RELAPSE QUEEN

from meth addict to working wife to meth addict with no fucks left

[madam555666]

[madam555666]

[madam555666]

[madam555666]

From the last time I was clean to a couple of months ago 7 months in active addiction started from the bottom homeless, to recovery, got a job, then my own apt, thinking I found the one who later proposed, family was complete, then stress, fiance sending dick pics, Quit job, couldn't find work, reunited with my best friend in active addiction, tried to help as recovery faulted, a friend dies, got loaded, meth or him ? He left, stupid me I wasn't enough he already found my replacement, lost car, lost family, apartments gone and here I am trying to get into rehab but really I don't want too I'm not done already hit jails and institutions they say deaths next guess we'll find out soon enough

[madam555666]

[and-valium-said-to-me]

Ok I fucked this life up… where do I go to start over?

theres no redeeming myself at this point

[infinitelyfucked666]

She got into drugs because she didn’t feel enough, he got into drugs because he felt too much..

[opioidwastoid]

[addictedtanegativity]

““I kept getting high to kill my shame at the fact that I kept getting high.””

— (via queenondope)

[6alaal]

it's not a secret, but it's not your business either.

[crystallinemethod]

The Mind Of A Tweaker

“I’m high as fuck” “I could get higher” “When was the last time I slept” “What was that noise” “Oh my god they know I’m high” “Don’t make eye contact” “Shut the fuck up, stop talking” (keeps talking) “Stop doing this” (Does more) “What am I doing with my life?” “I can do EVERYTHING right now” (Stays in uncomfortable position for 6 hours)

[baby-tweakz]

Lmfaoooo the accuracy

[madam555666]

LMFAO

Damn wish I had sex as much as these dudes think I do, when they bone out on me! So fuck it another night alone with my drugs least they never abandoned me

[madam555666]

TRIGGER WARNING SEMI GRAPHIC DETAIL

Miss my little puppers! freak accident but i mostly blame my ex after leaving he had pushed a used water heater he left behind towards the house knowing full well Mr. Harley gets himself wrapped around anything near him while on his lead (hes a runner and ex was too lazy to fix our fence) so while i was inside taking a shower he had strangled himself by the time i got out there he was already gone, i still see his lifeless body when i close my eyes, i cant bare to even go out back for anything anymore and send my roommates out there, my ex trashed the place before he left leaving what wasnt of value.

I made sure I told him although he doesn't respond to my txt they are however left on read, i keep thinking why wasn't i more careful, or why did i let him go out at that time of day, or any number of reasons why???? We had another doggo together an American bulldog Brewsky which he made sure he took along with out 7ft boa which i paid for both, paid for all of Brewskys shots and tags while buying Mr. J his enclosure, and plants heating mat, and most of his rats i miss them too! 2 yrs down the drain and a family split apart although I'm glad he's gone but the damage he's left in his wake will take a long time to fix

[madam555666]

Fuck it all

Went off the deep end month long binder after the fiance left, cheating lying scum used my addiction as a reason for leaving posting on FB our personal problems left me with ton of debt losing my apt, car repossessed engagement rings disappeared right before he left, according to his ex wife he likes to sell them. Made amends to the ex he left for me cuz he did the same shit to her, maybe karma but fuck thats enough now 2 days clean and i dont wanna be when he left tried to kill myself didnt work now another scar to go along with the rest now I'm listening to sad breakup songs crying again while he holds some new snatch in his arms while i feel like the worlds crashing in and can barely breath just wanna use.....or die maybe both who knows

[thepersonalquotes]

[madam555666]

Replacing meth with kink again it did a lot more good than NA tbh

Now using kinkD all along with my og kink/fetish app

[madam555666]

Welllll 🤷‍♀️ 70% of my FB are recovering addicts including my parents they have suspensions but no proof of relapse.... well shit they will now