My boxers. The ones you stole and got off in." He cocks his head, impatient. "Where are they."
Your legs feel like jelly, you're leaking his cum from the past rounds with every shift, but you force yourself up from the bed anyway, wobbling on unsteady feet. He watches you struggle to stand with a satisfied look on his face.
"Closet." You manage, walking towards it on shaky legs, feeling his eyes on your back, and his cum trailing down your inner thighs.
You open the closet door and reach for his boxers, which you folded carefully on the top shelf. You pull them out and hold them, not offering them to him, just holding them against your chest like a child caught with a stolen toy.
He takes them from you, holds them up, examining them, his expression hard to read.
You look up at him, arms holding yourself in a soothing way as you whisper, nervously, "Am I still yours?" Your voice breaks on the question because you're terrified of what his response would be.
His eyes cut to you, still holding up the jeans, and he looks at you like you're the dumbest person alive. "You're more mine now than you were five minutes ago." He says, like it's obvious, like the question was an insult. "Fucking idiot."
You smile, soft and tiny, and he just rolls his eyes back in response, holding his stolen boxers out to you. "Put them on."
Your brows knit, but you obey, taking them back from him, and stepping into them, pulling them up your legs, over the cuts on your thighs, careful not to make it sting. They settle on your hips the same way they did last afternoon.
His eyes move over you slowly, looking at you standing in his boxers and nothing else. Marked with hickeys, from him, his cum still dripping between your legs and soaking into the fabric that used to be his, and the cut he made on your skin.
He grabs you by the hips, pulling you in close, tipping your chin up, and kissing you. It's slow, deliberate. He bites at your lower lip until you whimper, then he soothes it with his tongue. His hands tighten on your hips, his fingers digging into the waistband of his own boxers on your body.
"Comfortable?" he murmurs against your mouth.
You nod, and he yanks you back onto the bed, practically throwing you back onto it. You scramble back into a sitting position, confused, and watch as he steps over to pick up your phone from the floor and brings it up to your face to unlock it.
He swipes through something, then turns the phone screen toward you and opens the camera roll app.
"These," he says, scrolling through them slowly, letting each one linger on the screen, "are a crime. Like, an actual crime. A 'the school counselor calls the police, and they show up at your classroom door' crime."
Your stomach drops, because… he wouldn't, right?
"Voyeurism." He keeps scrolling, the screen still pointed towards you. "Invasion of privacy, distribution of intimate images, if I wanted to push it, which I could, because they're on your phone and technically accessible." Still scrolling, and you took so many that he could scroll forever. "Breaking and entering the boys' locker room. Theft, because you stole my property."
You open your mouth, ready to say something in defense, but he shoots you back down with a glare. "I did take pictures of your thighs, and you can't use that against me, because it's not illegal… It's just… disturbing. But this?" He flips the phone back toward him, swiping through some, and zooming in on his frame, flipping it back toward you. "This could get you expelled. Arrested… Registered."
It doesn't make sense how he could be threatening you with this, not after everything, not after he kissed your scars and carved his initial into your thigh and fucked you as you mattered.
But… his face is unreadable as ever.
"Scara, please don't. I'll do anything, I swear, please-"
"I know you will." He sets your phone down on the nightstand. "So, show me."
You knit your brows, still frozen in the place he threw you onto the bed.
"Oh, don't act like you don't know what I mean. Isn't it obvious?" He gestures toward the pillows with a flick of his chin. "Same position as last night. Head on the pillows, legs spread. Recreate it for me, or I walk into the counselor's office first thing tomorrow morning with forty-seven reasons to ruin your life."
You know he might actually do it, as much as you want to argue and remind him that he carved his initial into your thigh with your own blade and that his record isn't clean either… You actually want to do this.
You've wanted to be seen by him, perceived by him, consumed by him. And now he's asking you to show him the most private, pathetic, desperate version of yourself.
You move to the pillows, your head settling against them, and you sink into the softness.
"Legs apart."
You let your knees fall open, slowly, your thighs separating. He climbs onto the bed, kneels between your feet, and you notice his phone is in his hand again. He grabs your knee when you instinctively try to close up.
"Keep them open."
His hand pushes your thigh back down, spreading you wider, and you watch as he takes pictures, his thumb moving against the screen.
You let it happen, just lying there, spread open while he documents you.
"Boring." He says suddenly, looking up from his phone and at you, rolling his eyes. "It's boring with the boxers in the way, you can't even see anything." He sets his phone down, reaching for the waistband, and he slides them off you.
"Use them. Rub them on yourself," he picks his phone back up, thumb finding the camera. "Against your pussy, like you did last night."
Your hand finds the fabric on your stomach. You gather it in your fist, bringing it between your legs. The second the fabric presses against your clit, you moan.
You can't help it, you're so worked up, still so sensitive from everything he's done to you that even light pressure from cotton against swollen skin sent a jolt through you. Your eyes flutter shut, and your hips roll up into your own hand, chasing the friction, and the sound that comes out of you is embarrassingly needy.
"Hah... oh god..."
"Already?" He sounds amused. He adjusts his angle, slanting his phone to the side, and open your eyes to realize that he's not just taking photos anymore, he's filming. "Keep going. And look at the camera."
You stare into it while your hand works between your legs, the fabric of his boxers sliding against your clit in slow, wet circles. It feels wrong to look at the camera instead of him, clinical, like you're performing for an audience that isn't in the room, and your eyes keep wanting to drift to his face just behind the phone.
"Camera," he corrects. "Not me."
You force your gaze back to the lens.
"Now tell me what you think about." His voice is calm behind the phone he's using to record you masturbating. "When you do this alone. Tell me your fantasies, and I want details."
"I think about... hah... about you."
"Obviously… I want specifics."
"I think about... making a cast of your cock." The words sound insane out loud, but your hand presses harder, rubbing in tight circles, shamelessly at this point as you talk. "Like a silicone mold. I'd tie you down and make one and then I'd... hah... I'd use it. Every night. I'd attach it to my mirror and practice on it."
"Oh? You think you'd even be able to do that?" He laughs, tilting his head and adjusting the camera to a better angle. "Tell me how you'd use it if I let you tie me up."
"I'd practice sucking on it… Taking it in my throat." Your hips are rolling now, grinding into the fabric, and your voice keeps breaking around moans. "I'd want it to be p-perfect for when I... ah... when I got the real thing."
"How cute... But, you already have the real thing." He sits back infront of you, spreading his legs just slightly, you stare at his cock between his legs and start rubbing faster, eyes locked on it, "But, I won't let you touch. You've already gotten more than you should, especially in the locker room… So tell me, what else?"
"I draw your…" Your free hand fists in the sheets next to your hip, and you have to force yourself to stop looking at his dick. "I've been learning to draw your… your cock from memory. And sometimes when the sketch is done I…" You stop, face burning, because even this is too much for you to admit.
"No, you don't get to stop. Finish what you were going to say."
You stare at him, deeply at him, fingers still rubbing at your clit with the boxers as you say, "I lick the page… of your dick."
It's quiet for exactly 3 seconds, until a slow smirk appears on his face. "You sit at your desk… and you lick a pencil drawing of my cock on notebook paper." He laughs, phone shaking in his grip. "That's genuinely the most insane thing you've said tonight, and the bar was already in hell."
You don't even care if he's mocking you, making fun of you, whatever, because the next thing you say, whisper out is, "I love you." Your eyes are on him, still, not the camera. "Scara… I love you, I love you so much-"
"Camera." He says, locking in, no longer laughing.
"But I don't want to look at the camera, I want to look at you-"
"And I want you to look at the camera while you tell it what a deranged little freak you are. We don't always get what we want."
You glance down instead of up at the camera, and you did notice it before, but now, he's hard. Before was just half-soft-half-hard; now… he's painfully hard. Cock flushed and straining, like he's been trying to ignore it this entire time. Like he's been trying to maintain the detached, controlling performance of someone who isn't affected by the naked girl moaning his name into his boxers. But it's so obvious, and his body is betraying him.
You glance back up before he could tell you to look at the camera again, still rubbing the soaked fabric against yourself, whispering "I love you" between every other breath, your eyes bouncing between the camera and his face, because you can't help but look at him.
And the sight of him, hard and struggling to maintain composure while filming you, is doing things to you that his cock already did.
"I'd memorize the shape of it," you gasp, your hips stuttering against your hand. "I already have… I know every vein, every ridge, I could draw it with my eyes closed now, I could-"
"Okay, shut up about my dick for two seconds-"
"I can't… I think about it all the time, in class, at lunch, especially when I was cutting your name into my-"
"Fuck."
He drops his phone onto the mattress, still recording, but he doesn't care about that anymore. His hand wraps around his cock and strokes it once before he seems to catch himself, pulling his hand away like he touched a stove top.
"This is your fault," he says, accusingly. "You and your fucking... everything."
He's been staring at your flushed face, and your parted lips, and the way you're looking at him like he's the only thing in the universe, and it's been driving him absolutely insane.
"Fine." He grabs your free hand, the one fitting the sheets, and he pulls it toward him, wrapping your fingers around his cock, and the heat of him against your palm makes him let out a sigh, and you, a whimper. "Since you're so obsessed with it, make yourself useful. Jerk me off while you masturbate."
You multitask, rubbing in desperate sloppy circles with the boxers pressed against your clit, and your other hand on his shaft, stroking him, focusing more on making him feel good than your own arousal because even now you want to impress him.
It's hard at first, but you find a rhythm that sticks, your left hand circling, your right hand stroking, and Scaramouche's head tips back, and his eyes close for just a second before he forces them back open because he wants to watch.
"F-fuck… your hand is too soft." He mutters, and it sounds the same as someone complaining that their lobster is too buttery. His hips push into your grip, contradicting his complaint entirely. "Tighter… and twist at the- yeah… like that."
"I want to-" You moan, your thumb pressing harder against your clit through the fabric, and your hand stutters on him. "I want to worship it every day, I want to wake you up with my mouth on it, I want to-"
"You're going to make me cum if you keep talking like that, and I'm trying to-" He cuts himself off, jaw clenching, and you feel him throb in your hand, heavy and pulsing. He grabs the phone from the mattress with his free hand, points it back at you, camera angled to capture your face and his cock in your fist and the soaked boxers between your legs, and his voice comes out strained. "Look at the camera. Say what you are."
"I'm… I'm yours."
"More specific."
"I'm your obsessive, fucked up, devoted little-" Your orgasm hits you mid-sentence. Your back arches, your hand clenches on his cock, your thighs snap together around the bunched fabric, and you cry out his name, your whole body locking up.
"Shit- don't stop your hand, don't you dare- keep stroking-"
Your brain is white noise, and your muscles are spasming, but you keep your hand moving, jerking him off through your own orgasm, sloppy and arrhythmic, and he groans, a sound ripped from somewhere deep, and you feel him pulse in your grip.
He cums on the boxers. Hot and thick, ropes of it striping across the black fabric bunched between your legs, across your fingers, dripping down your knuckles. He shudders through it, his hips stuttering into your fist, and the phone nearly drops from his hand again, but he holds on, recording the aftermath, the mess of his cum on his own boxers pressed against your cunt.
Your hand is coated in his cum, and you bring your fingers to your mouth without being told.
You lick them clean, one by one, slow, tasting him, your tongue curling around each finger while you look directly at the camera because you know he's still recording and you want him to have this. You want him to watch this at 3 AM when he can't sleep and think about you.
Then the boxers are next to 'clean'. They're just a complete biohazard of devotion. You bring the fabric to your mouth and drag your tongue across it. Licking his cum off the cotton.
You glance up from the fabric, and he's staring at you. The phone is still recording, but his hand has gone slack at his side, the camera pointed at the ceiling. His lips are parted. His eyes are wide, wider than you've seen them all night, and there's something on his face that looks almost like awe.
It lasts half a second. Then his jaw tightens, and his expression slides back into bored control like a mask being tugged into place, but you saw it. You saw it before he could hide it, and you store it away in the same place you keep every stolen scrap of him: the mental vault that no amount of therapy will ever empty.
He stops recording, locks his phone, and tosses it aside without breaking eye contact with you.
"You're disgusting," he says.
You smile weakly, almost tired, even though you don't want to be with his cum still on your tongue. "Thank you."
He scoots closer to you, leaning in to press his lips against yours. It's soft, especially when his hand comes up to cup your face. You relax into it, lying back against the pillows. He kisses you like he's saying thank you, open-mouthed, but not messy, just gentle. "You tired?" He murmurs as he breaks away from the kiss, his lips still close to yours.
"Mmm… a little." You murmur back, with a tiny nod, and he takes that as a full answer as he presses on, his last kiss onto your lips before pulling back, climbing off the bed. You don't look up to watch him move around, you know he won't leave, that he isn't going to yet, and you're just too exhausted to lean up anyway.
