Lee

19. punch me in the face

[lou1sbloom]

Intro

Alias: Lee (purely because it’s my middle name). — 19 / aug ‘06. I am a cis-male. I write, I read. AO3:

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I have mental health disorders and generic issues.

Not a fan of replying to dms, and when I do I will be blunt. Apparently it comes off rude, as I don’t use emojis for anyone except for a total 3 people. I find them childish, I’m a loser who lacks whimsy.

This account is rot.

[lou1sbloom]

Currently in the stage of adulting where I’m going from passenger princess without a license, to being the son picking up his drunk parents from across town every Friday night. To add, unlike them, I will be bringing a bucket along for my mother. Lord knows she cannot keep alcohol down even in smaller increments

[lou1sbloom]

Walking in the dark and did some bullshit stepping on one of the three rakes around the property and didn’t hear it (headphones are noise cancelling) and SMACKED myself in the fucking face

[tdotndot21]

Does anyone know

[lou1sbloom]

Jesus Christ I need to dye my hair again wtf do you mean I found a tiny cluster of grey hair??! I’M NINETEEN

[lou1sbloom]

I just want to sleep what the hell is this wine doing man

[lou1sbloom]

What the fuck

[lou1sbloom]

Lord I may not be your strongest soldier keep me away from the white wine it is seemingly inducing great nausea, and I do not fancy actually using the pail at my bedside

[blackboxdefect]

Hi other 5 citr fans

[lou1sbloom]

Just realised I was SO CLOSE to my initials being MLM but instead, thankfully, my initials are MLQ

[lou1sbloom]

Just put my tiktok name as my middle name and I’ve become repulsed by how androgynous my full name is.

Both my brothers have masculine male names.

All 4 sisters have blatantly female names, though my youngest sister’s name is Willow which is arguably unisex.

I’m the oldest and first son and it’s some androgynous bullshit 😭 I even have a different surname to all my siblings. Made for weird looks when I started highschool and they anticipated a 12 year old girl and got this stank of a preteen boy

Edit: I’ve just realised I misread the ‘7 day thing’. I can’t change it and I HATE IT already

[frederickchiltonsdivacup]

I don't smoke cigarettes but i swear to god I need one when I'm talking to most people about The Catcher in the Rye. No, that 16 year old is not the spawn of satan. He is not a bad person either. Yes, teenagers are still children. Yes, it is heavily implied through his behaviors, thoughts, perspectives, fears, and compulsions that he was sexually assaulted, even if there isn't a chapter where Holden says out loud "I was assaulted." Yes, it is anti-war. Yes, it is actually commentary on world war 2. Yes, it is actually that deep, and that is why it has been remembered & celebrated & read for this long. They wouldn't make you read this book multiple times in classes about important literature during your formative years if it wasn't at least a little important.

Yes, Holden Caulfield's ideas are hypocritical and self-contradicting. No, that does not mean he is a bad person. Everyone is contradictory, and if you aren't, you should become more nuanced in general.

Yes, I am aware that Holden describes himself as being an incredibly sexual person, then freaks out at the mention or thought of intimacy. Did you see the part where I said that he was implied to be a survivor of childhood sexual assault? Yeah, this is one of those parts that's supposed to make the CSA plotline click in your mind. Did it click? No. Is that J.D. Salinger's problem? No. Are people who experienced CSA more likely to understand Catcher than people who haven't? Yes, because the novel portrays Holden's trauma incredibly well. Is Holden "just an immature selfish creep" because he's fixated on childhood and laments the inevitable loss of innocence that could happen to anyone at any moment? NO. ONCE AGAIN, READ THE PART WHERE HIS KID BROTHER DIED UNEXPECTEDLY & HOLDEN WAS SEXUALLY ABUSED AS A CHILD.

The book makes more sense when you actually read it, I swear to God.

[marspirits]

[lou1sbloom]

Damn. A fucking stroke at the brainstem.

Shows you can be as healthy as you want; make it to your 90’s and still not be guaranteed a peaceful death.

Lad’s got less than 48 hours at most, sort of sad because people noticed IMMEDIATELY when he wasn’t around because he’s that present and that active. Welfare check. Fuck man

[lou1sbloom]

I won’t elaborate on the film it is, but people who watch this film are STUPID.

Character grew up in the system and visits paedo ex-father (religious) and clarifies to the man that hurting him would be a real treat.

And people think it’s just him being law enforcement n shit, but he literally mentions his past in a specific foster/group home n shit: he is heavily implying abuse if not sexual abuse.

And then another where they question if he had a gf or wife and wish they had more focus. His boss literally tells him in the film he should find a girl n settle down.

Or they class him as a ‘pretty lana del ray cop who would love a passenger princess’ when the dude is miserable, and has unresolved trauma that makes him violent at times. He is a liability but he’s too good at what he does. He would die in the line of action when he wouldn’t have to have done that.

[franksaidso]

i like to become my cowboy persona on my runs hes very cool i know all about him

[riotd]

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything