Memories of a weird couple

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Day four

This day I wanted to thank you for the all the help you gave me and wanted to make you a portrait.

But you told me to have a seat and prepared me for a talk. I got scared, cause I thought you gonna repeat what you said the day before, which would hurt me. That night I had a dream of our kiss. And you say, that the dialogue goes not that smooth as in your head. I see you’re nervous, but couldn’t understand why. We seat on the couch, I feel you near. You say, that you started to have feelings to me. I said, that me too. Wtih a super calm face. But inside I had a hurricane of emotions, I couldn’t believe it and had a question in my head like ‘so what’s now?’

And then I just continued painting you. Carefully studying your face and detailes of your hair.

We had an amazing pink dinner with candles, I couldn’t believe that it’s going so romantic. But then we took a walk and...

When we got in the park, laying on the ground between the pines, I felt to happy, and felt like kissing you, but. We both know what happened next. It still feels weird for me, even writing about it. I tried to kiss you and you turned away. My brain by that time analized it as a rejection and that you changed your mind, and that you don’t like me. I didn’t understand, that you needed time to comprehend your feelings and didn’t take into account that you haven’t been touched in a romantic way for 5 years. So I got grumpy and started to pout like a dummy. Like, okay, whatever, I’m not pushing it, and now I will not move even a finger towards your direction, boy, next turn should be yours, cause I made mine. I went to sleep pretty sad and didn’t expect what happened on the next day.

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Third day

The most memorable day of the highest emotinal thunder. I wanted to take you to some beautiful and interesting places, so we headed to take some homemade wine from old granny with one leg and then to the jewish cemetery. 

I didn’t expect you would start talking about things which might hurt me that much. Now I understand that you were trying to convince yourself that you’re not attracted to me, because usually you’re not attracted to chubby girls, but because of the fact that we had so much of connection going on, it was still happening on the background. You, with your mind, didn’t understand that your innerself feel so comfortable with me and why, and I didn’t understand why I feel that this person is somewhat so special that I bothered what you said so deeply. From the first day, when we shared kinda short recap of our whole lives, I felt home with you. That I can share anything. 

I don’t remember, on which of the days, but I guess it was the same day, we discussed so much of our private and intimate life, eventhough we knew eachother for couple of days, but it felt like you’re already my best friend for ages. Now I’m pretty shocked of the speed with which it was evolving. But at that time it felt so slow, like, I was wandering, why it’s already a third day but we still haven’t kissed, like my brain already made all the calculations, realised that it’s a match, and I couldn’t get why we’re not together yet. It seemed so obvious for me at that time. And, well, at the next day you confessed to me that you started developing feelings to me. But it’s a story for another post.

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This could be a soundtrack of my meories from that warm moldavian september, filled with different smells of leaves, wine, cheese, fruits and fresh autumn vibes. 

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Day one

The day we met was very dark for my mental mind. I was devastated and cryed all night long. I received a couchsurf request and didn’t expect it will change my life that much. 

When I saw you entering my house, I didn’t know it will be the person I want to share my life with. I know it sounds cheesy, but we have to be honest here. 

In the first day we already were able to talk about everything. I wanted to show you the best moldavian food and you were sharing such cool vibes that I guess already at that point I started to flirt with you about you standing on your knee. Eventhough you stood on both of them. 

I laughed a lot. Hugging you on the motorcycle made me happier. It has started to evolve. The connection.