When he comes back to the head of your bed, he's wearing boxers, not the ones you stole, obviously, the ones he came in. He's holding a warm washcloth, antiseptic, gauze, and bandage tape.
Your eyes go wide, realizing, connecting what all those things imply to the very person you never thought would be capable of aftercare.
"Don't look at me like that." He sits on the edge of the bed, setting everything on the nightstand, and his voice is flat, but his hands are careful as he positions himself next to your thigh. "You can't just leave open cuts unattended. That's how shit gets infected."
The cuts he made. S + your initial, carved into your thigh, the blood long since dried into dark lines against your skin. The area around it is red, irritated, angry looking. He hurt you, and now he's...
He's cleaning it.
He presses a few kisses to the skin around the cuts first. Soft, barely-there presses of his lips, his mouth tracing the edge of the S he carved, the + sign, your initial. Like he's admiring his own handwriting before tending to it.
"This is going to sting," he says, and he doesn't wait for you to prepare yourself before pressing the antiseptic-soaked gauze to the wound.
You hiss, your thigh jerking, but his free hand holds your leg still with a firm grip on your knee. The sting is sharp, and he works methodically, cleaning each letter, each line, dabbing away dried blood.
He didn't need to do this.
He could have pulled out, gotten dressed, walked out, come back tomorrow when he wanted to fuck again, and never once thought about whether the cuts on your thigh were healing clean.
"There." He sits back, examines his work, and seems satisfied. "Change it in the morning. And stop putting random shit on open wounds, your aftercare setup is embarrassing."
"I have antiseptic-"
"You have cheap, shitty antiseptics and cotton balls. That's not aftercare, that's a cry for help." He gathers the supplies and sets them on your nightstand in a neat row. "I'll buy you real shit tomorrow."
Tomorrow. He said tomorrow, which means he's planning on a tomorrow, which means-
He grabs his shirt from the floor. The black band tee, the one he peeled off hours ago when your world was still making sense. He balls it up and throws it at your face.
"Put that on."
It hits you in the nose. You pull it down, look at it, look at him. "You want me to wear your shirt?"
"You wore my boxers all day without asking. At least this time I'm giving you permission."
You pull it over your head so fast you nearly rip the collar. It's huge on you, falling past your thighs, the hem brushing the fresh bandage on your left leg. It smells like him. Everything smells like him now: your sheets, your pillows, your skin, and you press your nose into the fabric at the shoulder and inhale until your lungs ache.
He watches you do it without comment.
"Are you staying?" you ask, and your voice is small, but not the scared kind of small from earlier. The kind of small that comes from wanting something so badly you're afraid to want it at full volume.
He looks at you like you're an idiot, just like last time. "Do you want me to?"
You nod so fast your neck hurts, smiling stupidly, and he doesn't smile back at you, but something in his jaw… relaxes. He climbs into your bed, settles against the pillows, one arm behind his head, and waits.
You go to him without prompting, tucking yourself against his chest like you were made to fit there, your cheek pressed into his collarbone. His arm comes down from behind his head and drapes across your back, and you can feel his heartbeat under your ear. It's faster than it should be for someone lying still.
"I can't believe this is real," you murmur against his skin.
"It's real."
"I can't believe you're in my bed."
"I'm in your bed."
"I can't believe you-"
"Go to sleep." He says like a quiet directive as his fingers trace an absent pattern on your spine through the fabric of his shirt.
You lie there in the silence, wrapped in his clothes and his cologne and the reality that you are lying in your pink bedroom with Scaramouche's heartbeat under your ear and his cum still sticky between your thighs and his initials carved into your skin next to the ones you carved yourself.
when dottore finds a cute little bunny hybrid, he can't help but take her for his own!! such cute ears and a puffy little tail that's rarely seen nowadays, it would be a shame to let you slip away without properly running some tests first!
bunny girls like you were known to have a ravenous libido. what better way than strapping you down to a breeding bench and keeping you around for his segments to use? you get bred to your heart's content while his clones are kept sexually pleased and happy. what better situation could you be in? not only would this be beneficial in terms of lab morale, it also provided quite a bit of insight on bunny hybrids - such as how resilient your kind really was. clone after clone stopped by to use you, all ranging between soft and whimpery to brutally rough. some used your ears as an anchor to pull while others pulled your tail as punishment when you cried. occasionally two would join at the same time, one taking you from either side. it wasn't like you could do anything about it, so you simply took it like the good hungry bunny you are. each dick wasn't enough, driving your heated mind into utter oblivion with each load blown into you.
dottore was astounded by how well you could take round after round. after the first day of your breeding, he came to find you twitching and whimpering for more while he undid the binds. ugh, his selfish little subject... he would be a poor caretaker if he didn't bend to your whims, yes? and he hasn't felt you at all himself yet.
taking you back to his bedroom, dottore conducted one minor experiment to close out today's study. he played with your sensitive pussy while holding you on his lap in front of a mirror, showing you the rewards of your hard worked day. what a good job you did in the lab today, little bunny. look at how much cum you managed to fit inside you!! pushing his fingers in, dottore laughed at your hitched breath and overstimulated squirms. you were truly insatiable. such a sweet little slut with the way you kept crying for more no matter how much you were given. you liked being used by his clones today, huh? you like being a captive little thing, only able to experience what the doctor gives you?
don't worry, sweetheart. the doctor knows how a sweet little thing like you needs to be treated. for now, just let your head fall back on his shoulder while he works your heat out of your. let him take care of you and you won't have to worry about being empty every again <3
(You thought you were stealing gold. Turns out you were stealing a spot on the dragon's dick.)
You should’ve listened.
You should’ve stayed far, far away from the mountain with the bones outside.
But noooo. You needed a shiny lil trinket, right? Just one ruby. Just a quick grab.
And now?
Now you’re pinned under a 10-ton fuckmonster with horns, wings, claws, and a cock the length of your arm.
“Aw, poor little thief,” he purrs, smirking down at you like the absolute demon he is, while your naked, trembling body squirms under him.
“You wanted to steal my gold?”
He spits on your pussy. It sizzles.
“Now you should be punished.”
He spreads your legs so wide your hips pop.
You yelp. He moans.
“Fuck yes—scream for me.”
His claws are digging into your thighs. His body’s so hot it feels like it’s melting you open.
And then—
Then you see it.
His cock.
Veiny. Curved. Leaking. So fucking thick the head alone has your cunt flinching.
He slaps it against your pussy once—hard.
You sob.
He grins.
“Scared? You should be. I’m gonna fuck your guts so deep you’ll taste me in your dreams.”
He doesn’t prep. He doesn’t tease.
He just grabs your ankles, bends you in half, and starts pushing in.
Your pussy makes this obscene wet squelch as it tries to stretch for him.
You’re shaking. Crying. Gushing.
And he’s moaning like a beast, tongue out, drool dripping on your tits.
“Godddd, listen to that sloppy little hole…”
He fuckin’ growls.
“So fuckin’ wet. So tight. So small. You were made to be my cocksleeve.”
You scream. Again. Again.
Your belly’s bulging with his cock. You’re clawing at the gold like it’ll save you. You’re not even speaking real words anymore—just whimpers and moans and messy, high-pitched “fuck—fuck—fuck—!”
He's laughing now.
“Cute little moans. Keep makin’ ‘em, bitch. I’m gonna break this pussy in half.”
You cum. Hard.
Your pussy clenches, gushes, and it makes this disgustingly wet pop sound as he bottoms out.
You scream again.
“Look at this messy cunt—fuckin’ creaming all over my cock like a little whore.”
He slaps your clit. You twitch.
“Yeah. You like it.”
Then he uses his tail.
You don’t even see it coming.
It snakes under you, slithers between your asscheeks, and the tip rubs your other hole.
You gasp. “Wait—! Wait please—”
“Oh shut up.”
He shoves it in.
Now you’re double stuffed.
Tears streaming. Mouth open in a silent scream.
Your belly looks pregnant. Your insides feel like soup.
You’re shaking like a broken toy and he’s still pounding you with obscene force, panting like a dog in heat.
“Fuckfuckfuck—I can feel your cervix—holy shit—take it, take it, TAKE IT—”
You’re clawing his chest. Dazed. Dick-drunk.
He licks the blood off your cheek and whispers:
“You’re mine now, little thief. My cunt. My whore. My treasure.”
And then—he knots.
Of course he knots.
You feel the thick, hot swell of his cock lock inside your cunt and flood you with hot, white dragon cum.
It’s endless.
You scream. You squirt. You pass out for like half a second.
He groans into your throat while you twitch and tremble, filled to the brim.
Your belly swells. Leaks. He smears it around your thighs and mutters filth into your ear.
“So good for me. So full. Gonna lay my eggs in this tight fucking cunt.”
After?
You’re limp. Gurgling. Brain melted.
He’s purring. Still inside you. Still hard.
He cups your face in one huge clawed hand and kisses your forehead, bloody and sweaty.
“My sweet lil thief.”
He purrs.
“Touch my gold again, and I’ll fuck your mouth next. Got it?”
WHEN THEY L♡VE TO SINK THEIR TEETH/FANGS INTO YOUR SKIN.ᐟ GN READER, NSFW MDNI!!!
He's such a delirious freak when he kisses a sliver of your exposed skin.
He'll be fucking you dumb. Raw, unrestrained—like an animal lost in heat. The bed groans underneath; big, rough hands gripping your bruised hips like a lifeline as his thrusts grow frantic and sharp; as if he's making sure your abused walls remember every vein of his cock. Moans slip from your lips like confessions, “Yeah, keep those pretty noises coming sweets..” He tilts his head, rolling his shoulder back—keeping his thrusts in a steady rhythm that hit those spots where you completely blank out.
He leans down, you whimper into the pillow when you feel him press more into your used hole. “Fuck—i love it when you clench on my cock like that.” He smirks, warm breath ghosting over your ear—one of his hands grabs your chin, adjusting so he can see your fucked-out look. “Look at you..so messy,” He whispers low, sultry, thumb wiping away drool you didn't notice was there. His eyes are half lidded, sight clouded as strands of his thick hair frames his forehead like vines.
You feel butterflies in your stomach at how dreamy he looked. And him too.
He leans in to kiss your neck—you don't realise his intention until he acts on it. It starts slow, unhurried; dragging his lips across your heated skin in long strides, leaving warmth in it's trail—then he pauses, and smiles against your skin.
You didn't even get to react before he opens his mouth and bites into your supple skin. And at the same damn time; you felt him bury himself in you—filling you to the brim until a creamy ring forms around the base of his thick cock. It was a shiver that crawled your spine at first; then a certain heat that spread throughout your body.
You tremble, jaw slacked as a silent scream escapes you. He hums deep, like he's savouring you. You weakly glare at him through your peripheral—he always had this peculiar habit of biting you any chance he got, and honestly.. the amount of worried looks you got from your friends was starting to be embarrassing. “Ow!..what are you? A dog..? Stop biting me..!” You tried to free yourself but you didn't have any energy left in you. Plus, he didn't bulge at all.
Black spots litter your sight like constellations as you spiral in and out of reality due to the overwhelming pleasure building in you. He's hooked onto your skin; applying the right amount of pressure where both ecstasy and pain are blurred into a line where you couldn't read it anymore. Hot tears run down your face, staining the pillowcase; he takes his own time to finally let go. It's a wet “pop!” when he retreats. “You taste sweet..makes me want to eat you up,” He mumbles, licking and kissing the spot where his teeth left an imprint of his attack. You shiver at his cold lips kissing the sore spot—knuckles whitening from gripping at the sheets. “You're an animal..” You weakly blurt out, voice muffled against the pillow. He grins, wolfishly. “Can't say.. but you love it though.” You groan. He leans back to admire his artwork; damn, you looked good with his teeth on you. His lower abs tighten. He licks his lips.
You mentally died when you felt his limp dick twitch to life inside you.
SYNOPSIS: You—The Tenth Fatui Harbinger—pride yourself on cold composure and distance, a trait of yours that has always irked The Doctor. Upon curiosity, he sets out the perfect experiment with the help of an aphrodisiac to break your cold façade. That will surely reveal your most vulnerable state.
CONTENT WARNING: DUBCON, non-consensual drugging, smut (mdni), use of aphrodisiac, p in v, fingering, edging (if you squint), unprotected sex, creampie, porn without plot, tenth fatui harbinger!reader, slow burn-ish, sexual tension, reader is referred as her fatui title—prevaricator, other harbinger cameo, a bit of scientific jargon but you’ll be fine, dottore is an ass, not beta read.
WORD COUNT: 7.6k
NOTES: EEEEP it’s finally finished! my first piece of writing after a couple of long months >< i’m so excited to be writing again !! apologies if the smut is a bit awkward, i haven’t written smut since 2024 so i’m a bit rusty. nonetheless, do enjoy !! div: @uzmacchiato
The grand hall of Zapolyarny Palace gleamed with cold opulence—crystal chandeliers and polished marble floors. The hall’s high arched stained windows revealed the quiet chaos of the snowstorm outside; snowflakes painted the palace with its icy elegance. Today’s agenda was rather bleak, no new missions from Her Majesty had been tasked, nor was there anything of pure interest beyond the palace walls.
