The first time i saw you, (OJT days) i said to my self that āHindi ko to makakasundo, supladoā but i like that kind of guy. Yung suplado. Malakas kasi ang dating. Then the following day you just ask kung saang school ako and where i am from. And hindi mo na ulit ako pinapansin. Ikaw lang yung hindi pumapansin sakin non. š Nakita kitang pumorma. I love that kind of style. Dancer style. Even though hindi ako dancer alam ko ung mga style nila. Ganun din kasi ako pumorma. š Hanggang sa napansin mo ko. Kasi palagi akong nakangiti. Then you said that āHulaan ko, my award ka nung maliit ka paā sabi ko āhuh?ā You said āMasiyahin, lagi ka kasing nkangiti eā and i was just looking at your eyes and smile. (Mahilig akong tumitig sa mataš) tapos andun nadin ung time na tinanong mo kung my ābfā ako oh my ānanliligaw sakinā i said wala. Thatās the truth. Then yung friend ko sa sa hotel na katabi lng ng resto na ping oojthan ko naging friend mo din pala. Tinext mo sya kung pwede akong pormahan. that time ksma ko ung friend ko at nkkita ko ung text nyo. I already like you that time. Hindi ako tanga para sabhin sayo un. Tapos nakktxt na kita. Ang una mong sinabi sakin may anak kna. At may asawa na pero wala ng ngyyari sainyo ng asawa mo. Tinanong mo ako kung tanggap kita na my anak kna. Dahil manliligaw ka. I said yes. it doesnāt matter. Because i love kids. Hanggang sa you promised me na pahhalagahan mo ako. Iingatan mo ako. I saw it. Ginagawa mo.
Then justine came in, heās my crush. Nakikita ko sya everytime na my inuman sa bahay ng tropa ko. Ung tropa kong yon din ang dhilan kung bakit kami ng kakilala. Hanggang sa nakkatxt ko na sya. Tumatawag sya lagi sakin until midnight. I liked that. Hanggang sa nagkainisan tayo. Nanlamig ako sayo. Tinamad ako sayo. Na turn off ako sayo when i hear you talking back to your mom. I donāt know if it is because of alex. that im falling for him and im just in denial. And now hindi na tayo nkkpagtxt. No communications.
Many flings before you came lex. I thought that you are one of them. Na hindi makakatagal. Because iām a moody person. We see something in each other. Youāre not giving up even i say so. Sabi ko nga. āYouāre the last man standingā kasi wala na si justine.
The thing is. I choose you over the other. You have a family. Youāre a married man. You have a sweet and cute little daughter. You told me that, you didnāt love her. And im the one you love now. At first, hindi ako naniniwala well, until now. Meron paring doubt. Hindi maiwasan. Youāre living with her, share bed with her but with your daughter beside. You know that i have trust issues in mens because of my past relationship. But itās okay with you. Youāre working on that. And i choose to trust you fully dahil sa mga ginagawa mo. Palagi kang ng kkwento sakin about sa buhay mo. and im listening to it.
Naaksidente ako. Papunta ako sayo non. Hindi ko alam kung tadhana na ang ng ssabi na bawal tayo. Bawal naman talaga. Mali ako. Mali tayo. Ayokong sabhin sa kaibigan ko kasi maggalit sya sken. Alam nya yung tungkol satin. Pati ung tinext ako ng asawa mo. Kasi akala nya my relasyon tayo. Which is half truth.
I am taking risk here. Masaya ako sayo. Ganun kadin. Magkausap lagi tayo sa phone. mgktxt. Pero kapag nasa bahay kna wala tayong text at tawag. Sabi mo oras at panahon nalang inaantay kasi mg hihiwalay na kayo. The question is until when?
Ps. Hindi ko pa sya boyfriend. Pero mahal ko na sya. Hindi nya alam.
