Disillusionment
The pain drips slowly
It’s flow is full
Thick as honey
Dropping slow
Don’t you know me
Can you see me now
I’ve nothing to do
But numb myself out
I feel it falling
All around
It’s growing cold
Will you buy me a beer
To help me walk through this gold
You’re gone
It’s all empty
I’m devoid of sound
I can’t keep my focus
Losing interest too fast
Is this what ADHD is
Can I get some meds
Will it fix me
Can I fix me
Am I dead already
What’s better
What’s worse
Feeling
Or being cursed
To be numb
Feel none
Not your fingers
Not your tongue
I’m hollow
I walk
And can’t hear my footsteps
So I slump
To the ground
Through this town
And that
And yours
But it’s mind
It’s my heart
I can’t separate your core
I wish you’d leave
Wish you hated me
Wish I’d done something wrong
But I really only wanted
To belong
To you
No one else
I cringe from their touch
But it’s almost more painful
To live without affection
Though I’ve lived worse
I hope you miss me
Think of me
Maybe you shed one damn tear
But I don’t bank on it
I’m too pessimistic
To hold my breath
I fear