Naturally, with a dull day like this, Sandrone held her tea parties to combat idle bodies within the palace. Her parties were far from formal, more so a casual gathering between friends and people alike—if the Harbingers even considered each other friends. Nonetheless, the get-together was always immaculate—every pristine teacup was aligned and every mechanical attendant moved with flawless precision. As expected from the Seventh Harbinger herself.
Amongst the group sat you with your usual stillness—calm like the ocean yet as mysterious as its azure depths. What lay beneath its tranquil surface was nothing but a façade of lies. It wasn’t a surprise you lived up to your title—Prevaricator.
Sandrone presided at the head of the table, she sat with precision, back pin-straight as she nursed the freshly brewed beverage. Straight across from her, sat Columbina, and Arlecchino on a vermillion sofa; you and Rosalyne to her right, leaving two empty chairs across from you. On some days, The Captain and Childe would occupy those seats.
“When do you leave for Inazuma, Rosalyne?” Sandrone peeked through the steam that rose from her cup, cerulean eyes piercing yet held no ill intent.
The blonde swallowed down a piece of biscuit before replying, a sharp hand covered her crimson-stained lips out of etiquette, “In three days’ time. I’ll make sure to get you Inazuman tea once I get back.” Rosalyne laughed which pulled an eye roll from Sandrone.
Before the latter could entertain the banter, Columbina spoke up, her dainty voice just enough for all to hear, “Inazuma? I’ve heard The Balladeer is also assigned there.” Rosalyne nodded, despite her quiet response, her displeased face conveyed all emotions needed to conclude how she felt about the Inazuman puppet.
As for you, your feelings toward The Balladeer were nothing but neutral. Sure, you’ve previously exchanged disagreements on several occasions but that was all there was to your ‘relationship’. Though, his mannerisms and sharp words awfully reminded you of a certain Harbinger—one you could barely stand even if your life depended on it.
You weren’t alone in that opinion.
As you spiraled into pure disdain for your colleague, a set of icy footsteps against the marbled floors halted all conversation—your thoughts included. For a mere second, it was as though time had stopped and the snowfall outside was suspended mid-air. Oxygen grew thin within the palace and you swore the temperature dipped below necessary. Even Sandrone’s automatons seemed to hesitate for a heartbeat.
Dottore stepped inside. Uninvited. Unannounced. Unwelcomed. As if your unkind thoughts had somewhat summoned the devil himself.
With pure mockery and amusement, Dottore tilted his head slightly, taking in the frozen expressions of his colleagues. His pointed mask shone beneath the crystal chandeliers.
“Is this how you welcome a guest?” The Doctor drawled. “How cold. You should all be delighted I’m even attending this . . . get-together.” He ended the sentence with absolute scorn, obviously looking down at his fellow Harbingers.
Sandrone’s fingers tightened around the porcelain cup, “You weren’t invited.” She said flatly.
“Ah.” Dottore started, already headed towards the mahogany table, “Details.” He ignored the Seventh entirely and claimed an empty seat, a seat reserved for anyone but him—directly across from you.
You did not react. Nor did you acknowledge his presence beyond the faint clink of porcelain as you set your cup down as if it were any other tea party. Unlike Sandrone who wore her negative emotions proudly, you remained expressionless—cool, unreadable, and infuriatingly indifferent.
Dottore watched your calm figure from beneath his mask.
Of course you would pretend he didn’t exist. That was what fascinated him the most.
Nothing but a lowly ranked Harbinger yet you carried yourself like someone who had already surpassed every soul in the room. And that’s what made Dottore’s skin itch.
Oh, how badly he wanted to break that false persona of yours, and reveal the weak, poor human you were beneath all those layers. After all, your very existence was built on lies—delusions, just like your genius invention.
Being the Tenth Harbinger meant that your physical prowess wasn’t as refined as the others but your intellect was a different story, and admittedly, it utterly amazed Dottore more than anything.
Who could’ve come up with such a brilliant idea of manufacturing Delusions? Even though the entire process was a joint project between you and Dottore—much to your dismay—he had to give you credit. Not only did your invention further aid each Harbinger with their combat skills but it was also being mass produced in Inazuma right this very moment.
Such a feat a lowly Harbinger could obtain.
Which is why you have piqued his very interest. Dottore wanted to study you, to dissect each and every neuron, and learn how your action potentials differed from the rest—was it your synapses? Or maybe your neurotransmitters? Maybe that’s where your blind arrogance came from.
“Well, don’t mind me. Do carry on with your trivial matters.” The Doctor dismissively waved a gloved hand, a smirk curled at the end of his carmine lips.
Silence remained for a beat or two before Sandrone cleared her throat and resumed conversation with Rosalyne in hopes to drown out a certain parasite amongst the group, “This tea is from Liyue, huh? Quite different from Fontaine, I must say . . . but I’m not complaining.”
Naturally, you followed suit by bringing your cup to your lips to finally get a taste of Liyuean tea—your sip earlier had been abruptly interrupted by The Doctor. The fresh brew tasted of intense floral notes . . Was it apricot and peach? Nonetheless, the flavour was right up your alley. You had to hand it to Rosalyne for having such an exquisite taste.
It had already been a couple of minutes since Dottore crashed the tea party and you were two cups in, having taken a liking to this particular brew. Huh, maybe you might just visit Liyue for yourself. Though, this second round felt a little off—not the taste, no, it was still as lovely as before—something to do with how it made you feel. Sure, the heater was on and around your shoulders was a thick ivory Fatui coat you regularly wore in Snezhnaya but they didn’t usually leave you extremely warm—blazing, even.
You frowned.
Dottore noticed instantaneously.
How your posture shifted imperceptibly—one leg crossing over the other, shoulders rising with a much deeper breath than before. A faint warmth kissed its way down to your collar, even extending as far as to your chest. The slight shift was invisible to most in the room, except Dottore.
Ah. There it is. He thought.
Your fingers lingered at the rim of the porcelain piece as you set it down once again; you weren’t clumsy, nor weak, just a tad slower than your usual movement. Annoyed, you exhaled through your nose, absolutely oblivious to the reason as to why your body was somewhat disobeying you. Was it the long term effects of your Delusion finally catching up?
Dottore leaned back into the plush vermillion chair, fingers intertwined atop his crossed legs. Oh, how utterly delighted he was. Patience really is a virtue! His little experiment of the day had finally fallen into its rightful place; now, he shall sit and watch how you would handle the independent variable given. Of course, with this experiment of his, you were the controlled variable.
Upon instinct, your gaze finally lifted to meet Dottore’s—albeit behind a mask, there was no denying he had his crimson gaze set upon you. He responded with a mere head tilt, as if he were studying a rare specimen who finally gave him some kind of result.
A sly smile spread across his lips, “Are you unwell, Prevaricator?” Dottore asked pleasantly, voice full of concern yet you knew it was all mockery and amusement; that’s all the Harbingers were to him, a group of people convenient enough for him to play with, unfortunately for The Balladeer, he bore most of Dottore’s little games.
It seemed like you were next in line, though.
The Doctor had easily rerouted Sandrone’s automatons earlier before the tea party—a few adjustments just enough to programme her machinery to serve one cup differently from the rest with a diluted compound, a compound barely enough for your body to register. It wasn’t as potent as the final product but it was sure to disrupt your system even by a smidge.
And that’s where Dottore thrived the most, on small differences.
His question drew unwanted attention from the rest, their curious gaze now upon you. It was more so the fact that no one else wanted to engage in a conversation with Dottore.
Your eyes narrowed a fraction, “No,” A small pause.
“Just . . . warm.” Curt and icy, a response only he deserved. “Oh?” The Second Harbinger pressed further.
“This hall is simply overheated.” At your clipped response, his smile stretched even further behind his pointed mask. What an unsettling sight.
Liar. The Doctor thought.
You shifted in your seat once again, this time, your jaw tightened, fully irritated by your own body. Aside from the sharp heat that clung to every corner of your skin, you felt . . . Sensitive; the distinct contrast of the frost bitten air that ghosted your cheeks once in a while against feverish skin formed goosebumps all over your body. Even your chest ached with slight sensitivity as it rubbed against your undergarment. You weren’t utterly uncomfortable but it was enough to fuel your budding annoyance.
That, alone, fascinated Dottore.
He leaned forward slightly as if to study you closer for a brief moment before getting up from his seat, “How disappointing,” Dottore murmured lowly to himself but it was certainly loud enough for everyone to hear.
“I was hoping for something . . . More telling.” He gave you one last look which was met with a cold glare from you. Ah, he adored that look on you, that expression of pure defiance and hatred; you could bury your innermost feelings with such expressions yet it didn’t deny the fact that your pupils were a touch wider now, breathing a fraction slower—heavier.
This was only a tiny crack on the surface but it was more than enough to prove Dottore’s hypothesis—that beneath your seemingly unbreakable façade, you were susceptible to breaking.
Now, he only needed to calculate your breaking point.
How far were you willing to endure? Would you fold after the next experiment? Or would you stick to your stubborn façade and refuse to give in while you suffered in silence? Dottore could barely wait to write his next hypothesis.
Without another word, The Doctor turned to leave.
Confusion amongst you and your colleagues lingered in the air but soon dissipated upon conversations of shared dislike for the Second Harbinger; you could only nod along, heat that simmered beneath your skin needed your attention far more than the conversation at hand. Even your head began to spin. You wanted to call it a day but Rosalyne was bound for Inazuma for an unknown period of time in a few days and you wanted to spend today with her since she had just gotten back from Liyue regarding a previous task.
The get-together rolled on for a couple more hours until conversations ran dry and tea turned cold and it was time to finally call it a day. Everyone excused themselves without ceremony and returned to their respective homes—thankfully, the snowstorm had died down. On another day, you would have done the same but your body proved to be more disoriented than you had assumed, thus, the best option was to reside within the Zapolyarny Palace for the night.
Each Harbinger was assigned personalised quarters by the Tsaritsa for the purpose of convenience such as summonings before lengthy meetings and other matters but of course, no one was obligated to stay in those quarters during other times. Though, Sandrone and Columbina did frequent their respective spaces; you assumed for the former’s case, it was for pure convenience since it was nearer to the Fatui’s Experimental Bureau.
By the time you had reached the upper corridors of the Palace, the cold marble beneath your boots felt wrong; the hear of your skin also hadn’t faded, if anything, it had deepened into something more unbearable: a persistent awareness which you resented with every step.
You hated this. Hated the way your mind slipped when it should’ve been sharp and precise, hated the dull tension your lower spine housed, and the irritation that came with not knowing why. You knew your body far better than anyone else, so why hasn’t your mind come up with a concise conclusion?
As you rounded the corner, you reached out a hand against the wall to steady yourself, just a few more steps and you’d reach your quarters. Pull it together.
“Are you sure you’re well?”
At the familiar voice, you stopped in your tracks, body swaying ever so slightly as if calm tides of the ocean lulled you back and forth. You hadn't even heard footsteps trailing behind you nor did you sense anyone else’s presence, was this because of your cognitive decline?
Dottore stood behind you, half-shadowed by the dimly lit corridor, posture relaxed as if he had every reason to be outside your quarters so late in the afternoon. You didn’t own the entire hallway, of course but he rarely presented himself in the Palace unless he was summoned by the Tsaritsa, let alone step foot on the upper corridors.
His voice was smooth, almost considerate, “You look like you need . . .” He paused for a heartbeat, “Help.” Whether it was your soiled mind talking or simply the tone of Dottore’s voice, the implication sat heavy in the air like an unpleasant smoke, and it wasn’t innocent either. Just the thought of it coming from The Doctor had you shuddering.
“I’m fine.” You straightened, not even bothering to turn around. “Whatever you’re implying, save it for someone who cares.” Before you could continue your step, Dottore swiftly crossed the distance between the two of you, grabbing a firm hold of your wrist. There was no skin to skin contact yet his touch burned, almost enough to let out an embarrassing gasp.
“Implying? What a bold conclusion. What could you possibly mean by that?” Your pulse jumped at his words, utterly betraying your entire soul. “Let go.” You spun to face him, eyes flashing with raw fury.
Dottore ignored your protest, instead, he stepped forward, ultimately caging you between himself and the icy wall behind your back. An arm braced beside your head, body close enough to feel the heat radiating off him; the faint scent of antiseptics and a few more chemicals you couldn’t name invaded your senses. It made you nauseous.
“There it is. That look.” He murmured, positively amused at your reaction. Your breath came a fraction faster and you despised the thought of Dottore being able to notice the slight difference.
