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I think im in love and i just met him but he makes me laugh and smile for the first time in along time and hes gorgeous lol i had to post that somewhere lol

I've come to realize today that I have no body, what friends I thought I had are gone all because my husband moved out and I didn't change for him. I have maybe one friend I think and she knows who she is but today feels like I have no body and no one cares any more.

Depressed alone sick tired hurt lonely that about sums up my life right now

Not sure why I try any more. Tired of being hurt by the ones I love the most so done with every ones attitudes and blaming me for their problems. Not gonna be there for to many more people several are gonna have to earn my trust again. I'm just done.

Not in a good mood today. It's been 3 days since my sub broke and now hubby busy with our only car and I'm scared being home alone with no way to get anywhere if an emergency happens. I have a friend that's here with her car when she can be but she has homework and other stuff that she needs to do so i know she can't be here all the time. Hubby gonna be gone for 2 weeks here in about a week leaving me with the truck that hates me, moms gonna be having surgery while hubby gone as well so not doing well trying not to completely break down its not working by the way. So if I'm cranky and pissy I'm sorry I don't mean to be I'm just not dealing well with everything that's going on right now since its all going on at the same time. I'm miserable and severly depressed agian wondering what else is gonna be thrown at me and really not sure how much more I can handle before I completely break

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Rant

Oh that’s DAMN irritating. I’m so sorry, lovey. :(

{It just drives me up a wall that I’m either stuck dealing with dad saying “you can’t do that” or with my mom freaking out because she can’t get over shit that hapened when she was 9 years old! She’s in her 50s now!}

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I'm here baby and we can watch anything u want to

Long day

So this could be a bad day, I have one pup that I think has sorta like asthma she plays hard then spends the next couple hour coughing and spitting up. I have another pup who is overly terrified of fireworks to the point she won't go out and pee she's so scared. I just started the smoker with summer sausages and am supposed to go to a party later today so gonna take the hubby down to party later and stay home with my babies so tbey don't completely freak out and break my house today.

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Help

I have 2 teenage girls in my house tonight they like us so much they wanted to spend the night here with me and the hubby. Should I be scared or should they. Anyone that knows us knows we have big hearts and when someone needs an escape all they have to do is call us and these girls needed that escape tonight. They just may leave traumatized tomorrow but hopefully they have fun here.

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Should I come help for a while? Lol

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Maybe lol ken wants to leave and go to moms now as well and leave me alone I'm thinking while he's gone for 2 weeks they can come stay for a few days if u can come down for the day as well

Help

I have 2 teenage girls in my house tonight they like us so much they wanted to spend the night here with me and the hubby. Should I be scared or should they. Anyone that knows us knows we have big hearts and when someone needs an escape all they have to do is call us and these girls needed that escape tonight. They just may leave traumatized tomorrow but hopefully they have fun here.

Not happy

So this is supposed to be a girls weekend and one of my close friwnds said they were gonna spend the weekend with me they would be here tomorrow morning and be here all weekend til the hubby gets home sometime on sunday so I'm excited but now I find out they have to go do something one day and maybe something else another day not sure about that yet they will let me know as soon as they know when or if they can make it and when they have to be gone. I kinda thought that when u say your spending the entire weekend with someone that means the entire weekend not just when the other things are not happening. I also almost feel like they don't really wanna spend time with me but told me they would so they are. If u wanna be here be here if not don't bother. I don't have many friends and I starting to remember why that is the few I do have mean the world to me y'all know who u are. I guess maybe next time. I wanna say something but I also wanna have them around and don't wanna lose this friendship it means more to me then almost any other I hope we can talk about some of it but also I just wanna have fun this weekend. Hopeing for the best.

Notes to me

So knee injection plus large pans that have to be washed in the bath tub since they don't fit in my sink at all mean very very very painful knee. Also Meat mixers have to be completely taken apart to be washed since the connectors are loose enough that meat can and normally will get into the ends that was nasty. Shredded cabage needs to be rinsed out asap after done with container since it drys ans sticks like glue. So now everyone know this since I learned the hard was. I need a bigger sink or one of those washtub sinks that's like 3 feet deep that would so nice.

PISSED

The next person that tell me what kind of pistol I want is gonna get an ear full I have every right to buy what I want in what caliber I want and what maker I want the omly opinion that I car about is my husband being retired military I think he know better than some random joe that had a bad experience with said maker. Ok I'm done now

I feel like crap I wanna sleep more but the pups say no its play time just hope this three day headache stay calmer or goes away all together today getting tired of constant headaches thay don't wanna be helped with meds even my strong stuff didn't work

Gonna be a yucky day been awake since 6. Got the german sausages and the buns ready for the party later today, so that's a good thing but I'm already tired and wanna go back to bed, don't think thtas gonna happen have knee pain and my hand keeps going to sleep damn carpal tunnel syndrome crap really need to get this fixed soon. Byt at least the hubby still sleepin so maybe he will be in a good mood today and the dogs are a sleep right now.

Feeling yucky gonna have to have surgery for my carpal tunnel on my right hand and possibly for my left knee don't really know yet about the knee but the hand is a guarantee for so now to wait for the dr on the knee plan hopefully ginna get that fixed first since I kinda need to be able to walk

Friends?

This is not directed at any one person. I know I dont have a lot of followers and that's fine I also know of a few that keep an eye on my page and that's fine as well. Again this is not directed at any one person there area few exceptiln and you who u are so. I'm an sick and tired of being ignored I'm starting to think my dogs and my hubby are my only friends I'm tired of being last pick for people tired of being the one who messages first and getting pissy answers from people if u don't want to talk to me or visit with me or even be my friend open your fucking mouth and say so stop lieing to me if I message u and u don't wanna talk say so don't tell me u didn't get my message but answer my question in your answer if tell me you are gonna be away from internet don't update your statues and tell me u didn't do it I know better. I love all my friends and would do anything for any and all of them but there is a few that are really screwing it for others but this is not directed at any one person there is a few that will read this and go it me isn't it well probably not but u ask me I will be honest with u and we can fix what ever it is. Also please stop talking about me behind my back to people I dont know say it to me. I know I can be needed and want company a lot and if u can't or do t want to talk to me or visit me tell me I'm ok with u needing space or time or what ever but please tell me so maybe we can fix this. Txt me message me or private ask on here to talk about this I don't need pissy people posting this all over for everyone to read. AGAIN THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANY ONE PERSON. Just stuff I need to say so ignore me as well as talk to me I think I don't care any more sorry.

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I really hate to ask this of my followers, but I am really short on money this month for food for me and my family. We only got $16 for the month. Please help if you can. I have a Gofundme here

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Anyone able to help please do

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