I work like a caregiver of an old person and I was thinking how Leon would react and feel if he live enough to not have an epic death with this body still strong.
Let's be obvious, is what he would like. To do some last act of redemption, save a few lives and have a brave quick death in the field.
Because is obvious that even at his age, he is still pretty much in his prime, but no matter how much exercise you do, how many healthy foods you eat and doctors you visit, it will never stop the passage of time, the years. And even if you take care of yourself at max, life is a bitch. And the body will settle the bill of the things you did in the past. Which in his case is lots of injuries, alcohol and probably never enough sleep.
If you don't die on your prime, you will live long enough to see the effects. You die soon being a hero or you live enough to become a villan, as they say. Maybe he would be lucky and have a heart attack on the middle of his nap after 2 hour of hard exercise, but what if the years keep comming? How long he could keep the pace? At 70, mostly start to slow down. At 80 the body get older so quickly. Leon maybe would see his 90ths, 95... 96.... And all the entire process would kill him from inside.
Leon slowly starting to realize that his stamina is starting to go down, that he reached the max weight and that he can't lift heavier things. He can't add weight, he have to reduce weights. That his normal daily gym sessions keep him sore more days than before. The dread on his eyes when his body can't keep up the demands, the internal shame to the idea that his body is forcing him to slow down.
Leon always was proud of his physique, but he can't keep it so neat and fit anymore. Injures are happening so often now, and what before took him some days to recover, now the doctors tell him that would take months, that if he keep pushing his body, he will get severely injured.
And as someone who probably see himself like a prime weapon, a tool, a deadly axe and a sharp aim, his mental health would get so bad, so quickly, now that he can't keep saving people. He can't save anyone anymore, he need to focus in not damage himself.
He would hate the moment someone call him "grandpa". He would smile and all, but it would break his heart, a reminder of how his clock is ticking out, and how irremediably useless he will become.
Old Leon would turn into one of these quiet serious old people, with the eyes lost somewhere, remembering all his past, over and over. When his body can't no longer turn his present in something useful, he would regret and bury himself on the mistakes he made in the past. Because he isn't someone who count his wins. He would drown in the memories, alcohol (that was always his escape) would be now his only way to live.
Old Leon seeing his body thin now, weak, struggling with daily things, aches and pain trobbing his mind all day long. Old wounds hurt, old injures hurt, and his joints, after decades of being punched and hitted, hurt, a trobbing deep pain that flood him from inside.
Old Leon, who always felt proud of his memory, noticing how some specific words don't came so easily. And then the questions would fill his mind, more and more with the years. How this thing was called? This person who was exactly? What I ate yesterday? When was the last time I took a shower? Wait, did I called Sherry today? When was Grace's birthday? Grace's girl, yes, Emilia... No, Emi...? .......... Who are you?....
And everyone would see him crumble, little by little, like the buildings on Raccoon City.
"Leon, can you tell me again about when you saved the daughter's president? Please? Try it.... Try to remember...."
And one day, Leon would not speak anymore. His tired blue eyes looking at the T.V, the moving shapes barely doing anything to his mind. His weak hand unable to hold his glass of alcohol. His very wrinkled old face not turning when someone speak to him. Too deaf to hear without his aid. Someone taking him on his wheelchair for him to take some sun.
He would die, without being aware of how much others love him, and without remember the lives he saved.
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