[momthestrawberry]

hi friends it’s been a minute. i’m happy. like happy with my life and with my person. i want them around forever and that’s crazy.

[destroymylife]

[destroymylife]

[understands]

[section8babe]

i feel so much better when no one knows where i am and what im doing.

[momthestrawberry]

why. why does your voice still make me tired when my body isn’t ready to sleep. why does your voice make my insides so happy. just why.

[momthestrawberry]

i made a therapy appointment today. let’s hope in the next 3 months i don’t spiral anymore and that my brain can sort out what it needs to so i can make coherent sentences for my therapist. but if not i’m sure she’s used to it.

also this person keeps giving me mixed vibes and it’s throwing me off bc i love them so much as my friend and i don’t like the in between but i’m not gonna ask bc it put way too much pressure on us before.

[momthestrawberry]

told my mom my depression was getting worse today and she actually believed me for once and offered to help me find a therapist or psychiatrist that’s covered by our insurance 😭😭😭

[momthestrawberry]

my dreams got me fucked up recently.

dear brain, you’re not dating them. you never will date them. stop doing this to yourself it hurts and makes you cry a lot.

thanks

[momthestrawberry]

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK.

[momthestrawberry]

i’m so over living. i’m so over being “behind” everyone else or the single friend or the person you come to when you need help. i’m tired. i’m exhausted. all i do anymore is cry and go to work. i’m fucking miserable and i’ve done what i can do to make life better but it’s not helping. i hangout with my friends more because in those moments i’m a little less sad but it’s so exhausting to be less sad. it’s exhausting to have to hold a conversation with anyone and especially at work when i have to put full effort into it. i’m done seeing me exes be better off than me. i’m failing at every goal i set for myself a year ago. i’m stuck in this downward spiral of not knowing what to do anymore and feeling like i’ll never feel happy or loved again. and when i talk to my friends about the way i feel, i just feel like a burden or annoying because i’m like a broken record of “i’m crying again” “my depression is bad” “i have no idea why i feel like this” and i cause them to worry about me and i don’t want that. i want them to know i’m okay enough for them to not worry. i need help. i need professional help. but i cannot get myself to fucking get any. i hate it. i hate everything about my life.

[whitepeopletwitter]

[verblassende-liebe]

[vegyta-deactivated20181007]

U ever juss…wanna hide ur face in someone’s neck and …. Sleep

[momthestrawberry]

there are two people that i would drop anything to be with for the rest of my life but i’ll never tell them or anyone else.

[momthestrawberry]

i don’t think i’ll ever stop loving you.

[momthestrawberry]

everything annoys me.

boys annoying. girls annoying. friends annoying. parents annoying. living annoying. eating annoying. being awake annoying. sleeping annoying. jobs annoying.

i’m so done with everything