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Whats up any small youtubers out there?

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Im having really bad ex withdrawls..my ex was my.first boyfriend and now.i.miss him, but i couldnt do long distance it wa too much…so i broke up.with him and irs.like we.only dated for two weeks..he made me so happy and i didnt tell him much but we still talked everyday even when we didnt see each other. He made everything happen which i liked about him. In two weeks i had my first date and he kissed me on the cheek and he was the first guy i was comfortable with hugging, or pda we didnt kiss because we didnt date long enough but now i miss him and duh ofcourse ill get over it but it sucks now because im remembering everything, like nothing went too fast because it was meant to happen. Yeh i miss him.. First.day we.met he was in the teen studio recprding a song of his. And showing us all he ropes of everything 😞😍 we kept staring at each other and my sis was trying to.make fun of him but i pushed it.off my mind because i knew i.liked him insantly. I.didnt.know.anything for the future but he was cute to me.so i liked him And i think it was rhe next day or the ame day i.dont remember but it was.one of those days anyway my sister.said she had a surprise or something so she drug me outside and we stood.near train tracks. Then he cane out and he started walking near me which made.me.smile but i was laughing too because i.already knew what was.gonna.happen. so he asked me out but my sister and her friend said it wasnt enough and he needed to get down on one knee and ask. So he did which had me blushing so hard. God and soon we had the biggest crowd. Lol but yeah he asked and i said i.didnt.know but we.could start from.there. so we dated and it was awesome we went to.the park.after he met mt dad and was approved..and at the.park e hung out for.a.while.and just talked.like sriously thats all we did was.talk.for.two.weeks and it was awesome. Like seriously It was.awesome i loved.it and he said he loved me but i never told him i loved him because i didnt but i loved things about him. A lot of things about him like his eyes and his smile and his voice and his personality and his attitude and pretty much i loved everything

Happiness

Feels like forever but guess what dudes, Im gonna try and start posting hapy.things. im happy at the moment, im starting my youtube career soon, i bought most of the stuff i need my storage my tripods, and my phone so i can record. So yeah im excited about that and also i have my makeup on deck for the starter videos.so yeah im pretty excited. Umm work starting soon..on the 20th which is awesome, in a way ik not getting my first check because im saving it straight into my account. But i know i need to increase my saving skills.. so im fine with it plus im going to need money during the school year so maybe besides just saving it can be a school fund. And i cant tell.you guys what school im going to because tou guys are all around the world..but know.im excited for highschool and right now i cant wait to.start the year. By then i should have my computer so i can type faster and more in a day like i can sit here on my phone texting to you guys but its so much easier to go in with a computer due to my fast typing skills. Omg high school sems amazing more variations. Dude im learning german and another language im sure i think ill switch it out for French thoug because Lucas cas coly fine ass inspired.mpy.language

this is why..

this is why i leave that retarded ass family in the past im with my stepfamily now which has been marvelous like how i knew it was going to be.

i commented on this popular dudes pictures including his face features and the word damn and my cousin found it and told me to stop cussin

fuck, this is why i said fuck em cuz i dont wanna be around them their all drama and just trashy like god damn no matter where i went when i was there i was trapped. thank god im gone and im gonna try hard not to look back.like foh yah im 14 im NOT grown i been knew that. i mean duh got a few more years imbeciles. but at the same time im a teenager a mature one at that, im not gonna cuss because u want me not to? tf. the only person i will ever truely obey and listen to is god ik im not supposed to cuss because its a sin but thats on terms with god so fuck ppl and what they have to say because grown or not their the same ones postin dumb shit at their ages with their ooo im 33, 19, 24 bitch u childish. foh your supposed to grow with wisdom but they did the two step and dropped into the nae nae.

