melancholia

I miss her very much.

The way they treat me is very confusing, they want me around them but to never spend time just as a bystander. Like having the tv on while doing something. It doesn’t feel right.

if you have to beg for it it’s not for you.

yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou

He was never mine to begin with. His heart belongs to her.

yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou

I opened up and I was dismissed, unheard and misunderstood.

How are you quick to comfort another girl when you can’t even do that with me. You get upset when I’m going through something difficult. I don’t understand maybe I’m not good enough for you. It hurt knowing that keeping me around for company for your own comfort. For a whole year I was in depressed suicidal seeking answers and comfort from God. I have nobody to talk my problems when my partner whom I’m supposed to confide in is out there comforting another girl. It hurt but I have to accept it. I know you don’t want to stop communicating with her I always knew you have some feelings for her who am I to keep you away from her. I guess this will be my very last love from then on I’m going to just be alone until then.

Maybe next year on my birthday I’ll finally kill myself maybe by then I’ll have enough.

I don’t want a toxic on & off love.. i want someone that chooses me everyday even when i’m hard to deal with at times.

They swear they don’t wanna lose you but act like they ain’t tryna keep you either.

It’s painful knowing that you look at other girls and talk to them while I’m here waiting for you.

worthless-misery

We promised we would try to make it last forever.

But then you left me here alone.

Maybe love isn’t for me.