envy

TW: ED 18 • 5’2 live as if it’s your last day on earth

[livingproblem]

the urge to paint my arms in red has never been so strong

[livingproblem]

life has been unreal lately, like what? been wishing i was asleep forever a lot though..

[livingproblem]

also, i recently got out of purging/binging, but it seems like my purging phase is back 🕸️ it’s so bad, but i feel so much better by doing it. idk maybe i’m weird ??

[livingproblem]

my mom and i are trying something that’s called the carnivore diet, which is essentially just eating meat and that’s basically it. so many people have lost weight through it, and now i’m ready to try it. so restricting/eating only meat for the next three weeks: here i come

[livingproblem]

holy shit, is this what rock bottom feels like??

[livingproblem]

recently was in recovery cause of an ex who forced me into it, sucked ass and i gained so much weight and now i’m back where i started. sometimes it kills how much people don’t understand the need for this

[thoughtkick]

“I love you, that means I’m not just here for the pretty parts. I’m here no matter what.”

— Claudia Gray

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[fedsvin]

Good morning to all you sad gay people on my phone

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Lol I’m sitting in my room coming to the realisation that I’m fucking twisted…

Among my friends (all thin and beautiful) I am the ‘thick’ one.

Okay fine…I get guys because I have boobs and an ass but I don’t care. I want to be thin. Skinny. Skeletal.

I want my friends to ask me “what’s your secret?!’” and tell me “your bod looks amazing!”.

As I get smaller and smaller I want to see the hint of concern in their eyes, in everyone’s eyes.

I want people to whisper about me behind my back, and start asking if I’m okay.

I want them to be scared about what they say around me, not only because I’m clearly mentally unstable but also because I look so frail a single breath could knock me off my feet.

I want them to confront me and beg me to ‘stop’, beg me to eat something. And I’ll refuse, I’ll always refuse.

I want to be the corrupt, sick but beautiful girl who’s voice tells me to put the food down. I love the ana lifestyle, and I’ll never stop loving it.

Even if it’s kills me.

[lost-in-my-body]

Jealousy

I’m jealous,

of those who can eat without counting each calorie they consume

of those who can look at themselves in the mirror and be happy with what they see

of those who don’t constantly worry about their weight

of those who can eat sweets without a second thought

of those who are simply happy the way they look

But I’m the most jealous

of those whose thighs don’t touch

of those who can wear anything and look gorgeous

of those who are as light as a feather

of those who can be picked up and carried with ease

of those who loose weight without any struggle

of those who have small wrists

of those who have a small waist

of those who have self control

of those who are skinny

[love]

[livingproblem]

sometimes i look at others and i think to myself, at least i’m not that weight. is that wrong of me?

[vanish]

Artist

[livingproblem]

sometimes i just feel like disappearing until i look how i want to look, and then reappear and say hey bitches i’m back better then eva 😩

[need-to-be-skinny812]

Only reblog this if you can and will lose the weight. No excuses. You are in control.