Huh, who knew dosing you a diluted version of the independent variable would incite such a mix of reactions, if only The Doctor had known he’d obtain a variety of results from this simple experiment, he would’ve gone all the way and given you the undiluted compound. But alas, he was nice enough to ease you into the drug.
“Do you have any idea how insufferable you are?”
You scoffed, "You're blocking my way, I think you’re the more insufferable one here.”
Dottore leaned in, only slightly—not to invade your space but just enough to threaten it.
“You walk into rooms like you’re already above everyone in them. You don’t beg for relevance, nor do you perform—it’s as if you believe you’re untouchable.” His voice dipped, much sharper this time.
Your jaw tightened, “Move.”
“That arrogance,” Dottore retorted. “Is precisely what irks me.”
Refusing to look away and lose the fight, you met his gaze head-on through his mask, ignoring the fact that your skin now burned a thousand flames, and you were hyperaware of every inch of space between yourself and The Doctor.
“Yet here you are. Following me—cornering me. If I’m beneath you then why bother tailing after some lowly Harbinger?” Dottore’s amusement completely vanished at your words, and something much, much colder took its place.
“People who think they’re superior are usually just hiding something.” The grip around your wrist tightened, it wasn’t painful but it was deliberate. “And I am very good at uncovering what lies beneath façades.”
“Seems like you’re projecting. Let go of me before you regret it.” Obviously, you were no match for The Doctor when it came to physical combat but at least with your Delusion, you could hold him off for a bit until Her Majesty finally notices two of her Harbingers are at each other’s throats.
Dottore chuckled, “How fascinating. Even compromised, you still bare your teeth.” That was another result for him, he made a mental note of it so he could jot all his findings down later.
At least, Dottore released your wrist and stepped back, allowing some of your senses to finally return, “For now, get some rest, Prevaricator. I’d hate for you to collapse before I’ve satisfied my curiosity.” Without another word, he turned and disappeared down the corridor, akin to a ghostly apparition.
You stood there for a good minute, trying to process the whole situation despite your impaired cognitive ability. Fury and unease twisted in your gut, creating a ball of mixed emotions, it sat heavy and absolutely uncomfortable but that wasn’t the worst part. It was the fact that whatever you were experiencing right now, Dottore had somewhat gotten his bloodstained hands involved.
On purpose, too, and all the while a sly smile plastered upon his masked face.
You felt sick.
With Dottore, there was never really an end in things, he was like a parasitic species—stubborn and hard to get rid of once they got a hold of their host. With this in mind, you stumbled into tomorrow with your defenses up, walls built higher this time.
At 10 AM, you found yourself in one of the auxiliary research lounges in the Experimental Bureau, the symptoms of yesterday long gone but not forgotten. The auxiliary served as an informal space within the building, an area for research staff and people alike to collaborate and discuss findings over a hot cup. Even though these rooms were built for relaxation, they certainly didn’t look the part—just like any other experimental building under the Fatui, it was all metal and cold; sound travelled far and beyond within these walls.
Safe to say you rarely bumped into your fellow Harbingers in spaces like these—especially Sandrone and Dottore who were frequent users of the facilities at the Bureau.
Just like the two, you conducted experiments and built items but your focus was on physical enhancement, mainly in combat. Human experiments weren’t ruled out of the list but you weren’t like The Doctor—unethical trials weren’t your cup of tea. Your research focused on enhancing what has already existed, not creating something that didn’t exist. Sure, there were times unwanted adverse effects spiraled out of control but that was all part of the process. Not every experiment was perfect.
“Prevaricator. You look well rested.” Unbelievable.
Now, even your coffee break was interrupted? Dottore’s laboratory was on the other side of the building, how could he have possibly ended up in your territory?
He walked in with confidence that had your eye twitching; you hadn’t even noticed the sound of the large metallic door hissing open—were you really that out of it today?
“You tampered with my tea.” You replied flatly, gaze locked onto the hot beverage resting on the table before you.
“An accusation. How unlike you.” Dottore placed a gloved hand atop his chest, feigning offense.
You crossed your arms over your chest, “You don’t attend social gatherings outside banquets, you don’t follow people to their quarters, and I don’t experience unexplained physiological changes unless someone interferes.”
Dottore stood there for a moment before breaking into an unsettling smile, “Very good. You finally noticed.” He praised you. You frowned, seething at the fact that he had treated you like one of his test subjects—they were always unwilling to participate in his experiments yet he proceeded nonetheless without a care, every single time. Their bone-chilling screams haunted your late night projects and you had no choice but to ignore them.
“I’ve been thinking about you,” Dottore made his way over to the table you sat on. “About how resilient you were yesterday. Sure, it was only a diluted compound but any other subject would have pathetically . . . Given in.” He reached into his pocket and took out a tiny vial filled with an iridescent liquid, it glimmered beneath the warm lights of the auxiliary.
“This is more refined.” “If you think I’m going to drink that, you are wholly mistaken.”
“Of course you will.” Dottore placed the vial on the table with a clink, right next to your steaming coffee. “Because you’re curious, and you hate unanswered questions more than you hate me.” In truth, the hatred you harboured for both were equal; unanswered questions in research were your biggest enemy and it drove you absolutely mad.
At your indifference, he spoke up once again, “Or because you want to prove that you’re still in control. You’d want that, wouldn’t you?”
Silence stretched longer than Dottore had wanted but he was a patient man, perfect results took time and with the gears turning in your head, he would conclude he’s not far off.
The thought of Dottore being in control of even a sliver of your life had you fuming, no one wanted that. Surely the effect of this substance wouldn’t be as bad, right? If anything went horrendously wrong, you could always trust in your expertise but would your cognitive abilities even pull through under a more potent chemical?
Despite your better judgement, you reached for the small vial, unscrewed its metal top off, and drank it all in one gulp. As expected, the taste was absolutely horrid; it stung your throat like you’d swallowed a thousand needles. You let out a cough, tears lining your eyes.
Dottore smirked. Right into the lion’s den.
Due to its higher potency, the substance acted a lot faster this time. The liquid sat heavy on your stomach, as if your gastric acid itself directly rejected it, not only did it make you nauseous but it also left an uncomfortable feeling. He noticed the way your breath hitched or how your brows furrowed in realisation that this chemical was much, much stronger.
He moved closer, one, two, three steps to close the distance, “Do you feel it? The way your body is betraying your discipline?”
You sat there for a while, wordlessly assessing the substance’s onset effects—increased heart rate, increased body temperature, vasodilation, cognitive fog, slowed motor skills, and slowed breathing. Your hearing became sensitive, both sharp and muffled at the same time, even Dottore’s sentence sounded almost incoherent but not quite.
“I think . .” You started, trying to catch your breath. “I think you should leave.”
Suspiciously enough, Dottore didn’t push any further, instead, he took a step back, “Rest. This dosage shall pass . . . Eventually.” The click clack of his shoes echoed in your ears as Dottore left the auxiliary.
You’ll be back in no time. He thought to himself.
You sighed a breath of relief, his presence was suffocating to say the least, and being under the influence of some substance didn’t help. Taking a few controlled, deep breaths, you tried to calm yourself; suddenly drinking coffee didn’t feel like the right thing to do. So, with a hazy mind and light feet, you left the auxiliary and headed to your own laboratory.
As you walked in, your subordinates greeted you, they immediately sensed something was wrong but didn’t dare pry—after all, it wasn’t their position to question their Lady Harbinger even if it meant concern. You tried your best to oversee experiments and discuss results but as each minute passed, your body began to feel even stranger.
Indecent thoughts slipped in and out of your mind, your skin yearned to be touched, and not to mention the uncomfortable heat that pooled between your legs. The flu-like symptoms from earlier you could handle but this was something else, it drove you to the borders of insanity; with the absence of another’s touch, your cunt ached.
You tried to hold it out—to let the effects pass but you only lasted about an hour or two before you ultimately kicked out every single soul inside the laboratory out of embarrassment. There was no way in hell you’d let your subordinates see you in such a state; gossip amongst lower ranked Fatui spread like wildfire and you weren’t about to become the topic of the month.
This compound didn’t simmer like the last, instead, it demanded immediate attention.
The laboratory now fell silent, only the constant hum of machines and ventilation accompanied your ragged breaths. You leaned over your desk, fists curling against the smooth surface as you cursed Dottore with every unpleasant word your impaired mind could think of. The period of effect was unknown, so basically you were just playing a waiting game, a dangerous one at that.
But you weren’t about to settle for this—no, you demanded answers from The Doctor.
Right now. Your patience had been exhausted and could feel a reckless storm brewing within you—one that abandoned rationality.
Without a second thought, you crossed the entire building from one side to the other, it was probably the fastest you’ve walked despite slightly limping from discomfort between your legs. Archons, you could only imagine how crazed you looked.
The door to Dottore’s laboratory screeched upon opening, gaining the attention of all staff inside it, including the Harbinger himself. He didn’t have to wait for the door to fully open to conclude it was you, according to his calculations, he expected you to show up right about now.
Before the staff could murmur amongst themselves, Dottore spoke a singular word—loud, clear and icy.
“Out.”
His subordinates didn’t have to be told twice. They shuffled to their feet rather quickly, immediately dropping whatever task they had at hand before squeezing out the door as if some madman were chasing them. Something in their mind whispered they wouldn’t want to witness what was going to happen next.
As the last person rushed out, the heavy door behind you hissed as it closed, leaving you and Dottore alone in his laboratory.
“Well, this is highly unexpected.”
“You’re going to give me a counteragent.” You demanded immediately.
Dottore momentarily paused before laughing at your retort, it wasn’t a cruel laugh, it was pure amusement. “My, this drug has really done its job, hasn’t it? Your mind is a mess!” Your furrowed brows and downturned lips only fuelled his delight. “You speak of a counteragent yet aphrodisiacs aren’t poisonous—they don’t harm the body, they heighten one’s senses and increase libido. Indeed, anaphrodisiacs exist but they don’t serve as a counteragent. In short, there is no ‘cure’.”
“The effects dissipate only after . . . release.” Dottore added.
An aphrodisiac? How could you have not come to that conclusion? You were so caught up in Dottore’s scheme that you completely forgot to account for the use of a common drug. Everything about him screamed complex so it was only right to assume he had synthesized a rather intricate substance.
“You’re well-versed in medicine and human physiology. You should know exactly how these types of compounds function.” Dottore slowly circled your unstable figure as if he were a predator sizing up its prey.
“Tell me, Prevaricator. If you rely on this counteragent you speak of, why didn’t you just synthesize your own instead of barging into my territory like a lunatic? I was in the middle of an experimental breakthrough.”
As much as you hated to admit it, Dottore was right you should have known. Now, you felt like an utter fool standing in his laboratory demanding for something that didn’t exist.
“Unless . . . You’re already aware that there is no counteragent. Which raises a far more interesting question,” He stood directly behind you, his tall stature loomed over your own, voice dangerously close to your ear.
“Why did you come to me?”
Your heart pounded violently against your chest, not because of fear but because of the humiliating reality that The Doctor pointed out. Why did you come to him? He was the last person you should’ve sought when it came to human physiology. What happened to relying on your own expertise?
“I came to you for answers. Why are you doing all this? I’m not your test subject!”
“That’s precisely the problem—you’re not. So, I took matters into my own hands, whether you liked it or not.”
“Why?”
“Your façade infuriates me. And I will use every resource I have to strip you of your false layers.”
You were dumbfounded. Why was Dottore so adamant? Both of you were Harbingers for gods sake!—your identities were built on lies. Every Harbinger was granted a false identity by the Tsaritsa, everyone knew that.
“Tell me, Prevaricator. Is it the aphrodisiac driving you mad or the fact that you know exactly what you want but refuse to admit it?”
“I . . .” Your sentence faded into thin air.
The aphrodisiac had you on a chokehold; you couldn’t think properly, any rational thoughts were forgotten, and left behind for your future self to pick up. You couldn’t even refute any of Dottore’s arguments even if you badly wanted to—your brain simply just wasn’t working because right now, all you wanted was one thing, release. The heat your body radiated became unbearable and the painful ache between your legs intensified with every passing second.
Dottore stood right before you, he wordlessly studied your unstable, flustered state; this was only the first layer he had stripped off—the tip of the iceberg—and he was more than ready to find out where it ended.
Dottore took a step forward. You took a step back in response.
“Relax, I’m not going to hurt you.” He hummed lowly, reaching out a gloved finger to trace the edge of your collar, it was slow and deliberate, cutting you off from what you needed most right this moment, contact. Embarrassingly enough, you shuddered at the sensation of his finger against your clothing, the small vibrations of the friction it created was enough to push you further into insanity.
“Oh. Well, that answers my question from earlier.” Dottore wrapped a gloved hand around your throat, not too tight, not too loose, just enough to have your cunt clenching around nothing. You whimpered at his touch, your sensitive skin finally receiving the contact it has yearned for. His leather gloves felt electric against your feverish skin and you’d be lying if you didn’t want more.