Better

i am so god darn sorry tumblr for being a dumb teen girl with the lamest blog ever... Im apoligizing because i post shit about dumb sjit, guy troubles and shit with that situation im not on that shit like im not stressin over guys anymore. fuck that shit. imma let the dudes come to me bcuz yeah i’ll still keep my eyes open for whitw boys but naahh im tryna end up with either a mexican or a lightskin. 😔😔😔 i dont even like going off of peoples looks but im an idiot because truth is sometimes i settle when if guys opened their eyes i could gét almost anybody i want.. im a beautiful girl and sometimes i shouldnt just go off of personalities bcuz they could be awesome but ugly as hell and i can do wayy better than what i talk to.. foh, 😂 im not being a bitch im just growing ip and starting to realize shit about the world... i CAN find a guy with a great personality who is fine af so im gonna jus chill back and wait. i camt keep dating buggawuggas when i could be talking to fine ass dudes with amazing personalities. fuck this bs. im about to be about me, my money, and guys are always last but fuck this shit man im gonna talk to fine guys not these creatures under the sea and shit, sorry if i sound extremely bitchy but shii, i know what im doing. this time i wont come crying to u guys i’ll just brush w.e happens off and move around, jamal still on my mind but god i have to ‘’move on’’ sometimes though once again we never dated. lol its w.e hes happy with his gf and thats all that matters. im ready to kick it on the fourth on everything, whether i go alone or meet up with one of my girlfriends idc . im ready to turn up at my age level, im not goin wild nahh never that like rt never that, but im gonna get some air and breath for once. im in the house to much, fina go hoop tomorrow. yes i got ghetto as hell but oh well. see ya in the next life update, This future for me sounds nice, no more buggawuggs, basketball dreams, and me hanging out with ms i give a shit about. thanks. love u guys 😊😊😘😘😍

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Im really trying not to end up bisexual, because duhur im all for god yet these dumb ass earthling temptations. its frustrating me because...its like being gay bi anything like that is a sin and idk if gods just testing me... and so its like im questioning but know im bi but i definite’y dont wanna chance and go to hel’ forever just because of a girl 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😓😔😔😔 god please help me

98 Degrees

The Hardest Thing I’ll ever have to do...i love that song but truth be told letting go of people you love is the hardest.

The Ultimate Struggle...6.19.15

A lot of crazy shit has happened since ive talked to you guys..,i mean i thought my dad was possessed which he was and wasnt he was just crazy. and a lot of shit is on my mind right now.. i mean i literally just started talking to this guy Logan and i mean ofcourse its always nice to get the TAKEN Jamal off my mind and so i pushed completely to the back...but now that im talking to logan and its like i like talking to him a lot but for some ‘ODD’ reason now all of a sudden Jamals in a shitty mood i’ve been trying to get with him for a year now and nothing has changed. i mean wtf it takes me “moving on” though me and jamal never dated for him to see duhur. perfect girl has been right in front of you. hes a goof and a major one seeing as to how he has the nerve to idk... im getting frustrated writing this ... He is an idiot. and the thing is now im thinking hes just with his girlfriend because she lets him ‘hit’ as in fuck so... idk. nor do i care whats going on with them and why hes with them. i still think jamal is perfect for me but he doesnt see that im absolutely perfect for him i mean im not about to mean some shady bitch who talks to one person and right when my year long crush wants me i jump. tf.thats shady af. plus ik how this will probably work out if me and logan date jamals gonna be pissy but then he’ll either date another girl or fuck some slut just o ‘’make me mad’’’..idk this love like date shit gets confusing and yeah i guess i do have to just deal wih it like a normal person or just be single forever im kidding because im not chilidish im just using hyperboles. but like i said jamal is an idiot especially if hw litera’’y is gonna keep passing me up just because he wants sex im a virgin, i promised myself god and my dad that i would wait so im waiting and duh if a guy onl wants sex hes using you but really bruh your gonna miss a chance with me for sex? idc tho.. because im putting all this bullshit into gods hands and letting him handle it.. that way the ending result and the happiness is good.

hate it alll..

why is this happening to me... this is so jacked up. i love someone and hes taken. and he keeps playing mind games i definitely dont wanna get hurt but hes the type who will be in a relationship and keep flirting with me. then im on facebook and this shit pops up,.it is jacking me up and i hate it. so much.. i just hate that hes doing this. like bitch leave me tf alone if ur dating somebody. i the point is ive liked him for llike a year now. #loved him for like a year now. -_- the struggle

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It's hard to breathe right now....

I'm starting to feel sick...and nauseous

Emotions.

I have to not show my emotions.... I can't cry in front of people.... Because I feel I'll go insane.

I'm going crazy

For sure I will probably go mentally insane.

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It's so hard to not like her.... My new bestfriend is awesome. And dude it's so difficult trying to not like her in that way

When you feel depressed as fuck...

Hes wow 😘

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