If you are under 18 or have the mindset of an ignorant, hateful, negative and intolerant Ork - please leave and spread your shit elsewhere. Everyone else: welcome
This used to be my realm of exchange and connection with my former partner/sub/daddy and I am slowly trying to give it a new purpose and make this MY personal space of expression
About me: a lovenoodle her my thirties, living in Europe, mother of two kids and a dog. Diagnosed neurospicy recently, polyam, bi-sexual, awkward, flowery in my whole expression, dark-romantic, very passionate and intense, needing music and books/stories like I need food, softhearted and melancholic, hungry for aliveness, always seeking but never really actually trying to find something. My curiosity has been annoying people, I'm rather hardheaded and idealistic as heck (also been annoying people 🤗), but still struggle to say both YES and NO often.
I'm horrible at staying light and breezy (and really have no interest in doing so, to be frank). Drawn to dark shit while being the most awful sparkly Goth of all times. Committed but also flaky as fuck.
Living with my kids, my dogs and the father of my children. We are separated under - more or less - good terms and co parenting together. Still heartbroken about the loss of my 24/7 relationship with my former second partner in autumn of 2023.
Slowly opening up to my own d/s sides again, supporting them to heal and make space for someone else, somewhen.
I don't do online play and am only interested in a real-life love relationship FLR-Switch Style.
Asks and messages: are happily received but might not get quickly answered. Being a working mum, participating in life intensely and cultivating intense relationships overall is actually pretty time consuming :-) I have no interest into seeing your cock nor do I feel personally flattered when you tell me I should piss on your face or call me your Goddess. Talk to me respectfully, like you would if I sit across you. Because then I am definitely excited to exchange.
Switching: happens in periods, during those I am deeply in one setting and show no signs of flex or change of power dynamics. Each phase usually last 4-12 weeks, my dominant times last longer than my subby ones. And no. I don't need a real alpha male to keep me subby for longer and no, there is also no "perfect" sub who could keep me in my dominant mindset. Switching does not equal lack of intensity, devotion nor does it imply less strong tendencies than full timers. There is a tide within me, it comes and goes in a certain rhythm.
As a domme: I am very possessive and reducing, love to push consented psychological barriers and enjoy making my sub react to an extreme in all regards, really. Seemingly I am very good at getting in someones head and take the responsibility seriously. I am intense as hell and love the feeling of the rush of power, love and obsession towards my adored devotee. There is nothing more rewarding than seeing their eyes becoming all cloudy and feeling how all barriers lower because they trust me so deeply. I am sadistic, manipulative and insanely loving. I expect a lot and am not known for being very willing to compromise on my sense of total power, yet my submissive is also my weak spot and the apple of my eye. I dominate out of love - romanticism to me is directly linked to my dominance.
As a submissive: loyal as anything. I am both shy and a tiny bit bratty - but not in a power-challenging way. When I drop into my own submission, I regress a bit and become a very needy and soft thing - and desperately in need of tender but firm control. I am very turned on by pain and feeling controlled in as many aspects as life allows. Pee play arouses me. Diapers make me feel whole and small. My tendency to feel horrified by too much attention makes me easily being messed with. I'm a slut but especially when submissive, don't like to be used by anyone but my owner and my husband. In my submissive and little space I need a lot of safety and attention and only react to loving humiliation and emotionally tender wickedness.