“. . . Please.” You whispered, lips parted to draw shallow breaths in and out.
“My, what a mess you are and we haven’t even begun the third phase of the experiment.”
Without wasting another second, Dottore pulled you by the neck and pressed his lips against your own. The kiss knocked out all the oxygen in your lungs, it was sloppy, heated, and passionate.
The tip of Dottore’s mask harshly dug into your cheek as he pressed even further, shoving his tongue inside your mouth. Your head spun, the kiss was intoxicating—he was intoxicating. At this point, with how desperately Dottore kissed you, you wondered if you were truly the one under the influence because it seemed like he was more lust driven than you were. Hungrier.
Wet sounds of aggressive lip smacking and the occasional pants you and Dottore let out filled the entire laboratory. If anyone were to walk in right this moment, they’d probably be crimson-cheeked at how lewd and pornographic you both sounded.
Dottore growled into your mouth as he gripped your jaw and tilted your head for better access. Oh, how well you were taking him; you were so obedient and amazing for him to the point where it immensely turned him on. A minute later, he pulled away, flushed and panting, a thin string of saliva connected both your lips.
“How fascinating.” Dottore stated, breathless.
His tongue swiped on his bottom lip, collecting the saliva that pooled there. Your state wasn’t any better, as a matter of fact, the kiss was so messy to the point where saliva was smeared all over your mouth and chin but you didn’t care, you needed him.
Dottore unclipped your ivory Fatui coat, throwing the heavy fabric across the lab, it fell with a distinct thud. With that out of the way, he pushed you to the nearest wall which was right next to the entrance. You stumbled on your feet at his urgency but didn’t bother complaining.
He unbuttoned your blouse, first, second, third, until the fabric revealed skin beneath it. A quiet gasp escaped his kiss-bitten lips, “You’re truly magnificent.” You didn’t know whether Dottore praised you as a human being or as a mere test subject but nonetheless his saccharine words had your cunt pulsing.
Gloved hands momentarily ghosted your feverish skin, as though you were a fragile relic he refused to touch for you were far too precious and pristine to taint. He slipped off your blouse and the cool air of the laboratory kissed your skin, you shuddered at the significant contrast of temperatures.
“Hmm. Sensitive. I wonder what would happen if I press . . . here.” Your body curled in pleasure as Dottore cupped a clothed breast, palms sensually rubbing against your covered nipple. How exquisite you were, he had barely gotten started yet you already seemed like you’ve reached your limit.
“Ngh—Dottore!” Your own hands shot up to your face to cover your mouth, the last thing you wanted was to moan his name embarrassingly loud but it seemed like even your body couldn’t resist.
The Doctor let out a low growl, “Do not tamper with my experiment. This is all part of the result. Uncover your mouth.”
Humiliation engulfed your almost bare body as you heeded his words. He clicked his tongue and pinned both your wrists with a hand, “Any unwanted changes to my experiment will result in a second trial. Do not test me, Prevaricator.” The only thing you could do was wordlessly nod.
“Good.”
With his free hand, Dottore expertly unclasped your bra, causing it to swiftly fall onto the metal floor. There, he marveled at your hardened nipples, how it seemed to immediately react to external stimuli. He groped a breast, this time squeezing and massaging it, pulling a string of breathless moans from your lips.
“Now that’s what I like to hear.”
Dottore continued to give each breast his undivided attention ‘til you thrashed your sensitive body from overstimulation, “Dottore . . !” This time his name came out as a plea and he immediately understood what you were begging for, “Tsk. How impatient. We shall then move onto the next phase.” He scoffed.
Within the next minute, you were stripped of your remaining clothing, leaving you vulnerable in front of Dottore. Before you could even try to swallow down the embarrassment, his hand was already on you, toying with your sopping cunt. His gloved finger sensually traced your slit—up and down, up and down ‘til it slowly your clit, then did he only rub tight, hasty circles.
“F-Fuck! Haah!” Your back arched at the electric sensation that kissed down your spine. You weren’t a virgin but it has been a long while since you were touched so lewdly like this, moreover, he seemed to really know what he was doing. Dottore watched as your flustered face contorted in pure pleasure—swollen lips parted, brows knitted together, glassy eyes rolled back, just the result he wanted.
But he was greedy, he wanted more. He wanted to see you absolutely fucked up.
Dottore plunged two long fingers inside your wet cunt, causing you to resist his firm hold on your wrists. He curled his digits upward to meet the spongy patch of nerves there, “Mmf—! That feels good—Ah!” You could only moan in response as he picked up the pace.
Each harsh thrust of his fingers had your abdomen squeezing with pleasure, attempting to bear the force of his hand. Loud squelches coming from your cunt reverberated throughout the laboratory’s metallic walls and you could only hope no one would walk by to hear such sinful sounds.
Dottore grunted as he felt you squeeze around his fingers, he could feel the growing tent in his pants, cock aching to be freed from its restraint. He watched as your entrance greedily took him in, your sweet essence oozing out every time he pumped inside.
His crimson eyes beneath the mask glimmered at the way your slick messily coated not only his palm but as well as your inner thighs; he had never seen anything quite like this before. What spectacular results he was given!
It didn’t take long to feel the coil deep inside your stomach to start unravelling slowly. Dottore noticed it too, how your breath quickened and eyes tightly shut. He kept going, in and out, in and out steadily guiding you closer and closer to the sweet release you yearned for.
But just before you were pushed over the edge, he abruptly pulled his fingers out, causing you to shamelessly whine in protest. Confused, our eyes shot open, vision blurred with tears of pleasure, “Wha-What . . ? Why did you stop?”
Pleasure slowly faded away from your body, the high that once engulfed you now felt farther and farther away. Dottore brought his slick-stained fingers up, casually examining it under the laboratory’s fluorescent lights like he didn’t just almost fingerfuck you to an orgasm.
“We’re simply moving on to the final phase.”
Final phase?
At the sound of metal clinking, you were pulled out of your thoughts. Before you, Dottore hastily undid his ebony-coloured pants, he pulled the fabric down with his underwear just enough to free his aching cock. Your eyes widened as it stood proudly against his abdomen; he wasn’t as girthy but his length definitely made up for it, his blunt tip was a deep shade of blush, and a prominent vein ran along the underside of his cock. More interestingly, it curved a little to the left.
You could almost drool at the sight.
Dottore let out a low hiss as he wrapped a gloved hand around his sensitive cock to spread his pre-cum all over it, he gave it three languid pumps before stepping closer to your naked body. With one swift movement, he nudged your legs apart—resulting in you briefly losing balance—before slotting himself between them.
You whimpered at the sensation of Dottore’s cock rubbing against your slit, you could already feel how hot and heavy it was from the simple contact alone. Without warning he slowly pushed in, its blunt tip separating your wet folds apart. Your arms immediately flew to his clothed shoulders, nails digging into the expensive fabric as he inched deeper and deeper.
Dottore muttered a curse, lips slightly quivering. The sensation of your warm walls around his cock drove him absolutely insane and he wasn’t even all the way in yet; your cunt hugged him oh, so tightly and greedily sucked him in he could almost come right then and there as embarrassing as it sounded.
It had been quite a while since Dottore engaged in sex since he had more important matters to attend to so this feeling of being inside someone was closer to foreign than not.
Soon enough, he bottomed out with ease. The two of you took a moment to steady your breaths and adjust to each other’s body, though, you did try your best to stand as still as possible as the tip of his cock gently nudged your sweet spot—any hasty movements would cause it to press further inside.
“You’re so—Haah!—Tight!” Dottore let out an amused chuckle, a smirk plastered on his lips.
“S-Shut up.” You flushed.
Without another word, Dottore hooked a hand beneath your right knee and forced it up to rest on his shoulder. That movement alone brought your hips closer to his, allowing his cock to slip deeper; you involuntarily squeezed around him in response, back arching off the icy wall which earned a low growl from him.
Faint wet sounds echoed in your ears as Dottore pulled out all the way until only his tip remained, your cunt sucked him in so much that merely drawing his hips back was met with such resistance. He wasted no time thrusting back in, this time, with the entire length of his cock, it made your knee buckle, and your lips immediately parted to let out a garbled moan.
Dottore started off with an experimental pace—he studied how your expressions differed with each push and pull.. When met with shallow, hasty thrusts, your breathing seemed to mimic the rhythm of his hips, whereas with deep, slower thrusts, you seemed to bite down on your bottom lip while your eyes slightly rolled back.
How interesting. What about deep, swift thrusts?
Dottore picked up the pace to test his next experimental question, blunt tip bullying your sweet spot, and heavy balls slapping against your skin.
“Fuck! Fuck! Ngh—! Dottore!” You mercilessly clawed at his back. The expression you gave him was simply exquisite, your whole face contorted in raw pleasure. Hot tears rolled down your flushed cheeks and he took the opportunity to lick it off your face.
Using a free hand, Dottore reached for one of your breasts, teasing and massaging it while he watched the other bounce with each thrust.
Earlier, the laboratory faintly smelled of chemicals, now, the air smelled of sinful sex—your’s and Dottore’s scent entangled with one another, a completely volatile pair.
“That’s it—Mhm!—Let me hear your pathetic whimpers as I push you further and further into insanity.” He growled in your ear and bit the column of your neck.
Dottore unhooked your leg from his shoulder before securing both arms around to lift you up, “Jump.” He didn’t have to repeat his word for you to do so. As you jumped, he supported your weight with his hands which allowed you to wrap your legs around his waist.
With his hands planted on your ass, Dottore began to expertly bounce you on his cock; this position left you more vulnerable since there was nothing you could do but take each and every thrust. Since gravity also came into play, his thrusts were far deeper than before and you swore you could feel him on your throat.
“Right there! Ah! Right there, Dottore! Please don’t stop—Fuck!” The tight coil inside your stomach began to unravel once again and the high you experienced earlier came flooding back. It was an overwhelming pressure, it pressed on every part of your sensitive body, sending waves of shock up and down your spine.
Dottore observed your cock drunk state—head lolled to the side, hair a complete mess, face flushed with lust, lips locked in a permanent part to let out moans, tear-stained cheeks, and eyes rolled far back enough you could probably see your own skull. This. This was precisely what Dottore wanted from you—an expression so raw, so vulnerable it was an unbelievable contrast from the usual one you wore.
You looked absolutely broken and helpless like he was the only one who could save you. And The Doctor loved everything about it.
He moaned your name as you clamped on his cock—not your title, but the name bestowed upon you by Her Majesty. The name only your female colleagues used to express closeness.
“I’m close,” Dottore panted. “Open your eyes and look at me while you come. Surely you can perform this simple task, right?” You responded with an incoherent sentence but nonetheless used your remaining energy to open your eyes, your body felt absolutely limp as pleasure weighed down on you, and you were positive you’d have trouble walking tomorrow.
He praised you for your obedience and you could only respond with a pathetic whine.
Dottore did his best to keep up the brutal pace but with his impending orgasm looming over, his movements began to falter, he could only hold out for a certain amount of time.
“Ngh! Cumming! Ah! Ah!” The coil inside you violently snapped and your vision flashed white as you creamed around his cock. Dottore let out a deep grunt and followed suit, hips stuttering before fully sheathing his cock inside and shooting a heavy load. Thick ribbons of his cum painted your walls white, he made sure it remained inside of you by thrusting a few more times.
The two of you stilled for a moment to catch your breaths before Dottore pulled out to gently get you back on your feet. As expected, your legs have turned weak and embarrassingly enough, you held onto him for support—not because you wanted to but you needed to.
As you came down from your high, this allowed the haunting reality to finally settle in for you. You just fucked your colleague. And not just any colleague but the one you absolutely despised most. Were you insane? Regret gnawed at your feverish skin.
Out of instinct, you weakly pushed Dottore away, a familiar expression painted on your face—the one you always wore, the one he loathed—cold and indifferent, “This . . This doesn’t change anything. At all.”
The Doctor could only half-heartedly laugh at your declaration because you both knew it was a complete lie, after all, you were the Prevaricator.
dottore and pantalone threesome with f!reader | MDNI
wrote this at 3 am, published this at 4 am, i am horny so this wasn't proofread ,, first post in ages pls spare me
"Keep those pretty eyes on me, love."
A gentle hand tilts your chin, a gloved thumb caressing your cheek before brushing your bottom lip, slipping it between your lips. You gulp, lifting your gaze to meet Pantalone's eyes, before immediately dropping to his exposed torso. His thumb slips into your mouth, rubbing against your thumb. Even after all this time, you still remain speechless and breathless each time you see Pantalone unclothed.
A rough slap against your pussy causes you to gasp, your tongue pressing against Pantalone's thumb. Behind you, Dottore's hand rubs against your aching folds, his fingers rubbing torturous circles against your clit. You whimper into Pantalone's hand, eyes fluttering shut from the sensations between your legs.
"Ah-ah, darling," Pantalone's grip on your chin tightening just a bit, "I said eyes on me."
