木头人

tired of existing // stan exo ,, #baekhyun —

[manixpixie]

tangina ang hirap mag move-on.

[manixpixie]

at nandito ulit ako sa situation na to 

[what-iz-life]

Your real soulmate will naturally make you feel seen, heard, understood, valued, supported & loved. They'll bring out your inner child, be open with you & give you best friend vibes. They'll heal, grow & evolve with you–not only in this lifetime but in every dimension & level up.

[deviika]

— William Chapman

[virginiewoolf]

Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[weltenwellen]

Kerry Egan, On Living

[manixpixie]

stop, you're losin' me I can't find a pulse my heart won't start anymore for you

[manixpixie]

may times na gusto ko na tapusin di ko alam kung bakit pero parang ayoko na, pero at the same time di ko naman magawa. naccringe ako aaaaah parang ayoko na magkaboyfriend 🙃

[manixpixie]

napadownload ako ulit neto kasi gusto ko mag rant. dami kong gusto sabihin kanina pero quite na lang ako. nakakasama ng loob, ako na halos nagbabayad ng lahat tas pag siningil mo kasi usapan magbabayad sya magagalit pa na parang wala akong utang na loob. nakakapikon. ang hilig nya pa-utang bayaran ko or wala akong pera pahiram.. pero pag ako may utang kailangan bayaran ko agad.. anubaa ang usapan groceries lang sakin pero bakit naging bills din. pag walang pagkain ako nagbabayad ng order sa grab. sinabi mo pa nun na di ko obligasyon pero parang ganon na din naman nangyari. di ako makapagresign kahit ang toxic ng work kasi iniisip ko pano pagkain at yung bills lalo na di ako nakakapag ipon. nakakainis kasi nagpapakapagod ako sa trabaho tapos ako pa yung mali para sainyo pag di ako nakapagpahiram or nagbigay.

[escafeism]

There was a time when I used to look at you with stars in my eyes.

Now all I do is hope that you’re as far away from me as the stars are

[escafeism]

To you, who feels overlooked,

I want to rebuke you by thinking that you are a shadow of someone else. That you are always at the back of the curtain while they are all shining on the spotlight. You feel like you are not worthy of their praises despite of how faithful you are in working but no one even noticed it.

You feel unappreciated.

You feel unimportant.

You feel overlooked.

But here's the tea beloved,

He sees you —everything that you are doing.

He is not after the good works you can do for Him,

He sees and appreciates you while everyone was appreciating someone else.

He sees you even when you think you failed Him.

He sees your passion in working and He wants you to be proud on yourself too just like how He feels for you.

He sees you while you are at the very end of the line, being the least of them.

He sees you while you are waiting for them to appreciate your work.

He sees you and He celebrates you.

You may find it hard to understand how His perfect love handpicked someone like you and no matter how seemingly insignificant what you are doing in this world's standard, He looks at you with delight.

Not one thing was missed in His eyes —and you may be at the end of the line, His eyes is searching for you and He utters "No better view than you, my Love."

—🥀j.a

[escafeism]

If she ever does give up on you, know that it took her a lot of courage to do that —it cost her everything to realize that this too much burden is not for her to carry.

She's the type who would give endless chances, still chooses to trust even after rejections and harsh-evaluations, always chooses to stay and accepts people regardless of their past and mistakes.

She's the type who would be there for you when everyone else thinks you're hopeless —she will be there for you even when she shouldn't be.

She's the type who believes that everyone has their goodness in their hearts. She would fight for you even when you don't deserve to be fought for.

She's the type who keeps on holding on even when she should have let you go a long time ago and chooses to love and understand you even when she has all the reason to leave you.

If she ever does give up on you, realize how much it took her to her to get to that point. She may seem strong but she can only allow herself to get hurt so many times until she's had enough.

—🥀j.a

[escafeism]

Why do we try so hard for people who don't try for us

[escafeism]

There are many things I could say to you. This letter won't sum up the message I'm dying to tell you but many of those words may not be very nice and most of them probably wouldn't make a difference to you in any way. With all the things I would want you to hear from me, here it is:

I forgive you —

I forgive you for keeping me up so many late nights wondering where you were, who you were with, what you were doing, because you wouldn't bother to tell me.

I forgive you—

I forgive you for calling me names like crazy, annoying, attention seeker, pathetic, childish and all because I wanted you to love me, and only me. Is it even too much to ask? I guess it is.

I forgive you—

I forgive you for the countless fights about the same things over and over again because it seemed that no matter how much it hurt me, you didn't care. For all your “it won't happen again's" when you always did the same mistake and for your “give me another chance's" when you truly didn't deserve them.

I forgive you—

There is no hope in holding onto the anger and sadness of something that was not real. Of someone that is not even man enough to respect me and fight for me.

I forgive you—

I forgive you because in order to love who I am, I cannot hate the experiences that molded me. I will never get back the many things you have taken from me but there is one thing I have and it is something I could never have while being with you. Something I have gained while letting you go —Self Worth.

So I forgive you.

I forgive you for making me believe that the never ending feeling of fear, sadness, and hopelessness was love.

Don't worry, I forgive you.

Have a life now.

—🥀j.a

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