honestly, im not sure how i feel about being 19, i love being 18, being 19 is going to be so fun but also weird. Just a head up i do not want ANYTHING from any of you! You guys are enough already making me feel so loved, i Glady appreciate it also i did notice i kinda been like distant lately and promising id come back but then leave shortly after , and i feel horrible for it honestly and thats completely on me but i just been depressed and genuinely had no energy to post or anything, and im pretty sure i mentioned that before but also another thing been bothering me, i had bad insomnia and i haven’t been sleeping well these past 5 months.. so i also had no energy for that and including all my sports like hockey, boxing, track and volleyball, after everything dies down or i get better i PINKY promise ill be back, i will still post now but just not as much as i did before, and i do hope you guys forgive me😭 also i want to tell you what ive been upto, so at my school im in grade 12 we are doing badminton and my friend convinced me to join so i did and i realized im actually REALLY good at it! So i been playing that and my hockey season just ended this week and we won gold! I got 10 hat tricks this season surprisingly lol! And track season id start so so sooo soon and im SOOOO excited! I been working out these past 7 months to get myself im shape and i went to the dentist today to get a cleaning and i had a cavity it was pretty small so i got that foxed but when they put those needles in my mouth i started crying im terrified of needles and i kept making noises because of how scared i was, my mouth is still kinda sore.. also i failed my test in math..
