Merlin had been watching his daughter for a while now. There were things that reminded him of his wife, of Morgana. There was a darkness in her that scared him, that he wanted to heal, but he wasnāt the one to do it. Morgana had healed herself not because of Merlin, but by her own force and effort. She had seen the darkness and she had played in it, but then she had changed. She still suffered through it, there were sitll places that not even Merlin could reach. There were still times that Morgana was staring out the window and Merlin could only watch her because she was so far away.Ā
He had hoped that Merlina never had to go through that.Ā
But he had seen her changing.Ā
When he had been a young man he had left Ealdor, his home and his security and safety. He had sought out the danger of Camelot, the unknown. He believed that every person did that. That every person needed to doĀ that. They sought out the unknown to decide what they were going to be.Ā
But he was scared for Merlina, as any parent would be.Ā
You care for a child for all their life. Merlina knew nothing but the world of the castle, she knew magic, she had never known fear or tormentā¦ not like Merlin and Morgana. And yet he knew that she would one day ask for this, to be free from it.Ā
He wanted to walk her to the stables, he wanted to hug her and tell her to come home safely but he just smiled at her and he held Morganaās hand. He needed her strength right now.
āDonāt forget where we are,ā he said to her.
There had been whispers as to who Morganaās mother had been, and if those whispers were true then it confused Merlina as to why she hadnāt sought out her daughter. She couldnāt imagine being in her mothers shoes who probably wondered the same thing, or in her fathers shoes where he only briefly met his father only to be killed not long after. She could not imagine a life without any of her parents, even if she did for a short while, she couldnāt be without them, yet her soul yearned for adventure, to experience the unknown, and to find her own fate. She didnāt want to believe that she was fated to just sit and look pretty.
Darkness looked so pretty, but she stayed in the light for now, but what was light without darkness, and what was darkness without light? Perhaps she yearned for a balance.
Morgana very softly squeezed Merlinās hand, raising it to press a soft kiss to the back of it supportively, and she turned to look at her daughter.Ā āWe are always going to be here, but be safe, and donāt look at it, please...ā Her voice was a mere whisper, and Merlinaās sapphire blue eyes flickered to look at her mother, and she instantly knew what she had meanāt.
Morgana saw the same look that she once, and by the Goddess she wish she hadnāt. The younger girl smiled softly, and nodded at them before walking around to them to press a single kiss to their foreheads before slipping out of the room.
Camelot was suffocating her. Surely a few hours or a few days away wouldnāt hurt? Before she knew it, she was out in the forest, gripping the reins of her horse as she rode out through the trees at a fast pace.
The night finally hit her and she made camp, but she had no idea where she had gone too, she certainly wasnāt in Camelot or even Cenreds Kingdom, but she wasnāt afraid, not until the whole world went black.
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