You let out a shaky breath, trying your best to keep your gaze from straying elsewhere. He withdraws his thumb from your mouth, a pleased smirk on his lips as he watches the soft flush on your cheeks grow. Dottore's hand moves to spread your thighs wider apart, exposed fully for him to see. You shudder from the cold air that brushes against your cunt, bucking your hips slightly at the sensation.
Your eyes drop to Pantalone's hand, watching as he wraps his fingers around his gleaming shaft. He pumps his cock, the soft but lewd squelches causing you to bite your lip.
"Open your mouth," he instructs, bringing his cock towards your lips. You gulp, taking a deep breath before opening your mouth. You lick the tip of his cock, swirling your tongue before taking him in slowly. He lets out a groan, his hand sliding onto your head to grab your hair to guide you further.
You struggle a bit as you shift your position on the bed, resting your elbows in between Pantalone's thighs for support as you continue to suck him. You arch your back, thighs spread apart and ass out for Dottore. You moan into Pantalone's cock as you feel Dottore rub your clit once again, your forehead leaning lightly against Pantalone's stomach.
"Relax, dear," Dottore coos, placing a firm hand on your waist. "I'm sure you'll take us well, won't you?"
Without warning, he presses the tip of his cock against you before thrusting it in roughly, eliciting a sharp cry from your lips. His sharp thrust causes you to take more than what you could from Pantalone, causing you to gag from his length. Tears prick your eyes as Dottore begins to roughly slam himself into you and as you continue to suck on Pantalone, deepthroating him to the best of your abilities. One of your hands grabs onto Pantalone's waist for support, holding onto him for balance.
"Aren't you such a greedy little thing?" Pantalone teases, his hand cupping your head as he guides you even deeper. "Taking our cocks like a good girl. Our good girl."
Dottore's rough grip on your waist as he slams into your cunt, Pantalone's cock reaching the back of your throat... It feels so good, so perfect. You are practically dripping all over, loud squelches filling the room with each thrust. You look up at Pantalone, eyes glossy with tears. His eyes are half lidded with pleasure, a low groan coming from his lips.
Dottore's rhythm begins to grow sloppy with each thrust, the sound of his grunts growing louder. A knot begins to form in your stomach, coiling tight inside you. Pantalone's hand pushes you slighter deeper into his cock, your drool spilling from the corners of your lips.
A harsh smack lands on your ass, a cry escaping your lips. Dottore's hand grabs your ass, spreading it apart slightly as he continued to fuck you into ecstacy. "Cum for us, will you, darling?"
It doesn't take long. With a few sharp thrusts, a wave of pleasure washes over you, your pussy fluttering from stimulation. Pantalone groans at the sensation, pushing your head deeper into his cock as his thick, warm seed spills into your mouth, coating your tongue with his essence. Not long after, Dottore releases his own cum inside of you, pounding the rest of his cum into you to fill your pussy.
You pull away from Pantalone, his seed leaking onto your lips. After a few final thrusts, Dottore also pulls away, pumping the rest of his cum onto your clit.
"Don't swallow," Pantalone orders, his breath ragged as he reaches his hand to cup my cheek, brushing a bead of cum from the corner of your lips.
You let out a muffled yelp as you felt two fingers curl inside of you. Dottore pumps his fingers inside you, pushing his seed deeper into you. Your knees buck in response, causing you to collapse onto the plush of the mattress.
"What a greedy little slut you are," Dottore teases, giving your pussy a little slap before pulling away.
You don't respond, too drunk on their cum to even think straight. Pantalone shifts his position on the bed before helping you to rest properly, lifting your head to rest on his lap. Dottore sits up on the bed, lifting your legs to rest on his lap. He leans down to press a gentle kiss on your stomach and then your forehead, basking in the sight of you stained with their cum.
"You're such a good girl, darling," Pantalone says as he caresses your cheeks. You only look up at him, your mouth still full to reply. Your eyes glimmer in the light, using your gaze to ask the question you are too exhausted to speak out.
He smiles and nods, rubbing his thumb against your bottom lip. "You may swallow, love."
At his permission, you swallow his cum, licking the rest of his cum at the corner of his lips. Dottore places a hand above yours, intertwining your fingers before giving it a light squeeze.
PL⛧NET HER: WHEN SIN ORBITS YOUR PU$$Y.ᐟ
𝐒𝐈𝐍#𝟏 𝐋⛧𝐒𝐓 — 𝐃𝐫. 𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨
𐕣 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐨𝐧: i will lecture the universe until it proves why you must be mine.
𐕣 𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: professor x student + spanking + age gap + fingering + cunnalingus + blowjob + squirting + bimbo!reader + dubcon
𐕣 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1310
tw: very dark yandere themes
𝐬𝐬 𝐦.𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭
Your professor is an asshole. Everyone knew it.
Dr. Ratio's course was brutal—pages of equations that fried your brain, lectures that felt like riddles, and his favorite pastime: humiliating you.
Always calling on you when you had nothing to say. Letting the silence stretch until the whole room squirmed.
It was no wonder you were failing.
You even tried to drop his class, but his signature was required. He refused. Smiled coldly and told you, “Failure is a lesson in itself.”
So you used what you were good at—your looks and your mouth.
But it backfired badly.
You see, it wouldn’t be the first time students were after his cock, He was aware of the effect he had—the quiet glances in class, the stolen moments in office hours—but it had never mattered.
He had never been interested. Never felt the pull, the tug in his chest that made his pulse quicken or thoughts stumble.
Until you.
Something about you shattered that disinterest. He latched onto that moment like a man struck by lightning. He told himself it was just an indulgence, a whim, that he would forget it by morning.
But he couldn’t.
Your lips, your tears, your throat convulsing around him—these things replayed like formulas in his mind. He would sit at his desk long after you’d gone, staring at your name on the roster, writing it over and over in the margins of his notes.
He had always prided himself on control. His research, his lectures, his carefully structured life—all ruled by logic.
Yet somehow, you unraveled him with nothing but a giggle and the way you looked up at him from the floor.
On your knees under his desk, spit trailing from your lips, his cock marked with neat little lines like a graph. He stares down at you like you’re a thesis subject.
“You know the rules, Tip is an F. Base is an A+,” he says flatly, as though this is just another lecture. His hand rests heavily on your head. “Let’s see how far you get.”
You gag on him, tears burning your eyes, throat convulsing. Your nails scrape against his thigh as you choke, drool spilling down your chin.
He hears it—sloppy, desperate—and it thrills him.
You’re actually trying. For him.
“D minus,” he murmurs, jotting on a notepad. “Gloss fades quickly. Gag reflex pronounced. Spit output… excessive.”
“Mmfh—hngh—,” you gag around him, body burning with humiliation. Pulling back for air, mascara smudged. “P-please, professor…”
He exhales ragged, dick twitching. The begging shouldn’t matter, but it does. He wants to catalogue the sound of your voice right now, shaky and wet, to file it away and play it back later when he’s alone in his office.
He restrained himself as he shoved you even closer to his base, your lips reaching the yellow line.
“C.” His tone sharpens when you swallow him deeper. A muscle ticks in his jaw. “Marginal improvement. Almost commendable.”
You force yourself down to A+, choking violently, throat fluttering around him. His composure snaps—the chair creaks, his thighs tremble, twitching, gripping ur hair, a groan cracks out of him, “hnngh!—“ his cock twitching as he spills hot down your throat.
You cough, swallow, then open your mouth, tongue out to show him, tears shining on your cheeks. “So? How’d I do?”
Excellent, he came even quicker this time, and damn did it feel good. Happy to find a personal slut like you.
He stares like you’re some rare discovery. “…A plus.”
What was it about you? You were stupid, lethargic, careless—and yet he couldn’t stop calculating you.
Dr. Ratio found himself cataloguing the tilt of your smile, the cadence of your laugh, the rhythm of your moans. Like you were a theorem he couldn’t crack.
Whatever it was he needed. More.
Dragging you up, bending you over the desk. Papers crumple under your chest as his hand cracks across your ass again and again until you sob.
His fingers split you open, curling deep until you scream his name, nails clawing in the desk from the pleasure.
“Hah, FUCK!—” Your legs shook as you gushed hard across his graded papers, ink bleeding, graphs ruined.
“Remarkable,” he mutters, licking his fingers clean. “Specimen produces uncontrollable release under minimal stimulus.”
You cry harder when he shoves your thighs wide and buries his mouth against your cunt.
His tongue laps and slurps greedily, making you see stars as he scribbles notes in the margins with one hand while rubbing your clit with the other.
“Ah~—ngh, no, I can’t—!” you sob, writhing, nails tearing at the desk.
“Specimen vocal under pressure,” he mutters into your wet heat, voice muffled. “Flavor—sweet, addictive. Frequency of climax… endless.”
He doesn’t stop. He devours you until you’re choking on your own screams, stuffing your panties in your mouth to muffle your cries.
You cum again, and again, until your body feels wrung out.
Fuck yes
His eyes roll back. The more he thought of you, the deeper his obsession drilled in. He couldn’t stand watching you flirt with other students.
Couldn’t stand the idea of your attention drifting elsewhere. Every failure, every wrong answer, only deepened his fixation—because it proved what he already believed: you needed him.
“Pleasepleasepleaseplease!” your muffled sob came out when he finally lifted his head, face slick with your mess. “Just let me fail! I can’t fucking keep up!”
He strokes your trembling thigh, smiling faintly. “Failure isn’t an option. You’ll pass. Even if I have to study with you every night until the semester ends.”
And then Ratio picks you up—not out of his office, but into the closet.
“No! This isn’t fun anymore!” You cry out when the door shuts behind you. The air is thick with the smell of cum and paper. "Let me go!"
Shelves stacked with jars, tissues stiff with dried white, strands of your hair labeled in neat handwriting. A mannequin in your bra. Your homework taped like scripture.
There’s a narrow bed shoved against the wall, sheets damp and stained. Shackles bolted to the floor.
He presses you down onto it, stroking your damp cheek almost tenderly. “This is where you’ll stay until you’ve earned your grade. Don’t worry. I’ll give you plenty of lessons.”
Your chest heaves, tears blurring your vision as he looms over you.
“Hush,” he whispers, sliding back inside you, groaning low at the heat. “It's almost the end of the semester.”
This is why he began constructing rules, his own twisted rubric. It makes sense; he’s older and more experienced; you will learn from him.
You will submit to him. And he would grade every inch of your body until you understood your true purpose. This is why he’s here after all, helping students like you.
The control that had defined him was rotting from the inside. He couldn’t stop calculating you—your cycles, your perfume, the gloss you wore.
You weren’t just a student anymore.
You were an experiment.
A subject.
His subject.
You choke on a sob, body shaking as pleasure wars with pain. “Please, Dr. Ratio, I don’t care about my grade anymore…I’m just an idiot, just please let me go. I won’t tell anyone!”
“I can’t let you go,” he whispers into your hair, voice wrecked but oddly tender in its own twisted way.. “You’re perfect. My perfect failure.”
And this time, your tears aren’t from bliss.
They’re from despair.
He wiped your tears away, "Don't cry now," smiling gently albeit a little creepy
𝐬𝐮𝐦. one dick ina a box, red ribbons n’ locks, a trip to the north hole that shocks, no way home n’ way too many cocks, and a holiday spent getting rawdogged in socks
𝐚𝐧: merry belated birthday to big mama 🎂🎀✨ well my bday was on dec 20 lmao enjoy this holiday self indulgent fic of my husbands and happy holidayss! 🎄☃︎ (just pretend it's still christmas)
🎄FLINS — Wrapped With a Bow, Filled With Woe
"Merry Christmas, my love.~"
Flins says it like he’s unveiling a masterpiece—soft, delicate, reverent—and yet there’s something in his voice that makes your skin prickle. Something too warm and sweet. Like honey poured over a blade.
He stands framed in the white glow of the estate’s floor-to-ceiling windows. Snow falls in thick, silent sheets behind him, swallowing the world whole.
You haven’t stepped outside in days. Maybe weeks. You wouldn’t know anymore.
You’re curled on the pristine couch, wrapped in a blanket he gave you. He didn’t tie you down. Didn’t lock the doors; he never needs to.
Since…he knows your name.
He’d asked for it once, soft and unassuming—just your name, nothing more. You were cold, shaking, and stupidly hopeful back then. You gave it to him like a gift. You didn’t know it would be the last thing you ever gave freely.
Now, he’s holding a damn box.
"Go on," He gestures with a slight, curt nod "Open it. Slowly."
A ghost of your old self might have flinched at the oddity, might have felt a spike of confusion or disgust.
You reach for the top, fingers brushing the plush velvet. A sharp, pained hiss cuts the silence. "Careful," Flins murmurs, his voice a low warning. "It’s… sensitive."
You lift the lid… and your eyes widen slightly.
