feel'n ded

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[lookndead-blog]

“are you… throwing up in there?”

As I sat up against the door, wiping away some of the throw up around my lips, I ignored Mia, hoping she would leave me in peace. I didn’t want to talk to anyone right now. Too many thoughts were running through my head enabling me to even focus or think clearly. I wasn’t expecting to get as drunk as I did the other night. I don’t think Nathan did either. It was a stupid mistake the both of us made. After Sam went missing, Nathan and I became closer. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t falling in love with him. I’ve always sheltered myself and never opened up to anyone often. Especially in the state our world is in now. I finally began to feel safe with the presence of Nathan. Having him around has made living more bearable. I don’t want to raise a baby in this post-apocalyptic world. I don’t even know if I would be able to survive that long with the conditions I will be in for the next nine months. I need to tell Nathan, but ever since Sam came back, Nathan has been happier. I’m happy for him. Thinking you lost the person you love, and then finding them later in safe conditions must be a magical feeling. I don’t want to lose the feeling of love I’ve just discovered. It’s almost as if it’s my turn to lose the one I love, but why do I have to continue to see his smiling face everyday as he falls deeper in love with Sam and more distant with me everyday?

[sandcvstles]

hurt meme.

[spctlessminds]

theoneswithoutpacks:

blueneighbcrhood:

“ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”

“i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”

“my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”

“i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”

“don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!”

“i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”

“please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”

“you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”

“you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”

“i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”

“i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”

“i fucked up, why do you not care?”

“i can’t walk, just go on without me.”

“you have broken ribs, take it easy.”

“i have no idea how to do cpr.”

“whose blood is that?”

“apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”

“don’t you dare fucking let go!” 

“what the hell happened to you?” 

“are they dead? did you kill them?” 

“do you know what you’ve done?” 

“you’re either with me or against me.” 

“who the hell did this to you?” 

“are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 

“i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?” 

“when was the last time you ate?” 

“what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 

 “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 

“for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“ 

“there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 

“are you… throwing up in there?” 

“why aren’t you eating?” 

“just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 

“i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 

“i woke up, & you were gone.” 

“just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 

“it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”

[lockethearted]

               { ♥️ } - - ;;  Taking a drag from a cigarette she’d had previously stashed away in her coat pocket , Serafina glowered into the distance from where she sat , perched atop the school building . Below her in the distance , walkers shambled along and growled as they always did . She curled up her lip in disgust as she kept her eyes on them , but for once offered up some words to her companion .

          ❝ Chaos is what killed the dinosaurs , darling . It’s only inevitable that it’d happen again in due time . ❞ // @lookndead

[lookndead-blog]

Continuing to stare down at the walkers, Nate took a moment before responding.

“How iconic, you struggle to stay alive, yet willingly place a different killer between your lips,” Nate jokingly scoffed.

“What’s our next move?”