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@my-sick-n-twisted-mind
hi welcome to my vent blog :/
You can call me spade/spades
My pronouns are they/he 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️
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Obvious trigger warning/content warning
i feel like such a faker because there were no songs
I think back and I don't see anything that could have been a sign I was trans
I was such a girly girl
I hated anything masculine
I has the concept that there were "girl things" and "boy things" since before I could remember and refuse to do or like anything the at was considered a "boy thing"
I EXCLUSIVELY wore dresses
im so fucking pissed at myself
Me and some of my friends made plans to go see the backrooms movie together at 7, turns out there is no 7 o'clock show tonight and only a 2 o'clock
Whatever we rescheduled, I'm kinda upset the plans got changed but whatever I got over it
My gf texts me
Asks if we could go to the fair together since our other plans were cancelled
I said
YES! I would love to I'll ask my mom
I brought it up to her didn't get a straight answer but assumed "oh since she was already planning on having to take me to the movies I'm sure it'll be fine"
Me and my gf were under the impression I was going
turns out
I'm not
my mom can't fucking take me
Plans got changed again
and I'm already mega fucking stressed with school now the weekend I'm supposed to be having fun with my friends
NOPE
I'm so upset why can't everything just have worked out...
we have 16 days of school left but it's gonna take a miracle for me to make it through those 16 days alive...
What did Veronica Sawyer say?
"college will be paradise if I'm not dead by June" ???
IM ALLOWED TO LIKE MUSIC!
YES IM AWARE THAT HES PROBLEMATIC
IM NOT SUPPORTING HIM
AND IM NOT LISTENING TO HIS MUSIC ON A PLATFORM THAT MAKES HIM MONEY
I PIRATE HIS MUSIC
AND I DONT CARE YOU THINK ITS ASS
I DONT LIKE SOME OF YOUR MUSIC
BUT IM NOT OVER HERE MAKING IT KNOWN YOUR MUSIC IS BAD
IVE ALREADY BEEN MADE FUN OF FOR MY MUSIC ONCE I DONT NEED THIS AGAIN
i dont have people to talk to
All my cries for help go unchecked no matter how obvious
I am in a personal hell
ALL MY FRIENDS FUCKING HATE MEEEEEE
Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy /s
how it feels when my friends jokingly say I probably don't shower or are scared of water but I low-key struggle with basic hygiene...
i kinda wish I didn't exist... I wish I was just an entity floating watching and observing... Not participating..
oooo ahhh I'm so annoying I need to stfu ...
copious amounts of guilt are speakinvg
god i need to shut the fuck up
ewww im eating again ...
I'm so god damn unfunny...
the need to over explain everything because I feel like Its going to sound confusing if I don't say every minute detail
i feel so small and helpless in the world.. I'm just some stupid little teen boy and there are awful things going on in the world around me but I'm sitting here in my mess of a room... Is my life even worth anything at this point?
not now sweetie Daddy's yearning to be a fictional character and sobbing over the fact that he can never actually be that character
