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wow i hate life and living it

i just want to be happy

being wine-drunk is really just being a less refined version of myself so i dont even feel bad about it

nothing quite like drinking a whole bottle of wine

#would be smoking weed but oh yeah I Cant

my period is synced up with the sales rotation of my tampons at food lion and ben n jerrys at publix so like... im finally winning

me, experiencing emotions: hahhahahhahahahahaaa Time To Sleep

welp, my days of being a sad 20 yr old are over. now im just a pathetic 21 yr old

them: omg youre so skinny!!!

me: *flashes back to the four months i spent starving myself as a form of self-harm*

me: haha yeah

there really is something about 5 a.m. that tells my brain its time to wake up & suffer

#ive been lying here thinking about what would be the least traumatic way for someone to find me were i to work up the nerve to k*s #i cant figure it out #i woke up to pee and now #now suddenly my mind is so fuckin wound up i dont get it

me: *wakes up at 5 am because im too hot*

me: *lies in bed awake for hours involuntarily thinking about all the ways my life can and will be fucked up*

#i love anxiety #anxiety #...i actually hate it

egothreat

angelrrrot

no offense but i’m constantly terrified of upsetting the people i love to the point where they’ll abandon me and it stops me from/makes me panic over saying or doing the smallest things on an almost daily basis

hi everyone im really sorry ive been inactive for so long, and i cant say that i'll pick tumblr back up for a little while bc i have a lot of personal things going on right now, but if you ever need someone to talk to my ask and messages are open.

#very sorry again #also im pretty sure irl people have my url again so im gonna have to change if i want to post anything personal #sooo