I deserve better than what I have given myself

My mind is such a scary place to be. But I want to fill it with beautiful colors and love. Here is my journey to recovery.

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Hormones, Birth Control, Periods, UGH

Hormones, Birth Control, Periods, UGH

Today on the blog we are chatting about all things menstrual cycle, birth control, and hormones. If any of that ain’t your thing- don’t stress. I’ll see ya next time around!   Before I start this post, I want to make this disclaimer: I don’t want to turn this into a sociopolitical or religious conversation. This is me sharing my experience. This is not a medical conversation. You can disagree…

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An Honest Update

When I was in high school, a teacher of mine who I deeply respect once said during a lecture:   “The average person is exposed to every emotion the human is capable of experiencing by the age of eighteen.”   I took him at his -almost literal- word, figuring that by the end of my freshman year of college, I’d be set for life.   Boy how wrong I was. (more…)

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Senior year is here, but *senioritis* doesn't exist for me.

Senior year is here, but *senioritis* doesn’t exist for me.

It’s been an emotionally transformative week as I come to terms with the start of the school year. I want to devote the time to write for myself, especially during the school year when so much of my writing is academic. I began to journal this out and decided to post it on the blog to connect with any of you out there going through significant life changes as well. SO much love to all of you out…

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Owning my Honest Opinions

Owning my Honest Opinions

  You know those topics that come up that somehow people form very strong opinions about?   Coke vs. Pepsi (I’m indifferent on this one) Dean vs. Jess vs. Logan (100% Jess. Dean? Ew. Logan? NO.) Chocolate vs. Vanilla (chocolate) Dogs vs. Cats (catsssssss- uh have you seen my instagram lately?)   But then there are more personal topics that people for opinions about, usually based on their own…

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On Repelling Change + What I'm Doing to Take Care of Myself

On Repelling Change + What I’m Doing to Take Care of Myself

In the time I’ve spent away from my blog, I finished up my summer job, said goodbye to my family home, moved in with my boyfriend, and adopted my own cat. Oh, and in two weeks I start my senior year of college. I also bought a textbook that weighs more than my head that will supposedly get me into grad school. I’m applying for a joint masters/PhD program… it’s a long shot, but still… that could…

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Summer Updates

It baffles me how this website of mine used to keep me afloat, but now I hardly ever think about it. Perhaps that’s a testament to my recovery, but ultimately I think it’s indicative at how busy life is. Every so often I think to myself, I should come on here and provide and update, but that leaves me feeling exhausted even before I open up my laptop.   Writing, for me, has always come in waves.…

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My thoughts on "To The Bone" - Review

I do not support Netflix's film about anorexia. Here's why. Please share.

After getting a bit riled up about Netflix’s new film, “To The Bone,” last week, ultimately curiosity got the best of me. I watched it Saturday afternoon and wanted to share my thoughts here. Prior to reading this post, I must inform you that there could potentially be information related to eating disorders that are triggering to some. Additionally, I’m not going to attempt to abstain from…

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Currently: July 2017

Hi friends. Miss you all. Popping in to share some life updates!

Hi friends! Happy Sunday. I miss you all so much. As much as I’d like to say today will be dedicated to catching up on blog comments, emails, inquiries, and reading other blogs, I’m not sure I can get to that. I barely had time for this post, but I had the instinct to blog, so I went with it. I’m trying to be more proactive about taking breaks (because life is BUSY), but after I hit publish to…

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Netflix's New Film "To The Bone" Trailer: What do you think?

Netflix’s New Film “To The Bone” Trailer: What do you think?

I realize Facebook is hardly the medium for prolific conversation, but since I saw the trailer here, I posted the below post on my profile. I decided to post it here as well, because I know the readers of this blog never fail to leave insightful and resourceful comments.   Before watching, I must provide the ever-important trigger…

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What life is really like after having anorexia.

What life is really like after having anorexia.

It doesn’t all go away. It just doesn’t. That’s the truth. If by some wonder you are 100% disordered thought-free, and you love yourself 24/7, well good for you, but you’re probably the only person out there who has that recovery experience.   In the weeks leading up to me sitting down right now to write this, I’ve given a lot of thought to what it means to live in the aftermath of an eating…

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DOn't Know What's Going On, But I'm Happy. Oh, & a Social Media Detox

DOn’t Know What’s Going On, But I’m Happy. Oh, & a Social Media Detox

The title pretty much sums it all up for me. Life right now, although on the surface doesn’t appear all that different from before, is showing me a whole new layer of the world. Be prepared for a pretty random, all-over-the-place post from me.   To start, I’ve almost given up  on social media in its entirety. This change came about pretty drastically. One day, I just got fed up with it. I deleted…

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Blogging Burnout? Do I say goodbye to my blog? Helppppp.

Blogging Burnout? Do I say goodbye to my blog? Helppppp.

Hi beautiful, kind, intelligent friends.     You’d think with it being the summer, I’d pop up on the blog every day with bursts of thoughts and ideas. Yet, here I am, letting weeks go by, not even thinking of posting. Well, that’s half true. At least once a day, I think about Drops of Jules and consider posting. When I begin drumming up ideas, nothing sparks a fire in me. Instead of attempting to…

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Rereading Old Poetry - Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

I came cross and old journal today and learned I have grown a lot.

  Last week, I cleaned out my childhood bedroom. This is the first time I’m staying here in the room for the entire summer since moving away to college, so rather than let myself live in cramped quarters for the entire summer, I somewhat attempted to clean up and declutter.   During that time, I came across old journals and notebooks. One of the notebooks in particular chronicled my time during…

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I become mean when I'm unhappy with myself.

I want to go back to when "nice" felt natural.

  Now that I’m back home, I’ve had a lot of down time, relative to what my school year is like. Ever since then, it’s like my mind is on overdrive, analyzing all of the mistakes I made throughout the semester. What? Me? Overthink? Get down on myself for every little thing I did wrong? That doesn’t sound like me… HAH. Of course it sounds like me.. No wonder I struggle with my mental health. (more…)

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Happy Mother's Day & Let's Play Catch Up!

Happy Mother’s Day & Let’s Play Catch Up!

Happy happy happy happy Mother’s Day! I hope you all are doing something fun to either celebrate yourselves or the maternal figures in your life, whether biological, emotional, or anything else. Love all the high school pictures.   Yesterday, I packed up the car and headed back to my home in Los Angeles. Junior year of college is officially over! It was a long day and I knocked out hard, sleeping…

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Summer Projects

Every time I come on the blog to write a post, I stare at my screen thinking to myself… well?   With the school year wrapping up, it’s evident that I’m feeling a bit lost. I want something to sink my teeth into, and I’m feeling restless and a bit lethargic. Those are all indicator I need a new project to work on. (more…)

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10 Lessons I Learned This Semester

With the semester wrapping up, I like to get all introspective. 10 Lessons I Learned This Semester

Welcome to Life Lessons with Jules! It’s time for my bi-annual roundup of “1 Things I Learned this Semester.” This roundup of lessons began over a brief excerpt I wrote for Instagram, and I decided I expand upon it for a blog post! Every year, I like to reflect on my time I’ve spent in school and outside in social settings, to monitor my growth as an individual. This spring, I definitely have…

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