Dont Want FeelingS To Come Out

Loving myself.

[lifespoop]

Cause I really try not to care but bro is difficult because life was made to have a couple, not to not have it

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Why do society makes having a couple feels like if you don’t get to have one your life is wrong?

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Wtf

[anxietyproblem]

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I feel like I fixed you and your not loving me back

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Debo irme lejos.

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No se si contar esto, no quiero asustar a nadie, o que crean que de verdad estoy loca

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De tanto que me dicen que tengo problemas, me lo estoy creyendo.

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Las situaciones que surgen por impulso de otro recaen sobre mi y luego me hacen ver como que soy yo la que tiene problemas psicológicos, y hablan mal de mi en mi cara, diciendo que lo qué pasó fue por mi culpa cuando yo literalmente no he hecho nada para provocarlo.

Eso a veces me hace dudar de mi, y preguntarme si debería seguir aquí.

Y el pensar así me hace dudar aún más, realmente estaré siguiendo alguna enfermedad mental? Estoy loca? O que ? No entiendo pero tengo miedo

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Esto es tan ridiculo

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Tengo miedo de mi

[apocope-emocional]

Tengo miedo de tener una recaída. Tengo miedo de no querer levantarme más.

[enlameaface]

🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️

[lifespoop]

You don’t know how deep this actually gets

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I forgot how empty I actually am until you asked me if I had suicidal thoughts

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Those days without you, I felt free, i felt like i was finally breathing, my anxiety went on vacations, until I realized, that you may not be ok, I felt that I left you because of who you are, because how you act on me, which I rather think is result of the shade following you everywhere.

But also understand me, hurt is hurt, no matter if it was intentional or not it did hurted, but again, as I said months ago, no matter what, no matter how, no matter where, I am always gonna be here to bright those corners where the shades that follows you lives in.

[lifespoop]

Think before doing something, think about how she’d feel if I do it ??

Say no if you can’t, you don’t have to be there everytime, you’re not fucking perfect, don’t make fake and empty promises.

Care for yours, you weren’t love, but let people love you and you’ll learn how to do it too.

If there’s something you don’t like, say it.

Be thankful, there is people that don’t have literally anything, and your table has never been empty.

Analize people around you, what are they doing for me? What am I doing for them? Why are they still here? Why do I still have them close? Ask yourself about everything, and that how life start having some sense.

Dont leave those you love, but neither let them go.

[lifespoop]

So let’s go ahead and learn how to fix it.