His cock lies inside like a relic—thick, flushed, swollen, nestled in immaculate folds of white paper. The head glows faintly, slick leaking in a trembling bead that threatens to spill.
Flins watches your reaction with a small, wry smile.
He even chuckles—a dry, amused sound that never reaches his eyes.
“You should’ve seen your face,” he smiled. “You look like I put a bomb in there. Well… I suppose that depends on how you treat it.”
You don’t move. Your hand stays frozen on the velvet lid. His cock in the box gives another faint, helpless twitch, and a fresh pearl of that luminous slick wells at the slit, catching the pale winter light.
“You gave me your name,” he whispers, thumb stroking your lower lip. “Such a precious thing. How careless of you.” His tired golden eyes brighten faintly—not with life, but with obsession.
“And so… here is mine.”
You don’t know why your mouth opens…It just does.
His cock twitches violently at the sight.
“Oh,” Flins breathes, voice cracking with something dangerously close to relief. “You really do love me.”
He lets you struggle for a moment. Lets you feel the stretch, the helpless gag, the tears that spring to your eyes. Then his hand in your hair tightens, not yanking, but steering, setting a slow, deep, impossible rhythm.
“You take me beautifully,” cupping your jaw as he guides you down. “Even when it hurts you.”
His thrusts are slow, reverent—like he’s conducting a ritual instead of fucking your throat. “More— nghh—,” he breathes, his composure beginning to show its first crack. A flush creeps up his pale neck.
Glllkk, gllk, gluuuck
As your throat convulses around him with each gag, your fingers clutch his thighs—broad, strong beneath the soft gray slacks. “O-oh… my love~.” His voice cracks again, a raw edge bleeding through the composure. “My perfect miracle.”
What little voice you had in the back of your head—the one that whispered things like run, resist, escape—is fading fast.
His thumb wipes your tears. “So gentle even when you suffer,” he whispers. “How could you ever leave me? How could you ever walk into that cold world when you warm me like this?”
His hips push a little harder. Pace steady, ceremonial. Not fucking you—offering himself to your mouth.
“I w-would’ve chased you,” he says suddenly, voice fracturing on the edges of his refined cadence. “If you’d run. I would’ve begged…but instead…” A shudder. “You stayed. On your knees. Taking me so kindly.”
His thrusts grow bolder, desperate. The elegant rhythm gives way to something raw, erratic, terrifyingly hungry.
“I’ll keep you like this forever,” he promises, gasping as your throat clenches around him. “Locked away. Worshipped. Safe. My perfect darling, my only joy—just stay right here. Right where you belong.”
Your throat aches. Your jaw trembles. You can’t breathe between thrusts, can’t think between the electric taste and his whispered devotion. He brushes a trembling hand over your cheek again.
Then Flins pushes deeper—slow, careful, but inevitable—until you feel him in your throat, until tears spill hot down your face.
“F-forgive me,” he gasps, body bowing over you. “I can’t hold it—my love, I can’t—”
He grits his teeth, hips stuttering, and then...with a groan that sounds like prayer—he stills.
You feel it, the hot pulse of his release painting your tongue. A flood of something glittering and warm, magic-laced and searing, like swallowing starlight.
Your throat pulses around him as he empties himself—more and more, glowing slick flooding your gut, sliding down your esophagus in dizzying waves. He holds your head gently, reverently, as he fills you like he’s making a vow.
“There,” he breathes, voice shaking with relief and pure adoration. “You swallowed all of me. All of it.”
When he finally pulls out, his cock leaves your lips with a sticky, glowing thread. He looks softly ruined, unhinged in the quietest, most loving way.
For a moment, he’s silent. He looks at you—his droopily half-lidded eyes flushed, reverent.
He kneels before you, tilting your chin up.
“My beautiful girl,” thumb smearing the luminous mess across your lips. “Christmas begins and ends with you.”
He kisses you—slowly, gently, tasting himself on your mouth.
“Just us now,” he whispers into your cheek, voice soft as snowfall, final as a gravestone. “No escape. No fear. Only my love for you.”
Softly grasping the box he pulled it off his cock gently setting it on the table.
He pulls you into his lap, wrapping an arm around your waist, heart pounding hard against your back.
Outside, the snow thickens. Inside, he holds you like an answered prayer.
And the world disappears.
🎄VARKA — North Pole? More Like North Hole
You didn’t even get a full gasp out before Varka's hand clamped around your waist and hauled you clean off the floor.
One second you were in the living room, laughing with your friends, bells on your slutty little elf costume jingling as you reached for another drink—and the next you were slung over Santa's shoulder like you were the damn gift he came here to steal.
“Varka—!? What the hell, put me down—”
“Oh, now you wanna talk to me?” he growled, boots thundering down the hallway, fake Santa coat flapping behind him. “Blocked me all week, bunny, but you show up dressed like this?”
SMACK
His hand smacked your ass once—hard—just to make you yelp.
To remind you who the fuck had you.
Your friends had barely stopped laughing at his stupid Santa entrance. Jean thought it was a bit. Lisa thought your husband showing up in a cheap tight red coat was funny.
Only you knew better.
Only you felt the white-hot anger simmering in his grip, fingers digging into your thigh like he wanted to leave bruises in the shape of his hands.
“Varka, stop—people are watching—”
“Yeah,” he rumbled, throwing open the guest room door with his shoulder. “And they all saw my wife struttin’ around in this tiny little elf outfit like she ain’t got a man. You think I’m lettin’ that slide?”
The second he kicked the guest room door shut, the act was gone.
No “ho-ho-ho.” No booming laugh. Just Varka—your unhinged, possessive, starved man—hauling you up like you weighed nothing and throwing you onto the bed hard enough that the frame cracked loudly beneath you.
Before you could sit up, his huge hand pressed to your chest, pinning you by the sternum. Chest heaving, eyes blown wide with Varka towering over you like the reason naughty girls don’t make it out of the North Pole
Santa was not jolly.
“Look at you,” he snarled, shoving your thighs apart with one massive knee. “Dressed like a little treat. Parading around for every bastard in that cabin like you ain’t got a man who breaks doors for less.”
Your mouth opened—to argue, but he was already on the bed, crawling over you, big hands sliding up your thighs with a patience that felt more like a threat.
“You blocked me,” he said, almost softly, thumb stroking your inner thigh like he wasn’t seconds from ruining you. “Didn’t call. Didn’t text. Thought I wasn’t gon’ find you.”
His fingers reached your panties and paused—just long enough for heat to bloom in your gut—before he pushed them aside and dragged his thumb through your slick folds with a slow, devastating sweep.
You gasped.
He smiled, small and sharp.
“Breakin’ my heart in a place like this,” he murmured with faux hurt, leaning in until his lips brushed your ear. “All dressed up like a slutty little elf for people who don’t even know how to touch you.”
His other hand dropped to his belt, undoing it with a heavy clink. You barely had time to inhale before his fat cock slapped against your bare slit—heavy, thick, hot enough to make your back arch off the bed.
“Say who you put this outfit on for,” he whispered, rolling his hips just enough to drag every inch of him through your wetness. “Go on, sweetheart. Say it.”
“Tch,” Your breath trembled annoyed. “Y-you…”
That was all he needed.
Varka hooked your legs over his broad shoulders, the sudden angle making your breath catch in your throat. His body dwarfed yours, chest brushing your knees, nipple touching your thigh as he positioned himself.
“Yeah,” he growled, the word vibrating through your body. “Knew it. Knew my girl wouldn’t dress like this for anyone but Santa.”
His cock pushed in—slow, brutal, unrelenting—stretching you wide, deeper than you ever remembered, deeper than your frantic mind could process.
Your fingers scrambled against his scarred shoulders, against the Santa coat bunching under your nails. “V-Varka—”
“No, baby,” he corrected, voice thick, hips grinding deeper until your vision sparked. “Not tonight.”
His hand wrapped around your throat—light, guiding, claiming—and his lips brushed your cheek as he whispered:
“Call me Santa.”
The bed groaned under his weight. Then cracked. A leg snapped clean off the frame when he slammed into you again, but he didn’t stop—just steadied you with one huge hand while the other squeezed your waist like you belonged under it.
“Santa's been real patient,” he rasped, his thrusts turning messy, desperate, claiming every inch of you. “But you push me too damn far, princess. Avoiding me? Leave without tellin’ me? Dress up like a slut—”
“C-cause! Shit! Y-your crazy!—” A sharp thrust tore a moan out of you. “AH! MMPH- NO-” Your back arched. Your eyes rolled.
His grip tightened on your hips, dragging you back onto him with a force that made the headboard slam into the wall.
“Naughty fuckin’ girl,” he groaned, his breath shaking as he picked up speed. “You know what Santa does to naughty girls, don’t you?”
You barely choked out, “Varka—fuck! S-someone’s gun-na h-hear us—”
“I don’t care,” he growled, thrusting deeper, voice shaking with how much he needed you. “Let the whole damn cabin know exactly what I do to you.”
Footsteps passed the door.
Someone laughed, then called your name—
He slapped a hand over your mouth, pressed you deeper into the mattress, and whispered right against your lips:
“You’re not goin’ anywhere. Not tonight. Not ’til Santa's done.”
And then he fucked you harder—so hard the whole bed shifted again, another crack splintering so hard your vision blurred at the edges, your breath catching in ragged little sobs beneath him.
“Yeah… yeah, that’s it,” Varka groaned, voice rasped raw, blond hair plastered to his forehead with sweat. Thick strands clung along his brow, dripping, wild, making him look like some outlaw deity who crawled out of the storm just to ruin you.
His blue eyes burned straight through you—hungry, furious, devoted.
“Look at you,” he panted, slamming into you with a force that shook dust from the rafters. “C-can’t ah! even hold yourself up anymore—legs shakin’, eyes rollin’ back—fuck, p-princess, you’re makin’ Santa lose his mind.”
Your nails clawed uselessly at his back. You tried to say something—anything—but all that came out was a thin, broken moan that melted into his chest.
Your body couldn’t keep up with him or his ruthless pace. You couldn’t think or breathe between thrusts.
Your vision tunneled. “V-Varka~,” you whined, the sound barely formed.
His hand slid up your ribs, up your throat, thumb brushing your lips before guiding your head back into the mattress. “No, baby,” he murmured, voice trembling with something close to worship. “Not Varka.”
His lips brushed your cheek, hot and shaking, his hair sticking to your temple as he whispered:
“Santa. Say Santa… b-before you ngh! pass out on me.”
You couldn’t, your consciousness slipped, warm and dark and dizzy.
And that was when he lost it.
“Oh fuuuck!—look at you,” he growled, fucking into your slack, pliant body like you were made just for him. “Passed out on Santa's cock like a good little elf—shit—sweetheart, you’re gonna make me—”
His hips slammed forward, brutal and possessive, and he came—hot, thick, spilling deep inside you with a guttural moan drowned against your throat.
But he didn’t stop.
Didn’t even slow down.
A shudder ripped through him, his abs tightening as the aftershocks rolled through his body—but he just dragged your limp hips back down onto him and kept fucking you, cock still hard, still throbbing.
“That’s it,” he rasped, breath trembling, hair stuck to his cheeks with sweat. “Santa's not done—not even close.”
Your unconscious body bounced with every snap of his hips, heat spilling out around his length, only for him to shove it right back in.
“G-gonna fill you again,” he grunted, voice cracking as his scars flushed red. “And again—fuck—again.”
He hooked his arms under your limp thighs, folding you in half, fucking deeper, fucking harder, using your body like you were a present he hadn’t unwrapped properly the first time.
“Pretty little thing,” he panted, grinding into your overstretched cunt like he could climb inside you. “Even passed out you’re squeezin’ me—mmph—milkin’ Santa dry.”
Another load deep inside you.
He moaned—loud, wrecked—but didn’t pull out, still hard as hell.
He just grabbed your jaw with one big hand, thumb dragging your lip down as your head lolled back.
“Open for me, sweetheart,” he murmured against your slack mouth, voice sweet and ruined. “Santa's still got more gifts to give. You’re—fuck! never running from me again.”
And with a low, hungry growl, he slammed back into you—chasing a third release.
“Hope you were good this year, bunny,” he grinned, trembling as he rutted into your unconscious form. “'Cause Santa's not lettin’ you sleep tonight.~”
🎄RERIR — Red Ribbons, Bad Decisions
There’s… music playing.
Some old, warped Christmas tune crackling from a radio in the corner—soft, cheerful, horribly out of place.
“You’re a mean one… Mr. Grinch…”
It loops. And loops. And loops.
Your cheek presses into the cold floor, ribbons biting deep into your skin—tight enough to sting, tight enough to remind you he tied you like this himself.
Red silk winds around your wrists behind your back, under your breasts, between your thighs… pulling you open like an offering.
Your captor fiancé is just… standing there.
Massive. Silent. Breathing hard behind black bandages.
The bodies of the people who helped you escape lie carelessly behind him. He didn’t even bother to move them. He only looked at you.
