unwitting sanji fangirl

m, mella ~ she/her ~ damn near 30

[brittlepredatordemon]

Actually, no, I don't think that friendships dropping like flies in your late 20s and early 30s because no one has time for that between overwork and family obligations and marriage and kids and partners and the ritual of the time slayer is normal and ok. No I don't think deep conversations and spontaneous adventures being replaced with a tired coffee every six months is a normal part of growing up. I don't think that emotional intimacy and soul bonds disintegrating in the face of practical inconvenience is a fact of life. I think that means something is deeply deeply wrong with our society and I will never forgive it for the friends I've lost

[strawberrykidneystone]

forgot how BAD dating apps are jesus christ i need to find my soulmate here on tumblr.com

[mellamellamella]

fanfiction got me out here wanting crazy things like go to club and make out with somebody

and i guess theres nothing stopping me

if i really wanted that

much to think about

[mellamellamella]

sometimes i post something that i made and it gets no likes or anything

and im not tryna be like "wahh im not tumblr famous wahh pay attention to me"

but i will often get SOME activity on something that i post especially if its for a popular ship

like i posted some word vomit about rachel reid that honestly wasnt even thought out all that well lmfao and enough people saw it that i got anon hate about it (from literally one person lmao but whatever)

but a couple days ago i posted an edit of shane and ilya and it didnt get any notes and im just

??????????

this happened with a v small animation project i posted a while ago too

i feel insane even complaining about this but what the fuck ever hahaha

and im not talking about like, posts i make with no tags that are just me running my mouth. i dont post that stuff expecting any interaction with it

but literally anything thats posted with the heated rivalry tag gets at least one like or sooooomething lmfaooo the tag is so popular right now

man what the fuck ever. watch my heated rivalry edit if you want. bye lol

[depsidase]

[findmeinthealps]

guy on a work call just accidentally said “have a nice freak-end” instead of weekend and now i desperately want that to be the new meme. have a nice freakend everybody

[mellamellamella]

life update

got my manager fired and took his job 👍🏽

[mellamellamella]

there's a place for us, somewhere

[mellamellamella]

just redownloaded premiere pro to make a heated rivalry edit lmfao send help

[mellamellamella]

so i think, despite what mainlining hours and hours of yearning/pining content on a daily basis has led me to believe, i dont think i actually want to be in a relationship. i think i just want someone to kiss me and snuggle with me and maybe cook me dinner and text me sometimes but otherwise do their own thing and i do my own thing. ya know? how do i get that lol

[sapropel]

Sometimes your bad coworker will be like "I can't do anything right & I ruin everything I touch :(" and you can't even comfort them because like damn. Yeah. You really can't do anything right and you do ruin everything you touch☝️

[sapropel]

HE'S GETTING FIRED. NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!

[catbfs]

(shows up 7 months late with a heated rivalry edit) hiiii guyssss 😇

heartbeat | childish gambino

watch on youtube (and comment if u love me)

[inthestarsisyourhome]

never not thinking about this guy

[mellamellamella]

just found out the owner of the restaurant i work at is a zionist... womp womp

[hotvampireadjacent]

[firstethicalpisces-deactivated2]

girl nothing is ever gonna be all the way together just enjoy the bits and pieces #yourfragments

[cottoncandylesbo]

i like it when people compliment me. i like it... when people like me. (looks around to make sure nobody is about to shoot me)