don’t think anyone I know goes on here anymore so this is where I’ll write and vent. its hard being someone who cares so deeply about things. I wish I didn’t and I wish I knew why I was like this. it’s very easy for me to turn off my emotions most of the time but occasionally something will happen and i’ll meet someone and everything will flood in and I’ll be reminded of why I do so. I am able to tell very quickly after meeting someone and spending time with them if I like them or not. I can fall so fast and it’s hard to stop myself. it keeps me awake at night and occupies my mind all day until I finally give up on whatever it is and am able to turn my emotions back off because I don’t want to try just to be let down again. maybe its all the books i’ve read and shows/movies i’ve watched that have these great love stories or maybe there’s something wrong with me. I have so much hope for goodness and honesty but also such a realistic/pessimistic mind and so much anxiety about being vulnerable and giving so much of myself to another person again just to be let down in the end. I hope for a passionate, real, true, and deep love but know how rare that is. I am usually very content being single but sometimes I am reminded that I have so much love to give and so much hope mixed with so much fear and end up feeling so lonely. I hate putting myself out there and I hate the fear of rejection that comes along with it. I break my own heart before anyone else has the chance to. maybe I need to change my mindset but its so difficult to deal with the pain of things not working out and lost potential. i know i’m still so young and maybe it just means I haven’t met the right person yet but i’m getting to the point where I wonder if I ever will
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