His boot drags through a smear of blood as he approaches, leaving a crimson trail across the floorboards.
You should’ve kept in mind how fucking psycho Rerir is.
“Oh…doll,” he finally spoke, voice muffled but trembling with something horribly close to relief, “you made such a mess.”
The words vibrate through his chest as he crouches, lowering over you. He’s so big that his shadow swallows your entire body, heat radiating off him in waves. Pink eyes glow like twin wounds through his white bangs.
His long fingers terrifyingly gripped your jaw and yanked your head up.
“Why did you run?” Soft. mocking. More dangerous than screaming. His grip turned bruising pricks of blood starting to form on your face. “Do you really think there’s anywhere on Teyvat you could hide from me?”
You couldn’t respond; the damn ribbon is pressed between your teeth like a gag.
He hums, amused. “Ah. Can’t answer.” His hand slides down your stomach… lower… claws grazing the ribbon splitting your thighs apart.
“You’re shaking,” he observes, tone decadent and cruel. “And yet—”
THWACK!
His palm lands sharply on your pussy—hot pain shooting straight through you, forced moan vibrating against the gag. The ribbons tighten with your movement.
Rerir groans—actually groans—at the sight of you jolting under his hand.
“Mm.. you sound… exquisite.”
His cock strains against his pants, massive and heavy, a dark shape that makes you tremble harder. He strokes your pussy again—slow, reverent—and then:
SMACK!
Your knees buckle, but the ribbons keep you open, trembling, helpless.
“Shh, shh… quiet now,” he coos, petting the tender spot he just struck. “They can hear you on the other side of the veil, you know. Your little cries.” His head tilts, bandages brushing your cheek. “And they won’t save you.”
The Christmas music glitches, the same jolly line repeating. He laughs manic, breathless.
“Perfect soundtrack, isn’t it? Festive.” Another pussy slap.
SMACK.
Your vision whites out for a moment.
Rerir shudders. “Hah— yes.— that reaction,” undoing his pants with one hand, sliding his monstrous cock out with the other. Thick and pale with throbbing veins. Way too big to take, too big to survive.
He’s definitely from Khaenri'ah…nobody is built like... that.
It twitches as he lines it up against your dripping slit.
“You feel that?” His voice dips, possessive and raw. “You tied me in knots. You… you broke something inside me when you escaped.”
The ribbons tighten again—like they react to his heartbeat.
You’re choking on air now, and he chuckles, low and dark.
“Such a pretty sound,” he muses, sliding his massive hand down between your thighs, pushing the ribbon aside to expose your dripping heat. “Crying when you’re already soaked. Do you like being caught?”
His fingers—long, and thick—press against you, and you jolt, unable to move with your arms bound behind you.
“Look at me.” You do as his pink eyes burn through you, heat pooling where fear and arousal blur. “If you close those eyes, I’ll rip them open for you.”
He presses forward—barely the tip—and your body seizes, stretched around him painfully, gorgeously wide.
“Ngh-” hissing, grabbing your ass. “You’re squeezing me like you’re trying to keep me out.”
He pushes deeper.
Your scream is muffled by the gag.
“Mm-nah, not yet,” he rasped, gripping the ribbons at your back like reins. “Save the screaming for when I really start fucking you.”
He plunged his hips forward another impossible inch, your pussy whimpering with you burning in pain. Rerir grunts as he leans down, seeing tears spill down your face, his tongue darts out, licking the lines.
“Fuck- You can’t even take the tip of me, and you’re already crying.”
Your ribbon-bound thighs tremble violently, he groans—long, hungry, maddened, until he places both hands on your quivering hips, clearly impatient before he brutally shoved his whole length in one go.
Solid inches upon inches that were bruising, making your mouth let out a pathetic muffled cry, and if the ribbons weren’t gagging you, you probably would’ve made both y’all’s ears bleed.
Rerir watches with ragged breath when your trembling form tries to curl away from the overwhelming stretch—your pussy fluttering helplessly around the monstrous girth, forcing you open.
His massive frame leans in, bandaged face inches from yours, the warmth of his breath bleeding through the fabric with each heavy exhale.
“Too tight—too tight—fuck—” his voice is low and velvety, a silken danger wrapping around your spine. “You’ll tear around me before you ever escape me again.”
His hips shift forward again—slow, and torturous. Your bound thighs convulse as your cunt struggles to accommodate him.
His length drags along your slick walls with a wet, obscene pressure that makes your lungs thin out in a frantic gasp.
Humming at the sensation, Rerir savored the way your pussy clings desperately, as though trying to halt the intrusion and pull him deeper all at once.
“Such a fragile little thing…” he coos, running a hand down the trembling curve of your spine, fingertips ghosting along ribbon-tight flesh. “Wrapped like a present… yet you thought you could run.”
The radio glitches again. “You're a monster…Your heart's an empty hole…”
His voice curls around your ear like smoke. “How adorable.”
He retreats until the tip is out of your stretched entrance to pulse frantically at the loss—before plunging back in, deeper this time, silk ribbons biting harder into your skin.
You swore you stopped breathing for a moment.
The stretch borders on unbearable, deliciously unbearable, your heat molding around him inch by inch like you were nothing more than warm clay beneath his hands.
His hips pick up a rhythm—slow, deliberate thrusts that stroke against every pulsating ridge inside you, each withdrawal dragging slick out in messy wet strings, each descent heavier and deeper than the last.
Your bound form jerks with every movement, helpless to steady yourself, helpless to stop him.
“You feel every inch, don’t you?” he breathes, heat rolling off him in waves as he folds over you, chest brushing your back. “The way I stretch you… reshape you… brand you from the inside out.”
He shifts his grip, sliding both hands beneath your ribbon-bound hips, lifting you effortlessly into a new angle—one that leaves your pussy exposed to the dead audience, vulnerable, helpless to the bruising depth he forces on you.
You spasmed violently around him, and his voice fractures into a low, unfiltered groan—deep and primal and utterly consumed.
“No, no—don’t look away,” One hand tangles in your hair, wrenching your head back just enough for pain to bloom sharp along your scalp. “Eyes on me. Look at the man who slaughtered a room because they touched you.”
Rerir shudders, hips stuttering—then slams forward with zero mercy. “H-hold still—if you break, you break.” Fucking devouring you, letting out a primal, guttural roar as he feels your pussy walls clenching and gripping his swollen cock. “I’m mhng, not slowing down for ya.”
The sensation of your cunt sucking his thick shaft as he pounded into you with brutal, animalistic force sent a dark ecstasy surging through his muscular body.
His hips shoved forward again and again, the sound of your bodies slapping together echoing off the walls. Pussy gushing hot around him, slick coating his thick length, his breath catches in a shattered moan.
“Mhm, l-look at this mess,” pushing even deeper, until it feels like he’s rewriting the limits of your body. “I h-haven’t even filled you yet, and you’re dripping down your thighs like you’re begging for it.”
He pulls your hair harder, dragging your head back so he can watch your expression as your cunt spasms uncontrollably around him. “There it is, t-that’s the look ya- give right before y-you’re bred.”
Rerir's hips draw before slamming forward with a force that knocks every coherent thought out of your skull.
The floor vibrates beneath you. The ribbons bite deeper, your breathing breaks into raw sobbing, muffled ugly moans.
Thrusts devolving into a relentless grind that feels like worship and punishment at once. Until your orgasm hits so hard your eyes roll white, your whimpering pussy clamping down, sends him spiraling.
Rerir growls animalistically, his cock throbs violently inside you just once before—inflating your overstuffed pussy until Rerir slides a hand down to about halfway down your abdomen, pressing down at that nudge.
“Mine, Mine, ngh, Mine-”
He empties himself in long, shuddering pulses, filling your pretty pussy with his seed, each one adding to the pressure that rises in your abdomen, your gummy walls fluttering helplessly around the heavy spill.
His hand presses your stomach bulge again. “Hng-… f-fuck… look how full you are,” he pants voice breaking in awe. “S’right at home…”
And when the last spurt of cum leaves him, he doesn’t soften.
Still speared in you, he licks a slow, satisfied line up your tear-streaked cheek, seeing your teary eyes start to flutter close, “…don’t pass out yet..." He roughly fisted your hair.
"…I’m not done breaking my perfect runaway’s cunt properly.”
𝐚𝐧: woo chile im late but- merry belated dickmas! 🏃🏽♀️💨🎄
MDNI: NSFW, smut, breeding kink, fandoms: jjk, twst, bllk, hsr, genshin, dol. (Does this count as yandere? Yes. I see this as yandere childe ngl)
-Men who absolutely use your hole like a personal cumdump even after you've already fucked for hours in every position imaginable just to make damn sure it's ovulation time and you're primed to get properly knocked up with their seed.
-Men who love ruining your hole, having your face-down in doggy style, pounding you from behind while they pin your fingers hard against the bed, interlocking theirs with yours so tight you can't pull away even if you wanted to, skin slapping skin relentlessly
-Men who go completely feral at the thought of you carrying their kid, belly swollen with their baby and the idea of your tits heavy and leaking milk makes their eyes roll back while fucking you
-Men who baby-trap you because they're selfish piecrs of shit, lonely as hell, and desperate to give you a permanent reason to stay by breeding your cunt and tying you to them forever
kinich w/ an affectionate girlfriend that bites his cheeks... affectionately.
they don't know about us. ; walking in on their crush changing ft. albedo, alhaitham, capitano, childe, wriothesley, diluc, neuvillette, kinich, xiao, dainsleif, wanderer - suggestive !!
may i ask for your hand, only if i may? ; knight au w/ dainsleif, durin, varka, & rerir
may i ask for your hand, only if i may? 2 ; knight au w/ albedo, flins, scaramouche
durin x animal whisperer! gn! reader
it is my duty to... ; knight au but reader is the knight of royal! varka, scaramouche, albedo, and durin (separately)
lets go back to honeymoon avenue! ; columbina who is jealous, and reader cannot see for the life of them
no more ?'s!! ; genshin men w/ a reader who is unpredictable, and super skilled! (albedo, alhaitham, itto, cyno, diluc, flins, kinich, neuvillette, wriothesley, tartaglia x gn! reader who is similar to jetstream sam!)
yandere! durin x oblivious! gn! reader drabble
varka girl dad & husband hcs
capitano girl dad & husband hcs
motorcyclist varka x bartender! gn! reader
yandere durin comforts reader whose ex cheated
varka gets a dodococommunication notification but he’s a bit… busy
knight! illuga x royalty! gn! reader
illuga but one of his soldiers crush on his s/o
scaramouche & s/o exploring but theres a new little creature tagging along now too
that's when i fell deep in love with the person made in japan ; varka blurb x gn! reader based on 'made in japan' by buck owens
angst part two of this ^
fluff part two / alternative
flins can't keep his hands off you (suggestive only!!)
varka doesn’t argue with his s/o that much
lovedar activated! : where varka's dog, and your dog (+ your daughter with a mischievious plan) ends up turning their owners owner two hopeless people to two hopeless romantics!
i got fine shyt, now what. : their s/o is big-chested and they're just two losers who can't over that fact that you're a god/dess :33!!! (ft. xiao, itto x gn! reader)
while we're dancing on the edge of a knife : lohen is an idiot for not realizing he's head-over-heels for his secretary until they're taking a lethal hit for him. that sucks. (ft. lohen x gn! reader)
[ nsfw ]
next to me, again ; a rerir x gn! reader one shot, cw: somnophilia
eyeliner, a car, and a star ; an ayato one shot, cw: exhibitionism/semi-public sex
untitled sub! flins drabble
untitled fluffy sex drabble w/ kinich x gn! afab! reader
untitled desperate kinich x gn! afab! reader
yandere kinich x gn! afab! reader
can't get enough of me? ; sub! flins x gn! reader
hunter! rerir x (fake) forest ranger! reader ; where reader fakes being a forest ranger to see hunter! rerir, but that's against that company's guidelines... who's gonna keep your secret? (cw: cnc? breeding kink?)
drunk sex w/ varka (gn afab reader)
dilf! rerir x gn! afab! reader
i gotta give it to your… ; flins, tartaglia/childe, zhongli x f! reader w/ big boobs <3!! (separately)
“ tell me its love, tell me its real ” ; kinich x afab! reader public sex smut (1k words)
wanderer x fem! reader oneshot oral f! receiving (~1k words)
soft dom! columbina x switch! gn! afab! reader
zhongli & his two other copies x gn! reader (suggestive, part 1)
zhongli & his two other copies x gn! reader (actual smut)
husband! varka x afab! reader (cw: breeding kink)
capitano nsfw alphabet
varka size kink drabble
flins overstim drabble (fem anatomy! reader)
early morning sex w/ cop! flins (fem anatomy! reader)
varka x thick! fem! reader
"maybe ill stay, heaven can wait" ; itto x big chested! fem! reader
