Masonwrites

Here I post my poetry, some are in English and others are in Italian

[masonwrites333]

Rip me out like a weed

Cause I don’t belong but

Save me from having to sing along

To your song that it’s poisoning me

Killing me inside with every note

Every word that doesn’t rhyme with mine

I don’t dance because I like to

I dance cause I’m strung along

By a rope tied around my waist

Like a “present”

Left by the cat on your window sill

Just Look what the cat dragged in

I can’t breathe I can’t cope,

Anymore with this shit,

No metafors no similies,

To describe it. Plain stated fact.

Rude, I’ll give you that.

What is it that the black sheep lack?

It was never straight, the lines all jagged.

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The tears don’t well anymore

The tears don’t well anymore

They stay stuck behind

Building up like a flood

At the back of my eyes

Contained

I dont even have to try

To hide the pain inside

Cause that’s where it stays

Numbed, it builds up like a weight

In my heavy arms and shaky hands

And shoulders and back and neck

And gut

It churns

With the acid in my stomach

It’s burns, but it’s numbed just enough

If I took a knife and cut it out

Would it be enough

Would it burn like the fire

I keep craving to feel

Something powerfull and real

Something that makes you scream in pain

Like being cut open by a thousand blades

And when I’m there on the ground

Almost lifeless dissected like a pig

Will it be enough to let out

This ranging pain within

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My heart is rotting

Torn to shreads

By worms that churn

In my gut with the acid and my emotions

Black as ink

Pervasive darkness

Wraps around my throat

Like rope that pulls and pulls and pulls

And won't let me go

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knife on my neck i should run but im not afraid of the pot boiling over and spilling on the floor and of the car crashing if I’m thrown in the air flying i should cry instead i feel nothing. get me out of here im running out of air out of breaths everything hurts everywhere. emotions bottle up like beer bottles in the fridge stacked up but frozen, like ice, sharp like a dagger in my chest i know im on fire but i cant feel it burn.

its just water water, only water and it falls from my eyes. and i could swear it felt like blood before. red hot boiling blood drowining me up to my chin. theres pain within im just dis connected

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Floodgates

I keep the pain inside

Tight

(Trapped)

Between breaths

And sips of water

Till it OVERFLOWS

And leaks out

BUT DONT OPEN THE FLOODGATES

CAUSE IM SCARED I MIGHT DROWN

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Song I wrote called “just like you told me” lyrics

Feel deep

Like a void of darkness slowly taking over me

And my energy is dripping

away slowly

To be honest I’m scared

That if I think to much

I’ll be let astray

To a dark place I don’t want to go

No I don’t want to feel this way

And you say

You say that it’s okay

Don’t listen to those thoughts you get

When it’s dark outside

It will all make sense in the morning

When sun shines

You’ll see it will be okay

Dont know if I want to go

Don’t know if I want to stay

Don’t care about it all

Everything all turns grey

And I feel nothing

Nothing at all

Care about nothing

Nothing at all

In my chest there’s flies

That fester around to no end

That feeling of impending doom

Do you get do you get that too

Like if you don’t end up doing it yourself

Somethings going to kill you

Don’t want go

But I definitely don’t want to stay

Trying to hold on

Keep my calm

Breathe in

Let it out

And again

And you say you say

That it’s okay don’t listen to those thoughts

You get when it’s dark inside

There’s a solution to everything

And you say you say

That’s it’s okay don’t listen to those thoughts

You get when it’s night outside

It will all make sense in the light

And I guess your right

You’ve got a point

I close my eyes

And try to go to bed

And try to calm my heart rate down

And I guess your right

I close my eyes and try to sleep

And when I wake up tommorow

I know

It will all make sense in the morning

Just like you told me

And tell me again.

And again,

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This devouring Sadness,

Consumes me,

Wears me, tears me down to the bone,

It’s sinks inside me,

Heavy, like a pile of stones,

I just want to go

I just want to go

Away.

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I feel it like thunder,

A lightning ball of fire,

and also nothing,

Nothing at all.

And also anguish,

An electric sea as black as poison,

Seeping in,

I feel it in chest,

In my lungs,

on my arms, wrists, hands,

In eyes that can’t meet dont

but also nothing, nothing at all.

I don’t, want to count to 5

See

Touch

Smell

Hear

Taste

I don’t want to count

Watch

Feel

Inhale

Exahale

Breathe

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Surface

Everything bounces off the surface,

Gone,

A layer it can’t pass through,

Everything off, dulled, submerged, subdued.

Numbed, Grey

I see Grey unfocused faces

Eyes fear

Don’t know if I’m here

Or not?

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Struck by this pervaisive darkness

That hold me captive in these hot summer days

Spent beached out with my head in my arms

Spent spent Spaced out in wonderland

I can almost see us by the pool

Lollies in our hands

Laughthing while you take mugs

And send them on our chat

And my eyes they would shine with joy

But now instead they shine with tears

If it wasn’t because of my stupid fears

God how I wish you were here

And now

I sit alone by the steps

Feet in the water

Stomach sinking

Again

[masonwrites333]

Misery

Agony

Torment, torture

I crave peace, pain

My chest infested, possessed

By flies festering

Wails, like a siren

A banshee

Screeching

Teething deeper despair

Scared

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Red

It pools in the corners

Trickles down the edges

Paints

The white now turns to rage

To anger, to fire, to flames,

To hate

To pain I want to feel on my skin

Within

Like a cry

Red. Like frustration

As red as blood

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Scream

If i could scream,

It’d sound like a banshee in the night,

A howl so deep, so loud, it curdles your blood

So powerfull it shatters glass

Makes trees and mountains bow

A yowl, a guttural sound,

Straight from inside,

If I could scream,

I’d scream until my face turns blue,

Until I’ve no air left to use.

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Birds

Will they all die?

Doused in gasoline, too heavy to fly?

They fall sick to the ground,

Cold as stone,

And they walk,

with their toes blistered and tied up feet,

And their greying feathers and closing eyes.

Will they all die?

As we sit and walk by,

And we drive and we watch their demise,

With our sorry eyes,

And our flashing lights,

That’s the last thing they see,

Smashed and then tossed,

To the side, splayed, for everyone to see.

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You say youre here,

But you aren’t by my side,

Can’t lie,

there’s a void,

So sharp it could bite.

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a million shapes

and i dont know what angle to take

pick the wrong one

i make a mistake

a thousand words, which i then have to erase

a thousand words, which i then have to replace

too vague, and it gets lost

too specific, and i miss the spot

drift off into things that don't relate

convey it all except the point i wish to make

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This empty void

Sifts,

Like heavy mist threw the air

Sits

on my eyelids

Snatching, my breath from my lungs

The strength from my bones

My voice from my throat

And steadily, I’m drowning

In a thick stodgy sea of black tar

That holds me down

Pushing me under

Its ferocious claws at my neck

Help