Medusa of Poetry

Where art thou poetry?

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Is it just me or has Hermione Granger motivated you to work harder? I got motivated by her and recieved a mark in the 90s for my history test, it's so amazing how fiction can shape reality ❤️ The first of September has passed and I didn't get to go on the Hogwarts Express 🥲

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When I go to school, I get depressed. On Friday afternoon, I feel relief. When I know I'm not going to school the next day I feel happy and I feel as if I can do anything. On Sunday nights the sadness comes like a wave to the shore, unstoppable and it always leaves a mark, it takes a bit of happiness with it and sends it down to the ocean floor.

The nights when I know I'm not going to school the next day, I feel relief, happiness and I feel as though I could live forever and I can get through this. I clean my room, listen to some audiobooks and music, I read some poetry and draw endlessly through the night because I know that the next day will be good.

School nights are the worst. Endless piles of homework are scattered on my desk, tears stain the papers and I refuse to eat, I refuse to sleep, I refuse to do anything, all motivation is gone as if it is taken from the root and is put out in the hottest desert, the motivation dries up and I can't do anything. I think about dropping out every night, I consider my future and ask my mom if I can change to homeschool, she says no and controls me as if I am a little puppet. I am not a puppet, she may have raised me but she does not own me, I deserve to make my own decisions and choose my own path. The choice must be mine. I have a plan and it does not include suffering every afternoon and night and holding in tears during the school day, my plan is to restore order to my mind and learn what will help me in the future.

That is my plan.

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Phantom of the Opera! One of my favourite musicals, definitely a recommendation 🖤

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For all my life, I had envisioned myself being immortal, I thought I would live forever, and nothing would stop me living forever. I thought that if I did die, I would die old, but right now, I feel as though I might die young. The world seems to be coming to an end and there's no way to stop it, to stop all the corruption. I hoped for a long life, I used to say to my mother: " mom when I get older, I'm going to be an artist." And " Mom when I'm older I'm going to be a writer." I wanted my long lost dreams to come true at the click of a pen and I wanted to hear the rushed typing of the keyboard write my first book. My young self didn't understand how short life is, and now I do. I may never live my dream, I may never write my first book, I may never find the love that I wanted. When I was younger I used to pity the elderly and now I wish I was one of them, I envy them with every bone in my body becuase they had lived a life, they went on the trail of ups and downs, happiness and sadness, I wish I was born in a different time, perhaps the 1950s becuase maybe, just maybe, I would have been able to live my dream and mix with the right people.

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Went thrifting and found an old looking book, so I got it and ended up getting more👍📖📚

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Fun song😊🖤

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Just read Homers Odyssey, definitely a recommendation!!!

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This is not reality, it's a romance...

- Alan Rickman.❤️❤️❤️

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I enjoy drawing and I stayed up all night drawing and not keeping track of time, felt so alive!!!! Definitely a recommendation even if you don't draw or do art👍❤️

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In class, do you ever finds something funny and everyone else doesn't, the you sit there laughing under your breath like a complete idiot? Alone?

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Another silly thing I did:

Scrolled through my screenshots and screenshotted my screenshot.

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I am being a complete idiot this morning. We are studying Macbeth in English class and I said:

" Macbeth? Cant we study some Shakespeare rather?" 😐 Then I realised, oh😐😐

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Okay, but the thought of running away and living in the hills needs to become a plan. Just run away from society and run towards freedom. Imagine how wonderful it would be to just start over, have a large library and read until the end of time.

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I need a friend

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I sit in class daily no dreaming away my life instead of living those dreams, I'm trapped in a school of lost thoughts and grades that are supposed to define you. Grades don't define you, nor does the number of friends you have. The school system tries to fit us in a small box of simplicity when we want to escape and go beyond! Beyond! We sit in classes and can't draw, the teacher will take our passion away from us and force school books in our face, tell us to read things that we will forget and they remind us that society won't accept us if we don't walk in a straight line of normality.

Skip that class! Draw some pictures! Write some poetry! Act the part of the rebellious hero and remind yourself that nothing lasts forever. One day you will breathe your last breath and do you want your last thought to be: " why didn't I say Carpe Diem and live my dream? I wish I had no regrets."

Live!